Remembering Sunday Chapter 5: A kiss for the last, a gossip girl fanfic

Author's not: this is by far my longest chapter yet, and as much as I love it I'm hoping you guys do also. Please don't forget to review… reviews are like cup cakes… they make me feel good. As always this is for Lauren because without her there wouldn't be a story. Calie, thank you so much for editing, I know it was a pain in the ass job and I apologize. Eliz thank you soo much for helping me when I got stuck and Steph also. Hope you all enjoy it! The song is Secret Valentine by We The Kings. Enjoy!

Soft kiss and wine
What a pretty friend of mine
We're finally intertwined
Nervous and shy
For the moment we will come
Alive
Tonight
Secret valentine

The roof of the art gallery was brightly lit with candles and lanterns glowing shades of dulled gold, the moonlight streaming down from the stars lit her perfect makeup less face and showed him just how dazzling and perfect she really was. How flawless and perfect she looked as they both lay on their sides facing one another, his hand lightly on her cheek as emerald looked into chocolate with passion, fire, and innocence. It was like a meeting of the minds and as they laid there the world around them just seemed to stay still, as though the only thing in the world they needed was one another.

They'd had it planned all day, Rufus needed help at the gallery and he'd enlisted both of his children to do so. Jenny had invited Vanessa to spend some girl time, which meant Vanessa bitching about Serena and Dan, until Dan had insisted Serena join them as well. In fact he'd spent the whole afternoon making the perfect lasagna, which in the end had worked out to be a great contrast to her home made rice crispy treats.

Now as they lay under the stars in the cool march air, her in her pink fleece pajamas he'd laughed at her and teased her for arriving in, everything was perfect. His hand rested on her soft cheek and their eyes were interlocked with one another. Even Rufus who had come up to tell them maybe it was getting too chilly and to come inside where it was warmer couldn't interrupt the Kodak moment taking place on the roof. So there they lay, everything innocent among the candles and the night fall.

"Are you sure you're not cold?"

Dan whispered to her not wanting to break the moment as his thumb gently caressed her cheek, everything was just the way he'd always wanted it but never expected it to be. His dream girl was lying with him, she was all his.

"Just a little chilly"

She admitted and felt him slid his hand from her cheek and reach for the soft throw blanket he'd brought. Covering her over and pulling her closer into his chest as she rolled over with her back to him, he hugged her close leaning his head down on her shoulder and inhaling the lavender scent of her shampoo. In his arms now she was warm and content.

"Dan, I don't want this moment to ever end"

There was no apprehension in her voice, there wasn't anything for her to be afraid of. When he was there that was all that she needed. She felt him place a feather light kiss on her collar bone and then lean his head back against hers again.

"Why? There are going to be plenty more to come."

Almost feeling like Dan was too perfect for her she pushed her body as close to his as she could manage, not that there had been even an inch of space to begin with. She was never sure why Dan had chosen her but he had, and he'd changed her. Every bit of her felt it and knew it. She'd never been so in love with anyone. The way he could just hold her without wanting any more then than that, the way he made them dinner, the way he kissed her, everything was just what she'd always needed and always wanted but never expected.

"Promise?"

The moment she said it she felt like a little child asking for a Christmas present, but that's they way they were. Always playful and grateful for what they had, they leaned on one another for both comfort and control.

"Cross my heart and hope to die"

He finished for her as her hands squeezed his arm lightly, it was like laying there they both knew that their names were written in the starry sky, She knew they were forever and as did he.

"I don't like when things are finished like that. No dying, if you died then we couldn't have our children."

A light smile crossed his face soon as she mentioned it, the thought of it seemed too dreamlike yet so real at the same time. It was inevitable; they could have told anyone that from the first kiss. Sparks and fireworks like that didn't just happen every day.

"Our children huh?

He teased her as she could feel his breath on her neck pressing a kiss every once and a while as she closed her eyes and let her thoughts of the future over take her.

"Mmhmm our three kids."

She nodded her head but stopped when she felt him shaking his.

"Ok, are you mocking me or are you disagreeing?"

Though she couldn't see the smile across his face she could hear it in the tone of his voice, the way his light chuckle came out and he briefly brushed his hand down her side.

"Disagreeing, I think we should have four, two of each."

He stated matter-of-fact like as her powder pink Ugg rubbed against his leg.

"Guess that means I'll have to share my title of princess with someone else."

