Miss Melancholy

AN: Chapter 6!!! I really want to say a big sorry! In Chapter 5 I said that Bella went to the club in a car, instead of on her bike. That was my mistake! So I'm really sorry!!! So, I've had one person tell me their theory about Bella's secret! I want to know what everyone else thinks! By the way, the band I mentioned last chapter Superbus, they may be french but they are REALLY REALLY good! Yay! Flashback in With The Show!!!!

Chapter 6: Isn't This Exactly Where You Like Me?

Bella Pov

Deja vu is a funny thing. I seemed to be retracing the steps I had taken on my first day in Forks.

My dreams over the weekend had been full of horrible things. Most of them revolving around my secret. Dreams full of dark, scary things that seemed to want to stick to my concious as well as my sub-concious.

When I had got back from the club the first thing I had done was scrub my entire body clean. It wasn't that I felt dirty. I just felt like I needed to do something to stop myself from thinking about what had happened. Then I had crawled straight into bed and tried to fall asleep, but no.

My brain stayed alert all night. Every time, as I was just falling asleep, the tree outside my window would scrap across it, making me think that something was trying to get in. Friday night, Saturday night and Sunday night this had happened and by Monday, I could no longer stand it. At 3am, I got ready for the day and sped out on my bike to the river which I had started off at.

I had been laid next to the bank since that moment that I arrived. Not moving a muscle, willing the earth to bury me completely. I wasn't dreading seeing Edward today. I just couldn't face what I had done. To me, it was like I had betrayed the part of me that I was trying to keep hidden. The part of me that was trying to keep itself a secret.

As I lay there I couldn't help but think about Edward's eyes. They had held me mesmerized. Like a spell that some kind of witch had cast over me. It had held me fixed, like a prey to it's predator. I shuddered. Thinking of Edward was a predator and me as his prey was breaching the barrier even further.

For the first time, since I had arrived at the river, I moved my arm to check the time. 6:38am. I sighed and got up, reluctantly may I add. I stood up straight and looked straight into the sky. Sometimes I envied the clouds up there. They didn't have to worry about such things as this. No secrets to keep, no body to look out for. Nothing to be scared of. Stupid clouds....

I jumped onto my bike and zoomed to the school. I parked in my usual spot (one plus of getting here really early) and as I got off I looked around, not a single car was in the parking lot yet. Thank goodness.

I quickly went to the teachers lounge to make some tea and do some marking.

Suddenly, the door opened and my head snapped up at the sound. I heard a crick and a flash of pain carried down my neck. My eyes closed instantly and my hand went to where the pain originated.

"Hey Bella. Are you okay?" I opened my eyes and looked up through narrowed eyes at the person who had spoken. It was Alice. She was looking down at me with concerned eyes.

"Hi, yea I'm fine. Just cricked my neck." I laughed and smiled at her. Alice smiled back and went over to make herself some coffee.

"So what happened to you on Friday? I mean, one moment I saw you making out with Edward, the next he was standing there looking heart broken. What did you do to him?" Alice laughed, obviously meaning it as a joke. She turned around and my face immediately stopped her laughter. I was frowning, I could feel that.

So Edward really hadn't been happy about me leaving like that. I sighed and placed my head in my hands. I felt Alice sit beside me and her eyes bore into the back of my head. I sat back and looked at her. She looked back, expectantly waiting for an answer.

"I had some...marking to do so I had to leave early." I lied through my teeth. I smiled again and began to pack my stuff away. My hair swung in front of my face and I was glad as it gave me momentary relief from keeping the smile on. I grimaced at myself as I shovelled work into my bag. It was getting far to close for comfort.

"Fair enough. Marking's a bitch but what you going to do about it?," Alice laughed again. She really was very nice. "Hey, we didn't get much of a chance to talk the other day so would you like to come round to mine one day this weekend? I'll make jasper go spend some time with the guys and me, you and Rose can have some guy-free time." Alice smiled persuasively, making it hard for me to refuse.

"Hmm..," I stood up straight and put my hand on my chin. "Well...I'll think on it. I mean, I think I may be seeing some out of town friends this weekend but I'll get back to you on it before Friday." I smiled and put my bag on my shoulder.

"Bye Alice! I waved and walked out the room.

Once outside I slumped against the wall and groaned. What the hell Bella! Why had I agreed to think it over?! I couldn't afford to let anyone close to me!

Alice Pov

I watched Bella walk out the room and pondered the conversation. So Bella had left like that because of marking. They how come she was doing even more just now?

-Flashback-

"Edward? Are you all right?" I ran over to Edward, who was staring at some brunette's retreating figure as she ran through the door. I looked at his eyes and they were filled with pain. I hadn't ever seen Edward's eyes like that...apart from...

"Who was that hot Brunette?" Emmett interrupted my train of though in a typical Emmett way. Rosalie quickly elbowed him in the ribs. Edward was still staring at the door. His mouth in a tight line, his eyes dark and serious, but still full of pain.

"That, Emmett, was Bella and no I am not all right." Edward replied and ran off after her.

"EDWARD!" I yelled after him but Jasper held me back. I watched as Edward ran after her and disappeared through the door.

-End flashback-

I was in my own world, pondering why on earth Bella would have left like that...and why Edward would have followed her. I mean hadn't he only known her a week? I was so in my own world that I didn't notice Edward walk in. So in my own world, that I didn't hear him call my name or begin to wave a hand in front of my face.

"...earth to Alice. Anyone home?" Edward called to me. Getting no result he clapped his hands in front of my face and this woke me from my world.

"What!? What is it? Oh, it's you Edward," I smiled and patted the seat next to me. " So how are you my sweet little brother?" I giggled, Edward hated it when I called him my younger brother, even though he was. He frowned and gave me the You-Know-I-Hate-That eyes.

"I'm as good as ever. Hey, you haven't seen Bella this morning have you? It's just her bike is parked out front but I can't find her..." I raised my eyebrows at him and narrowed my eyes. He laughed, "It's nothing like that, I need to talk to her about the Music Club she's holding. I don't know what time it is after school and I'm supposed to be helping out with it. It's nothing like you think, Alice." Edward laughed again but this time it didn't reach his eyes. I pondered whether to tell him she'd been here or not and then sighed.

"Yea...she was in here earlier but I don't know where she went to. Look, what happened on Friday? You seemed really upset. Do you really think searching for Bella now would be a good idea?" I said to him, trying to be helpful but at the same time show him what I thought. He looked at me for a moment then simply said.

"I'm going to find her. Bye Alice." He walked out the room and I sighed as everyone else walked in.