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Let the Worst Try its Best

Chapter 12

Claire's P.O.V.

I felt horrible for lying to Quil. Shaye felt horrible think that Seth would find out, I however secretly hoped that would happen.

"Shaye, go to bed" I told her and she listened.

I kept thinking about all the good time Quil and I had. I'm sure I'm never going to be with him like we were before.

I let my mind wander aimlessly to the first time I had a real crush on a boy, to the extent of writing his name extensively in notebook.

Flash back time!

I looked at my notebook and it said Claire White, Claire + William, Mr. & Mrs. William White.

It didn't sound that good, but I'd get used to it. William was really cute, he was tan, he had dark brown hair, and dark hazel eyes. He was tall for his age. He was the coolest 7th grader in school. He was already 13 when he started 7th grade, while the rest of us had to wait until later in the year. I couldn't wait until I was a teenager.

I remember how Quil came into my room to take me to go get school supplies, he came in and saw me writing in my notebook.

"Wacha writin?" he asked curiously I looked up and saw him and scrambled to hide the notebook

"nothing" I tried to hide the notebook under my body.

"Oh really?" he said with a devious smile and raising one eyebrow, he swiftly picked me up like I was a pillow, and grabbed the notebook. I cringed and turned red with embarrassment. He still had his mischievous smile, he looked at the paper and his face fell, into one of sadness, at the time I couldn't place it why he'd be sad, but I knew.

"White?" he asked trying to tease me, but he was putting on a charade to hide his sadness "Jeff White's kid?" he asked with a strained smile

"Yeah, what about it" I said defensively

"Well, you shouldn't be dating your too young." He told me as if he were my father.

"No I'm not" I replied challenging him to show who has more authority

"You are too," he said

"Well how old were you when you started dating?" I asked

"67" He replied

"BS" I said

"Claire, don't you BS me, you shouldn't be saying words like that anyway"

"Well I'm old enough" I argued

"No, you're not even a teenager" he said smugly

"Well I will be this year, then next year I'll be 14, then 15, then 16, then 17, and 18, so only four more years until I graduate, and leave home for college" I rubbed that in his face.

The idea of me growing up so fast, and leaving La Push must have hurt him now that I thought about it, but the idea didn't enter me until now.

"Yeah well It's still a ways to go"

"Well I can date whenever I want" I said ignoring him.

"No, you can't date until your married" he said, that made me laugh so hard. I tumbled on the floor laughing and he joined in laughing too.

Flash back over!

I remembered that moment, I also remembered when was learning to ride a bike, how he taught me to ride without training wheels. Him, Jake, Embry, and Seth all tricked out my little bike, and painted flames on it. My little flower Barbie doll bike was transformed into a hot rod.

As I thought of all my memories of him, it made me sad that we'd probably never have memories like those from now on forward.

Shaye and I mostly stayed in our rooms all day. We went downstairs to go eat, but that was about it.

Later that night Quil came in, this time he came through the door.

"Claire?" he asked sadly "Why?" is all he said, he expressed his hurt though his eyes. He reminded me of a puppy who just got hit for no reason, sad, and not knowing why or what happened.

"I'm sorry" I said looking down, I felt a lump in my throat, I started crying. Getting that look, hurting Quil was the worse form of punishment ever. "It's just that I promised, if I told you, you could accidentally slip up, and he'd know" I said, I could barely make sense of my words through the sobs.

"It's ok Claire" he said sadly, he walked over to me, and hugged me. "I just wish you told me"

"I'm sorry for lying, I felt horrible about it" I sobbed.

