Hi guys, alright so I havent udated in a while, but i've been really sick, and I just didn't get around to writing anything. Anyways, this chapter is really short and I don't think many of you will be too happy with it, BUT I MUST WARN YOU, things will get better and work out just as planned :P.

AND . . . I just want to dedicate this chapter to Darkestdesire8 and Twilightisvictim because they always read and review!!! so yeh enjoy please, love ya :D

BELLA

It had been a year.

A very slow, uneventful year.

But my first year with Jacob. I was officially nearly nineteen now. I'd graduated and was already being forced to move in with Jake. Charlie had unknowingly been saving me. He wanted to wait until we were married; worried about the things we could get up to. Silly, naive Charlie. Jake had been pressuring me for months now; actually begging was the right word. He wanted to be with all the time, but moving in with him wasn't what I wanted. I just wasn't brave enough to tell him that. But for now I was still living at home, having Jake, loudly sneak into my room at night time. Just like Edward . . .

I cleaned the thought from my mind as I slowly walked up and down the quiet beach of La push. I was proud of myself. I had kept my promise to Jake, The promise I had vowed what seemed a life time ago. I hardly ever allowed myself to think, to hear not even to imagine him. I had pushed him out of my mind and committed myself to Jacob.

I still couldn't believe that I had come so close, and he just slipped from my fingers. He was there, but in my twisted, crazy mind, he hadn't been. And now, because of it, I had lost him. He had said that he would leave and never come back. This time, I had let him. It was my fault he was gone, yet I couldn't bring myself to be upset about it. No matter how much II know I love him, I don't want to be with him.

Jake on the other hand.

I crossed the middle of the beach, and sat down on the old driftwood tree. Jake was at school. The very thought of this made me want to burst out into laughter. I just couldn't imagine my Jacob, the Jacob that looks well into his late twenties, walking around school grounds, laughing and being n idiot with a bunch of immature seventeen year olds. But I was glad he was back at school again, no matter how much he hated it, it was good that he had a bit of stability in his life. To know of what is to come of the day. I missed that. I never knew anymore. Something different happened everyday. A new bit of realisation, a new discovery or regret. I missed the time when all I knew was my mum, my Dad and my books. I had no idea of what lived in this world. Until I'd met Edward . . . and Jake of course.

Yes, It had been a long year, yet here I was, on the same beach, waiting for Jake, wanting Edward.

JACOB

Great. High school. How stupid. Bella was finished school. Yet here I was, doing what Billy forced upon me. It was a waste of time. I should be patrolling with Sam or spending time with Bella. I didn't need an education. I had been away for so long anyway; I would be so far behind. What was the point? It's not like I ever did good in school anyway . . . or even thought about trying.

I walked into my first class alone, with a sour expression. Quil and Embry were running patrol today. Their parents didn't force them to come to school. Stupid, ignorant, old ugh. I pushed the words I knew were coming out of my mind. This wasn't the time to be cussing. I walked into my Biology class and sat at my favourite seat in the back. Let's do this, round one of torture. The only school in La Push was nothing fancy. Our Biology classes were not taught in a laboratory, but an average class room where we did nothing but listen to the teacher drone on and on. I crossed my arms over my chest and prepared for the onslaught.

"Jacob Black, you've seemed to finally praise us with your presence."

Great! Mr. Evre. Seems he's swapped classes this year. Perfect. I sighed in annoyance as I addressed him.

"How good of you to finally show up. It has been what, a year?"

Yep, and the best year of my life. No school, being with Bella, and I've got to say, this werewolf stuff isn't so bad either. An entire year of freedom, until now.

"Sick." I mumbled, not bothering to tell him the entire, made up story.

"So I've been told. Hmm, who knew mono lasted a year. Might have to check into that one won't I?"

Damn this guy got on my nerves. I cussed under my breath before I turned away and focussed on the floor.

"Something you have to say Jacob?" Mr. Evre looked down on me, peering above his old, round glasses.

Ok, so I'm usually one for witty comebacks, but this time I had nothing. I just sat in my seat and continued to stare at the floor. It was then that I felt it. Felt the heat blow past my body as she sat down. The electricity that seemed to be emanating out of her, pulling me towards her. I looked up to see the most beautiful thing in the world. Every feeling I had for anyone, my love for Bella, my anger towards Mr Evre disappeared by just setting my eyes upon her. Everything around me vanished, all I could see was her, all I could feel was for her. Nothing else in the world, in the universe mattered but her.

It had been a year, yet it meant nothing. . .