Find Your Voice

A/N - chapter 5 is done! This ones in Ran's POV, will Yoru tell him the truth?

Warnings - violence, yaoi, foul language, eventual lemon

Disclaimer - Sukisho? Mine? I wish!

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CHAPTER 5: The Lies and The Truth

Ran's POV

I heard a loud thud and my heart sank, Yoru! I slammed open the door just in time to see Yoru pass out, "Yoru!" I cried out, I ran to his side, he had passed out. Something was wrong with him, then that means…

Yoru had lied.

I was close to tears, I didn't know what to do, think, think I kept telling myself, the sick room was just up the hall if I could get Yoru there it would be okay. But I was much smaller than Yoru and I would probably have a hard time lifting him. But I had to do it, I took Yoru's arm and swung it over my shoulder trying to support his weight. After much difficulty I got the door open and made the slow journey to the sick room just up the hall. I knocked loudly on the door and the nurse opened it, "what's wrong?"

"Nanami-sensei," I said breathlessly.

"Ran-kun?" he said confused.

"Something's wrong with Yoru, he passed out in the bathroom," I said, "he needs to rest."

"Okay, let me help you." Nanami helped me get Yoru up onto on of the beds, "do you know what happened?"

"No," I said, "he just went to the bathroom and passed out, he did look a little pale though."

"Could he be sick?" he asked.

I shook my head, "no, he wasn't sneezing of coughing, it's weird I don't know." I said getting close to tears.

"Ran-kun, it's okay, just let him rest and you can ask him later, maybe he'll tell you." Nanami said.

"He can't tell me Nanami-sensei," I said, "Yoru's mute."

Nanami seemed to be shocked by this, I thought all staff should be informed about his condition, the bell rang signalling third period and I looked at Yoru, he was so pale, he didn't look well.

"Nanami-sensei, can I stay with Yoru until he wakes up?" I asked with pleading eyes.

Nanami thought about it then he said, "okay, I'll give you a note to go back to class when he wakes up, okay?"

I nodded and looked back to Yoru, I was worried about him, what if something was seriously wrong with him?

"You care for that Yoru-kun don't you?" Nanami asked, observing me.

"Yeah," I admitted, "I guess I do."

"When did you meet him?" he asked.

"Just yesterday," I said, "he hadn't been to school for a while and yeah, it just sort of happened."

"Although that sounds like you are now lovers that's not the case is it?" Nanami asked laughing softly.

I laughed too, "no, we're not lovers or anything," I said my smiling face stopping momentarily becoming serious, "but I wish we were."

Nanami looked at me cautiously, "I have to go out for a few minutes, will you be okay here until I get back?"

"Yep, I'll be fine." I said, Nanami nodded and left the room closing the door behind him.

I looked back to Yoru again, why had this happened? I knew he had seemed a bit pale this morning but I didn't think anything of it. I tried to narrow down options in my head, he wasn't sick, he hadn't done anything to bleed internally…bleed?

"Blood loss…"I whispered, gazing at Yoru's sleeping face, but how? My eye's caught something shiny in Yoru's pocket and I reached for it I gulped and nearly fell off my seat when I revealed the object in my hand. I opened up my hand and looked at the object, a pocket knife? No Yoru please I silently begged as my shaking hands reached for his and I pulled back his sleeves and gasped, his wrists were covered with old scars from cuts, there were two fresh ones though. Silent tears fell down my face, why? Why would Yoru do this to himself? Who would make Yoru do this? The kids at school? His parents? The bell for fourth period rang loudly but Yoru didn't stir at all. I kept crying, I could help it, I couldn't believe Yoru would do this to himself. He must have a reason, this made me even more determined to make him speak again, he's been hiding things, and I wanted to know. I wanted to help. I laid my head down on his arm holding his hand, the whole time clutching the pocket knife in my other hand. I'd wait until he woke up, then I'd ask him, exactly what goes on in his life.