Rolling over in his arms then she was facing him, she saw all of the hope and happiness his brown eyes held and her emerald eyes he saw. The simplest moment that was so full of love and trust and true understanding meant so much to her.

"Sariah"

Looking up at him with a question in her face she was a little confused by the random name he'd just suddenly said. It was pretty and different, just like they were together.

"It means Princess"

She nodded her head as he explained and the same smile that mimicked his spread across her face. They were talking about forever and she was right, she was so sure of it.

"Sariah and Charlie"

Her hand then moved to the side of his face and his eyes closed as she gently pressed her Mac cherry lip glossed lips right under his eye.

"Why Charlie?"

Tangling his hand in her messy blonde locks with his eyes still shut her marveled in just how much he really did love her. It scared him to be so at her mercy for everything.

"Because I pick you over Dominic Monahan any day, but even still"

With her reference to Lost he laughed at her and pulled her closer to him as she put her head on his chest and threw her leg across his waist. Everything in the moment was so perfect and peaceful they didn't think anything could ever break any of it.

We'll write a song
That turns out the lights
When both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
Don't waste your time
Speed up your breathing
Just close your eyes
We'll hope it's not for nothing at all

The memory of the night before Georgina came to town played over and over in her mind on the way to

school, the leaves had fallen from the trees and it was significantly colder then it had been when she'd first gotten the results that changed everything for her. Her brown Marc Jacobs jacket had been bought big enough to get her through the winter and big enough to hide the part of her she wasn't ready to show just yet. She'd listened to Lily and Eric urge her on in telling him but as always she refused. She couldn't ruin everything he had going for him, everything ahead of he and Amanda.

Trekking her way through Central Park, taking the long way to Constance, Serena's hands resided in her pockets and the faded pink Uggs mashed down the red, golden, and brown leaves that scattered and lined the ground. Her blonde hair stuck to her face as the wind blew around her yet she couldn't make herself walk any faster. Walking a few more steps and deciding to sit down on a bench she noticed the woman that was beside her. The young red head couldn't have been more then just a few years older then herself, the infant in her arms gently swaddled in the green blanket. Serena's eyes were glued to the newborn until the woman's talking made her snap back into reality.

"She's two weeks old, nine pounds three ounces."

The red head grinned as she spoke proudly and Serena got a warm tingly feeling inside. She wasn't sure what it was but looking at the woman and the child she felt so close to it and it all seemed and felt so real that she couldn't hold it back. The infants eyes were closed tightly as she peacefully rested, her little fingers in her mouth.

"She's beautiful, so tiny, it's so incredible something so real can come from just a few months, and sometimes even a few mistakes that just prove to you there's a reason for everything."

Serena's thoughts weren't being coherently thought through in her head as she spoke and kept her eyes glued to the child. In six months she'd be holding her own, a piece of Dan she couldn't give back even if she tried. Not that she could ever want to.

"How far along are you?"

The woman's question caught her off guard and she panicked and looked down at her coat for a moment before opening her mouth to ask how she could tell.

"You have the glow, as dumb as it sounds. There's an aura in the way pregnant women look at infants. Like they know that the very same beautiful thing is going on right inside of them also. And if you don't mind me saying, by the look in your eyes you're very much in love with the father. Looks to me as though you're having a very special baby."

Her emotions always seemed to be overtaking lately as her eyes filled with tears and she pushed her jacket out of the way with her hands only for them to rest on the solid white of her tank top under her button up. Standing up from the bench the slight bump was completely visible as she nodded her head still facing the red-head.

"You're right, I love him more than words."

Her tear stained face was already blotchy from crying, she was going to need a really good excuse when she got into the doors of school.

Lay down, be still
Don't worry, talk they will
I'll be loving you until
Morning's first light
Breaks tomorrow, I'll take care
Of you
Tonight
Secret valentine

Spotted: you would think UES royalty would know how to use their own perfection, Seems like S hasn't quite learned from Queen B's almost mistakes. Could the VdW family be joining the likes of the Spears's? Holding your once thin stomach is a little incarcerating S. Looks like the LAX prince may have watched a little to much Juno with the UES's leading princess. Is it that or has someone decided she needed a way to keep her men, Lonely Boy seems to be reading sonnets with a different crowd these days. I'll be watching you S, if anyone else has the deats… pass them on. You know you love me

Xoxo

Gossip Girl

"You would think that Gossip Girl would realize just how immature all of her stunts and games are. I mean Serena's not pregnant, that's just crazy talk."

