Title: Reunion
Author: red rooster dawn
Pairing: Harm/Mac
Disclaimer: JAG is property of Belisarius productions, no copyright infringement intended.
Summary: With trepidation Mac returns home for her high school reunion.
part eight
Sunday
Mac's apartment
Harm and Mac returned home the next day. Harm had never seen Mac so happy, contented, and relaxed. The trip back home had done wonders for her. The emotional baggage she had been carrying for years was finally gone. She could finally move on with her life and be happy.
"Are you glad that you went now Mac?" asked Harm.
"Yes Harm, you were right. It was probably something I should have done years ago." replied Mac.
"Maybe, but I think the time was right. I think you needed to come to terms with your father first when he died and then seeing your mother again after so many years." offered Harm.
"That's two for two Harm. How unlike you." smiled Mac.
"Well before, your last memories of home were bad, an abusive father and a mother who abandoned you. While your mother may not be in your life everyday, she's still a part of it now. You know that she loves you." Harm continued his analysis.
"There may be some truth in what you say, but you also know I fear nothing, I don't back down from a challenge." rebutted Mac.
"Maybe, but it was still a part of who you were and got in the way of all your relationships." countered Harm.
"Yeah right Harm. There was only one thing that got in the way of my relationships with other men, you and your inability to commit to someone. You have been the one who always runs away.
First you ran to Annie when she became available instead of dealing with your feelings for me. Every woman you have ever been involved with has told me that you were in love with me and they couldn't compete with me for your attention.
You sabotaged your relationship with Annie when you saw me with Dalton. I showed you that I wanted to be with you when I went to Russia with you to find your father. Once again you ran when we got back.
It wasn't long before you were involved with someone else. I thought we had something special between us when we were in Russia. When I wanted to talk about us on the Watertown you ran. I almost died because of it.
You decided that you rather fly tomcats than be with me. Even Jordan recognized that you wanted to be with me rather than be with her. I tried to talk to you in Australia.
I tried to tell you how I felt and what I wanted, but once again you ran to someone else and I was stuck with Mic because he showed me a little attention.
I know I was hesitant at first when we first met. You were so perfect. You were tall, good looking, intelligent, had good sense of humor. I was scared to trust how I felt about you. I couldn't believe that you were real.
I didn't know how real your feelings were for me. It wasn't until you took me flying that I knew I had strong feelings for you. It made me feel good that you were willing to share your love of flying with me." argued Mac.
"I'm sorry, you're right Mac. I don't know why I could never tell you how I felt. I surely came up with enough excuses, mainly that we worked together. I guess I justified it as long as we worked together, you would be in my life.
I have to admit that I never thought that you would marry Mic. I thought that after a time you would see who he really was and wouldn't want to be with him. That's not to say Bugme was a bad guy, but he was someone I never thought that you would be interested in.
He's a great guy if you're looking for a drinking buddy, but he doesn't respect women like he should. I don't think he ever respected you. If he did he would have given you the time you needed after I crash.
I have to admit I was scared the day I left to do my quals. I thought I was going to lose you once you married him, maybe not that day, that week or month, but sooner or later he would have wanted to go back to Oz and he would have expected you to go with him.
I would have lost you for forever. I think a part of me would have died if you married him. I don't think I would ever be able to love someone again.
I think that's why I needed to get back instead of waiting.
It's why all I could think about when I was in the water was you. Nothing else mattered in the world then, only being with you." explained Harm.
"I was devastated that night when you went down. My worse fears had come true. When they called off the search I thought I was going to die of a broken heart. There was no way I would have been able to marry Mic.
Mic knew it because both he and I knew I wouldn't have felt the same sense of loss if it had been him who had crashed and died. I would have been sad, but I wouldn't have been broken up about it. All I could think about after that was you.
Chloe saw me and thought that if I concentrated I would be able to find you like I did with her, but I wasn't trying to find her, I was just dreaming about her. I still don't know how I found you. I guess it's that special connection that we have.
We always seem to know where the other is, maybe it really is true." sighed Mac.
"I love you Sarah Mackenzie."
"I love you too Harmon Rabb."
Author's Note: This story is quickly coming to a close, only three more chapters. I am working on four or five stories that are near completion, but may be a week or two away from being posted.
In the meantime I have posted some short stories for other TV shows.
They are: Star Trek Enterprise StarGate-1 Smallville
A Week at the Lake, Lost in Another, World Before the End
Abandon and Forgotten, Welcome Back Daniel Jackson, Fairy Tales Can Come True
After the Wedding, Where Did Daniel Go,
T'Pol Has Visitors
I have also started a Harry Potter story called The Blending,
which will be an epic story (300 pages double space)
I want to thank everyone who have taken the time to read my stories. Some are better than others. Thank you for your kind words.