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Chapter 11

Spinning Out of Control

Jacob handled himself almost majestically through all of Renee's questions for the next several hours. It wasn't until she asked whether or not he loved me that things got a little tense. We had said it to each other before, but never when someone asked, and never under these circumstances.

"I do," he said without even a thought, "I absolutely love your daughter."

"Oh well then, isn't that wonderful," she said beaming at me, "Jacob, would you like to stay for dinner, I'm going to make Chicken Parmesan."

He agreed with a nod and she got up to start cooking before Charlie came home.

"She seems really nice," Jacob said turning to face me.

"She's trying too hard," I said and he gave me a look of confusion, "I know her, and she is very nice, but you got away way to easy. She's in a lot of pain right now and for some reason she doesn't want me to know about it."

"Well she is your mom, maybe she doesn't want you to see her as weak or something," he said and it made sense, for everyone but Renee.

"No, when she's upset, you can tell. She doesn't care who knows," I said shaking my head, but I wasn't going to press her. It was the least I could do for not pressing me all day.

While Renee was cooking Jacob and I cuddled on the couch and watched T.V, we didn't talk about last night, and we didn't ask any questions, we just sat there. I was wrapped in his arms and trying like hell to forget everything. I was comfortable but not at ease, my body was where I wanted it to be but my mind wandered.

Charlie came home and we ate dinner with relatively no problems; except Jacob shoveling the food into his mouth and Renee vocally noticing how animalistic he was. All through dinner she just kept looking at him, like he was an alien, like she knew something was different about him. It made me eat a lot faster so both of us could be excused from the table and her scrutiny.

Charlie allowed Jacob to accompany my upstairs after some careful persuasion from Renee. I really did miss how perfectly she knew my wants and how seamlessly she could make them happen, I couldn't help but feel like I had wronged her in someway with all the lies I had been feeding her through the years.

As soon as we reached my room it's like a weight was lifted, the questions that went unasked all day poured out of both of us in seconds. "Jacob, what happened to you last night?" I asked.

"Bella, I'm so sorry, I couldn't hold them off. There was just too many and…" he said, his eyes showing true remorse. I walked over to him and hugged his neck.

"I have already told you, you have nothing to feel sorry for. I just want to know if you were ok and what they did to you."

"They just over took me, gabbed me, knocked me out. The next thing I know Edward is waking me up in the forest somewhere near my house." He looked down, he felt weak.

"They didn't ask you anything?" I pressed, making sure he didn't give up the Cullen's location.

"No, why? Bella, what did they do to you?"

I stood there silent; I looked into his eyes and completely lost motivation to speak. He already felt guilty for not being able to protect me, knowing what Ayden… what he did, I know he wouldn't be able to handle it. He was waiting for a response, and I just didn't have one. The feeling I had in the bathroom was coming back, the numbness that just makes my body go on auto pilot.

"Bella…," he said concerned.

I had to switch topics, "Nothing, I mean they knocked me around a bit, but you can see the worst of it. I'm just so happy your ok," I said and threw myself at him. I kissed him savagely practically smooshing his nose, his lips conformed to mine, and I had him. He believed me; I didn't have to answer anymore questions. The kissing intensified, like most times with Jacob, but unlike most times, something felt wrong. We moved over to the bed and fell down, all while maintaining the bond our lips were creating, but when his hand moved to my thigh I felt my body freeze and go ridged. Within seconds I felt my eyes shoot open from their closed and happy position and I looked around… but I wasn't in my room anymore. Chipped paint and wooden panels surrounded me, I looked up and my kind and considerate, loving Jacob wasn't there, the face that haunted me was staring back at me, touching me, looking at me with those eyes that weren't mad. Why wasn't he mad? Damn him for his clam expression, for his lack of feeling, those dark eyes said nothing, I was nothing.

Not again… I pushed as hard as I could away from him and threw my head into my hands. While in the darkness I felt a touch again, "NO!!" I screamed and picked up my head to face my attacker.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry," Jacob's face had returned to him and I was back in my room, "Was that too fast, I just thought…"

"it's ok, I'm sorry. I don't know what that was," I said interrupting him, but it wasn't fine. Though I was now back in reality I still felt tense and angry, I still felt scared. He looked at me puzzled but I couldn't meet his gaze, I felt as though if he looked at me, really looked at me, he would know that truth I was hiding from him so diligently.

"Problems in paradise," there came a voice from the other end of the room, and when I looked I saw Edward standing there arms crossed.

"What are you doing here?" Jacob said standing up.

"Well I told Bella I would be back later to clue her in on a couple of things, it's later." He said with a smirk.

"She doesn't need this right now, she's been through a lot." Jacob said defensively. He might have been looking out for me, but I had a feeling he was also looking out for himself and his relationship with me.

"More than you know dog," Edward said and Jacob's face turned back on me.

"God, can both of you just stop for five minutes. Edward if you have something to say then say it, but don't come in here and just start throwing insults around," I felt my face go stern and yet pleading. He was giving Jacob too much, I already hated the fact that he knew. Jacob sat back down and let Edward begin.

"Ok, I'm sorry, that was rude. I'm actually glad you are here Jacob, Jasper wasn't attacked by the Hoh pack." He said still up against the wall.

