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Chapter 2:

Broken Bones and Broken Hearts

My head was racing as I drove to the Cullen's house. It was only drizzling outside now but the raindrops were hitting my windshield as if it were a thunderstorm. I was driving too fast in hopes that my thoughts would be somehow left behind. The roads were shinny and slick as Jacob's voice kept ringing through my head with words like "Philia" and "Prey" and "Lust." If I was smart I would just cut Jacob out and move on, but he wasn't the only one with a voice in my head. The things that Jane said as we were leaving the Volturi were present as well, but with her it's just the same phrase over and over "does she know?"

I pulled into the drive way to the house I was so familiar with but hadn't seen in too long. The dirt road was now mud due to the rain, and I was loosing traction. I tried to slow down but my mind was somewhere else. I was skidding toward the house as a large moss cover tree kept getting closer and closer. Finally realizing that I might be in danger I slammed on the brakes, but my truck had other ideas. I didn't slow down and I stopped going in a straight line. The truck switched and the back end was coming forward making me go sideways toward the tree, I turned the wheel sharp and fast over and over as I vehemently stomped on the brake again and again. The tree just kept coming, closer and closer, till my only option was to jump out of the truck I loved so much and save myself. I opened the door and looked at the ground speeding underneath me, a blur of green and brown. I stood on my left leg and got ready to jump, but something stopped me, I looked down at my other foot and my white shoelace was caught on the brake peddle. I yanked and yanked with no avail then as soon as I glanced out the passenger side window to determine how bad this was going to hurt I hit the tree and flew toward the impact.

I heard something snap and pain was everywhere. Slowly my eyes got blurry and heavy. As I was drifting off Jacob and Jane's voices in my head were replaced with screams and urgent commands.

I awoke in a beautifully lit room and lines and lines of bookshelves. Only one place has this many books outside of a library, I was in Carlisle's office. I blink a couple of times to get my eyes clear and I can see that my accident was not lost on anyone. The whole family was there staring down at me as I regained consciousness. Rosalie must have thought I was fine when I opened my eyes and quickly left the room. Carlisle was at the foot of his table fiddling with my leg that I couldn't feel, and Esme was sitting at the far corner of the room with Jasper and Alice who all took a very large sigh when I looked over at them.

"You know we always made fun of you for driving too slow, but maybe you humans just can't handle true speed," Alice said with a smirk.

I gave out a little chuckle before I realized someone was missing from the room, "Edward, where is Edward," I sat up quickly and started to look around the room which was now spinning.

Carlisle put a hand on my chest and forced me to lie back down, "he's outside with Emmett trying to fix the truck, lay down Rosalie will retrieve him."

Just as soon as Carlisle was done talking Edward entered with Emmett, both covered in mud and black gunk I assumed was grease. "How bad Carlisle," Edward said looking at my leg with a less than sympathetic tone.

"Well she really only popped her ankle out of place, I put it back and wrapped it, but she's going to need to go to the hospital to see if there is any ligament damage."

"What in the world were you thinking Bella, driving like that, you could have killed yourself," his eyes pierced mine as he scolded me like I was a child.

"I needed to see you as soon as possible…" there really was no excuse that I could explain right now in front of everyone, "I guess I wasn't really thinking."

"Well when Carlisle is done with you we are going to the hospital," his anger was not subsiding. This was odd, Edward never stayed mad at me for more than a few moments.

"Fine," I said with a growl and he started to leave which made me try and sit up again, "I'm sorry."

He was already gone; Alice came over to my side and took my hand. She didn't seem mad, more amused than anything else. "He's right you know you do have to be more careful."

"I know, a lot's happened today, that's all."

"I understand, but we just saved him from himself because he thought you were dead, he really doesn't know how to deal with you in pain."

"Alice, I know ok," now I was getting upset, I know she meant well, but she had no idea what I had just heard and the effect it was having on me.

Carlisle finished wrapping up my foot and moved to my side, "Ok, Edward is going to take you to the hospital and I'll meet you there, do you want me to call Charlie, or do you want to?"

"No I think I'll handle this one, I'm supposed to be grounded. I think anyone else he talks to about this might just get thrown in jail."

Emmett picked me up and threw me over his shoulder like a caveman and took me to the car. I strapped into the passenger's side and looked around for Edward. I caught a glimpse of my truck and wanted to cry, the entire passenger's side was caved in and smoke was coming from under the hood. One of the front wheels had popped off and rolled 20 feet to the front of the house. Emmett must have seen my look of horror and knocked on the window. I rolled it down and he came in for a hug.

"We'll fix that before you're even out of the hospital Bella, no worries," he said as he tried too hard to fit his massive size through the tiny window.

"No, its ok I'll deal with it."

"I really would rather just take it to a shop; I deserve to be without a car for a while anyway."

With that, he shook his head and left crossing the path and eyes of a still angry Edward. He got into the car, strapped in and began to drive without saying a word. I felt tense and uncomfortable so I decided to turn on the radio. As my finger touched the knob, his entire hand reached out and took mine away before I could turn it on.

"What," I said angrily, "you're not talking to me, I know you're upset, you just want to sit here in silence."

"Yes," he said matter-of-factly

"Edward I know why you're upset OK, I get it, but I'm fine."

"I know, and I'm grateful for that, but Bella you really do have to be more careful. I really can't live without you," he seemed worried when he said this, like he was expecting to have to live without me in the near future.

"Ok we really need to talk now, Edward, Jacob told me some things that I need you to tell me aren't true."

"I've been waiting for this since Jane opened her mouth," the car was speeding up, which made me nervous. Is it possible that what Jacob said could be true?

"What is philia, Edward?"

"Philia? Jacob actually said the word philia?" The tone in his voice was shocked.

"Yeah, he said that vampire's have this ability to make people fall in love with them."

"That's ridiculous we can't make anyone fall in love with us, that's not how it works," He said solemnly, the truth was coming and from his tone I think I would rather him lie to me.

"What is philia Edward," I said trying to catch my breath, I felt faint and I knew without looking at myself that I had just lost all the remaining color from my face, not that I had much to begin with.

"It's a skill we have, a trick for those who hunt humans," there was a long pause like he was also waiting in exhale. "A vampire can exude a sort of scent that attracts humans. Do you remember when you first found out what I was?"

"Yeah, you said that people don't exactly know what you are, just that you were different. People would want to be around you, but be scared of you at the same time, and they wouldn't really know why."

"Well that's what philia is to an extent, except the part where people want to stay away." He reached for my hand and brushed his finger tips against the skin, "Philia prevents people from running, instead of running they will follow you where ever you go, it's not love its lust. The promise of sex that a human simply can't say no to." My skin tingled at his touch and my head got fuzzy, in that moment all I wanted was to kiss him and forget everything.

He removed his hand and a sharp cold pain was left in its wake, my head was clear and I was speechless, was it all a lie, this whole thing? Did I really love him or was it some kind of spell? "Did you…" I looked down trying not to make eye contact with him, if he didn't my question would upset him, but if he did… "Do that to me, put a spell on me?"

Nothing, not one more word for the rest of the car ride. We pulled up to the hospital and Carlisle was already waiting for me with a wheelchair. Edward kept looking forward past the windshield as if I wasn't even there. I got out of the car and closed the door slowly behind me. As Carlisle wheeled me away my eyes never left him, he sat there not moving in that car, and I stared in amazement until the hospital doors closed behind me.

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