A/N: Sorry it has been a while. University is hetic. So read and review please

Johnny and Oscar had just returned with the dinner and been introduced to Blair. Oscar was quirky guy who was wearing shoes that didn't match and a tie with a t-shirt. Blair had to remind herself not to stare at him. Johhny seemed like the typical New York guy. He had messy hair and was wearing a NYU college sweatshirt and ripped jeans. They were curtious to Blair but she was really feeling like the didn't belong here. Ashley was wearing a short flowerly dress with brown knee high boots. She was dishing out food onto everyone's plate. Blair was straightening out the knives and forks for the seventh time. She knew she should stop but every few seconds she found herself drawn towards the cutlery. Ashley handed her a plate and she took her place at the table.

"So where did you go to high school Blair?"

"I went to Constance." Blair smiled

"Oh" replied Ashley as Johnny and Oscar exchanged a look. Blair felt her cheeks go red, she looked down at the plate Ashley was setting infront of her "I bet this is a bit of a change from what you are used to."

"Just a bit" she smiled

"Wait you're Blair, as in Queen Bee Blair you went out with that Bass guy didn't you. We have royalty in are mists" Oscar laughed "Should we bow down to you?"

"Oscar there's no need for that" Ashley scolded but Blair could still tell there was an akward feeling at the table. She could see Ashley put the peices together in her head. She watched Ashley and Johnny evaluate her clothes, her shoes, her hairband, her manicured nails and it registered to them that she wasn't like them. That she had more money than them. She realised they knew she didn't belong her.

"Well she certainly won't be even thinking of socalising with us. She only hangs around with billionaires. When they are not screwing other people that is"

"Oscar can it." Johnny said firmly

Blair looked awkardly at the plate in front of her and moved the food backwards and forwards with her fork. She was never going to escape who she used to be. She thought college would be a whole new start for her but instead it was just Constance without the uniforms. She hated it. Of course she could do nothing about it because Blair Waldorf does not quit.

"When do your classes start Blair? Johnny asked

"Not till next week. How about yours?"

"The same I think" Johnny smiled "I am not really sure to be honest. I didn't listen in oreintation"

"I know it was so boring" laughed Ashley. "I just waited till I heard pre-med being called out then I started to listen again. That old professor guy was so incredible boring I put my i-pod in for half an hour."

Blair tried to smile but Oscar's comments were still ringing in her head. She could not escape from who she used to be. She could not change because people were not letting her. They were constantly going to remind her of who she was and what she had done in the past. Suddenly the hunger wore off her. She realised she was just pushing her food backwards and forwards on her plate. She sighed and set her fork down "If you will excuse me I have some reading to do before classes start so I want to get a bit done now."

Blair got up and left the table. She let herself into her room and shut the door. She lay down on her bed and closed her eyes. Oscar's comments were getting louder and louder in her head. She sighed and wiped the tear away that had fallen. Blair Wardolf was not going to cry over any guy let alone one that she had known for all of two hours.

It was one thirty in the morning and Blair had snuck out of her apartment. She had hailed a taxi and gone to Chuck's. She let herself in with the key he had given her. She took her shoes off and set them with keys and her coat on his sofa. She tiptoed over and gently creeked open the door to his bedroom. There was just enough light filtering in from the living room window for Blair to see him tucked up in his bed. She walked over and lifted the covers, sliding herself into the bed and close to him. She wrapped her arms over his body. He turned round to face her and pulled her body closer. He found her lips and kissed her gently. "What's wrong pretty girl?" he whispered to her, tucking the blankets round her thin body.

"College sucks, I don't think it's what I want." Blair admitted quitely "I don't think I know what I want. I got lonely tonight and I can't be myself there."

"I know it's not Yale but give it time. Not everything is going to fall into place straight away. Life doesn't work like that."

"My roomates are horrible. They read Gossip Girl"

"Aww" Chuck said quitely "So this is about Gossip Girl?"

"No it's about the fact that they know everything about me"

"Oh really?" Chuck asked "They know everything?"

"Yes they knew all about you and me before the supposed break up."

"Do they know that you have read Pride and Prejudice one hundred and fourteen times? Or that you look at a person's shoes first to see if they have good taste? Do they know that you miss your Dad but won't say anything because you want him to be happy? Or that you pretend to be a bitch but right now you are in my bed upset because deep down you are still insecure and want people to love you? They don't know anything Blair. You have a choice. You can either let them in so that they can get to know Blair and love her, or you can show them who Blair Waldorf is and come up with a plan to make them regret what they said."

Blair rested her head on his shoulder. He kissed the top of her head. She wasn't sure what she wanted to do. She wasn't sure how to deal with them. She didn't know if she wanted to be Queen Bee again or to let them in. "I miss you too you know." Chuck whispered into the silence "And I know I don't tell you enough but I miss you when you are not here and even though I don't ever tell you that I love you, I do more than anything else. I don't care if you want to shout it from the rooftops because I know if just us that know or hundreds of people know I will still love you."

"Thank you, I really needed to hear that."

"Anytime" Chuck smiled kissing her once more "Get some sleep, you have class early tomorrow."

"Yeah, good night Chuck"

"Good night Blair"

"I love you too" she whispered as he pulled her tighter to him.