Dan shook his head as he paced back and forth in the hallway trying to restrain himself from going on a man hunt to find out who 'Gossip Girl' was and killing them. Why was she always so eager to make Serena pregnant all the time? And how dare she make Serena pregnant with anyone other them himself. With that thought he felt compelled to look over at Amanda and remind himself that she was the one he was with.

"Dan calm down, I don't see why you're reacting like this. I mean, if she is she's gonna need a friend to lean on and if you're acting like this I'm pretty sure you'll scare her."

Amanda's words were coming out like inconsistent rambling to Dan's brain and he just wanted to shut it off. Not meaning anything rudely his mind was just working to hard to process everything.

"She's not Amanda"

He snapped at her harshly as he slammed his fists against the wall, what scared him the most in it all was the fact that had GG speculated that Serena was pregnant with his child he might have been a little bit less hostile. The thought of her having someone else's child made him want to crumble. Silence filled in between the two as Dan turned back to face Amanda who had dropped to sitting on the floor, her head in her hands. He'd never been so harsh with her and he knew it as he walked over by her and gently reached for her hand.

"Amanda, please, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to raise my voice."

Her deep brown eyes looked up at him still without a smile on her face as she nodded her head and allowed him to help her up. Her height was significantly different from his as he tucked her hair behind her ear and kissed the top of her head.

"I'm sorry, I just mean… I know Serena in the past had a record for guys. You never know what she and Jenns are doing."

Dan bit the inside of his cheek; none of it was anything he wanted to think bout. He didn't want to think of another guy having his hand or mouth on her body. The thought of it showed him just how Serena must have felt through her mother's wedding, the images of him and Georgina. All of it made him want to pull his hair out and scream at something. How could he have been so stupid?

"But um… I, uh… you and Serena used to… are you sure it wouldn't be…"

Understanding what she was trying to say Dan shook his head. There was no even possibility of that. Serena knew that she could come to him if they were having a baby. They'd been down the almost scare path and she knew how he felt about it. He knew she would have told him. There was no question in the fact that Serena and himself were not having a baby.

"She wouldn't keep something like that from me."

He took a step back from her, suddenly he didn't feel like playing the good boyfriend. Sure Serena was no saint but she wasn't a liar either, and she wasn't cold hearted. Just because they were apart he had no doubt in his mind that if something that crucial to both of their lives she would tell him as soon as she knew.

"I'm gonna take off for a while. I'll call you later"

Dan sighed and kissed Amanda's cheek one last time before picking up his backpack and retreating back to the door. It was his senior year, he didn't need to attend all days of school, his application to Dartmouth was already in.

Cell phones were a buzz with the latest Gossip Girl text and already Blair wanted to smash everyone's phones and open their eyes. Doing that would have been a hell of a lot easer had her best friend been around to defend herself, rather then getting her hair done or god only knew what. Serena was pulling back from Blair lately but Blair knew it couldn't have been because she was pregnant, Serena would have told her if she'd had sex with Jenns. They were best friends, they talked about things like that. Blair had even gotten a call at six thirty on Christmas morning with a very enthusiastic Serena saying she'd just gotten the best Christmas present of her life. Serena and Blair talked about things like that, even if it did involve Cabbage Patch.

"What are you all looking at, don't you have lives to get back to?"

Blair barked out at the group of girls that were standing around whispering behind their hands. As her Louboutin heels clicked with the ceramic tiles of the hallway she held her head up high and her cell phone to her ear leaving her best friend her ninth message in a row.

"S, where the fuck are you? I've called you like fifty times, you not being here is not helping your case any. Seen Jenns this morning and he didn't seem to know anything about any of this. Then again if you're not holding a lacrosse stick he doesn't seem to know anything about anything anyways. Hey S, I'll try to call you back after."

Blair stood in the corner of the hall, her eyes suddenly fixed on the sight in front of her. Cabbage Patch and Book Worm seemed to be in the middle of a headed debate. Not that Blair really cared to listen to a word of any of it she stood still listening, maybe it would give her some type of clue to where her best friend's whereabouts were. She picked up bits and pieces of Amanda's whining and Dan's anger. The whole thing convinced her even more that Serena was in fact not pregnant. If she had been pregnant with Dan's child Serena would have told both of them by now.

