Chapter 1: It starts with an End

Die by violence in this world
Is nothing strange for us
With all those chemicals, wars and destructions
We do not know mother nature has in store for us
The race for economy makes people forget
The lives around this planet
As men become more egoist
Pretty soon
there will be nothing in this world
For men to spare

Stupidity, causing pain
And sickness
To our world
Suffer

The sky was gray after an eve of snow. It was dawn and no snow fell today. Only a sliver of sun greeted the morning making everything look like a dull silver sky. There was not a gust of wind even and no animals. Just silence.

The scene placid as the earth stood still. Then only the caw of a black crow rang in the midst. The earth was grieving – grieving in symbiosis with me.

I knew there were people grieving or are just saddened from the same loss around me but I couldn't even feel them. All that I could feel was how heavy this black marble urn is on my hands. The weight was not even due to gravity. For someone like me, this was feather light. But knowing the remains that lie inside… the weight was due to the heavy feeling I have for those remains.

It was just me and him right now.

Just me and my brother.

Just me and Angel Grey Swan…

Just me and his ashes heavy on my arms inside this urn…

I closed my eyes as his voice rang in my mind at his final moments here on earth.

My eyes were trained on the devil – Iris and focused every ounce of power I had in destroying her but as she said over and over again – "You will pay!" I watched in terror a moment to late as I realized what she did. In that instant, Edward was flailed towards a diamond lance engulfed in flames that I screamed his name and watched as he looked at me smiled and said I love you as if it were the last then he braced himself for the impact that never happened. I watched in double terror that with one loud crack and slash, the lance penetrated a body in Edward's stead. I doubled over when I saw that the lance was piercing a torso bleeding with cold rushing blood – cold because it was from their kind – it pierced my brother's torso making him bleed out as the flames drew near.

I watched as he threw Edward out of the way and take the hit with a pained yell. He was burning and in unimaginable agony yet he smiled – his amethyst eyes incandescent from the flames. I watched as he told Edward to take care of me… I just watched as he then faced me with his loving handsome grin as he gave me his last message.

He grinned at me amidst the blood that dripped from his mouth and said in his deep voice – strained – and would haunt me forever.

"I love you Izzy. Be happy."

Then the flames engulfed him.

I just watched.

I just fucking watched.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and my eyes snapped open back to reality. I faced the hand's owner and watched my husband's face filled with sympathy and concern.

"It's time to let him go love…" he whispered softly.

I looked away and gave a deep sigh.

"I lost him twice… I lost him as a mortal… now I lost him as an immortal… I just had him back only to be taken away from me again…" I said softly. The pain in my dead heart was too much to bear. I didn't even have the luxury of knowing he died at peace. No, that too was taken away from me. He died in violence. All. For. Me.

"He's free now," was Edward's response and I nodded. He was. At least he didn't have to deal with any of the bull and cockamamie shit this world offered. God, what's happening to me? I never swear. I never swear…

With one final sigh I opened the urn slowly and I hesitatingly put my hand in. I felt the smooth powdered ashes and the jolt in my heart crept back with a new force so strong that I was grateful I couldn't cry anymore.

I took a handful of the ashes then held them up in front of me and using my powers, I let them float and scatter along the windless horizon and onto the snowy ground and top of the marble mound that held his epitaph with a black single feather sculpture to mark it as his.

"Good-bye my brother…rest in peace Angel… I will always love you…" I whispered.

And when I was done I struggled to maintain my composure. I will not breakdown, I will not breakdown. Edward wrapped an arm around my shoulders and kissed my head.

Alice offered a smile to me and gave me a short hug. Rosalie came forward and gave me a hug of her own. Jasper, sensing all my pain shot me a feel of peace with his power to which I nodded gratefully. Emmett touched my arm in reassurance. Then both couples stood behind Edward and me.

Another couple walked up to me. Of course. Esme looked loving as always as she hugged me and kissed my head. Carlisle touched my cheek before pulling me into a one-armed embrace.

They were my family now and at least that was good. They could help me ease the pain. At least I won't have to be lonely again.

Then more immortals walked up to me offering condolences. But two blond figures stood out from the rest.

With equally blue piercing eyes, the blond twins of different immortal sides walked up to me – Apollo and Xerxes.

Xerxes, the one who turned me was feeling remorseful and sorry. Apollo, the one who turned Angel and became his mentor and good friend was looking terribly downhearted.

He ran a hand through his hair and sighed as he half-smiled, "It was a pleasure to have met someone like Angel. He was the only friend I ever had. I'm… terribly sorry for all the trouble I caused you and for taking him away from you the first time."

I smiled at him, "That's all in the past. I'm not one to hold a grudge. It happened and it's done. The same goes for us Xerxes." I said as I faced him.

"Thank you. Your forgiveness means a lot to both of us. Please feel free to call us whenever you need us. We are indebted to you and to your brother." Xerxes said.

I nodded. Then I looked at Edward, "Let's go home Edward… I'm tired."

He kissed my head, "Of course love. Let's go home."

We were walking away when Apollo stopped us.

"Wait, Bella!"

I looked back. "What is it Apollo?"

"Angel entrusted me to give you this should anything happen to him," he said then he handed me a yellowed out envelope.

I smiled at him gratefully. "Thank you Apollo. Thank you both for the help."

Then I walked away with Edward and my new family behind me while staring at the envelope.

"Aren't you going to open it, love?" Edward asked.

I shook my head lightly. "I don't think I can take it right now. It's too much… I just… I really just want to go home right now."

He grinned at me and took my hand, "Then we're off."

I smiled back at him and kissed him lightly on the lips.

"I love you," I said.

"As I you," he replied.

I then kept the letter on my jacket pocket then with one last look at the black feather sculpture, I clutched the pendant with the same design that hung on my neck then walked away.

I was going home.

No.

We were going home.

I was supposed to feel happy now but there was still something oddly unsettling. I fear that there were more to come at us. I just hope it's just a feeling. I don't think I can take anymore. I'm tired. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of running .I'm just really tired. I really hope nothing happens anymore. But that's all that I can do. Hope. I wish the dreaded feeling would cease.

Why does death fill the air…?

Cursed by men this world has become
We are building our own tombs
By eliminating our source of life
When blindly we continue the destructions
There's no future
Day by day we are reaching the end of our lives

AN: Short but bittersweet. Hope you guys like it! Bella opens the letter on the next chapter and things would go much faster paced than this. It was really hard to write about Angel's death. I love my character so much.

Song here is "On the burial ground" by Incubus.

Tell me what you think!

Margaux