I walked into the kitchen and stood next to Edward.

"I was supposed to be doing that," I said as Edward washed off the last plate.

"No, you're a guest," He said.

I huffed and mumbled to myself about how he loved to make his own decisions.

I heard a really loud gasp and I turned back to Edward.

"I've got to go do something," I said grabbing my keys and making my way to the door.

My thoughts were killing me.

I needed to get out.

I was just about out the door when I heard Alice's clear voice shout out, "No!"

I shuddered only imagining what part they were at. I nearly yanked the door off the hinges trying to get out of the house.

I knew it probably wasn't the best choice to be trying to drive at 9:00 pm while angry, but I needed to get out.

I sighed. I closed the door and stepped back inside. I needed to calm down before Emmett was burying another one of his family members.

I was nearly suicidal for 3 months after my mother's death.

Emmett needed me a lot after that. I had to comfort Emmett and Charlie afterwards. I was suicidal and I was comforting. It amazes me too.

I closed the kitchen side door softly and walked quickly up the stairs.

I pulled out the bottle of anti depressants and my laptop.

I grabbed the pill bottle and went downstairs.

I was walking into the kitchen when I walked into Edward.

I fell on my ass and said, "Shit."

The pill bottle fell out of my hand and I nearly dropped dead when Edward picked it up for me.

I stood up and Edward studied the bottle for a second then handed it to me. He mumbled his apologizes and then walked past me.

Damn it, I really did like him.

I've made myself a fool in front of him for the second time now.

"Fuck," I muttered under my breath.

I grabbed a glass and put water in the cup.

I hadn't really taken any of these pills… Ever.

I put one in my hand and sat the rest on the island.

I stared at it for a second and then popped it in my mouth. I swallowed it and swallowed the cup of water.

Not so bad.

I grabbed the bottle and went back upstairs.

I had just closed my door and sat on my bed when there was a knock at my door.

I curiously opened it and found a tear stained Alice. I understood, people who heard my story always cried.

I hugged her tightly and she whispered, "Oh my gosh Bella, I am so sorry."

I smiled weakly and said, "Don't feel bad for me. It's over now, Shh."

I never understood why I had to comfort people after they heard my story. It didn't make much sense to me, but I couldn't let people just cry and feel bad for me. It ended a few years ago, I'm successful now, and it's over!

I pulled her to my bed and she cried into my shirt. I was momentarily confused, usually people cried for a second and then stopped.

She stopped crying and held me.

I rocked her back and forth and then she pulled away. She wiped her eyes with the back of her hands.

I stared at her for a second and then she said, "I'm so sorry, Bella."

I wasn't sure if she was apologizing for crying on me or crying at all or apologizing for my story.

I said, "Its okay Alice."

She nodded and then I said, "You know that ended a few years ago. I'm all better now."

I was lying through my teeth and she probably knew it.

She took the comfort and then I said, "Well if Edward didn't hate me before he obviously does now."

She looked at me oddly and then she asked, "Why do you say that?"

"Well I ran into him while I was going into the kitchen. I mean, ran into him. I fell down on my ass. Then he grabbed my pill bottle and now he knows I'm on anti depressants," I said. I fell back onto the bed and put my hands above my head.

She didn't say anything and then I looked back down to where she was. She wasn't there anymore.

I sighed and rolled my head back so I was looking at the ceiling.

A few minutes later there was someone clearing their throat and a knocking on my door.

"Yes Alice?" I asked closing my eyes.

"I'm not Alice. But if you want I can go get her," Edward said. I heard the smile in his voice.

I groaned and waved him in.

I still didn't sit up.

I was assuming he walked in.

The bed sunk down to my right.

Assumption confirmed.

We sat in awkward silence until I broke the silence.

"So…Did you come in here to sit on the awesomely comfortable bed or…?" I trailed off.

"Oh. Yeah. Alice wanted me to come down here and tell you I don't hate you," He said.

"Wow, actually that came out wrong. Alice came up and said you thought I hated you. I told her I didn't so she told me to come down and tell you. That sound better?" He asked.

I giggled and nodded my head.

Wait you just giggled?

We sat in a comfortable silence and then he broke it.

"Can I ask you a personal question? And feel free to say no," He said.

I was still lying down with my arms above my head. Then I stiffened

"Sure," I said.

"Okay. Why do you take anti depressants?" He asked slowly.

I sighed and then he rushed to say, "You don't have to answer if you don't want to."

"It's okay. It has something to do with my past. I just can't talk about it," I said.

"Okay," He said a little saddened.

I sat up and said, "No really I can't tell you."

He cocked an eyebrow and from his facial expression I could tell he was really confused.

"After it happened I vowed to myself I would never tell anyone, other than your mom and my brother," I explained.

He nodded and then we sat in an awkward silence.

"Well if it's that bad then I don't want you to have to relive it," He said quietly.

