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Chapter 7: All About the Benefits
To say that Rachel woke up this morning would've been a misstatement. Last night she couldn't sleep a wink; her mind was continuously going over the events that'd taken place between her and Haley. Her skin was still tingling from where Haley's hand's had wandered. Never before had someone left such and affect on her, not even Mikayla. And that thought alone scared the shit out of her. She had known Mikayla for over five years and she had only known Haley for a little over two weeks.
Why did she have to be drunk last night? Why couldn't she just want me when she's sober? And these were the thoughts that accompanied the memories of her and Haley. These were the questions that kept nagging her thoughts every minute of every day. At least I have some time to think before Haley gets up, she may have gone on a cross country tour but that girl sure is a lightweight. But she was the lightweight that Rachel was starting to fall…STOP. RIGHT. THERE. You are not about to think what I think you're about to think. Rachel scolded herself. It seemed that her hormones and heart were betraying her brain.
"Ugh…I feel like…ugh…" Haley grumbled as she staggered out of the bedroom hungover once again, damn Scott brothers. She couldn't believe how easily upset she got whenever she ran into one of her friends, I guess it wasn't just any old run in…Nathan practically attacked me. She hated that the only way she could deal with any encounter with her friends resulted in drinking until she couldn't remember going to bed, well not completely forget. She could've sworn that Rachel had followed her to bed last night but waking up this morning to find the redhead's side of the bed empty left her confused especially after her very life like dream staring Rachel and the kitchen countertop. It was so real that she swore she even tasted Rachel as they engaged in a very heated make out, I guess lack of a sex life makes dreams that more intense.
So much for having time to sort this out without her...here goes nothing. Rachel let out a small sigh not wanting Haley to hear. "Some rockstar you are. Can't even handle a little ol' hangover," she mocked playfully wanting to avoid the inevitable conversation.
"Yeah, well I am a lil' out of practice...did you sleep out here?" Haley said knowing that it was a lie. She had been through several of these hangovers before but she didn't want to dwell on the fact that her hangovers, and drinking, were getting more a more severe with each passing encounter with her past. Besides she was more concerned about Rachel sleeping out on the couch and not in the bed with her. She tried to remember what exactly happened last night but the only thing she kept seeing in her head was that dream. It was so real but all of the dreams had felt real. Haley sat down on the stool and placed her head on the counter.
Just once I would like to go to bed without wondering how I got there…, Haley thought as she tried to clear the cobwebs.
Rachel looked sadly at Haley. It had become a regular occurrence that she would need to help the young songstress out in the morning. Without hesitation she swiftly walked over to the cabinet containing the Advil then grabbing a glass of water before gently placing it on the counter not wanting to elicit a lot of noise.
"Thank you..." Haley whispered. As she swallowed down the pill and some water, she couldn't help but notice that Rachel didn't answer the question from before.
"So you didn't answer the question..." Haley urged while walking over to the couch, maybe some space will help.
"Yea," Rachel sighed softly while running a hand through her hair. How am I supposed to tell her that we hooked up? Better yet how am I gonna tell her that she was the one that initiated it? And that I was the one who stopped it.
"Do you really wanna know?" She asked quietly hoping that Haley wouldn't be able to hear.
"Did something happen?" Haley asked as Rachel followed her to the couch and sat down. She had never seen Rachel like this before. She seemed to be holding back or hiding something.
"Yes," she responded with a reluctant sigh. Why does this have to be so hard? Rachel could see the confusion and curiosity swimming in Haley's eyes and she wasn't sure how she was going to react to this news.
Haley started to get really worried. She shifted her position so she could focus all her attention on Rachel who was still standing in the kitchen. She only had one friend and she was starting to think that she had done something terrible. And she couldn't remember what had happened before. For some reason, the dream just continued to run around in her head and now she was even more worried than before.
"Just tell me..." Haley said as calmly as she could.
"You asked for it," Rachel whispered hating that fact that her voice had suddenly disappeared. She paused for a moment. For a second she thought about lying to her again. But this was different than the last time. This was more than just a kiss. She didn't know what was going to happen but she had to tell Haley the truth. Here goes nothing…
"Well...um...we kinda hooked up."Rachel said as she tried her best to mumble the last part.
"We did what? I mean I would remember...no way. Are you sure?" Haley asked.
"Am I sure?!" Rachel snapped not quite understanding why she was suddenly on edge. She knew that it wasn't Haley's fault that she didn't remember, she was wasted, but it still hurt not being remembered.