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It was almost half way through fourth period when I felt Yoru stir from his sleep, I felt his other hand cover mine, the one that was clutching his own. I blinked and looked up at him, his eyes were filled with regret, he had obviously realised I had seen the scars. I sat up and held out the pocket knife, I saw his eyes go wide when he saw the object in my hand.

"Why?" I asked quietly, "why are you doing this to yourself?"

I knew he wanted to speak so I handed him some paper and a pen. He scrawled a quick note and handed it to me.

I teared up when I read it, it was so simple but it still affected me, I'm sorry you had to see this, I am so sorry.

"Why?" I asked again, "why would you do this?"

His face seemed so full of sorrow as he wrote the next note, he handed it to me and I read it again, I don't want to tell you, someone such as pure as yourself doesn't deserve to deal with this. I choked on my tears and I said, "I do! I can help you! I want to help you Yoru, please." I begged.

He had silent tears rolling down his cheeks by now, I read the new message.

I'll tell you, when I was five my mother left with my younger twin brother. I never heard from them again and I was left with my father. He's not a nice person, he hurts me and I feel so depressed I cut myself to get rid of the pain. I thought about suicide numerous times, please don't cry. But when I met you, I didn't want to, I had someone to live for. You've made me realise just how precious the people you care about are. I don't want you to get involved because I don't want you to get hurt. Please don't cry any more, I like to see you smile, please keep on smiling for me, Ran…

I broke at that last sentence I sobbed my heart out and Yoru held me the whole time, after I had stopped crying I looked up to Yoru and decided to ask "so is the reason why you passed out because you cut yourself?" Yoru shook his head, "then?" I urged.

Yoru picked up the pen and paper again and wrote another note, after a while he gave it back to me to read.

I'll tell you because I trust you won't tell anyone without my permission, okay? My father likes to hurt me, when he gats mad I'm like his human punching bag, When he needs sexual satisfaction he uses me, that's why I passed out, from blood loss (I guess you worked that out on your own). But he tore me so much and whipped me I guess I lost a lot of blood.

"I am so sorry," I muttered, "I had no idea, please let me help you, I can get people to help they'll understand." Yoru shook his head violently and hurriedly wrote another note, it only had five words, but I those five words made me understand.

My father's a police officer.

"Even though this makes things more difficult I think I can get people to help." I said, I saw Yoru raise an eyebrow, "I'll tell you my plan." I lent down careful not to be over heard by passing teachers, "if I can get my friends to understand, which I know they will, we can get you out of your house, we can get out of here and live somewhere else." Yoru crooked a smile, indicating an if-I-could-laugh-I-would look.

"What? You don't like it?" as I spoke Yoru wrote another note.

Although I admire you confidence, I think you're in a bit over your head love.

I blushed like mad when I read what he called me, 'love', no one had ever called me that. I was beginning to see what Yoru's personality was like through his writing, he was very cocky and obviously a flirt, but a very romantic flirt at that. He was also troubled by such a horrible family lifestyle, he had said he had a twin, I wondered what happened to him.

"Ran-kun I'm back!" I heard Nanami call, " guess who I ran into, Sora he's back and your brother is very happy about it."

"That's great, Yoru's awake." I said as Nanami came through the door.

"Is he okay?" Nanami asked.

"He's alright," I said, I glanced at Yoru for permission to tell his story and he nodded, "Nanami-sensei, can you call Minato-sensei and Nao and Sora in here please, I think I'll need their help too."

"Help with what?" asked Nanami.

"I'll tell you once there here, please, it's important." I said giving him my best puppy dog eyes.

"Okay, I'll request that they come here." said Nanami heading to the office to make the announcement.

"It's okay Yoru, this way we'll be able to think of a full proof plan, I swear." I said holding Yoru's hand, giving it a light squeeze.

"Their coming here right now." Nanami said, Yoru squeezed my hand in return at that statement.

This was it, it was time to do my part to help Yoru, I could help him find his voice and I could help him escape that awful house he was forced to go home to.

"We're here!"

To Be Continued…

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A/N - another cliff hanger, trust me next chapters going to have quite a twist in it! R&R!

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