I smiled and then he stood up quickly.

I stared up at him confused and he said, "We have to go out shopping again."

"What is up with you guys and shopping?" I mumbled.

I don't know if he heard me but I was being pulled up by my arm and then pushed out my door.

He pushed me into the hallway and then stopped. I turned around and glared at him.

"Please come shopping with me?" He asked. He pouted. He pouted.

I melted instantly and nodded my head dumbfounded.

He grinned and I followed him down the stairs.

I climbed into the passenger seat of his Volvo and we drove to the store.

When we pulled up in front of Target I was really confused.

"Wha-?" I started but was cut off by Edward getting out of the car.

I got out and then he started heading for the doors of Target.

What do they even sell at Target?

He walked inside with me about 2 feet away from him.

He walked past a few things and then I caught up to him.

"Hey! Speedy Gonzalez. Slow down there," I said catching him by the arm.

He slowed down and then blushed.

Heh…That's my job…

"Sorry," He said.

He walked to the movies and then pulled out two.

I stared at them and then he waved his hand, dismissing my silent question of what they were.

"I have to go get something… I'll meet you back here in 10 minutes, okay?" I asked him.

"Sure," He said.

I don't know what had gotten into him. He was acting like an over excited 12 year old.

I grabbed a card from the card section and then grabbed a gift card.

I'm not sure what it was for. I think it was an ITunes gift card.

I found Edward where I had left him and he had a few more movies in his hand.

I quirked an eyebrow and he shrugged.

We checked out and the whole time Edward kept trying to look at what I had gotten.

When we got to the car I was at a dilemma of where to put my cards…

I snuck them into his glove compartment and shut it quickly while he was in the trunk.

He came back around and got in the driver's seat.

When he sat down he started the car.

I idly wondered if he ever used his radio…

Then he turned on the radio.

I've got super powers…

I laughed at myself.

He looked over at me and said, "What?"

"Sorry, I was just…It's nothing," I said blushing a deep scarlet.

He nodded with a smile on his face.

He turned to look up at the road and when we got home I waited for him to get out. I grabbed my stuff from his glove compartment and went inside.

I was halfway upstairs when Alice said from the top of the stairs, "Bella you're home!"

I quickly said hi and turned around to go back downstairs. Edward was down a few steps with bags in his hands.

Tricky little people…

"Well…Seems you have effectively trapped me," I said.

Alice seemed confused so I held up my bag and she squealed.

She raced down the stairs and was about to grab the bag when I said, "Please don't."

She stopped instantly and I said, "You can wait until Thursday, can't you?"

She stepped up a stair and then nodded.

I laughed and ran up the stairs. I put my cards in my suitcase and then went downstairs.

Edward was sitting on the floor in front of the couch, Alice was stretched out on the couch, and a boy was sitting on the end of the couch.

I walked into the living room and cleared my throat lightly.

The boy turned to me and I almost fell on my ass from pure shock.

He was beautiful…

Not Edward beautiful…but oh yeah.

Wait…what?

He stood up and extended his hand, "Jacob, Jacob Black."

"I'm Bella Swan," I said shaking his hand.

When I dropped his hand he stood there for a second staring at me then turned and sat back down, blushing slightly.

I giggled and took a seat next to Edward on the floor.

Wait…giggled?

I nudged Edward in the side and whispered, "What are you watching."

"Star Trek," He whispered back.

It was just starting apparently; at least that's what Alice said.

When we saw an older version of Kirk on the scream Alice immediately exclaimed, "Ooh! What a hottie."

I nodded in agreement and then the bar fight took place. I was extremely into it and then when it was all said and done I sat back against the couch realizing I had lean closer to the screen. I blushed and said, "Guys fighting…is uh…fun…to watch."

Alice laughed and said, "By…uh…fun…you mean fucking hot, right?"

"Oh yeah," I said laughing.

When the movie was over I had cried once…Weird, I know. I cried at the very beginning when Kirk was being born and his dad was driving the ship into the enemies so his wife lived…Touching.

Esme made dinner and the announced that the snow was starting to come down heavy so Jacob would have to go home soon.

Apparently Alice and Jacob had had a 'thing' back in high school. They were just friends now. Alice had said that about fifty times then said, "He's single by the way."

Jacob and I really did click, but only in a friend way. Not a…'hey I want to jump your bones' way…

I hugged Jake; he told me to call him Jake, "My friends call me Jake, so you call me Jake."

When everyone went to their separate rooms I called Jasper.

It rang twice before he answered, "Hello?"

"Hi Jazzy," I said.

"Bella! What's up my favorite klutz?" He asked.

"Oh you know, just hanging out with my therapist, and her family. Same old same old," I said.

"Oh. How's that going? Having any fun?" He asked.

"A blast! There's this guy – wait a second," I said. I got off my bed, opened the door, looked both ways down the hall way, and stepped back into my room. Locking the door I sat back down on my bed.

