Title: Bleeding Love

Pairing: Dean Winchester x Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester x Castiel

Rating: T (for some language)

Format key: Plain text – present tense, Italic text – Flashback, Underscored text – Castiel's point of view

Info: Dean can't keep pretending. He just wants to be brothers again... and he wants Cas back as his lover.

Video Link: www. youtube .com/watch?v=evEkYApORgg

"Why have you been so depressed lately?" Sam asked, and as hard I was tried, I could no longer keep my tears silenced. "Dean...?" It had been so long since the Castiel incident, he probably didn't think I could possibly still be destroyed about it.

I wiped at my eyes, "Sam... I can't do it anymore. I just... can't do this anymore."

*

"I miss you, Cas."

"I'm sorry Dean."

*

"Dean, I don't know what 'it' is." Sam offered gently, and looked at me seriously, concerned. "Dean...? Please tell me?"

The memories of the first night after the Castiel Situation sprang into my mind. The way he'd looked at me, how antsy he'd appeared. The way I ran to him and gave him a hug. I had been so lonely... he looked at me like he was confused and disgusted at first. And then the 'passion' began, and though it seemed real for him, it felt like backup for me.

"Sammy... I can't do this with you anymore." I took a step away from him, and he stared at me, not exactly understanding.

*

It was almost unbearable to stay away from him for long periods of time like this. I missed him so much. "Take me to Dean."

Light swirled around me, and the wind picked up as I hunted the brothers down. Wherever Dean was, Sam would be.

But I was prepared for that.

*

He strode towards us, entering the hotel room. "Dean. I've missed you." He offered, looking down at the ground. We both knew what he meant. I gave him a look that said 'no shit, Sherlock.'. He looked back up at me. "I want you back."

"I'm with Sam." Sam looked at me in silence, trying to decide what to say. And then Castiel was gone, leaving us with a whole new set of issues.

Our feelings were mutual. I could tell that Sam hated it.

"Dean..." I had begun to walk towards the door in an attempt to go after my angel. "Dean, wait..." I sighed, threw my bag down, and left.

*

I walked into the hospital room and my eyes went wide upon seeing Dean on the bed and Sam next to him. When Sam noticed me, he suddenly grew angry and tension settled over the room. I made an exit, and began to head back down the hall.

"What happened?" I asked .

"He got hit by a car. Trying to find you." Sam spat.

"It's not my-"

"It IS your fault!" Sam yelled in reply, pointing towards the room over his shoulder. "He left because he wants you!"

"No."

"Yes it is! You don't fucking know how much this is hurting him! He shouldn't have to pick between us!" Sam lectured.

"Then let him go. He's not happy dating you anymore, Sam. He just wants to be your brother again." With that, Sam rushed past me in a huff. I went back into Dean's room to sit by his bed.

"...Cas?" He croaked as he opened his eyes. "Where's my little brother? I don't want him to hate me."

*

When I was out of the hospital, and I had managed to track the tricky bastard down, Castiel and I were talking. I wanted to figure everything out, iron out the facts.

"I want you back." Cas' voice was smooth, so sure of itself.

I turned to face him, and my breath caught for a moment. "You were with me, through all the nightmares." I whispered.

Hell, the heat was unbearable. The chains that pierced my skin were pulling at the flesh as if trying to rip it from my bones.

"HELP ME." My breathing was ragged, and I couldn't manage to calm down at all. "SAM!"

"Time after time, I dreamed of hell, but when I jerked awake, it wasn't Sam I wanted to save me anymore, Castiel. It was you." I explained quietly.

"Why me?"

"I love you."

"What about Sam?"

"I think it's time I told Sam that I love him. But only as my brother." I squinted against the light as I stared at the playground, which reminded me of an anthill what with the little creatures climbing all over it. I nodded a little. "Yeah."

"When are you going to tell him?" He asked me, and panic slipped into my mind.

"...Well, can't you help me tell him?"

"No."

Sam rushed past us, apparently having overheard the conversation. I rolled my eyes and followed after him.

"I've been there for you. Since this crazy mission started when you asked me to help find dad. I've been there."

"Wh... I know that."

"Then why can't you love me?"

*

"Just... just go for it, Castiel." I looked down, and Anna grabbed my hand. "They're brothers. That's... it's just unnatural." I looked up at her, looking into her eyes again. "Go for it... Cas." She gripped my hand tighter. "Please. I want to see my friend happy again."

"Anna..." I yanked my hand from hers, "I don't want to hurt him. I'm not selfish like you." I moved to leave.

"Then do it for Dean." I stopped in my tracks.

I knew what to do.