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Chapter 10:

Pitch Black and White Light

I awoke once more sore and delirious; the same hanging light was the only thing that let me see where I was. Memories flushed back to me of Jacob and Ayden, I looked down and my jeans were around my ankles. The overwhelming feeling of despair and anger ripped through my whole body and tears jetted down my face. I looked around to see where he was but there was nothing, just the same chipped paint walls and the freezing cold. I pulled my pants back up and stumbled towards the door. It was still dark outside and I was surrounded by trees, nothing jumped out at me to make me think I could possibly know where I was.

In the distance I could faintly hear a car drive on the road, that was my first objective. If I could get to the road I could find someone to take me home. After that I had to find out where Jacob was and if he was ok. My whole body was tense and sore especially between my legs; every step I took was like walking on a tightrope. Small steps didn't seem to hurt as bad, but every time I lifted my leg to take another step fire shot inside of me, it was excruciating.

I couldn't see in which direction I was supposed to be going, it was just so dark outside. Paranoia started to set in as the creatures around me made noise and moved this way and that. There was a large snap behind me and without thinking I ran, adrenaline set in and my pain was that last thing on my mind, Ayden must have noticed I left the shed where he kept me and was now running after me. The sounds were catching up to me and I could feel the hairs on the back of my neck stand on end.

Bam! I slammed hard into a tree and fell down. I sat up and looked around but the sound that was chasing me had stopped.

"Oh my god, Bella, are you ok?" it wasn't a tree that hit me, the voice was familiar, but I couldn't see a thing. A hand grabbed mine and yanked me up till I was standing. The pain shot through me again and I let out a yelp. "What happened?" as soon as the figure said that I knew who it was, Alice must have had a vision of me when Ayden left me.

I started to sob and couldn't answer her; my whole body was tense and convulsing. She threw me over her shoulder and like a bullet she darted off to the road. We reached the road in seconds and I saw Emmett's jeep parked there, Emmett was inside and so was Jasper. I wanted to smile, even run over to him because he was ok, but I had no energy left, and no emotions either. Alice put me down and both Emmett and Jasper ran over to me to help me walk to the car.

They drove me to Carlisle whose eyes were in shock as he opened the door and saw my state. Edward was by my side in seconds and ushered me to Carlisle's office to get checked out. I sat myself on his desk and he pulled up a chair as Carlisle began his examination.

" What happened, Bella," he said concerned and seemed a little confused.

"Jacob… they took Jacob," in my head it sounded panicked, but the words came out slowly and tired.

"Who took him?" Carlisle asked

"The Hoh tribe," I said trying to stay awake.

"Is that who did this to you?" Edward said as his fists balled up and his teeth clenched. I simply nodded.

I saw Carlisle's eyes move down to my jeans which showed signs that they were ripped open, my shirt was in tatters. He gave me a look I have never seen before, anger and mourning, he knew. As he looked me in the eyes I shook my head vehemently trying to tell him not to think about it, Edward can't know, no one can.

It was too late, Edward shot up out of his chair, "Edward, no," I tried to scream and he looked back down at me.

"Bella," He said and his eyes started to well up.

"Please, just find Jacob," I said, and he flew out of the room. "Carlisle, please don't say anything."

"I won't," he said and took my hands in his, "I'm so sorry."

"I need to go home," I said and looked at the clock, I had been through hell and knew I couldn't tell anyone, I had to concern myself with the things in my control. I had to be back in time for curfew. He nodded and took me downstairs, got me some clothes, and told Emmett to drive me home.

The car ride was silent, Emmett, I'm sure didn't know what to say. For me, there was a million things going through my mind, but it felt like my voice box was ripped out of my throat. He dropped me off and I walked into my house hoping that Charlie wouldn't ask too many questions. Emmett must have felt my fear and he walked me to the door, when he opened it and we walked in, Charlie was sitting on the couch, and just like this morning he wasn't alone. Charlie jumped up and ran over to me.

"Bella, what happened to your face?" he said concerned

"Oh, we went hiking today," Emmett chimed in when I couldn't bring myself to speak. "We went up a cliff and she tripped on a rock, Carlisle looked at her. He says she is fine, just some bruising."

"Bella, you're hiking now?" the voice was familiar, but one I hadn't heard in awhile. Renee jumped off the couch and came running over to me, she pulled me into a bear hug and kissed my face.

"Mom?" I chocked out.

"Hi honey." She said as she sniffed in, her eyes were puffy like she had been crying, and when I looked down her hand contained a crumpled tissue.

"What are you doing here?"

"Long story, you see…" she started but I just wasn't up for this right now.

"Sorry, mom but I'm really tired, can you tell me in the morning. I just want to go to bed." She seemed surprised and maybe even a little hurt that I wasn't as excited to see her as she thought I was going to be. She nodded and I made my way upstairs, I made a pit stop in the bathroom and heard Charlie and Renee say goodbye to Emmett.

I got out my toothbrush added the toothpaste and started to brush my teeth, but my heart stopped and I lost all mussel control making the toothbrush fall out of my hand and into the sink. I didn't recognize myself; the entire left side of my face was black and blue, mud and leaves were tangled in my hair, and my wrists were red and the backs were bloody. My knees buckled and I fell to the floor, my mind raced on what happened, and I couldn't get Ayden's face out of my head. His face haunted me, he looked angry and yet serene, his eyes looked at me like I was nothing, not a person, not anything at all. I didn't matter, and nothing he did to me mattered.