"Claire" he said calmly

"You deserve someone better, I'm a horrible person" I cried

"Claire" he said again

"You should just leave me and find someone else, you don't have to stay with me out of obligation" I said

"Claire!" he said a little more firmly. He gently grabbed my chin and pulled it up to face him. His eyes were alight with joy and amusement. "First off, I don't deserve you, you're the most beautiful, wonderful, loving person ever. You're not a horrible person, in fact for even thinking that way you're showing how wonderful of a person you are. And I couldn't leave your, I'm not obligated to stay, I want to stay, I need to stay. I can't stay away at all, you're my fixation, you are the one I'm meant to be with." He looked into my eyes longingly; it seemed like something out of a cheesy romance book, or chick flick.

He bent over and kissed me. I kissed him passionately; I loved this making up stuff. We stood there kissing each other, for a while, he leaned down and kissed the down the side of my face, he kissed by my ears, he reached my neck. I felt a shiver, he kissed the hollow of throat, then he kissed me bellow my collar bone. His chin was touching my breast. He my lips again, and I found my body moving on its own. I moved my way to the bed as I sat there, he sat down too.

I, in a way tackled him. He was laying flat on his back. Lied on top of him, I kissed his chest, and I felt the need to be closer to him. My body was trying to deny the laws of physics and combine two solid things into one. My body tried to fuse itself with Quil's. Quil attempted to roll over on top of me, but failed. We fell on the floor.

There was awkward sexual tension in the air. It quickly dissipated with a continuous stream of laughter.

I was elated that I could be with Quil, he wasn't mad at me, that made me joyous.

"Just one thing" Quil said after several minutes of laughter that sent us into tears.

"What?" I asked

"Does she really think this is the best thing for Seth?" he asked

"She does even though I don't." I replied simply

"What if I just tell Seth, and he 'guesses'?" he asked with a happy tone

"No" I told him seriously "you can't tell him, I promised Shaye, if you can convince her otherwise, be my guest, I've been barking up that tree for over at least 20 or more weeks."

"Well if that happened to us, would you do the same thing?" he asked. His dark skin turned a dark red under his cheeks.

"Well first off, I don't think I want to have kids after what I've seen with Shaye's pains, and the videos we saw. Ugg" I shuttered "And second off I wouldn't be pregnant and thirdly I don't think I could do that even if I wanted to or tried, not that I would want to." I was blushing I felt nervous. I excepted this to make him happy however it didn't.

His face fell "You don't want kids?" he said sadly

"Well I don't know yet, I guess when I get older, but I mean it hurts a lot, we watched all these birthing videos, and it looks really painful." I told him. I was embarrassed a bit about this conversation. "And, I feel bad for her, she has to give birth to a huge baby, I mean, it's going to be a future wolf."

"Hey! We're born normal sized!" he said indignantly.

"You were small sized?" I said incredulously. "I cannot picture you as a normal human sized baby."

"Well I was, and I was normal sized, or should I say midget sized, like you, until I was 16" he said teasing me.

"I'm not a midget!" I argued.

We play argued all last night, until I declared myself the winner, even though he insisted I wasn't, but I stood firm and said no kisses until he agreed I was the all time, and always right winner of everything.

Unfortunately it didn't work; he leaned down and kissed me passionately.

"There?" he said smugly "Do I win yet?" he asked

"Huh? What were we talking about?" I said so confused, dazed, and unable to think straight.

"Yep I win" he said with his amazing, warm smile, and jumped out the window "Bye" he said as he jumped.

It took me a while, long after he was gone to realize what we were arguing about. "Damn it" I said to myself.

Quil and Shaye have been arguing daily about telling Seth, he wasn't as angry at her anymore, but he was upset that she wouldn't tell him.

Most of the time it ended in Shaye's hormonal tears of frustration, I swear one of these days she's going to strangle him.

He always leapt out the window, and tried one final agreement, Shaye constantly asked me how I could put up with his annoying childish nature, I simply reply that's part of what I love, and its part of his charm.

My mother knew about Shaye, she says knew from the beginning she told us it was "Mother's intuition." She told us she wouldn't tell anyone, until Shaye does.

My birthday is this week, I'm so excited I'm turning 16! Quil said we'd so something special on my birthday, after everyone's gone, I don't know if my mind is in the gutter now, or what, but I'm really nervous about this week.