"Do you think I gave myself these hickeys?" She pulled back her hair revealing the twin marks on either side of her neck.
And as soon as Haley saw the hickeys everything snapped into focus. The challenge, the drinking game, kissing Rachel, moving over to the countertop, and then feeling Rachel's breasts in her hands for the first time.
All of it…
"Holy shit..." Haley shot up from her seat and started pacing around the living room. It really happened. She and Rachel really did it. It happened.
"Haley…" Rachel watched as Haley paced finding her reaction quite comical, at least she didn't bolt.
"I don't know what to ... holy shit..." Haley couldn't believe it. She thought the whole thing was another in the unending series of dreams she had been having but it had actually happened. No wonder Rachel slept on the couch. She probably scared the shit out of her. If she could just get her stomach to stop doing that flip-flopping thing then maybe she could figure out what she was feeling.
"Haley?" Rachel asked tentatively. She couldn't really tell what was going on with Haley but the pacing was actually starting to make her nervous. Why am I suddenly nervous around her? I hate the new me.
"I don't know what to say..." Haley whispered. It was like a dream come true. At least she thought it was. So if we did hook up then why did I go to bed alone? Was I really that bad? But what did it mean to Rachel? Why can't she say anything?
"Did you like it?" Haley asked. It seemed like a good idea to ask because, well, she did wonder.
To say Rachel was shocked would've been the understatement of the century. Not only had Haley stayed inside the apartment after she found out about their hook up she had asked if she liked it.
"Did I like it?" She asked in amazement.
"I mean...I dunno...is that what I should be asking?" Haley mumbled.
The shock immediately wore off the moment she heard the hesitation in Haley's voice. "You shouldn't have to ask that at all," Rachel said with a smirk, I can't believe this girl doesn't know how good she is!
Haley stood there as every single second of the evening came flooding back to her. She did smile a little from Rachel's words but she found herself back at her original point.
"So why did you sleep out here?"
Clearly she doesn't remember everything. Rachel let out a frustrated sigh. Why does everything have to be so fucked up?
"Are you sure you remember everything that happened last night? Not just bits and pieces but all of it?"
Haley's closed her eyes and tried to picture what happened after she put the hickeys on Rachel's neck. And she couldn't see it. She couldn't remember what the hell could have gone wrong between then and now.
"I remember everything but why I woke up alone… so if I was so good then what happened…" Haley said.
"Something…" Rachel said not really wanting to remember what happened.
"I mean did I say something wrong?" Haley asked. What was this feeling she was having? What was this nagging feeling? What did she really want to say?
"Yea ya did," Rachel sighed. She looked up to meet Haley's eyes finally noticing that she had stopped pacing around the living room.
"I guess you could say that I realized something and we needed to stop." She couldn't help but feel guilty. She had no intention of hurting Haley but if things had gone further the guilt she would've been feeling would've been ten times worse.
Haley crossed her arms and started staring at her feet. And she remembered exactly what she had said last night when she was on the countertop.
"Take this fucking thing off…" Haley whispered.
"Yeah, I just thought it was the Jose talking and not you. I didn't want you to do something that you might regret." Rachel said.
Haley finally knew what was bugging her. What that nagging feeling was actually trying to tell her.
"I didn't want to stop," she sighed while lowering her gaze from Rachel's. She didn't know why but she just couldn't look at Rachel while they were having this talk.
"What?!?" Rachel couldn't contain the dumbstruck expression from slipping through her lips. She was one hundred percent sure that the alcohol had taken over.
"Really?"
Haley took a deep breath. The dreams were one thing but to actually touch someone. To feel something other than completely numb was very comforting. She still hadn't turned around to face Rachel because she knew that she would lose her nerve if she continued down this path.
"I have been dreaming about being with you." Haley confessed.
"You aren't the only one…" Rachel whispered. It was actually nice to know that she wasn't the only one in the apartment who was dreaming.
"And last night I know I was drunk but I know that I didn't want to stop." She paused to gather her nerve once more.
"You made me feel...I mean…"
Rachel knew that if she were to look in a mirror right now she would look like a cartoon; eyes bulging out, eyebrows raised, mouth gasping for air. Honestly, she was glad that Haley wasn't looking at her; she needed to keep her calm appearance. After a moment she composed herself before taking the few strides to close the distance between them. Gently she placed her hands on Haley's shoulders forcing the smaller girl to face her. When Haley remained staring at her feet Rachel placed a caring finger under her chin lifting her gaze.
"I only stopped because I thought the alcohol had taken over. After everything you've been through I didn't want you to do something that would make you feel uncomfortable around me."