"Okay, so there's this guy," I dropped my voice to a whisper, "It's actually Dr. Cullen's son," I said continuing in a louder voice, "And I've got it bad for him. I mean bad. I didn't even know it was possible to crush on a guy you knew for such a short time."

I was rambling…

"Bells…" Jasper had that cold ice tone.

"Jas, come on, you haven't even met him. You could like fall in love with him, he's charming, funny, loveable, cute, hot, sexy, everything I need," I said.

"Bella!" Jasper shouted.

"What?" I asked shaking my head from the rather perverse thoughts that flooded my mind.

"Bells, I'm happy for you and all it's just that…I don't know. It's just you said you just met the guy, what if he's like a total creep," He said.

"Oh, but, Jas! He's not! He can't be! He's just so…right. I don't know! It's just I feel this connection with him and every time I'm even near him that little fire inside me sparks. Jazzy it could probably only take a little to ignite it. At least with him," I said defending Edward.

He sighed and I instantly missed him. I never did like going far from home. I kind of wanted to be at home with Jasper instead of in this house. On the other hand…Edward was here…

Maybe Jasper can move out here? Heh…

Happy thoughts…

Suddenly there was a knock on my door. Odd….

I got out of my bed and told Jasper to hang on. I covered the speaker with my hand and answered the door.

"Oh, hi, Alice," I said.

She looked at my phone and then at me, "Who are you talking to?"

She's just curious.

"Jasper," I said matter-of-factly.

"Oh," She said.

She stood there and then I said, "Would you like to come in, Alice?"

She nodded rapidly and then she flooded into my room.

I uncovered my phone and said, "So, Jasper, I'm going to put you on speaker so you can talk to Alice too."

I closed the door, after checking to make no one else was in the hallway.

I turned my phone on speaker. Jasper and Alice simultaneously said, "Who Alice?" "Who's Jasper?"

I laughed and said, "Alice meet Jasper, Jasper meet Alice. Alice is Dr. Cullen's daughter, Jasper is my uh… what are you Jazzy?"

"Lifeline, bestest friend in the world, savior, awesome-est person in the world, only guy friend, fucking awesome friend that is there for me whenever I need him regardless if he is at a meeting or with his girlfriend shall I say ex-girlfriend now…" He trailed off.

I laughed and said, "Yep, that's Jasper…"

Alice quickly pitched in her thoughts to me by writing on a large pad next to my bed with an ink pen she made materialize out of nowhere… I'm sure of it.

"LIKING THE SOUTHREN DRAWL. WHERE'S HE FROM?"

"So, Jas, how'd your meeting go?" I asked.

I grabbed the paper from Alice and quickly wrote down, "ALABAMA. WANT ME TO HOOK YOU TWO UP? "

She abruptly laughed and Jasper stopped midsentence.

He laughed warily and said, "Right…anyways after the manager finished yelling at me for having the wrong folder I…" He droned on about how his manager hates him and his co-worker loves him and his boss practically asked him to go down on her.

"JASPER HALE WHITLOCK! That is completely inappropriate for a phone conversation," I said.

He laughed and said, "Excuse me, I've had a few to drink."

I laughed and said, "Without me? I'm extremely saddened by that."

He started to laugh, then there was a loud bang followed by a string of profanities, a loud smack and another string of profanities. "Jas, are you okay there buddy?" I asked.

The phone crackled then he said, "Jesus, you put that counter there? What, did you say something, Bells?"

I laughed and said, "Are you okay there?"

"Oh, yeah, I dropped the phone and then when I went to pick it up I banged my head on the damn table," He said.

I laughed and said, "Who's the klutz now?"

He laughed along with me and after a few hiccup attacks from Jasper and a few bickering comments from me I finally got him to lay his drunken ass down. Before he hung up he mumbled out, "Call you tomorrow, Bells. Tell Alissssssss I ssssssaid bye."

"Alright Jazzy, will do. Love you," I said.

"Love you too," He practically sang.

I hung up giggling and said, "Alissssssss Jasper ssssssssays bye."

She laughed along with me and eventually we were separating to go to bed. I quickly called Emmett before going to bed and to my surprise Rose answered the phone.

"Emmett Swan's phone," She said.

"Yeah, Rose? Can I talk to Emmett please?" I asked politely.

Rose was always understanding of my situation, and I always pushed Emmett out my door so she would continue to be understanding.

"He's uh… a little tied up at the moment," She said giggling.

Um…Okay?

"Well…Tell him I called? Tell him I love him…Oh and tell him to call me back, please?" I asked her.

"Sure thing, Bella, Happy Holidays," She said still laughing.

Why is it so funny?

"Happy Holidays Rose," I said hanging up.

Odd….

A/N: Okay next chapter? Well you'll just have to find out what it's about when you read it… Coming soon. Promise.

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