Swept Away From the Ashes
Chapter Nine: Fathoming Depths
Warning: The beginning of Sasuke and Naruto's sexual relationship, which means yaoi, which you should have figured out a long time ago. Sakura x Ino a.k.a. shoujo-ai, when it gets more heated I will be sure to label the scenes, because I know some of you did not read this for that.
Disclaimer: You already know.
A/N: I know a lot of you wanted to see them together right after, but I had my reasons for waiting, AND PEOPLE ONE REVIEW!!!! (Two now.) Please, please leave me reviews. If you like it, or if you hate it, tell me.
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Sasuke and Naruto: Age Seven; May 13Naruto blinked at the strange feeling of another putting their lips on his own. Sasuke pulled away.
"Well, it wasn't what I thought it was…" Sasuke said.
"Yeah, I'm kind of disappointed." Naruto mumbled; both of their faces were bright red. "I wouldn't mind doing it with you again though."
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Naruto tripped as he stumbled backwards into the room he and Sasuke shared. His mouth firmly attached to Sasuke's as they stumbled blindly through the room to the bed. A tiny parting as Sasuke lit the candle by the bed. The moment the tiny spark of light jumped to life, Naruto had his arms slithering around Sasuke's neck.
"I love you, so much." Naruto whispered into the air between their bodies. Sasuke lowered most of his weight onto Naruto as they once again began to kiss. It was almost scared the first time, and then more and more assured as they realized no one was going to stop them. Finally their mouths parted and Sasuke began to kiss softly alongside Naruto's face.
"You can't possibly understand how much I love you." Sasuke gasped softly against the hollow of Naruto's throat.
"And you can't possibly fathom the depth of my own for you." Naruto whined out. He felt the stretch of Sasuke's lips against his skin as his mouth formed a smirk.
"Fair." He uttered simply. Naruto's head tossed to the side as the pleasure built. His skin felt like fire. Then suddenly he went cold. His mind kicked off. He felt his hair follicles rise, his heartbeat accelerated, and gasping for air; he panicked. His fight or flight reaction kicking in. He prepared his foot for throwing the offender.
Suddenly Sasuke hit the opposite wall as Naruto scrambled for the door. Not knowing what was going on, Sasuke reached out and grabbed Naruto's ankle. Naruto tried to scream, but his mouth was too dry. Just when he wanted to scream loudest, he could barely get out a sound. Kicking out violently with his foot he managed to hit the attacker in the face. Wrenching the door open, he tore up the secret stairs. A worried Sasuke not far behind. When Naruto began to run for the outside door, Sasuke knowing that anyone leaving the house without clearance could be spotted tackled Naruto from the back. Everyone in the room jumped up with alarm.
"Calm down, Naruto." Sasuke scrambled for footing with his voice. "It's Sasuke!" Suddenly Naruto's body collapsed in on himself. Sasuke worried attempted to support Naruto. Slowly blue eyes opened.
"I should have known better." Naruto croaked. "I should have known it was you touching me, but it was too much and it was too close to the other times, I'm sorry."
"Don't worry it's not your fault. Go lay down, so you can rest. It's understandable. Deidara, will you help him to his room."
"Un." Deidara relaxed and gripped Naruto's arm helping him down the stairs. Sasuke immediately grabbed at the nearest breakable thing in reaching distance, Itachi however was there first.
"No destroying our things Sasuke. I understand you are frustrated, but there is no need to break our few possessions." Itachi said stiffly. "What just happened?" Itachi noted the Sakura girl paying rapt attention.
" Naruto and I were… making out. I went a little farther while he had his eyes shut, which we were in agreement to." Sasuke quickly added. Itachi only nodded. "Well, his fight or flight response kicked in and he kicked me in the stomach, I landed on the opposite wall, I think he may have broken one of my ribs. He scrambled for the door and I tried to stop him, but he dashed out anyway, after kicking me in the face. I chased him, when I saw him heading for the door, I took him out." Itachi would have laughed if it weren't so heartbreaking.
"Sasori, take Sasuke to the infirmary and check his injuries." Nodding he beckoned with Sasuke with one finger, and with his charge now following they proceeded to the infirmary. "Ino, take the girl to Kisame's room, and watch her." Itachi turned and walked down the stairs. On his way down Deidara passed him.
"He seems better now."
"He will never be the same." Itachi said simply. Deidara nodded slowly. "Your lover is in the infirmary with Sasuke-kun."
"Thanks, un." Deidara whispered. Itachi continued to the bottom of the stairs, and slipped into Sasuke room. Noting that there was a candle burning by the bed, in which Naruto sat.
"Naruto-kun." Itachi acknowledged.
"Itachi-nii-san." Naruto replied. "I didn't mean to make Sasuke upset with me and cause such a stir."
"It is perfectly fine Naruto-kun, but the truth is that you need counseling. I would be willing to help you. You need to help me understand what Orochimaru did to you, exactly, so that Sasuke and I can help you."
