Close Quarters

Chapter Six

April 2010

Derek lost himself in Penelope's kisses for a minute but then reality flared to life again when he felt his cock twitching and hardening, and he knew that all he was doing was torturing himself because her body may want him but her mind and heart weren't on board anymore.

If she wanted him with all of herself she wouldn't have spent the night in JJ's room to avoid him..

He yanked his mouth off hers. She was panting for air. Her lips were already looking bruised and puffy, her lipstick sexily smeared, her eyes dark and hazy with lust. He breathed out "You don't want this."

She nipped at his bottom lip. "Do too."

"Just stop this, girl. Stop playing with fire."

She shimmed on his lap and yanked up her skirt. "Feel how wet I am, baby. How bad I want you."

He groaned with want and also from knowing he should resist. They had a lot to work out first. But he just couldn't. Not even caring that they were in a public parking lot, he let his hand caress her thigh. First the outside, as Penelope moaned and arched her back, and then the inside.

She whispered, her eyes locked on his, "See for yourself how much you turn me on."

His hand cupped her panties, over her hot and wet sex, and then one finger slipped under the lace and dipped into that wonderful wetness that was all her want for him. She was absolutely dripping. He went completely hard in that instant.

Penelope licked her lips and wiggled against him. "Hot Stuff.....get me off."

That made him go into action. He stroked her a few times and then pressed a finger deep into her and also used his thumb, on her clit, moving fast and relentlessly, taking no time to get her there slowly.

"Derek!" she gasped with pleasure.

He gave her a deep kiss and then told her "Shhhh, baby girl. You wanted this right here and now. Part of the deal is you have to be quiet or I'll stop."

She started to moan softly. Derek never heard anything so good in all his life. He shoved another finger inside of her and thrust like mad, curling his fingers and finding the spot that made her head fall back. He kissed her neck as she started to convulse. Penelope gripped his shoulders tightly and rode his hand, moaning breathlessly as she bit her bottom lip. She looked stunning as she came for him.

For all the sex he ever had in his life this mid afternoon fooling around meant the most to Derek Morgan.

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"People are starting to stare, baby girl. You need to get back into the passenger seat."

Penelope had been silent since she orgasmed. Just resting her head on his shoulder and breathing hard as her hand caressed his chest.

She was totally gone over how it felt to have Derek's fingers inside of her. To be that intimate with a man she loved as much as she loved him.

To have them be on their way to something beautiful.

Derek added "Someone could call the cops."

That made her move off him. He searched around for napkin, found some in an empty fast food bag, and wiped off his hand. She adjusted her clothes. It amazed her how fast he made her come. She always struggled with that her whole life and now she was sitting here all warm and tranquil after just a few minutes of his fingers inside of her.

She always knew that Derek would be her perfect lover. Because when she fantasized about him she came quickly and the brain was the most important sex organ there was. It mattered what was going on up there when a body was being stroked, sucked and fucked.

Fucked.

Derek could very well fuck her tonight. That made shivers go up and down her spine and heat build in between her legs again. She knew she was flushed and smiling like a fool but she didn't care.

"I told you so, Hot Stuff."

His head was laying back. He turned to lazily look at her, his eyes clouded with conflicted emotions. "What's that?"

"I do want you. I freaked out because I want you too much. Not too little. What just happened....that shows you, right?"

He didn't answer. He just leaned over and gave her a short kiss. "We're late for lunch."

Starting the car Derek got back on the road and stayed quiet after that.

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After lunch Derek sent Penelope in the SUV with JJ and Hotch, while Dave rode with him. He said he wanted to talk to Dave about the case. Derek had left the windows down while they ate just in case the SUV was reeking of sex.

All during their meal Derek was distracted. There was no way he could blow off what happened between him and Penelope- how much it turned him on to watch her come and feel her body tighten around his fingers, and then the flood of juices covering his hand.

God she had actually let him get her off. She had begged for it. She forgot about all her fears of being in public or not sexy enough or whatever hang ups she ever had. And she forgot, in that moment, because she wanted him past the point where she could think straight.

So fucking sexy.

And yet his heart was still heavy because they couldn't seem to really talk about what they felt. They hadn't had a long talk in years and the strain of that was showing now.

He should be a hell of a lot happier than this today. His baby girl might actually end up being his girlfriend, if they could figure their feelings out enough to make a real go of this, but he wasn't flying high off that thought.

He was more subdued as things nagged at him. She hadn't been with Kevin for six weeks now. Why didn't she tell him that? JJ certainly knew, Derek had no doubts about that, but he was left in the cold. Was it because Penelope didn't want him to confess his feelings for her? Or was it just that she was embarrassed, like she said, that Kevin had made her feel like a frigid woman?

The answer might be both or neither. That was the problem. Derek wasn't sure of what was really going on in her head. And, most of all, he wasn't sure if she loved him the way he loved her. She found him sexy and she would share her body with him- and for those things he was happy as hell and felt grateful- but he wanted more.

He wasn't that young guy he was when they met who would take sex and let that be enough. Not with her. He loved his baby girl.

But he wasn't feeling any love back lately. He was feeling confusion coming off her, lust and hunger, and a haunting pain that started when Battle pulled the trigger.

Penelope needed to let Derek in but he wasn't sure she was going to. Maybe she just couldn't let him be that close to her ever again. Maybe she was the one who was now scared to be vulnerable and real without a wall or a mask to hide behind.

If that was true he wasn't sure they had any chance of becoming more than they were right now.