Quil came into my room at midnight and almost gave me a heart attack. He began to sing happy birthday when I was asleep. I'm amazed my scream and his loud booming voice didn't wake everyone else up. I made sure to punch him, but he caught my arm, and told me I might break it.

I didn't believe him, but he told me about what Bella did with Jake, I found that hilarious.

If I were her I wouldn't think about punching him, I'd think about crowbar or baseball bat to the crotch, I told that to Quil and like every other guy he expressed his pain. He asked me why I'd think of doing that and I responded by telling him that guys are ruled by their testosterone. Even he could argue with that fact.

"Happy Birthday Claire!" Shaye was the first to say it besides Quil.

"Honey, for your birthday, I'm going to get you a normal human boyfriend" Tammy said

"Mom" I said embarrassed "stop it"

"Awww honey, but you deserve better than an abnormally huge freak of nature," she said with Quil there. My mom and Quil got along like siblings, which is to say, badly.

"Tammy will you just shut it." Said Quil slightly annoyed.

"Don't eat me!" she said laughing pretending to be afraid.

"Tammy for the last god damn time, we don't eat people" he said still annoyed

"Oh yeah, well tell that to all the horror movies" she said

"One, that's Hollywood, and two, we're technically not werewolves, we're shape shifters."

"Well then you lied to me then, I should take back our agreement" she said smugly

"Mom, Quil, stop it or I'm going to have to put you in time-out" I threatened them

"Fine" they both sighed

"Well, anyway, we need to get you in your party clothes." Tammy said. "Shaye, you're in charge of outfit, Meg is coming over, and she's in charge of make-up, and I'll do hair. Ready, set go!" she said like a race. They both dragged me back upstairs, and Meg arrived a few minutes later.

"Ow! Ow!" I complained "Mom! Your hurting me!" I yelled "Pain is the price for beauty" is all she said.

Meg and Shaye reunited and gave each other a de-briefing, she hasn't seen her in a long time, her parents wouldn't let her come over , because she 'a bad influence' and Shaye stopped going to school and doing independent study, she never saw her. Unfortunately, we couldn't tell Meg about the secrets we knew.

Shaye put me in a low cut halter mini dress. It was black, and it hugged my curves.

"There, it shows off all the check points; boobs, butt, legs, and curves. I'm an absolute genius!"

Megan put some smoky black eyeliner on my upper eye lids, and a dark gray one on the lower lids. I never understood how they could do that without making me look like a raccoon, like whenever I tried. She put on a silver eye shadow that started off strong and blended lighter and lighter. She put mascara on, and put a pink lipstick on me.

"What about that foundation crap?" I asked

"Nope, your skin is perfect; it'd be a shame if we did that to your pretty skin."

Tammy got my hair after several painful hair pulling minutes later; my hair fell in a cascade of wavy ringlets.

I looked in the mirror and I couldn't believe what I saw. The girl in the mirror couldn't be me, it just couldn't. She was stunningly beautiful. Her deep ocean blue green eyes shined brightly. Her lips looked plump and soft, her hair was like one in the hair commercials, and her body looked like one that belonged in a magazine. So obviously that couldn't be me. Or it could be a trick mirror, making me look good when in reality I don't, or maybe it's just my eyes. Now that I looked at the mirror, the more ridicules I looked.

We went downstairs after I was held hostage for almost 2 hours. Almost all the people had come. Leah showed up with her almost three year old little girl and her husband James. The Cullens are in town for 2-3 months, they're visiting Charlie, who's now married to Sue. Obviously all the rest of the wolves came, and Seth was the only one who looked out of place. He kept staring over at Shaye; he looked at her and her stomach. I felt really bad for him.

"Hey, little lady" said Collin coming over to me with his flirt face on. And the others followed. He looked at me closely. "Holy shit!" he exclaimed "Your Claire!" he said in shock "Wow, I didn't recognize you, you look great" he told me . The other guys murmured the same.