"Yeah because I am real comfortable now..." Haley smirked. She suddenly became very aware of how close Rachel was to her. Rachel was just so damn amazing. She could barely be in the same room as her. Her heart was racing just a tiny bit. And the fact that she could see how tight Rachel's top was…GOD am I really having these thoughts right now?
"Well I might be able to change that…" Rachel smiled at her once again. She loved having Haley this close to her and she knew that she wanted to kiss Haley again. But Haley had a lot on her plate. And she wasn't sure if starting a new relationship was what she and Haley needed. She did have one idea and even though it had never worked for her any other time she had to give it a shot, besides it might actually work this time.
"What did you have in mind?" Haley finally stopped trying to avert her gaze from Rachel's. She didn't know where this was going but Haley knew that she wanted to feel something other than the numbness that had been following her. She gently slid her hand into Rachel's and waited.
"Well," she started not being able to contain her lip from curving up into a smirk. "There is this little thing called 'friend's with benefits'. I know that I'm in no place for a relationship and seeing that you're still technically in one..." Rachel let her voice trail off slightly not knowing exactly what bringing up Haley's failed marriage would do.
"Friends with benefits?" Haley asked and she remembered that Brooke had this same setup with Felix. And that was like watching a car crash in slow motion. But that didn't necessarily mean that this arrangement was going to turn into a disaster. It wasn't like they were going to turn into a couple either and she was a little relieved that Rachel didn't want more. Maybe this could be a good thing. It would just be two friends helping each other out, no more no less. Plus it had been like 6 months since she had any kind of sex. Haley closed her eyes and took a deep breath.
"Kiss me."
"As you wish," Rachel whispered before closing the gap between their lips. The kiss was slow at first. She didn't want to push Haley too far, well at least not at first. She wanted to make sure that this was really what Haley wanted. She gently closed her lips on the singer's once again. Even though it was first thing in the morning, Haley's lips were just as soft and sweet as they were the night before.
Haley moaned and opened her mouth into the kiss. She let her tongue slip into the redhead's mouth wanting to taste as much of her as possible. She felt like her entire body was tingling. It was the most amazing feeling that she had ever had. There was something inside of her that wanted more. It was the same voice that had caused the first 'hook-up' to end so abruptly. Haley's hands slowly started to play with the hem of Rachel's top.
Rachel couldn't deny Haley's tongue and eagerly accepted it. She let hers rub against the singer's and was impressed with the strength of it. God, did it feel good to be kissing her but the real thrill was knowing that Haley was going to remember it. Her eyebrows shot into her hairline when she felt Haley's hands toying with her shirt. But her hands were forgotten as the enticing pleasure that Haley's tongue brought her clouded out everything but the fact that their mouths were moving together. Just as Haley's fingers touched the silky skin of Rachel's abdomen the shrill cry of an alarm clock could be heard throughout the apartment.
Haley tried to keep the kiss going. She pressed into the kiss almost forcing her tongue as deep as she could into the taller girl's mouth. She moaned loudly when the cheerleader's tongue flicked against hers again. She wanted more and she could feel it all the way down to her toes. But Rachel finally pulled away once air was needed.
"Saved by the bell?" Rachel asked after reluctantly pulling her mouth from Haley's.
"Not even close…" Haley grunted as she let her fingers continued to dance over Rachel's skin. Her heart was pounding. She had never been this worked up before. Her mind was a cloud of erotic wants and desires. The only thing that Haley could understand was that her entire body wanted to be Rachel's plaything.
"I want you..." Haley kissed Rachel once more enjoying the feeling of the girl's mouth on hers. She felt like she was kissing a live wire because every time her mouth touched Rachel's, she felt a charge go through her body.
"Haley...we need...to...school." Rachel managed to get out between kisses. Rachel could sense the urgency in Haley's kisses but knew that things couldn't go any further, since when am I the responsible one?
"School…are you sure…" Haley pouted.
Rachel looked into Haley's eyes and saw the desire and the need that existed. She knew that if she asked, Haley would gladly skip school and stay here with her. And even though she wanted to stay and spend the rest of the day exploring every single inch of this girl's body, Rachel knew what had to be done. If Haley wanted to graduate she couldn't miss another day.
"Yeah, I am sure."
"Fine. Just one more kiss, please?" Haley asked not releasing her hands from Rachel's hips.
"If you insist, but then we have to go…" Rachel answered surprised at how responsible that sounded.
