Sorry this took so long to upload! Got tied up with work, had it finished ages ago though! Bad me!
Anyway, this is the final part... hope you enjoy... thank you everyone for reading and reviewing, you've been fantastic.

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Final Chapter:

"It wasn't a short and easy journey. It was a long, hard road to acceptance. I'll never be totally over her, but then what sort of a person would I be if I were to forget her? Keith's words had hit a nerve. They'd hit home. They'd done exactly what they were meant to do; snap me out of my pit of self loathing and guilt and live again.

"At first I couldn't even see a life without Veronica, sure we'd been broken up when she'd died. But when we'd broken up, I just thought it was temporary, just like it always was. But death kind of makes things more permanent.

"When someone you love dies suddenly, you don't want to believe it. You'll do anything to make it not real. Life becomes surreal, it becomes a nightmare. Everyone handles grief in different ways, and trust me, I'm pretty sure I've handled them all kinds of crazy. I've alienated everyone, I've pushed away people that care, I've cried, I've drunk myself into a stupor, I've had fits of rage, I've destroyed things, I've destroyed myself, I've laughed, I've smiled, I've blamed myself, I've blamed others, I've even screwed every faceless blonde in the vicinity of Southern California, some of them I destroyed.

"I think the only thing I haven't done that I should have was remember. I should have remembered the good times. I should have carried on living.

"Now I remember when I stepped into here, I wasn't willing to share. I didn't think therapy could help me, especially group therapy. I didn't want to tell people how I felt, I didn't like sharing. I didn't want to relive what happened, because I thought it would make it real, talking about it would make it real. If someone else knew, then it would be truth. I didn't want it to be the truth, I didn't want her to be gone.

"But it wasn't healthy, I know that now. I was still dreaming of her every night. I was drinking myself numb. I causing trouble. I was bringing others down with me. It's like I wasn't in control of my own body, like I was watching someone else's life go by. I was powerless. And when I realised that, I realised I needed help.

"I've been coming to these meetings for a year now. My life's finally back on track. It took me 10 years to get my life back to how it should have been. I was 16 when I first encountered death close up. My dad murdered my girlfriend. My mum committed suicide when I was 17, my best friends little brother committed suicide during my 18th year, my dad was murdered when I 18 too... and when I was 20, I lost the love of my life.

"You'd think I'd have been broken long before then, and looking back I realise I was, but at the time, that was the one that finally made me crack. When I found out, I reached for the bottle and then another and another... soon I couldn't tell one from the other, I couldn't remember what it was like to be sober.

"Now, I've been sober for 9 months. It still hurts to think about her not being here, but I can talk about it, I can talk about her, I can think about her, and smile. I'm living each day for her, I've gone back to college. I've started a charity to raise the awareness of road safety and help the families of road accident victims cope, and its to help the survivors. Its what she would have wanted.

"I'm moving on with my life finally, I'm dealing with grief and living with it every day. I now realise there is nothing I could have done. I shouldn't feel guilty. I just regret not telling her I love when I had the chance. To tell you the truth, I'd still give anything for her to be here, and I'd still go to the ends of the earth to trade places with her, but... I know there is nothing I can do.

"My names is Logan Echolls, and I'm dealing with grief of the loss of a lot of people I care about. Thank you for listening. And I'd like to thank Keith Mars for believing in me, for having in faith in me and for helping me."

You smile at the room, at the faces of the people you'd come to know well, whose stories had touched your heart. They had become your family over the past 9 months.

It had taken a while for you to get sober, but you'd done it.

It had taken a while for you to open up, but you'd done it.

Life still sucked without Veronica, but now you knew she'd always be in your heart, forever.

You're going to be okay, you saw a future now. You needed to live, for her, for Lily, for your mom, even for Cassidy and your dad, even though they were evil bastards, you still needed to live for them, but most of all you needed to live for yourself.

Now when you looked into the future you saw hope.

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Again thank you for reading and putting up with my incessant babbling.