Embry, Jake, Paul, and Jared all came over and had the same shock. Embry pretended to cry "Our little baby's growing up" he said to Jake

"I know, it's so sad isn't it honey" pretended to cry to Embry, they were supposedly husband and wife in this little skit they were doing right now, or so I assumed

"Back away from the birthday girl, she's mine." Said Quil form across the room, he parted his way through the other huge boys. He looked at me and his eyes popped open, then he was stunned. I felt very self conscious, I felt the blush crawl up to my face. "Wow" is all he said. He shook his head and grabbed my hand and led me to the table without looking at me.

I looked around the small house, and saw everyone; the wolves, the wolf girls, the Cullens, and Megan, I hadn't seen her very much since I got pregnant, her mother thought I was a bad influence. The house felt crowded. I was in close proximity of Seth, I felt my body be pulled. During my party everything was wild. Aunt Emily said hi and so did Uncle Sam.

Everyone was screaming and yelling, we had music, dancing, and sugar, put those all together and you've got a great party.

I looked to find Shaye, but she fell asleep on the couch. Seth sadly sat on the couch with her, and stroked her cheeks and hair. He got up, and sat in close proximity to her. It was a really sad sight, it made Leah upset.

Once my party was over, Leah came over to me.

"I hate what she's doing to my baby brother." She said angrily "He loves her so much, and she pushes him away, and cheats on him with someone else, then keeps the baby, and to think I liked her." she said her voice strained and furious. She left with just that to say.

"Ready to go?" Quil asked me.

"Where're we going?" I asked nervously

"You'll see" I all he said. I followed him outside. "Stay here" he said to me while he ran into the woods.

I was really cold. I was shaking in the cold damp air in this piece of cloth that Shaye calls a dress.

Quil came back, he was a large chocolate colored wolf, he was larger than a bear. I walked over to him with amazement clear on my face.

He chuckled his barking laugh.

I touch his fur, it was so soft and warm. I leaned against him and he suddenly stood up, throwing me on his back.

He began to walk and speed up a bit, he allowed me time to adjust myself on his back and grab on.

He ran swiftly through the forest, it was magical. The full moon was out, and it made everything shimmer. The water had a beautiful glow, and the cold weather was nothing with my own portable electric blanket.

We ran and meandered through the forest until dawn. The sky was alight with several hues of orange, purple, and pink. The water glistened with a beautifully and pristinely.

I always felt safe with Quil.

Even though this isn't what I thought would come of tonight, I was thinking something more intimate with each other, but I was so nervous, I'm glad we didn't. This has been my best birthday so far.

I got home exhausted, Quil carried me to my bed and set me on my bed. I slept until three in the afternoon, when I awoke, Quil was there, watching me lovingly.

We planned Shaye's birthday to be simple, all the Cullens came, and all the wolf girls did too. To get them to come was like pulling teeth, I had to drag them in.

Emmett came up to me and said "So I heard that Quil gave you a ride on his back huh?"

"Yeah" I replied happily

"So, you like being on top of Quil and riding him huh?" said Emmett with a snicker.

"Oh shut it Emmett" I told him, he always had an sexual innuendo. He reminded me of an old TV show, on when I was really little. It was called Scrubs, there was this one character named The Todd, who always had these sexual innuendos, that one girl said "Will you stop with the sexual innuendos?" she said frustrated and he replied "In your end-o"

Rosalie was obsessed with babies, she cooed Shaye's stomach, and she begged her to let her babysit.

We all watched classic, old, and new movies, ate, and talked. Most of the girls remembered why they loved Shaye in the first place, though they were still a bit upset with her.

