Keys To The Kingdom
Summary: Lucifer reveals secret truths to Sam. In the hope that he can regain one thing that he lost when he was banished. Spoilers for season 5 premiere. AU to season 5
Disclaimer: Supernatural belongs to Kripke and the WB (or CW). Either way I'm not getting anything from this. Although I will gladly accept a gift wrap Sam and Dean Winchester
A/N: Seeing the response I got back from this I was inspired to write more so here is a new chapter. Just don't expect anything further after this because I really have no idea what to do next or where I am going. I was also a bit disappointed by Sam being Lucifer's vessel; it just didn't pack that much of a punch with me, too Cain and Abel. So in my version Lucifer's first visit just had him wanting to repay Sam and after that Sam had called Dean about what had happen. The phone conversation between Sam and Dean went the same as in 5x04 'The End' except for the part of Sam being Lucifer's vessel.
Chapter 2: Lost and Forgotten
Warm bright light surround him. A sense of peace and contentment filled him but still it could not ease his pain. With a weary resignation he shifted down to the Earth. He found his brother immediately; no matter the distance they could always find one another. His brother loved this new world that their father has created. The vibrant life that flowed through the planet and yet his brother found fault with the human creation. If only Lucifer would give the humans a chance he was sure that given time they would become amazing. Just looking back at what the humans started from they had change so much from what their ancestors were.
"Hello Michael, come to pay me a visit."
"Drop the pleasantries Lucifer. How could you do it? How could you go about and just corrupt Lilith? Did you really think that you would be allowed leniency after such action. Already she is bringing more darkness into the humans spreading her taint."
"I simply wanted to show our father that they are not worth the favor and attention he gives them."
"He knows they are not perfect but he accepts them and knows them for who they truly are. All your action has done is filled his heart with pain."
"I love our father and I just want him to return that level of love back. I wanted him to remember that we are his first children."
"He loves us just as much as he loves them. He has blessed us angels and humans equally just with different gifts. Do you think he loves anyone of our brothers or sisters more or less then the other?"
"No"
"That is the same between us and the humans: he loves us equally."
"Then why does he give them such freedom and gifts? Why does he force us to love them?"
"Do you truly believe we have been given any less? You have been allowed to leave and go off to do what you want. We are just as free to choose our own actions. Yet you used your freedom to do harm upon others and that can not be allowed to be continued. In loving the humans he is giving us the opportunity to be like him. To love with are whole being on a grand scale."
"So if I have such freedom why am I being punished? What if I don't want to love them? Why can't I be content with just loving my father, brothers and sisters?"
"Because there are consequences to one's actions and you won't be the only one to be punished. The humans who cause darkness will face their own punishment. But there is also hope he is stilling willing to forgive you and them. All you have to do is ask. You never gave the humans a chance, condemning them simply because you were jealous of them. If you just got to know them you would see how amazing they can be. They still have a long way to go but we get to see them grow and become so much more then they are now."
"But I am not sorry and so if I asked for forgiveness it would have no true meaning to it. What about him who judges his actions? Why the double standard, how come we get to be judged but he isn't?"
Shock and sadness fills Michael. He hates how everything has come to this but if Lucifer remains free, well God only knows what Lucifer will do next. It is why he has given this order but Michael still hates it. God has assured Michael that the imprisonment is not permanent and that someday Michael will get to free his brother but it still doesn't ease the pain he feels. He chooses to do this not because God gave the command but in his heart he knows that it is the right thing to do.
"I'm sorry that you feel that way and for what I have to do next but I can't let you cause anymore darkness. Not only damning others but yourself as well." Michael draws on his power for the battle ahead.
Lucifer draws on his power in response sadden that they have come to this. He can sense the torrent of emotions flowing through Michael and at that brief moment it makes him hate God for putting them against each other. There seem to be no end for his heart break since he left. He felt alone and abandoned by his father: denied his presence ever since he left and no longer able to gaze at him. The only remaining comfort he had was Michael. When the other angelic host had closed themselves off from him Michael did not. Only now he was losing Michael too.