That was one thing Blair was sure of about Serena, she couldn't hide anything from her best friend or the guy that truly owned her heart. Even Blair knew that Serena was in love with Dan.

She listened as Dan turned away from Amanda and walked out of the school doors and Blair couldn't help but slightly roll her eyes. If the mousy brunette couldn't tell that Dan's heart wasn't into her she was obviously blind and dumb.

Blair had every intention of heading back to class when her eyes suddenly caught the mess of wind blown blonde hair walking around in the back of the school. She turned around and rushed past Amanda without a second thought to pause.

"Where the hell have you been?"

Blair tore into her best friend, hands on hips, eyes accusingly. She sized Serena up and couldn't tell anything different about her other then the flushed cheeks from walking in the cool air.

"Hey B, sorry I didn't feel like getting a ride so I walked. My phone battery's dead. I forgot to charge it last night."

Her blonde hair was still blowing with the wind that waved around them. It was clearly obvious that Serena hadn't heard a thing about the rumor that was traveling around school. Blair took her time to take out her cell phone and go through text messages before shoving it in Serena's face.

"Is there any truth to this?"

She accused sounding more motherly then even Lily had, it scared Serena and as she read through the message she felt sick to her stomach. It didn't take much anymore for Serena to feel like she was going to throw up.

"Wh…what? No.. no that's crazy… Jenns and I… we haven't… no"

She studdered out and she fussed with her jacket wishing she could sink further into it. For some reason she felt lie she wasn't ready to tell Blair the truth. Not because it would make it all real because it was in fact real. Her size up in skirts told that truth.

Blair had taken that as enough of the truth, it hadn't even crossed her mind that Serena never said she wasn't pregnant.

"B, I think I'm gonna head home. I don't really feel good today."

Putting her cell phone back in her bag Blair nodded her head.

"Ok S, but stop in the front and take to Jenns first ok? I think he's a little confused."

With that Serena gave Blair a quick hug and turned away to head for a conversation she was more then ready to have with Jenns.

When guilt fills your head
Brush off, rise up from the dead
This is
The moment that we
Will come alive
Brace yourself for love
Sweet love
Secret love

Carrying her phone with her on walks was a nuisance without it she couldn't be disturbed or annoyed by the outside world. Serena was just left to herself, the baby, and her thoughts as she walked to Constance completely unaffected by the outside world. After the run in with the woman in the park Serena had needed to think, admitting everything about still loving Dan had given her new things she needed to bring up with Jenns. There were things she needed to do, and the first part of it all was putting the baby ahead of everything and anything else.

As the courtyard of Constance came into view Serena checked her coat to make sure it was buttoned, if she was going to do this she didn't need the hints of anything else pointing him in the face. Soon as she was in the courtyard there he was sitting on the stone wall, backpack, tennis racket, and lacrosse stick leaning on his knee. Had she not already found the love of her life she might have tried a little harder to fall for him, just as she might have done to mend what she could have had in the past with Nate. He wasn't hurting for looks, his dirty blonde hair and blue eyes, any girl would have easily fallen at his feet; any girl that wasn't Serena Van der Woodsen.

"Jenns?"

She'd been taken by surprise soon as she'd seen him. His face held concern and confusion as he held his cell phone up to her. She was confused as she took it from his hand and looked at the screen letting her eyes read the message. Suddenly she felt a little but lightheaded, everyone was going to think she was having Jenns's baby, Dan was going to think she was having Jenns's baby.

"Jenns that isn't -"

Jenns cut her off by shaking his head and putting his cell phone in the pocket of his khakis and running a hand through his hair. Placing his hands in his pockets with his cell phone he nodded his head in a totally understanding manner.

"Well that one I know, we haven't exactly gone anywhere near far enough for that. I'm not saying that to sound like a horny asshole, believe me I fully respect your decisions and I didn't want anymore from you than what I got. I came into this knowing you weren't the same type of girl that used to do that anymore and honestly I think that's really cool."

A light smile played over Serena's face, he was so close to being understanding but he still wasn't anywhere near Dan. She'd always remember his reaction to when he thought she'd purchased a pregnancy test for herself. It all made her sure that Dan was the one; that everything that was going on was happening for a reason.

"Jenns, we need to talk."