"I don't know if I'm ready."
"Then you aren't ready for Sasuke, and I will be forced to allow you only supervised visits."
"But that's… what I just came from."
"Then agree to tell either Sasuke or me about Orochimaru's visits." Itachi's eyes stripped Naruto of his resolve, and left him defenseless.
"Okay, but will you understand that I am not ready for Sasuke to know about everything that Orochimaru did to me; you may tell him, but I don't want to be there."
"Understood." Naruto took a deep breath.
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"Damn, the boy can kick."
"I'd say, he got four of your ribs, and almost got your nose. In that factor you are lucky." Sasori said plainly, wrapping the bandage around Sasuke chest, tightly but tenderly. Sasuke breathed shallowly throughout the procedure. Sasori shook his head at the damage one kick had caused. "Have you guys considered training him as a soldier?"
"Why? He has training." Sasori barely raised his eyebrows in surprise. "His father was an amazing general and head of the army."
"Theory and experience are different."
"While that is true, he does know kenjutsu, and a bit of taijutsu. I've practiced with him. He's not totally defenseless."
"Well, not being totally defenseless doesn't mean he is by any means good at defending himself, I say we train him while we have some small amount of time."
"He's not physically built for a battle, I'd rather have him at home safe."
"I think the same about Deidara, it bothers me when he is a long distance attacker and yet he gets up in your face. Deidara is not made to do hand to hand, he's good at it, but not built for it."
"I thought nothing bothered you."
"You and I both know in this case what the meaning of the word bother is."(1)
"Sasori no danna!" Deidara hopped into the room. "Danna, is Sasuke okay?"
"He is fine, just a few broken ribs, he'll heal in a matter of days."
"Good, un" Deidara said, looking up at Sasori through one bright blue eye.
"Get out." Sasori said to Sasuke. Sasuke didn't have to be told twice, he immediately jumped up and ran out of the infirmary. As soon as the door closed he heard a loud sigh-like moan of-
"Oh, Sasori-danna."
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"What's going on between those two?"
"Who?" Ino asked as she turned towards Sakura.
"Uzumaki-kisama-kun (2) and Uchiha-kun."
"It's difficult to explain."
"Try, I'm interested. Tell me."
"They met when they were four, and they fell deeply in love by the time they were seven. I'm still not sure of what all Orochimaru did to Naruto-kun, but I do know that he forced oral sex on him. Sasuke and Naruto had barely even kissed. I also was told that Orochimaru was abusive not just sexually but physically toward Naruto."
"Sasuke though, such a waste."
"I wouldn't know; I'm not into boys." Sakura looked up at Ino with wonder in her eyes.
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"You have to understand the things he did to me, said to me, I will never forget. So if that is what you want Itachi, leave."
"I do not wish to erase, I wish to ease, if possible, and to understand."
"Orochimaru was physically, sexually, and mentally abusive. So much was done, but so little plausible, so little new things as well, but many repeated. So it makes it hard to know where to start."
"Start where you feel comfortable." Itachi said plainly.
"I would say that you would know about all of the physical abuse from the injuries that you cared for. Sexual and mental abuse will be the hardest. I suppose I will start with the sexual abuse."
"Orochimaru, he…" Naruto's hand balled into a fist and began to hit the bed softly. Itachi's sharp eyes caught the movement in the slight gloom. "He as you well know, would force oral on me."
"You are angry at him, aren't you?"
"Well, shouldn't I be!"
"I think perhaps there is something deeper, farther in than you think. A deeper reason that you won't let Sasuke get to far with you. I think it isn't because you are scared of what Orochimaru did you, I think it's because of something else."
"There is no other reason!"
"Maybe something else you don't want Sasuke to know."
"There is nothing else!" Naruto screamed panicking.
"Did Orochimaru touch you somewhere else? Perhaps he did more than just stimulation and simulation."
"You, You can't know!"
"Did he enter you?"
"No! No, I would never let Orochimaru take that from him!"
"From him?"
"I meant from me!"
"But you said from me."
"It was just a slip up. It was just a mess up. I don't see how it matters." Naruto's fist was hitting the bed just a little harder and with more frequency.
"I think it matters very much so. Do you feel sullied, Naruto-kun? Dirty? Unworthy? Guilty?" With the last word, Naruto visibly twitched and his hand practically slammed into the bed. Suddenly he was up and headed for the door. Itachi grabbed Naruto and slammed him to the bed harshly.
"What did you do, Naruto? What has made you feel so guilty?" Naruto was now hyperventilating with tears running down his cheeks.
"Please, Please don't make me say it!"
"What did you do?" Itachi screamed at him. "What have you done? What will Sasuke think?"
"He'll hate me! He'll hate me!"
"What have you done?"
"I cannot, I cannot!"
"Did you let him fuck you?"
"No!"
"Did you let him take what was Sasuke? Did you let him steal you from Sasuke?"
