Lil Authors note? is this bad? am i allowed to do this?

hey guys, so im a newb so sorry if this is wrong or whatever- this chapter sux, juss to letya know

The more reviews the faster i update tho =]

theres a lot in store- I just dont wanna make it that long thats why im making time go by pretty fast.

hmm, i still dont know exactly how i want this to turn out

well enjoy

I sat there and watched my phone vibrate causing the dresser to rattle. My sister came in rummaging through my drawer trying to find my curling iron as always. She paused for a second and looked at my phone, glanced at me, shrugged and walked out. Ha, I can't believe I expected more.

I ran my fingers through my hair trying to think of what to do. It was Friday for god sakes; I should not be sitting around in my room staring at the phone, eating Ben and Jerry's with bits of popcorn stuck in my hair. I sighed, put my laptop down and got myself to go to the bathroom. I hated bathrooms, I hated mirrors. Yes, I hated a lot of things. I tried to pick out the bits of popcorn from my tangled, uncontrollable hair.

How did they even get in here?

For a while, I just stared at my complexion in my over sized mirror - disgusted at what I saw.

I should call Selena

I grabbed my phone and quickly dialed her number.

"Hello" she said quickly followed by a series of "ouch" and "stop"

"Hey, are ya ok sel?" I asked concentrating on what was happening in the background.

"Yah, Taylor decided to do my hair today"

"Oh ok, say hi for me"

"She says hi back"

"So, anyway- I called to see if you wanted to go catch a movie or something"

"Oh yah" she said with what seemed to be a sense or relief.

"Ill call nick and Miles, mayb-"

"NO" I interrupted.

"I mean, I just want a day out with you and me." I added

"Can Taylor come?" she whispered

I rolled my eyes but agreed.

I got myself to take a shower, untangle my hair, and even went to my closet to see if I had any decent clothes. Everything I seemed to try on hugged my curves. I ended up wearing a t-shirt with a loose cardigan to cover the fat and some blue jeans.

I sat on my bed for a while biting what was left of my fingernails and stared at the phone waiting for Selena to call saying she was outside. The phone rang and I eagerly picked it up, although it wasn't Selena.

"Hey!" nick said in his usual soothing voice.

I gulped. I should have checked who it was.

"Oh, hi nick- sorry I have to go. Me and Selena are going out to see a movie. Bye"

"Wai- I hung up the phone and immediately put him on the ignore list which meant he was automatically sent to my voicemail.

I could not risk me saying something stupid and destroying the whole plan.

Selena came over gushing over my new wardrobe even though I knew I wouldn't be wearing half of it. We headed over to a small diner.

Taylor was quieter the usual today. She fiddled with her bracelet frequently and barely talked. We all ate our food in silence and decided it was time to go home.

As she dropped me off I realized I had gotten a text message.

"Miss you- let's go somewhere" a smile stretched across my face. He missed me. He wanted to…go somewhere?

"New York."He said. He was never this happy.

"Nick, we have school" I paused, got up and checked to see if anyone was in the hallway. Occasionally my sister would sneak in the bathroom next to my room to talk to her boyfriend so mom wouldn't think she was the one raising the phone bill.

"Screw school"

I sighed. I couldn't believe I was actually thinking of going to New York . What the hell was I going to do in New York?

"What are we gonna do in New York Nick?"

"Go places, do something with our lives, go to a performing arts high school, they have plenty in new York, and they have so many pro-" He rambled.

"How come you bring this up now?"

He waited a while before answering.

"Demi, I don't want to stick around day after day, doing absolutely nothing. I have to go Study my art, be an actor. You and me both Demi."

"Nick, we don't have that kind of money"

"don't worry about it- we'll get jobs, get headshots, start acting- then move to L.A once we start and-"

"Nick, stop. Your acting like everything's just going to work out- life isn't always like that"

"But sometimes things do work. I have an uncle there, I've been saving up"

I couldn't believe what was happening, I couldn't believe that I had the urge to say yes and start packing my clothes. I couldn't believe I actually thought this was a good idea.

"This is all going way too fast"

"You wont regret coming with me, what am I going to do without you demi?"

Ugh. With that What am I going to do without you demi? He got me.

I gulped waited a while and

"Ill go"

"Ohh my god, this is going to be so much fun."

"Yah but its 3 am and I want to go to sleep"

"Okay, goodnight"

"Goodnight" I said as I hung up the phone.

What the fuck did I just get myself into?