DISCALIMER: I don't own CSI:Miami and i don't make any money from it.

SUMMARY: About the moment right after Kyle is born and what happened before and after.

A mother's love.

Julia Eberly looked down at the newborn baby in her arms. It was a little boy, her little boy and he even one hour old looked like his father.

The blonde sighed tiredly as the birth had been very hard on her, not to mention going through it all alone.

Alone, she though about it, she may have been alone in the sense of the baby's father wasn't there, but she did at least have him and that was something. She had him all along or at least the nine month's that had passed by.

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If it was one thing she had never been prepared for it was getting pregnant, she was very careful that way even though she was with a lot of guys. But then she meet a man that changed it all and she fell madly in love with him. She had even planned to marry him and have his children.

"Have his children," Julia chewed on it for a second as she had ended up being mother to his child. The only sad part was that he was not there to share it with her.

He had vanished from her life as quickly as he came into it, only for her to find that she was pregnant a month later. To her horror.

Yes, she was not happy about that, not at all as she wanted a career over children and she had never been found of them in the first place.

Yet the little dude stayed inside her as she found it cruel to have an abortion. Neither could she get a hold of his redhead father to tell him, which frustrated her quite a bit.

There were many tears as she day in and day out talked to the little one that was inside her, resting, growing.

She did in deed talk to him and sing and everything else, she never thought she would, but she did and as the little baby started to move, he seemed to like his mother's voice and was upset when she was, just as they both at the same time was very happy.

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"Happiness," Julia wondered, what did that really mean, she wasn't sure, not at all. Even though she had been excited about the baby, there had been almost more tears than laughter, afraid she would loose him, afraid that something would be wrong, afraid of complications by child birth and after.

"After," she sighed as her tears again started to flow, even more now than ever before, knowing she would have to give him up for adoption. She really didn't want to do that, but she knew she had no choice in doing so. For her and her little son there was at the moment no after. Maybe in the future when she had managed get some more money and a place she could get him back. But sadly not for now. Yet, having him in her arms knowing she would have to let him go in a couple of hours, it just broke her heart. So there she was, a mother, holding onto her child, the love of her life, sadly crying along with him.

"Goodbye my son, I'll see you in not to long," she slowly whispered into his ear as they parted. Tears were flowing down from their eyes as they reached out for each other only to be taken apart. Julia didn't know if she would ever see her little one again which she had named Kyle Eberly. That was the only thing she could give him at that point. As he was taken from her she sank down on the floor head in her hands falling apart.

"I love you forever," she thought that night looking at an ultrasound picture. She hadn't even gotten a picture of him before he was taken. Never before had she loved anyone like this, it was a new kind of love and it was a strong one. And it hurt. Hurt to not have him there with her, hurt not knowing what would happen to him, hurt that she hadn't kept him. The pain was unbearable and the young Eberly again looked towards the bathroom where she had razorblades, yet she couldn't, not when she knew he was alive, and that they one day would be together. That night she decided to start fighting for him.

"I'm never leaving you again," said Julia looking at her handsome son in front of her. Handsome just like his father, which she by now had also ran into. Yes Julia Eberly Winston had now gotten her son back, but at a high price, that much both she and his father knew. The old feelings were by now gone and Julia just simply didn't know how to feel about seeing him again. " She did on the other hand know that she loved her son more than anything in the world and that she would do anything to make up for what had been lost.

"Good night, handsome," said Julia as she gently pulled the cover on Kyle and turned of the light. I was good to have him home, where he belonged. She knew by now that she never should have left him in the first place and she would never do so again no matter what should happen. She knew she couldn't bear to have her heart broken or be separated from him ever again. For he was without a doubt the love of her life, the most perfect thing she had ever made and her light in the darkness.

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