Chapter III. Max: First Thoughts
The first time she saw him it was a shock. For just a second, a frozen moment in time before he started to speak, she thought he was Ben. She thought they had brought her brother back somehow and that she had been given a second chance. But he wasn't Ben and she hated him for it.
It was irrational and she knew it, but she couldn't help herself. To see Ben's face on him as a reminder of her failure was too much.
That face of his, Ben's face, which she used to associate with trust, brotherhood, confidence…. It has acquired a completely different meaning with him wearing it and she had hated him for that too.
Almost at the beginning, when he had helped her flee from Manticore, she was tempted to give him a chance and let him become part of her world. He couldn't fill the hole in her heart that Ben had left bleeding, but she would have welcomed him to some new place inside of her. But he had betrayed her in the end, played her, and put Logan in danger through her. He had showed her that he couldn't be trusted and she hated him for that even more.
Afterwards he had forced himself in and he had become a part of her daily life, although she had tried so hard to keep him at distance. He couldn't be trusted, he was selfish and opportunistic, but somehow during that time he had become 'Alec' and not just Ben's clone; which in some way had helped her deal with him and her own memories.
As he became Alec didn't mean she started to like him, she could just barely tolerate him. There were too many things about Alec that irritated her. She couldn't stand his constant showing up, his smart ass comments, his 'act first and think latter' behavior that always seemed to put them in danger, his non-stop talking…. Almost everything about Alec was exasperating her, but still that was Alec and not a reminder of Ben anymore.
She believed for months that he was no more than a dick. Sometimes useful, but usually just a problem. A big problem. And, somehow, her problem.
She would have left it like that. Case closed. If there wouldn't have been two things that happened that there appeared the possibility of having been wrong…
AN: This is the first part on Max POV. She has developed her thoughts on Alec and I'm planning on make at least another chapter on them, so don't you get too upset on the "hating" part, ok?
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HeidiOh: Thank you so much for the fedback and the suggestion. I will try to follow your advise. :)
Subb: Here you have Max or at least first thoughts of her, hope you enjoy it 'cause those were made for you! ;)