The universe seems to freezes in anticipation of what is about to happen. Michael knows what he has to do and is ready for battle but he does not make a move against his brother. He is hoping that this can be resolved without conflict, "Please I do not want to seal you away."
Lucifer can hear the sincerity in his brother plea. He wants Michael on his side but that won't happen until he gets Michael to realize the truth: That humans are not worthy of the love that they are given. In order to make Michael see the truth he needs to remain free. Focusing his power Lucifer rushes towards Michael. When Lucifer collides with Michael the world around them burst in a blast of light.
Sam awakes from the dream with his body covered in sweat. He takes in a deep breath and looks at his surroundings. He is alone in the motel room. Since Lucifer's revelations his dreams have been plagued by what he can only describe to be as memories. The only problem is that they are not from his life but Michael's. He does not know what to do about them. If he should trust what he is seeing to be truth or if they are nothing more then lies.
One thing about these dreams was that they were keeping Lucifer from visiting him while he is asleep. The problem is the conflicted feeling he has about that. He is unsure on whether or not he is relieved or upset that Lucifer can no longer visit him in a dream state. He misses the feeling of someone caring and worrying about him. Dean has made it clear that he no longer wants to hunt with Sam. Refusing to reunite after Sam called about Lucifer's first visit: when Lucifer offered to repay Sam with a gift for freeing him. Sam felt his heart break at Dean's unwillingness to give credence to Sam's concerns. Dean held no concern in his voice: he was seemingly okay that they were apart, even going so far as saying it was better that way.
Sam had held hope that Dean would just need some time. Sam understood that his brother needed his space especially after everything that happened. They couldn't go back to what was but Sam hope they could start anew. However each passing day that hope slowly fades. He called Dean again numerous times since that conversation. Yet each call goes unanswered and no return calls are made. He wants to talk to Dean about what Lucifer revealed of Michael. Each time his call goes to voicemail he cannot bring himself to leave more then a please call me back. What he has to say is not something he can leave as a message. Although he is sure if he did that Dean would call back immediately: well that is what Sam likes to think but he can not be sure anymore of what his brother's actions might be.
Sam grabs his phone and stares at it but puts it back down without making a call. Knowing he won't be getting any rest soon Sam gets dressed. Walking around the town Sam goes with no destination in mind. At the sight of a church Sam shifts direction and goes in. The church is no different from many others he has visited before. Moving down the aisle Sam kneels down once he is in front of the altar.
It has been some time since Sam last prayed. He could point to many reasons why he has not prayed in a while but none of those reasons matter now. Gazing around to make sure he is alone. Sam lowers his head and begins his prayer, "God it has been awhile and I am not even sure where to start. There are many that say you are gone but deep down a part of me knows that is not true. I have no idea what you are doing and why it seems that you are no longer around but I can really use your help."
Pausing Sam takes a deep breath, "I feel so conflicted and doubtful of myself. I am plague with dreams that leave me with more questions then answers. I don't know where I belong anymore. The only thing I know is that I want to do the right thing and be able to help others. An if possible makeup for the mistakes I have made. But everything has become so blurred that I find it hard to know what right action I should take."
Sam smiles to himself, "I do not want to be told what to do. What I need is guidance. I want to make an informed decision and I definitely no longer desire being manipulated by others." Lifting his head up Sam turns his gaze skyward. "The finale thing I want to ask is for my brother to be looked after. For him to know that he is always loved and that he isn't alone. Amen"
The church remains still. Nothing occurs: no sudden visitors, no divine messages, not even some change to the environment or weather. Still with no apparent response to his prayer Sam feels better for it. Leaving the church Sam pauses outside when an unexpected thought hits him. When he prayed for his brother he never had been specific and if he was honest with himself both Dean and Lucifer had been on his mind at the time. Before he could give too much thought as to when he started considering Lucifer as his brother also. The world goes dark.
A/N: I hope you like this chapter. I left it there because I had no clue as to what I wanted to do next. I had a few different possible ways I could go with this. Two of them involved either a dream or vision. The other ways were of Sam getting grabbed or combination of those events. I know it is evil to leave it as a cliffy but what are you going to do about it.