"Sasuke! Sasuke!"
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Sasuke turned as he passed the stairs, he could swear he heard Naruto screaming his name. Pulling up the hatch he climbed down. That was definitely Naruto screaming.
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"What did you do? You have broken his trust? You have lied to him? You told him that it was him and him alone and then let someone else take that from him?"
"He hates me! He hates me! I hate myself! I can't stand myself! If I can't trust myself, how can he trust me? He must be an idiot to love me!" Itachi backed away from Naruto, watching as he crumbled into pieces. "I don't deserve him! I don't deserve anything! I'll hurt him. It is the only thing that I can do! I'll hurt him, I'm so afraid." Naruto sobbed harshly. Itachi turned and saw his brother at the door. Smiling he walked over.
"I've found your problem. Now fix it." He said and walked off. (3)
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Sasori looked over at Deidara who was lying in a state of debauchery on the medical table. His blonde hair spread out around him, cheeks flushed pink, eyes all out of focus, and his body covered in bites and finger marks. Temporarily Sasori masochistically attempted to imagine how it would feel if they were someone else's bites, someone else's fingers, the thought nearly brought him to his knees. No, Deidara was his, only his.
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Kisame stared bleakly at the walls, wondering where the hell everyone else was. He knew many of them were elsewhere. Kakashi and Iruka were off somewhere on an errand. Itachi was with Naruto. Ino was with the pink-haired captive. He had saw Deidara sneak into the infirmary and Sasuke leave and go to his room he shared with Naruto. Leaving Deidara and Sasori with each other. Suddenly he heard steps on the stairs, looking up he saw Itachi climb his way up and smile weakly. Kisame frowned slightly, knowing that you did not hear Itachi unless he was feeling very lazy (which didn't fit into his personality), very weak (which never happened), or very careless (which was just not possible). The only other reason was because he wanted someone to hear him. So Kisame smiled wolfishly, and waved around to the empty seats in the room. Itachi let another smile flash briefly across his face as he took the seat right next to Kisame. Today was just full of surprises.
"I think Naruto-kun is going to be okay. We found the base of his problem, a very exaggerated inferiority complex."
"Good then." Kisame replied, not knowing what to say, really what does one say in this happening. "I mean, not good that he has inferiority complex or anything, but… we can't have him going crazy and running out of the house. Just like with you and your brother, morbid and creepifying I've got no problem with, as long as it's quiet like."
"I believe that that is the longest sentence you have ever completed without cursing." The Uchiha smirked. "Who knew you had it in you?"
"I'll have you know I am a perfect gentleman when the time calls for it."
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Iruka glanced over towards Kakashi as they were told to go and grab groceries from the nearest town that wasn't the one they came from.
"Kakashi, I'm sorry, you shouldn't have brought me."
"Why would I leave you behind?"
"I serve no purpose to this mission."
"Of course you do."
"I am neither the ends nor the means."
"Iruka, Sasuke's mission was to get Naruto out of there. That was the plans I followed, until I realized that you were there and I knew I couldn't leave you. Sasuke's mission was to get Naruto, my mission was to get you."
"Why me?"
Kakashi smiled and whispered softly. "That, sensei, is a secret." Iruka watched as Kakashi trotted ahead and then looked back as if to ask: "why aren't you coming?" Iruka sped ahead to catch up.
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Ino leaned across the divide that had separated Sakura and herself, a soft kiss placed on her cheek. Sakura smirked to herself- everything was going as planned.
A/N: Should Kisame and Itachi become an item? You tell me! REVIEW!
1.) What he means is that 'the thought of Deidara on a battlefield scares him, but he can't say that and Sasuke knows it and will you please shut up now', basically.
2. Kisama- a very confrontational term used to refer to a person; it is a term similar to teme. You would have probably been told it meant bastard. It is extremely informal and so the grammar surrounding it isn't really considered. (Uzumaki-kisama-kun roughly translates to Mr. Uzumaki-bastard.) Kun strangely enough is a term to refer to older (generally teenage) boys endearingly. It really has no real meaning in English so the entire meaning of this is garbled, put badly, and contradicting. Regardless of this though it isn't meant to be understood simply known that Sakura is referring to Naruto is a bad light.
3. In a few rape cases you have these kinds of problems, the person seems as if they have a fear of contact, but they really feel guilty for what has happened to them. It is a rare form of Rape Trauma Syndrome, it happens most in cases in which you are with someone already and you love them. THIS IS NOT THE NORM. It is not the norm for people who have been raped to act this way, if they do, and you know them, get them help, do not attempt to fix it yourself. We don't need a ton of people out there going 'Oh, I read in a Fanfiction once, and then being all Medical Student Syndrome like' Auntie Mishka is now stepping down from her soapbox.
I would also like to point out that the type of counseling Itachi used is effective in the right situation. You need a degree and a keen sense of sight and logic to figure it out. This changes from country to country. It's is like how the DSM-IV is only really valid for America!