Leah went up to Shaye and talked to her

"Shaye, I hate it that you're hurting my baby brother" she said seriously

"I'm sorry," she said sadly crying "I love him too, but you have to trust me, I'm doing what's best for him"

Leah warmed up a lot ever since she got out of Sam's pack, which is now Jake's. She became a better person when she met James. She left, still upset but not hating Shaye anymore.

Once everyone said their goodbyes, we went to our rooms.

After a while of trying to fall asleep, Shaye crept into my room like a small frightened child who just had a nightmare. She crawled into my bed and bawled like a baby.

"Look" she cried as she handed me something that felt like a stick. I turned on my lamp on my night stand. I looked at the stick. It was a Harry Potter wand. It had wolves carved over it. The two wolves did the Lion King II nose touching that made a heart. There was an elegant inscription on it. 'Your Very Own Remus Lupin' it said. Shaye was a Harry Potter fanatic. She was so obsessed she even made a fanfiction of it. I mean you seriously have to be obsessed have something wrong with your brain if you go to that extent. (A/N: Omg! My own characters are critiquing me! Their insulting me!) The date was about eight months ago. It looked like Seth put a lot of effort into this.

She cried while she held her little wand. I felt bad for both of them, I wish that she'd just tell Seth and then they could both be happy.

It's the third party in three weeks. Its Shaye's baby shower, and all the girls came; Tammy, Charri, Claire, Leah, Julie, Meg, Emily, Kim, Bella, Nessie, Rosalie, Alice, and Esme.

Everyone brought gifts, food, and stories.

Most of them bought clothes and baby toys, Alice being the eccentric one bought a crib, car seat, a stroller and clothes, and all of them were hand made by top of the line designers. If Shaye ever had money problems all she'd have to do its sell them. Rosalie bought her baby bottles, pacifiers, and rattles. But she kept insisting her gift was her giving Shaye the night, or week of and she'd babysit. Esme hand made her three sets of clothes, for all ages of the baby; new born, six months, year old, two years, and three years old. Bella on the other hand was more practical, just a little, she bought her a four year supply of diapers, both disposable and reusable. She never liked having a lot of money, he didn't use it, but she knew how expensive babies were.

Still with all of this, Shaye would still need to work a lot, she'd have to feed, and clothe the baby, take care of him, and still go to work, she'd need an apartment later and her own expenses.

Shaye was finally almost due. She had a little over three weeks to go, we were all counting down the days until the due date.

Shaye said she wanted to grab some of her painting supplies, and go for a walk, I on the other hand was going to take a nap.

I was rudely wakened by Quil.

"What's the matter?" I said confused and half asleep.

"Shaye's going to have her baby!" he said in a bit of a panic

"Seth is with her right now at the Cullen's, he told Jake, who told Leah, who told me, to tell you" he said

"Wait are you sure you didn't get it wrong after playing telephone with each other" I said getting my stuff ready to leave to be there for Shaye.

"I'm positive. I'll go phase, and I'll give you a ride."

I road on Quil's back all the way to the Cullen's beautiful mansion.

I walked inside the house and Nessie came to talk to me. She had a grave face on.

"She's not doing too well" she told us sadly instead of trying to explain to us what happened she showed us.

She placed her hands one on Quil the other on me. My sight was removed and immediately replaced with Seth carrying Shaye and Edward explain to Nessie, she got in a fight with her mother and she ran to her little place in the middle of the woods, she went into labor, and her water broke. Shaye was terrified and in pain. Seth heard her and ran to help her, he carried her to the here. Shaye has Cardiomyopathy, her heart beat is sometimes irregular, and she can go into cardiac arrest under strenuous activity, like pregnancy. She could have children and a normal life but if she showed signs of heart failure then she had a really high chance of dying.

Her heat is failing. My stomach dropped and I ran upstairs and Quil followed.

"Is she alright?!" I said terrified.

"She's fine, right now." Seth's voice was in pain, his face had dried tears, and he feared the worse, like the rest of us. His face looked as if he hadn't slept for months, he looked like a shell of a person, I can only imagine that he looks the same way Bella did when Edward left.