It was like he expected the words out of her mouth as he slightly bowed his head and she put her hand on his shoulder, only to slip it to his cheek as she gave him one of her sad but warm smiles. Even if she didn't feel for him what she felt for Dan letting him go was still hard. It felt like she was admitting he was just a rebound to his face and she didn't like when things were put that way. Serena Van der Woodsen did not use people like that.

"Jenns, you're a great guy. Any girl should be lucky and honored to have you. I'm so sorry for the things I've put you through I never meant for you to get hurt in any of this. I should never have played with your emotions the way I have."

She began and he marveled in having the Upper East Side beauty queen as his girlfriend for the final few moments. She was every bit as wonderful as people had described her, the way she lit up the room with just a simple smile when she entered. He may have been the 'dumb jock' but he could clearly see that her heart still remained in Daniel Humphrey's pocket.

"Tell him he's a real lucky guy ok? And I hope that he knows that, which I'm sure he does, he'd be blind not to."

That was the thing that had attracted her to Jenns, she thought that maybe he'd be a small distraction from her heartbreak but he even proved not to be enough. It seemed that soon she'd have enough of a distraction to take her mind off everything that had gone wrong, that or more of a reminder.

"Thank you Jenns, you really don't know what this means to me."

Moving closer to him he pulled her closer and hugged her tightly, breathing in her scent for a final time as he kissed her cheek then let his lips linger for a moment near her ear so he could whisper into it.

"And if he does wrong by you or that baby I'll go after him for you. Don't worry; your secret is safe with me. Though you should tell him Serena, he deserves to know that he's the lucky guy chosen to have a baby with Serena Van der Woodsen."

With a final whisper he backed away from her still holding onto her hand lightly. Their fingers weren't laced as they had always seemed to be when she had Dan's, she and Jenns had never gotten close enough for the pair to be remotely like what she and Dan had had once upon a time.

"Good-bye Jenns, and thank you for real"

Hormonal tears were slipping down her cheeks already, they weren't something she could stop, as much as she would have liked to. It seemed like she was a sap at everything nowadays. She brushed the tears from her eyes as she watched him pick up his things and advance into the school leaving her to think about what her next move would be.

His hands were shaking and he wasn't sure why, it was a lie, he knew it had to be a lie. Serena wasn't pregnant, she couldn't have been pregnant. Serena wasn't the same person she'd once been, rather she was careful what she did and who she did it with now. She was the woman he loved, she wouldn't have let his happen. Dan's mind was so full of thoughts he'd walked into the lavish front door of The Palace, went up too many floors rather then stopping on hers, and then on top of it all he'd nearly left the peanut butter sandwiches he'd made in the cab he'd taken. But now as he raised his hand to knock on the door he wanted to half freeze, what if she really was pregnant, what if he really was losing the only girl he would ever really love to some fucking Lacrosse player.

It hadn't taken her long to answer the door and as soon as she did so an instant smile swept his face, no matter what she was absolutely beautiful. Her hair was back in a messy pony tail and she was completely makeup free. His eyes traveled her only to notice she was standing there in his sweatpants and white tee shirt, ipod in one hand, Snickers candy bar in the other.

"Hey"

Her mouth was full of candy as she spoke the best she could, considering the mouthful. Dan's eyes were glued to her face, more than anything he wanted to kiss her, to taste the chocolaty peanut taste, share food with her like they once did, as twisted as it sounded. If he thought about it really hard he could still remember tasting the sweet taste of the chocolate covered strawberry on the bus that day. Part of him felt like it was a life time ago.

"Hi"

Awkward and somewhat shyly his face met her's there was still a sparkle there between them as she moved back out of the way allowing him to enter the suite. He did so as soon as she moved to allow him. She could tell he seemed nervous as he fiddled with the brown paper bag in his hand and bit the inside of his cheek. He was close enough to her for a moment to breath in the sweet scent of Patchouli and Lilies, Serena's signature scent. If he hadn't had Amanda to think about and she hadn't have had Jenns there was no doubt in his mind that he would have picked her up to carry her to the couch and pin her down underneath him. But they couldn't do that anymore.

"Can't say I was expecting you here"

She referred to his stolen clothing, they were some of the most comfortable things in his closet. Not to mention if she tried really hard she swore she could still smell his scent on them. The scent she longed for.

"Wasn't sure if I would find you here to be honest, and since when do you need to have makeup and clothes on to see me? I've seen you first thing in the morning before you've even brushed your teeth Serena."