"What do you mean," I said confused.

"With everything that was going on I didn't really get a chance to tell you. He woke up about an hour before Alice saw you and came and got you, Carlisle still doesn't know why he stayed unconscious for so long, but when he woke up he explained what happened to him. Apparently we have some visitors in forks that we didn't pick up on."

"Who?" Jacob asked

"Were not really sure of all the details, but they're newborns and they are very hostile." I looked over at Jacob and was relieved that I wasn't the only one in the dark, we both gave Edward a very baffled look. "Newborns are vampire's that have just been turned, they have a thirst that seemingly can never be quenched, and are blinded by it. They would kill anything in they're way and not even know they did it, and without proper guidance by their makers they are the epitome of monsters."

"So the newborns attacked Jasper?" I asked confused, why would they attack another vampire?

"Jasper has a history with these things; it's a very long story. He said that there were three of them, like Alice saw in her vision, and they attacked him. When he fell they ran off, just like that, like they were done or something. The fact that Alice could see him in the first place should have been our first sign that it wasn't wolves, she can't see anything if you are even in proximity of what she is trying to see."

"So what does this mean for us and Bella," Jacob asked worried but a little smug when he said us and Bella, meaning him and me.

"After talking it over with Carlisle, he agrees we need to organize with you and your pack. Enough to stay out of each others way and maybe even help out a bit. The fact that there are three newborns roaming around without their maker indicates that there could be a lot more, maybe more than we can handle."

"Are you asking for my help?" Jacob said with a smirk.

"Unfortunately for all of us, yes I am. Newborns are strong, stupid and unbridled, but strong. If there are as many as Jasper thinks there could be, than we can't fight them on our own."

"Oh that's rich," Jacob said laughing, "you want me to help you kill your own kind? I'm sorry but after last night, we have our own stuff to deal with. And lesson number one in a war is don't spread yourself too thin."

"Jacob," I said and he looked over to me, "they need your help."

"And I've got bigger things on my mind than saving bloodsuckers from other bloodsuckers," Jacob snapped back.

"Would you rather have seven vampires who don't feed off of humans, or fifty who do living in your town?" Edward said keeping his composure. Jacob's face grew white, this was his problem too, and he couldn't deny it anymore. "Bella, as far as all this is concerned, I think it's best if you leave forks."

"Leave? And go where? This is my home; this is my family being threatened. I'm not leaving." I said outraged, I couldn't picture myself somewhere else while everyone I loved fought for there lives and mine. I wouldn't be able to handle the guilt if one of them got hurt or even…

"For once I agree with Edward, Bells," Jacob chimed in gently, "you have already been attacked once, and if what Edward says is true, and we help, I can't have any distractions, I can't be worrying if you're safe."

"I'm not leaving," I said firmly and I meant it, I was not leaving forks.

"We will talk about this later, right now, we need to focus on the problem at hand," Edward stepped in, knowing how little ground he or Jacob would make on that issue. "Carlisle and the rest of us would like to meet with Sam tomorrow, see what we can work out."

"What about our problems, do we just drop everything and come running when you call?" Jacob said, and his voice was angry, he didn't like being told what to do.

"Well you know what they say about dogs being man's best friend," Edward said with a chuckle. Jacob growled loudly and with force, it made me jump. "Look, if you need help with Ayden and his guys, we are willing to scratch your back if you scratch ours." Jacob calmed back down, and my heart returned to a normal pace, "Or if you prefer your belly being scratched…"

"Ok that's enough Edward," I said interrupting him before Jacob flew at him. "I'm sure Jacob will talk to Sam and get back to you, but I think it's time for you to leave."

Still smiling Edward jumped out of the window and was gone. Jacob wanted to get a head start on everything and left soon after, giving me a kiss goodnight and saying goodbye to Charlie and Renee. With every moment my life seemed to get more and more out of control. I went to sleep with too much on my mind, thank god for no dreams.

I woke up the next morning and knew I couldn't escape school. I got dressed and took a shower and went out to my truck after saying goodbye to Renee. Once again my truck wasn't empty; Jacob sat there, in the driver's side smiling at me.

"What are you doing?" I said as I walked over.

"Sorry, I didn't feel right leaving you by yourself, I had these thoughts…" but he couldn't finish, he still felt guilty about not being able to protect me.

I got in the truck without another word and we started off toward school, I dreaded every minute of my impending doom, except that I was sitting next to Jacob. We pulled into school and he parked at the end of the parking lot, he didn't have his car, so the less people seeing him get out and simply walk away, the better. I got out of the car and he wrapped me up in his huge warm arms, and the smile returned to my face. I looked up at him and was in awe at how much my mind and problems melted away. He put his hand under my chin and lifted my head up to meet his, out lips touched and moved as one.

"I love you my Bells," he said breaking away from me.

"I love you too, Jake."

We broke away from each other and as I was walking away I felt a tap on my behind, I turned back around to see his beaming face looking back at me. I shook my head and continued to walk. I made it halfway down the parking lot when I felt a hand grasp tightly on my arm and almost yank it out of the socket. In an instant I was being pulled to the tree line to the right of the parking lot, and my mind flashed back to Ayden's cool face. I looked up at who had me and shock flushed over me…

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