Hello everyone! No, I haven't abandoned either of my stories, I just needed a break from everything. But now I am back and writing again, so there won't be such a gap between chapters anymore, I promise.
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Without further delay, here is the next chapter. As usual all characters belong to Stephenie Meyer, I'm just playing with them.
Previously...
So wrapped up in my thoughts, I barely noticed when a silver Volvo skidded to a stop in front of me and Edward's head poked out the window.
"Need a ride?"
All my classes were pretty boring as the professors were only going over the syllabus and more than once I caught myself thinking of edward's emerald eyes or the way his hair looked like in the sun. This shouldn't be happening. I taught myself long ago not to let anyone come close to me. I built walls up around me because every time I became fond of someone it ended in them and me getting hurt. So why should my well guarded defences start crumbling down every time that man looked at me?
After chewing the crap out of my pencil I decided the smartest thing to do was to avoid the Cullens and their charming friends. Of course I would still see Alice since we are roommates, but I'll take care not to see her outside of the dorm. Could I really do this? The first time in my life when someone accepted me for who I am and I'm going to throw this way? Yes, yes I could. I can't live through the pain of losing someone dear to me again.
Happy, ok not happy but a lot calmer about my solution I sat back and desperately tried to block Edward out of my mind, which was proving to be utterly impossible.
Naturally my brilliant plan collapsed in ruins when Alice used her puppy dog eyes on me, something Edward told me she was famous for. So of course I gave in making Alice jump up and down with glee looking like she was high. At once she went for her make up bag and proceeded to make me "slammin' hot" as she put it. I sighed knowing it was impossible and let her work.
One hour later she spread my cherry lip gloss over my lips with a flourish and announced me finished. She stuck the mirror in my hands and I looked to see my reflection. My hair was done up in a French plait on the side and tied with a lavender coloured ribbon. My make up was very light focusing on my big poopie eyes; only mascara, eyeliner and a touch of eye shadow. It was simple yet classy, just how I liked it.
"Thanks Alice, it actually looks pretty good!"
Alice pretended to look offended. "Were you doubting my skills, Bella?" Alice started tickling me.
"never Alice…hahaha, please hahaha…stop!" I was gasping for breath but Alice's little fingers didn't stop.
"Say "I will never again doubt the power of the mighty Alice"
"Nuh uh" I managed to gasp out. Alice just grinned devilishly and stopped tickling me. She ran over to my closet and pulled out my favourite green hoodie. Then she plucked the scissors off my desk and tried to cut the sleeves off. A strangled cry escaped my lips.
"No Alice not the hoodie!" it was the only thing I had after my mother. Surely she wouldn't cut it up…
"Say it"
"No"
"Fine" the scissors moved dangerously close to my beloved sweater.
"Ok, ok! I will never again doubt the power of the mighty Alice!" I sighed in relief when she lowered the scissors and threw my hoodie on the bed. I quickly ran over to it and hugged it to my chest.
"Gee Bella, who knew you can get so emotional over an old hoodie. An ugly one at that" Alice laughed, not understanding.
"It's the only thing I have left of my mother" I said quietly, wiping at the tears that have formed with the sleeve. Alice's laugh died on her lips and her expression turned to horror.
"Oh Bella, I'm so sorry! I didn't know! The hoodie isn't that bad, I mean it's a pretty colour and-" she tackled me and gave me a fierce hug.
"It's ok Ali, you didn't know" tears were pouring down my face now and I tried to disentangle myself from Alice but she wouldn't let me go. For someone so tiny she had way too much strength. We sat like that for a few minutes until we stopped crying. Alice wiped her tears and screeched when she saw the black marks from mascara on her fingers.
"Don't move! You're the same. Don't worry fashion ambulance is on its way!" with that she sped off to find her bag and frantically started reapplying her make up, leaving me laughing on my bed.
"Your turn!" Alice was back to her normal, bouncy self and chattered about some hot guy she met this morning as she fixed my eyes.
"Oh my goodness, his eyes were sooo blue! He was such a gentleman and had the loveliest southern accent I've ever heard. He's from Texas and doesn't know anyone so I went and talked with him."
"More like talked him to death" I muttered under my breath, too quietly for her to hear. Louder I asked,
"What's his name?" Alice stopped applying mascara to my eyes and stared at me.
"Oh! I knew there was something I forgot to ask him!" She slapped her forehead.
"You forgot to ask his name?" I asked incredulously.
"Well yeah, I was distracted by his hotness" Alice responded. I rolled my eyes. Only Alice would find out someone's life story without asking their name.
While Alice went to hunt for something appropriate to wear from her mountains of clothing I tried to pick out my own outfit but was coming up empty. I had absolutely nothing that was proper for clubbing. I finally gave up with a huff and sat back down on the bed, glaring at the fly that sat on my hand.
"What did that poor fly do to you?" Alice's tinkling voice made me jump and topple off the bed. Of course.
"I have nothing to weeaar" I whined like a five year old. Alice just laughed at me and retrieved a white garment bag from the closet. Holding it up for me to see, she slowly unzipped it and took the dress out.
It was strapless, the same colour as my ribbon, and ended just above my knee. It had a sweet heart neckline and little diamonds scattered all over it. Even though I normally would never wear something like this, I had to admit it did hug all of my curves nicely and I felt confident in it. Beautiful even.
