Hey guys! Chapter seven wasn't my best work... This chapter will be much better...trust me ;)

This is just fluff but you should read it. This is the build up to the party, which I can promise you will be really interesting.

I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT!

Enjoy!

Edward's POV

What have I done? I thought shamefully as I sat on my sofa, head in my hands.

The look on Bella's face was terrifying. She looked like someone had just...ripped something out of her...like I had just ripped something out of her. I can't believe I just talked to Tanya in front of Bella, I mean where did the word love come from? Yes, I have told Tanya that I love her...I've just never called her love before...I don't know why I said it, I...I just did. Bella just ran away then. She was burning...I caught a glimpse of her face before she ran...so much pain twisted her features. Why couldn't I control myself? I was going to kiss her, and I already have a girlfriend...Bella probably thinks that I'm a sick piece of work that needs more than one woman. And I'm not that! I've been getting distant from Tanya and I literally just forgot about her when I saw Bella again. I know it's no excuse...it's quite pathetic.

I remember when I first met Tanya. The first day at my new school. She became my best friend and we eventually started dating at the age of eighteen. I'm twenty-one now so we've been together for three years...not that it matters. Deep down I know that Tanya is only a friend...nothing more. To be truthful, she asked me out first. I told her yes because I thought it would be fun...I didn't know it would get as serious as it has.

The first time I told her that I loved her it didn't feel...right. But I told her because that's what I thought, it wasn't what I felt. I thought I loved her, but I didn't feel like I did.

Ugh! This not working...I need to think about something else...

I need to apologize to Bella.

I don't deserve her forgiveness, I just need her to know that I'm sorry.

Bella's POV

"So...do you want to go to a club, throw a party, or go to someones else's party?" Alice asked while jumping around my room. Rose, Alice and I are discussing plans for tonight or tomorrow. I want to stay here and throw a party, you know, familiar surroundings. And to be truthful...I've never been to a club in my life...never. That's a bit pathetic considering I'm twenty-one and all. Actually it's really pathetic.

"Can we throw a party here?" I asked them. Alice got a twinkle in her eyes and she started jumping on my bed like it was a trampoline.

"Yes!" - bounce- "fantastic!" - bounce - "brilliant!" Alice suddenly gasped; jumped off my bed then ran out of my bedroom screaming stuff about "shopping" and "guests" and "lists" and...God knows what else. Rosalie sighed and gave me an apologetic smile.

"I'll go rein her in. She's going to go over the top!" Rosalie threw her hands up in the air, exasperated but she had a massive grin on her face. To be honest, I felt just like Alice. I was panicking about, what to buy, who to invite, decorations, outfit (shocker!), makeup (gasp!), music and entertainment.

"No Rosalie! Let her go over the top!" I laughed. Rosalie looked at me shocked, curiosity and excitement in her eyes. "Oh God! Rosalie, what am I going to wear?! My makeup! Who are we going to invite?! Decorations!" - I gasped - "Music!" I practically yelled everything while running around my room like a mad woman. Rose burst out laughing and fell on the floor.

Rosalie pointed at me and in between laughs got out, "You're...acting...like...ALICE!" Rosalie was consumed by a new round of laughter. I simply stuck my tongue out and scowled at her before running out of the room and shrieking, "ALICE!"

Several hours of planning later...

This is the part I've been regretting. Whether to invite Edward or not. It's not fair to invite his brothers and not him. But I'm not sure if I'm ready to face him yet. What he did to me was horrible but...UGH! Why can't I get this bloody guilt thing out of my head?! He doesn't deserve to come! Not after what he did...

"Bella...you don't have to invite Edward," Alice offered hesitantly. My mind screamed for me to say 'Good! Cause I'm not inviting him,' but for some reason my mouth didn't agree.

"No no, invite him," I was shocked at my answer. But I should have figured as much. Stupid subconsciousness. I have to admit that I want Edward to come and I don't. I want him to come because I can't stop thinking about his stupid gorgeous face and I want to see him. And I don't want him to come for obvious reasons. His stupid gorgeous face wins! I thought bitterly.

"Um...okay. What about music? We could hire a band or just play Cd's in the stereo," Alice suggested, but I had a better idea. I was nervous and hesitant to offer this because it's a private thing, but I could just do something else.

I took a deep breath and said, "how about I play and sing? I could just sing songs from other artists," I offered. Alice squealed and threw herself into my arms.

"Bella! Are you sure? If you are then that's fantastic! You're a great singer and guitarist!"

I blushed, "yes, Alice I'm sure. Now get off of me before I suffocate!" Alice was squeezing me a bit too tightly. I started to find it hard to breath.

Alice released me and giggled, "sorry."

I was really scared now. Not only did I have the pressure of seeing Edward but now I'm going to be singing in front of loads of people...OH MY GOD!

Breath Bella, breath.

This should be interesting...

And scary.

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Next chapter...THE PARTY!!!!

I'm sure you'll like it. I hope...

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