I sat there for a while, silent and blank. I got up without telling my body to do it and went to lie down on my bed. I covered myself in the blankets and closed my eyes; I would let the dreams take over.

I awoke to Renee sitting on my bed tickling the tip of my nose with her forefinger. "Wake up sunshine," she said softly.

I got up of bed and walked over to my dresser to put on some clothes, "I'm going to be late for school," I said lazily.

"Oh no you don't," She said, and pulled the pair of jeans I had gotten out, out of my hands. "It is my first day back with my daughter and I'm not losing half of it because of school."

A sigh of relief came over me when I realized I didn't have to see anybody and answer their questions about how my weekend was, "So what are we doing instead?" I asked a bit more excited.

"Girl's day, I got some ice cream and a crap ton of coffee, we are going to hang out all day here and catch up." She said her eyes lit up. She pulled me down the stairs and sat me down at the table, and started making coffee.

"So mom, what are you doing here," I said trying to start a conversations that she will be able to speak more through, and not ask me too many questions. My mom always had a lot to say but when it came to listening she could pick up on things that no one else on the planet would get, girl's day was dangerous.

She began to explain the story to me and I couldn't help but be sucked in. I was expecting her to just say she missed me and that she needed some time away from Phil, but my mother was in pain. Phil had lost his job with his team when he stopped showing up at practices. He seemed to be having troubles with alcohol and when he lost his job he became very depressed. My mom described the situation as a avalanche. Hope, disappointment, drinking, depression, anger, and my mother was caught in the middle of it. According to her he came home one night angry and yelling and she left when his words started to cut a little too deep. She immediately hopped on a plane and called Charlie to come and pick her up at the airport. As always Charlie was there and helped her though it last night.

I felt horrible for not staying up with her last night, knowing now what she had just been through, but in the end she said she was grateful that I was so tired and had to go to bed, I guess she didn't want me to see her like that. Still, I had always taken care of her when she had men troubles, and I doubt Charlie had much advice on the topic.

Unfortunately for me, her story didn't take more than an hour or two to tell and it was now my turn to fill her in. "So how is everything here," she said pouring me my third glass of coffee.

I could feel the lies seeping through me, and I knew I had to talk. "Fine, everything's fine."

"How is school?" She pressed.

"Good, boring… but good."

"How is Edward," she said, and she had me. My eyes started to well up and my tongue was tied.

"We're not together anymore."

"What happened?" she said sitting back down and holding my hand.

"I don't know, I guess I just started feeling different about things."

"Oh honey I'm sorry, its ok though, it happens to everyone, hell it happens to me all the time," she gave a little smirk and I started to feel a little better. Talking to her really helped, I didn't have to give too much, and she always seemed to know that right thing to say, or at least the funny thing to say. "So you're dad told me about Jacob last night, said you went out on a date with him."

I was saved by the knock on the door. With a sigh Renee got up from the table and walked over to the door. I heard her talking to whoever was at the door for a while and then close it, when she walked back in she was smiling the biggest smile and was followed by two people. Edward and Jacob both strolled in behind her, Edward was being very proper and smiling, but as soon as Jacob saw me his teeth clenched and his face got red. I gave him the same look I gave Carlisle, though he didn't know what really happened, to Renee I was hiking yesterday, and mention of anything else would lead to questions I simply couldn't answer.

"Bella, look who it is," she said beaming, "we were just talking about you two, come in and sit down."

"Well we just wanted to make sure Bella was ok, she bumped her head really bad," Edward said still holding on to his smile.

"Don't be silly, here," she picked up her coffee and mine and started toward the living room, "I insist, come sit down in here where there is more room."

I heard her plop down on the couch and I immediately got up and flung myself onto Jacob. From what I could see he was ok, but when I hugged him he hissed a little, must be broken ribs. I kissed him several times before I noticed Edward storm off into the other room. We broke our embrace and started toward the living room.

"Are you ok," I whispered, grabbing his hand as we walked.

"I'm fine, Bella I'm so sorry…" he whispered back before I cut him off.

"Not now, and you have no reason to be sorry." Was the final thing I could get out before we were in the living room and both sat down on the couch next to Renee; Edward had decided to take the arm chair. Nobody talked, and nobody made eye contact to invoke any talking, it was an utter stand still.

"So both of you coming at once to see Bella, this must be awkward," Renee said without thought and trying to break the tension.

"Mom," I said embarrassed, this was hard enough without her poking around for answers.

"I think I should go," Edward said standing up, "It was very nice to meet you Renee and I hope it's not the last time, Bella I'll talk to you later." He headed for the door and I shot up out of my seat to let him out.

"Thank you Edward, I'm sorry about all of this," I whispered to him as he walked out of the door. He turned on the porch to face me.

"When you have time there's something we really need to talk about, you, me, and Jacob. Oh and something is up with your mom, her thoughts are…weird." I nodded and he was gone. I closed the door and went back to the couch where Renee was practically grilling Jacob.

"You are very handsome. Bella, he is very handsome," she said as I sat back down, I smiled and looked over to him he was smiling too.

"So Jacob what do you do for fun?" She said and with that we both just looked at each other with wide eyes.

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