"Thank you Alice. But when did you get the dress for me?" It must have cost a lot.
"Oh I just had it laying around in my closet" she mumbled not looking at me.
I snorted, "Sure, cause it's perfectly normal to have dresses that will never fit just laying around in your closet"
Alice blushed but didn't say anything and continued getting dressed. I thought my dress was too revealing. Alice's shocking pink number barely covered her butt. Since the dress was strapless, I put on a little black cardigan to cover up my scars. Alice raised one perfect eyebrow at me.
"It's pretty warm this evening and I'm sure its going to be really hot in the club" she pointed out. I mumbled out some lame excuse about liking to be prepared while looking at my shoes. I'm a shitty liar.
After we were all dressed and ready, I in 4 inch stilettos which I'm sure are going to be very helpful in breaking my legs, Alice literally dragged me like a rag doll to her obnoxious yellow Porsche. She drove way over the speed limit and I was scared she'd turn us into a Porsche pretzel around a tree. Alice laughed at me when I said that.
Finally we arrived at a club called Twilight (couldn't resist ;)). The bouncer didn't even give us a second glance once Alice gave him the signature Cullen smile and waved us in. the music was so loud I was sure my eardrums were gonna pop any second. Alice pulled me over to a far corner were the rest of the group were seated. Emmett, Jasper and Rosalie smiled and greeted me, but Edward's expression froze on his face as soon as he saw me and I saw something flash through his eyes. Anger maybe? I wracked my brain for something I could have done to anger him so much. He was fine this morning. Did I say something during the car ride? Parts of my brain seemed to shut down as soon as Edward came within two metres of me, so it was very possible. Did I look that bad? Feeling very self conscious, I perched on the edge of a seat beside Rosalie. Emmett disappeared to get a drink, even though he was still technically underage.
Alice dragged me onto the dance floor and after a few of some fruity drinks Emmett gave me, my horrible dancing skills have improved and we had a blast. Unfortunately my balance was still askew and I landed on my butt, taking someone else with me and knocking his drink out of his hand and spilling it all over my legs. I couldn't find Alice in the crowd, so I proceeded to look for a bathroom by myself.
After a bruised hip, sticky legs and a few blistered toes, I was ready to call it a night. Coming out of the bathroom I was fishing in my purse for a cell phone to call a cab and naturally bumped into someone.
"Sorry, I wasn't looking where I'm going" I muttered looking up and staring right into Edward's furious emerald orbs.
"Where did you get that dress?" he asked through gritted teeth.
"Umm, Alice gave it to me" what was wrong with the dress? Is that the reason for his crappy mood?
He pinched the bridge of his nose and sighed in frustration.
"Alice. I should have figured" with that he stalked off, no doubt to find Alice. Confused as hell, I went back to our table to tell Alice and Rose that I'm leaving when I saw Edward and Alice arguing in whispers. I was about to walk past them when I heard my name in their heated conversation. So instead I moved closer so I could hear.
"Let it go Edward, it's been two years! You have to face the past sooner or later." Alice whisper-yelled.
"I'd rather face it later" Edward interrupted her, which made Alice looking as if she longed to slap him.
"I know you loved her but it's time to move on and...start living again. We all loved her, but we know that she would have wanted us to go on."
"None of you were as close as i was with her! None of you understood her like i did! Prom was something she dreamed of ever since she came to high school! And you gave her prom dress to some bimbo you met yesterday that looks like a washed out plum in it!" the few second silence during which they glared at each other furiously was broken by a resounding crack! Alice punched Edward in the nose.
"FUCK! ALICE YOU BROKE MY NOSE!" Edward screamed clutching his nose.
"Stop being so melodramatic. I didn't punch you nearly hard enough. Next time you insult any of my friends, I will break your nose along with your dick!" Alice stomped off in the direction of the bathrooms. I slid down the wall with tears pouring down my face, taking eyeliner and mascara with them.
Forget the cab. I just wanted to get out of here. Taking off my heels and fighting back the stupid tears that threatened to spill again, I ran out of the club and started walking along the curb. I didn't even know if I was going in the right direction. My watch said it was close to midnight and the shadows lurking at every corner made me nervous. I would have given anything at this point to be in my bed, cuddling my stuffed bunny with my mother beside me telling me everything was going to be ok. But neither my bunny nor my mother were here to comfort me and nothing could stop the tears from spilling over this time. I continued walking, stumbling every few steps because tears blurred my vision.
After walking around New York pointlessly for a few hours, my legs finally gave out under me and I fell down in an alley. I think I was in some park. Having no more strength to fight off the memories, I succumbed to the darkness.
"A little boy was running across the street, looking over his shoulder. "Kenneth! Kenneth no! Don't, come back! Kenneth please, I'm sorry!" he didn't hear, continued running. His thin face was contorted in anger. A flash of red. The car was moving too fast. "Watch out there is a car behind you!" it was too close. Too close to the boy running recklessly across the street. There was a thump, as the little body was flung backwards like a rag doll. "KENNETH NO!" the scream echoed as the car zoomed past, crushing the life out of the tiny, broken body."
"Bella?, Bella can you hear me?" someone was shaking me. I woke from my blood chilling nightmare, trembling and gasping for breath, staring into the emerald eyes of a sweaty and incredibly sexy Edward Cullen.
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