Keys To The Kingdom
Summary: Lucifer reveals secret truths to Sam. In the hope that he can regain one thing that he lost when he was banished. Spoilers for season 5 premiere. AU to season 5
Disclaimer: Supernatural belongs to Kripke and the WB (or CW). Either way I'm not getting anything from this. Although I will gladly accept a gift wrap Sam and Dean Winchester.
A/N: I was in a really dark mood. I tried to keep it from spilling over into this fic but it made it harder to write because it didn't really match my mindset.
Also know what's unfair. The Supernatural ARG is only for the UK. Which I would have loved to won because you get to appear on the show. Why couldn't they do that in the US as well?
Chapter 11: Value Unknown Till Lost
"Damn it!" Dean yells as he slams the phone on the receiver and gives the wall a good kick.
"Hey! Don't destroy my place just because you can't reach your brother." Bobby yells from the coach.
"Sorry its just Sam, the moment I try to reach him I get nothing. Not even Cas is answering his cell." Dean sits down on the coach next to Bobby sighing in frustration.
"Maybe Sam can't answer your call right now. You heard what Castiel said happened when the angels sensed Michael. Have you tried calling Chuck and seeing what he knows?"
Dean shakes his head in a no. "No I haven't called Chuck nor do I plan too. I do not want to reveal anything just incase those angelic bastards are watching Chuck. Another reason I'm not calling Chuck is I'm not a hundred percent confident in what Chuck sees. I know he has been accurate for the most part but when me and Sam went there he didn't recognize us instantly. Second he didn't see me being in the covenant during Lucifer rise. Third I do not know if the angels have manipulated what Chuck has seen so that they can set a trap like they did in Dad's storage. Then finally if he knew something why hasn't he said anything?"
"What do you want to do then?"
"I don't know alright. Everything is just so screwed up and I feel helpless. Why the hell did dad have to keep everything secret? Why didn't he share what he knew? I could have been better prepared in protecting Sam if he had clued me in on the truth."
"I can't really answer those questions Dean. I feel that John had to make sure that you and your brother were safe. No matter that he had friends willing and capable in helping I think he had a hard time trusting anyone but himself."
"But I'm his son. Why didn't he tell me the truth? I was more then capable of handling it. Why before he died did he just tell me that I had to either save Sam or kill him? Do you know how much that messed me up? I couldn't understand why the brother I know and loved would ever have to be killed. There seem to be no reason because I never saw an inkling of evil in him that had to be destroyed. What Dad's words did to me was install a fear for my brother and then over time slowly that became fear of him of what he could become."
"I don't know what went through John's head but maybe you can look at it from your own experiences. You didn't tell Sam what your father said right away and you kept secret from me what Sam told you about him being Michael. Thinking about your own choices may help you better understand your father's. I will say that I think he should have told you more before he died then the last words he did leave you with. Without context his words I felt caused more harm then good. I saw it creating the first cracks to the fracturing of your relationship with your brother. Why John would want you to kill Sam I could never understand. Maybe John had learned of the plan to use Sam to break the last seal and was trying to prevent Lucifer's release. It is also possible John was afraid of what would happen if Sam ever become corrupted or evil and what affect that might have with him being Michael. In the end speculating won't give you an answer. All you can do is try to avoid the mistakes of the past and work with your brother to make things better then what they are."
"Well I can't exactly fix things with Sam when he is not around now can I?"
"Well this is a surprising change in attitude." Dean and Bobby jump from where they are sitting to stare at who has entered through the front door.
Dean is surprised to see its Lucifer. "What are you doing here Lucifer and where is Sam?"
"Sam is outside but I must warn you he…" Dean doesn't bother listening to the rest of what Lucifer has to say only caring to see his brother again. Rushing outside he sees Sam but Sam's back is turn to him. When Sam turns around Dean grabs him into a hug but instead of returning the embrace Sam remains still in Dean's arms. Wondering why Sam has not return the hug Dean lets go so he can get a good look at Sam and is surprise to see that Sam's eyes are that supernatural blue color he had seen on the tape.
"Who are you?" When Sam asks that, Dean felt as if a knife ripped through his heart.
"Sam what is wrong with you? It's me, Dean, your brother." All Dean gets in response is an intense stare from Sam that makes him feel as if he is being analyzed underneath a microscope.
"He doesn't remember his human life." Dean hears from behind him.
"What!" Dean exclaims turning around to confront Lucifer.
"All he remembers now are Michael's memories. His memories as Sam are lost to him."
Dean lunges at Lucifer grabbing him by his shirt. "You did this. All you wanted was to get Michael back and with his memories of being Sam gone you no longer have to worry about who Sam cares for."
"If that was true then why am I here?"
Dean stares at Lucifer trying to think of what his reasons would be. Before Dean would have jump to his own conclusion but this time he will hear Lucifer out. "Fine then why are you here?"
