There's a Mattx Near here...involves rape..so be warned...Please R & R

Blame

Near's POV

I woke up in the middle of the night again, crying, my heart aches burn. Mello, why can't you stay with me all the time, why did you have to leave? I was alone again, the one room apartment was dull and deserted. Matt? He's gone missing again. I laid back down, trying to get some shut eye. Suddenly, there was a loud bang on the door.

"Yo NEAR! Open the door!!" It was Matt.

I quickly got up, opening the locks. The moment I did, the redhead collapsed on me. I squirmed my way out, dragging Matt in and closing the door again. I went to get some medicine and water, after laying him on the couch, he must have been drinking.

"Here take this" I handed the pills and the glass.

"HMPH!" Matt slapped the glass out of my hand, letting it break and the water spill. "It's all your fault" he muttered. I stood there, dumbfounded. "It's all your fault that he died!! Mello died because of YOU!!!" He screamed at me.

"No…it's not true…I-I didn't-" I was sobbing. "I-I-lo-ve-"

"DON'T YOU DARE!! Don't you dare say that you give a damn about him!!! All you two ever did was compete! I don't want to hear all that crap about how you two care about each other!!" Matt scoffed.

"Matt…" I kept crying, unable to hold myself together.

"SHUT UP!! Darn it, I just can't get what Mello ever saw in you. You're such a pathetic kid. You little whore, he never even like you!" Matt spat.

"Take that back…" I said through my teeth, tears still rolling down, "You're lying…TAKE IT BACK!!" I snapped.

He chuckled, "Well, well, guess the little slut has a temper." He stepped towards me, I quickly moved away, but he grabbed my wrist. I felt a strong force on the back of my neck and the next thing I knew his tongue was in my mouth! I coughed from his cigarette breath.

I pulled away and SLAP!! "Don't touch me!!" I screamed, pulling my wrist, trying to escape his clutch. I winced as Matt slapped me back, a lot harder than I did him. "You stupid WHORE!! I don't get it!! How could he choose you over me!!!" Matt snarled, throwing me on the bed.

"NO STOP!!" He kissed harshly, pinning me down and pulling my pajama pants off abruptly. I squirmed, kicking and pushing, trying my best to fight back.

BANG!!

My eyes widened, looking at the gun Matt had just shot, missing my face just by a few inches, my left ear went deaf. "Hold still or else." Matt threatened. I stayed still and quiet, terrified for what was going to happen next.

"Take off your shirt." I didn't move, I didn't want to.

"A-Ahhh!!" I felt the burn on my thigh as Matt placed the hot gun against my skin. "DO IT!!" he ordered. I had no choice, fingers shakily unbuttoning my pajama shirt then sliding it off. After many burns on my inner thigh, both of us were naked. I sobbed and whimpered the whole time.

"Let's see what you've got" He smiled, it looked evil.

"M-Matt-p-please don't do this-p-please-NghAhhh!!" He pushed into me. Please, Mello, please help me!

"NO!! Please stop!" I yelled and cried. This isn't right, this can't be happening, Matt can't do this to me! "Please…Aahh!!" Mello, don't let him do this, please!!

"Mello…" I whispered out. the burning feeling went to my neck, "AAHH!!"

"Don't do that!! I don't want to hear you say his name!" Matt slapped me. "Call my name!" He pointed the gun in between my eyes, releasing the safety.

"…Mm-Matt.." I stammered.

"Come on you can do better than that" He slapped me with the gun, but it was cool now.

"MATT!!" He laughed. "Now I get why he was so crazy over you." he mocked and laughed again.

Matt wasn't anything like Mello, he was rough and hurt me a lot. He didn't care about how I feel, he just did as pleased. He forced himself inside me a few times, and what's worst is that he laughs at me and keeps calling me a 'whore'. I cried so badly, nobody came to my rescue.

….Mello please help me….make it stop….please…

Wow I really have it bad for this rape thing....but don't worry I'm going somewhere with this....Poor Near...REVIEW!!