Edward heard my thought and cringed as if I were physically hurting him.

"What happened" I felt my voice tighten, I was concerned about her, what if I never got to see here again?

Seth explained to us her risk of dying, and about her heart even though I already knew.

"Oh my god!" I cried. I fell to the ground but Quil caught me. He held my tightly and tried to comfort me. I felt like saying to Seth that it's his entire fault my friends dying. But that would only confusing him, cause him more pain, and it isn't his fault anyway, I just wanted someone to blame.

"She's going to be ok" Quil told me positively. "She's strong, she'll pull through" He set me on the chair and went to talk to Seth. Quil's words and his face didn't match at all, he didn't believe that Shaye would live, that only made it worse.

I watched several people come up and attempt to comfort us. They came in and out of the room.

Seth never left Shaye side. He held her hand or stood over her when Carlisle was helping her.

Shaye had been in labor for over 28 hours.

Seth and I asked about anesthetics and a cesarean section, but that could do her more harm than good.

"How do you know so much about pregnancy?" Jake asked Seth

"Well unlike you, I looked up about whats going to happen to the woman I love and her baby, so I can prepare for it all and not pass out when the baby is born like a certain someone I know, who's name starts when a 'J'and ends with and 'acob'" Jacob glared at him. A brief smile fell upon Seth face, but quickly departed.

"Seth" Carlisle said sternly "The baby is coming"

"Thank GOD!" cried Shaye. Everyone laughed, most of them left the room. Quil and I stayed in the corner of the room on Shaye's left side. Claire held Shaye's hand gently, and Quil held Claire's.

Someone prepped the machines in case of an emergency.

"Ready Shaye? I need you to push when I say so" Carlisle told her. "Ready? Push, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, and breath. He told her.

Shaye pushed, her face turned red, her hair was damp with sweat. She squeezed my hand so hard I had to let go. Instead I wiped the sweat off her forehead, and cooled it with a wet towel.

"Push, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, and breath" Carlisle told her again. She continued to push, scream and cry.

"I can't do this" she cried "It hurts" she said in a strangled voice

"Come on Shaye you can do it" Seth told her encouragingly, I joined in as another cheerleader.

"Shaye this is the one of the last pushes, push with all your strength, ready, push!" Shaye screamed loudly in pain, I held her hand for this one. Quil who was holding my other hand fell to the ground and passed out, the only thing in the world, besides eating that he didn't do elegantly. His body fell to the ground like a sack of potatoes.

"I feel his head" Carlisle said "Last one" Shaye pushed with all her might, her face was red, dripping with sweat. "I got him" he said, Shaye passed out, Carlisle eyes opened wide with fear, he swifly and carefully pulled out Alex, the beautiful baby boy, he handed him off to Bella to clean. The baby was clean within seconds and crying. Bella handed him to Seth and he stopped crying,

Seth was transfixed in little Alex's eyes. He looked up to see Shaye's heart trying to be resuscitated I felt fresh hot tears roll down my face. He ran over to Shaye, holding the baby.

"Shaye, hold on!" Seth cried. Carlisle was working rapidly and furiously over Shaye, I panicked and ran to the corner of the room, I wanted to be out of the way. Seth was trembling and I took Alex out of his arms. For a split second he was about to attack me, but he saw it was me, and he realized he was trembling.

Seth I could tell felt useless just like me; I dragged Quil's heavy body over to the corner of the room to get him out of the way.

Seth and I alike were crying, fearing the worse, and panicking.

I hope you love me! I wrote an extra-ly long chapter, it's over 5,234 words! It took me FOREVER! To write, but since I'm on spring break, I get to write all day because I'm grounded! And I'm 'doing homework'

I was going to split up the chapter in half again but I couldn't find a good point to split it at and make it each 2,500+ words.

I hoped you enjoyed! And chapter 6 of An Imprint On My Life is now up!

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