His cheeks were the slightest shade of pink as he said it and they both knew he was lingering on moments like that. All of the nights she'd carelessly lay in his arms with nothing on at all, hair sex mused, and body sweaty. She just wished he was there to hold back her hair when she threw up every morning. She could still remember her and Blair's talks when they were younger. How Blair's ideal part of pregnancy was having her husband paint her toe nails and still having the most fashionable clothes, whereas Serena's had simply been for him to be there holding her hair back from her face during morning sickness. It all seemed so childish now that she'd chosen to go through it all alone.

"So, uh… what brings you here?" She didn't exactly want to cut straight to the chase since she knew once they did there would be no going back to being civil. Damn Gossip Girl for always making new problems arise.

"I got, well everyone I guess got a text message this morning?"
The words coming off of his tongue felt strange to him, he mostly wished that the text message had been in his nightmares. It very well could have been with its subject matter.

"I didn't think… I wouldn't have believed. You and Jenns. I um… sex?"
Had everything not been so tense she might have found it in her to laugh at his nervous rambling, his flushed cheeks, and his obvious jealousy that he so clearly expressed with his clenched fists. Instead she glanced at him quickly before beginning to pace.

"Well I wouldn't have expected you to believe the rumors."
Not turned to face him she was a little hurt without meaning to be, her hormones liked to play games and make her emotions crazy lately. She snapped when she didn't mean to snap, she cried when she didn't mean to cry, pregnancy was driving her crazy.

"I never said I did I just…"
He shuttered out nervously his eyes locked on her as she hostilely twisted the bottom of her shirt in either annoyance or frustration he wasn't quite sure.

"Dan, you wouldn't be here to ask if you didn't see some truth to them." As he re thought about it she was completely right, he was just as no good as the rest of the people that would tomorrow invade her privacy and pry to see if there was any truth to the rumor. He couldn't have felt more guilty as he watched her sit down and hug a pillow close to her chest resting her head on it.

"Serena, I'm sorry"
Putting his hand absentmindedly on her knee she jerked it away, she didn't even want him to touch her, he couldn't touch her when she wanted so bad to sob to him and confess that she was in fact pregnant and the baby was most definitely one hundred percent his. But on the other hand his accusations and thoughts pushed her even further from telling him.

"No, you're the one that's not supposed to be like the rest… Dan you're not…"
What she was doing and what she was thinking suddenly nothing was clear to her as she was leaning into him, meeting his lips with her own. For a brief moment time stood still as her lips pulled his bottom into her mouth and his hands slipped around her waist. The moment their lips parted and their tongues met everything felt blissful and right. Neither one of them was thinking as she let him push her backwards and pin her under him on the couch. It was a meeting of the minds in blankness and passion as nothing else mattered but one another. Then as his hands slowly started to slip from her back to her hips Serena's mind snapped back to the present. She ended the kiss immediately and jerked her body away from him as he stood up right away, his hand situated over his mouth as they looked at one another blankly.

"I um… I, you need to go"
Breathing was suddenly difficult as her mind tried to work and process what they'd just done, how she'd kissed him without thinking about how Amanda would feel if she found out. God forbid he'd noticed the very slight bump and asked about it, it was something he most definitely couldn't find out about.

"Yea um… I think I'd better"
Agreeing he was just as shaken up as she was as he ran his finger over his lips, her taste still on his mouth, the feel of her still under his fingertips. He walked to the door and opened it.

"Another thing, I don't… I don't think we should talk to each other anymore."
The words killed her to expel out of her mouth, the thought of not looking at his face or hearing any words come out of his mouth intended for her was a thought she absolutely hated but if that's what it took to give him up and make sure that he got the things he needed like moving on, so be it, it was what she had to do.
He turned around quickly, he didn't want her to see just how much it was killing him. She'd been his dream girl since 05 and suddenly she was pushing him from her life. Soon as the door shut behind him he sunk down against the wood, not knowing that on the other side of the door she'd done the same exact thing.

They both had the same hurt-filled tears sliding down their cheeks.

We'll write a song (we'll write a song)
That turns out the lights (turns out the lights)
When both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
(Nothing at all)
Don't waste your time
Speed up your breathing
(Nothing at all)
Just close your eyes
We'll hope it's not for nothing at all
Nothing at all