" So where are we going to?" I asked Edward as he drove away from school.
" You'll see." he smiled.
" No woods… I hope."
" No, I don't want to freak you out." he joked
" I won't be scared when you are close to me." I answered, I knew this wasn't right, I shouldn't say thing like this to him, but somehow I didn't controlled it.
We arrived at the place and I followed him until stopped and smiled at me.
" Don't you love the view here?" he asked
" Yes, I do." I looked before me as the only thing I saw was tree's and the sea. The wind blew in our hair and the only thing we heard were birds.
" How did you found this place?" I asked.
" When I drove to my dads house. Anyway, I brought us some snacks and drinks." he smiled as he sat down.
" Ooh" I wasn't prepared to this. I sat down next to him as I was wondering how to deal with that.

" How come you and your family always sit together?"
" We got here a year ago, and actually we moved a lot before and I guess we are a bit tired of meeting new people and then leaving them behind."
" But you did search contact with me."
" Some people you can't resist." Wrong move, bella!
" Thanks…. I guess…. There aren't plans for moving out now, huh?"
" Not that I know." I winked.
" good." he said as he came closer. I froze because he was too close, if I pulled away it could go wrong. I concentrated on what could happen. His scents was strong and I could feel my hunt instinct coming hands were fists and then I felt his lips on mine. I didn't kissed back but I couldn't pull back either. He pushed his lips harder on mine and I couldn't ignore it anymore.

" Don't!" I said getting up.
" I'm sorry." he said as he stood up swell. I felt so sorry for him he didn't knew how to react.
" No, don't… you didn't do anything wrong. I…" I closed my eyes as I tried to find the right words.
" … I can't explain." I said weak. He just nodded as he sighed.
" Shall I bring you home?" he asked.
" I think that wouldn't be such a bad idea."

We didn't spoke a word till we passed by his place.
" You can stop here. It isn't that far, and…"
" I'll bring you home." he said without looking at me. I knew I hurt him and that made me feel even worser.
" No no, I could use a little walk." He stopped his car and waited for me to walk out.
" I'm sorry that I destroyed it." I said weak.
" You didn't, I shouldn't have …" I placed my finger on his lips.
" I just wasn't prepared for that to happen. That's all." I smiled and kissed his cheek.
" You sure I shouldn't bring you home?"
" Yes, I'll see you tomorrow." I said and closed the door. I waited until Carlisle arrived for taking over the shift. I made my way through the wood as I stopped by seeing her.

" So so so, you are falling for a human." she smiled as she walked around me.
" You won't be able to get to him."
" I will, I got forever but I guess you figured that out already… It's such a shame though. You and him looked so cute at that rock."
I tried to ignore her comments.
" I will kill him, even if that was the last thing I did." she whispered and disappeared.

" Are you ok?" Alice asked as I walked in.
" She goes too far with those threats!" Emmet said mad.
" She's careful, she won't appear if we all are here." Jasper noticed.
" We could search her." Rosalie said.
" She never can't be too far from Edward, she will take every second she can to kill him, even if it was only to get to us. She knows we are protecting him." I said.
" you're right, and she would love it even more if you saw it happen." Alice said looking at me.
" I know."
" Are you ok?" Esmé asked.
" I'm fine." I lied.

" you don't have to do this, Bella." Rosalie said as we were alone.
" Do what?"
" Hurt yourself." she said as she took my hands in hers.
" You know before Emmet came along there was this other guy…. Carlisle told me I had to go back to school, It was my first school day since I was changed. I always made it in high school because of my looks." she laughed more to herself." … So then he came, he was so different from other guys and still he blinded me with his beauty. Carlisle warned me to be careful. But I knew I would never hurt him. I loved him. he asked me on a date and I was so happy. So I was ready to go. And then I realized that it was stupid, that I was just hurting myself more by hanging out with him. So I decided to end it that evening. I knew then that Carlisle wasn't scared that I would hurt that boy, but he was scared that I would hurt myself. Carlisle knew it would be easier to start all over somewhere else."
" Do you ever think about that guy?"
" Sometimes, but different… but then again I got Emmet." she smiled.
" I don't want you to get hurt, Bella. Even if that would risk that guy his life."
" Rosalie! You just did not say that!" I said as she looked shocked at me.
" How could I ever forgive us that?" I asked as she blinked twice.
" I… we… Bella I'm just scared." she walked in as she saw on Rosalie's face we didn't had a chitchat, Rosalie just left the place as Alice looked at me.
" You want to talk about that?" She asked.
" she said something she didn't meant." I smiled weak.
" Like what?"
" She's scared that I would hurt myself by hanging out with Edward."
" You really like him huh?" she smiled as she sat down on the floor.
" I almost attacked him today, Alice." I said as she jumped up again.
" You what? I didn't saw it happen." she said.
" Because I was trying to control myself."
" What happen?"
" He kissed me."
" he what?" She asked hyper with a smiled on her face.
" It isn't a good thing, Alice!" she looked shocked for a second by my little out burst.
" I guess we should search miss red head soon then." she smiled weak and left the room again.

I arrived at school as I could smell Edward coming closer. He softly kissed my cheek and the greeted me.
" So you forgive me about yesterday?" he smiled cute.
" Forgive what?" I winked.
" So would you mind if I kissed you now?" he whispered in my ear. I saw Emmet walking down the corridor.
" Yes, but then only because there are too many people here." He said.
" Why don't we get away then." he said. I should have said no, but I couldn't, I wasn't controlling myself anymore, I nodded yes, but wanted to scream no

We walked to a quiet place as he start kissing me.
" Edward I…"
" You what?" he asked through the kisses.
" Nothing." I kissed him back to weak to resist and already planning how I should leave him.
" I guess I might love you, Bella." he said as he looked at me with a smile.
" I guess we are making a mistake." I said as he looked at me in disbelieve.
" But I guess we'll deal with that later." I said and kissed him again. I needed him more then he needed me on this moment. I couldn't think of anything else then the moment I was into.
" Bella, calm down. What is going on?" he asked as he looked at me.
" Nothing? What is it?" I asked as I saw he suprised face.
" You're … eyes. They look…" I could tell he was scared
" I should go home." I said as I left. I knew how I looked now, and it scared me that I didn't even realised this was happening
I could hear him shout my name, but I ignored it.

" What are you doing here?" Carlisle asked. He walked my way as he saw my eyes.
" Bella, calm down."
" I need to get away, I'm going to kill him." I said scared.
" You won't, Bella, You're stronger then that, you know that."
" I'm not so sure, Carlisle."