"I want to restore Sam's memories." Dean is so caught off guard by Lucifer's reason that he lets Lucifer go.
"Why?" Bobby asks but Lucifer doesn't respond instead he crosses his arms. Dean is about to demand that he answer when Sam or should he say Michael speaks up.
"Lucifer misses the person I was with those memories." Lucifer glares at his brother but Michael continues on explaining "I do not remember my human life but I still have the emotions and feelings that I developed from that life. I feel things but I have nothing to associate why I feel that way."
Lucifer would have rather kept his lips tightly sealed on his motivations but his brother had to spill everything. In truth however he knew that he could not keep his personally motivations secret if he wanted to get help so he might as well reveal it. "Michael's life as a human had made him understand me better. I never truly appreciated the impact it had until he forgotten."
"As for myself I feel that a part of me is missing and I am full of turmoil because I do not know why I feel a certain way." Michael interjects.
"How did this happen?" Dean demands.
"Let's go inside and sit down first because the explanation may take awhile." Lucifer says which Dean grudgingly accepts. Once everyone is seated inside Lucifer immediately begins telling what happen. "After speaking with Dean while he dreamed, I joined Sam at a diner he was eating at."
Lucifer stared at the diner called Paradise Falls where he could see his brother through the window finishing off a late night meal. The diner was quite active considering the late hour. Going inside Lucifer sits down across from his brother.
"What's going on?" Sam asks Lucifer noticing the frustrated air around his brother.
"It's nothing"
Sam scrutinizes his brother and is immediately suspicious. "What did you do?"
Lucifer averts Sam's gaze and stares at the other diners: He gazes at the happy family of four, the man sitting alone at the counter, the couple hidden away in the corner of a booth, the group of teenagers that are bringing up the noise level of the place, the cook in the kitchen and the waitress busy trying to fulfill everyone's needs.
"I visited Dean in his dream." Feeling Sam's eyes bore into him, Lucifer fidgets in his seat. "I tried to get Dean to come back. I have seen how much you miss him and I hate what it is doing to you so I tried to convince him to come back. Don't worry I just talked to him but my talk with him didn't seem to work."
Sam sighs and Lucifer turns his gaze back at his brother expecting disappointment. Instead Lucifer sees Sam has a sad smile on his face. "I appreciate the gesture but if Dean and I are going to reunite it will be when he is ready. I would love to have Dean back but he needs to work things out on his own. I bet it didn't go over to well you telling him what he has to do."
Lucifer snorts, "That would be an understatement but that it was coming from me probably did not help either."
"No one likes being told what to do, you certainly didn't, and the way you confronted Dean I'm guessing more then likely had Dean be even more obstinate. I maybe hurt now but I faith that one day things will work. Alright so there is no need for you sneaking off to try and fix things."
"Fine I will leave things alone for now. It's probably better that way. I think all I have accomplished in my visit is having Dean want me dead even more… So what kind of deserts do they have here?" Sam laughs out loud and calls the waitress over.
After they each select a cake they want the waitress goes to retrieve their order.
Curious about Sam's selection Lucifer asks about his choice. "Why did you select that cake?"
"Why did you select yours? Sam retorts.
"I am curious what an angel's food cake would taste like."
"Well I preferred the taste of my choice over angel's food cake."
"How is devil's food cake better then angel's food cake?"
Sam just smiles not answering until the waitress lays the cakes in front of them. "Because mine is chocolate."
Lucifer stares at the two cakes: His plane white cake now less appetizing after seeing his brother's chocolate one. Knowing how appearances can be false he gives his cake a try. It is okay but he knows how good chocolate is and he can't help but stare at his brother's cake.
"Can I please have yours?" Lucifer finale asks after Sam has eaten half of his cake.
"Aren't you the one always insisting that you're an angel yet you want to eat devil's food?" Lucifer is about to scowl at his brother but before he does so Sam slides his cake across the table. Shooting his brother an appreciative smile he dives into the chocolate cake. Sam was right it is better then the angel's food cake. Lucifer looks at his brother to tell him thanks when he notices something wrong with Sam.
Sam eyes have changed and he is griping the table so tightly that the force is putting dents into the table in the shape of his hand but Lucifer is more concerned at the amount of grace that he is releasing. An angry look flashes across Sam's face but that becomes drown out by the look of concentration and pain. Sam stands up and Lucifer notices that an explosion of power is about to burst forth.
"Everyone get down and cover your eyes!" Lucifer shouts to the diners before Michael's power bursts out from Sam drowning the diner in light.
A/N: Sorry to leave it there but it felt like good place to end the chapter and transition for the next.
I wanted to address why Dean doesn't seem to constantly hit Chuck up for answers and why I do not use Chuck in my story is because he does not see everything.
I also couldn't help stealing the diner from the movie Legion. I went to a panel for the movie last Sunday and I got to see some of the actors and clips from the movie. The best part was winning a Legion shirt and getting it autograph. That really made my day.