They pressed their mouths together once again. Haley could not believe that just kissing Rachel was driving her so crazy. She felt like she was high as a kite. Even though she knew that they would have a chance to continue this later, her body kept saying otherwise. She deepened the kiss again allowing her tongue to rub against the taller girl's. She let her tongue whirl into the redhead's mouth until she needed to take a breath.
"School...damn school..." Haley panted.
"Yea...school," Rachel panted. This had to have been the first time in a long time that a simple kiss had left her wanting more. She almost fell over once Haley broke the kiss. The desire and need emitting from Haley was so intense that it was quickly filling the room with lust.
"Are you really really sure?" Haley asked playfully and planted another kiss on Rachel's lips. Hoping that maybe the redhead would want to stay there and make out some more.
"Yes," Rachel said in a surprisingly forceful tone.
"If you want to graduate before 2011, then yes. Plus Brooke would have my head if I missed practice."
"Shit." Haley mumbled. Rachel was right and she didn't want to be the cause of Brooke/Rachel round 3. She took a step away from Rachel and then she paused for a moment trying to come down from the moment they just shared.
"Yeah me too." Rachel said as she walked in the direction of the bathroom for a very cold shower.
Twenty minutes later…
Haley stood in the living room waiting for Rachel and when she came out of the room wearing her workout clothes, Haley felt the sensation to pounce. Rachel caught that gleam in her roommate's eyes and shook her head.
"School." Rachel said as she strode across the floor to the front door.
Haley sighed knowing that once Rachel opened the door the little world that they had built would be gone for at least 8 hours and Haley didn't want it to be over just yet. So before Rachel could open the door, Haley stepped in front of her. She gently slid her arms around the cheerleader's waist and held her tightly.
"Is hugging a benefit?" Haley whispered into Rachel's ear hoping that she wasn't crossing some unspoken line that had been set up by this new deal.
"Of course it is..." Rachel whispered. She held on to her roommate for a few more seconds and allowed herself to imagine that they could be more than this. That in a perfect world, Haley wouldn't be so broken and neither would she for that matter. And in this perfect world, they could get past all of this shit that seemed to be surrounding them and that they could be a real couple. Rachel could feel a tear slip down her cheek. She wanted that more than anything. But this arrangement, it was all that Haley could handle and part of Haley was better than no part at all.
"Let's go ok." Rachel said as she pulled back from the hug and wiped her eyes.
~HS~
Haley sat down at the table and tried to ignore the snickers and the giggles. The news about her and Nathan's throw down at Karen's had made the rounds and once again she was the number one topic for gossip at Tree Hill High.
Again.
She wanted to stand on the table and scream 'Shut up!' as loud as she could. Wasn't there anything else going on in the world? It was Tree Hill something was bound to take the focus off of her at some point. She just had to survive long enough for something else to happen.
"Here's hoping…"Haley stared at her lunch but she wasn't really hungry. Her stomach was still doing this flip -flop thing since she left the apartment this morning. She had been thinking about kissing Rachel all morning long. She couldn't believe just how much she enjoyed that kiss and how she could still feel it. She smiled and opened her water. Rachel was about the only good thing she had right now and it made her days a little less hard. As soon as she had that thought, Haley looked up and saw the girl that had been on her mind all morning.
"Hey." Haley said.
"Hi," Rachel replied with a chipper tone. The rumor mill was cranking hard today and she knew that Haley would need all the support she could get. She took a seat across from the girl not really knowing if their friendship was going to give the gossip girls more fuel.
"I would ask you how your day is going but...yea," Rachel sighed hating the uneasiness that was coming over her.
"Well so far, I have been told that I threw a coffee pot at Nathan and broke a window in the restaurant, or that I tried to stab him in the neck with a fork and so on…" Haley rolled her eyes and started playing with her food.
"I swear you would think nothing ever happens in this crap hole. Don't let it get to you…" Rachel said trying to sound supportive.
"You would figure I would be used to it by now." Haley sighed.
"You shouldn't have to get used to it. This isn't something that a person should have to get used to."
"So what should I do?" Haley asked still swirling around whatever this was on her plate.
"I know it may be easier said than done but you should ignore it, all of it. You deserve so much more than to put up with the shit that people are throwing at you. You did nothing wrong and they just need something to talk about because their lives are just so boring." Rachel said.
"And if the high road doesn't work?" Haley asked.
"Then I'll break their fucking faces." Rachel said with a smile on her face. She would honestly do anything to protect this girl from harm.
Haley smiled and just like that, she started to feel a little better. Just being this close to Rachel seemed to brighten up her day.
"How was practice?" Haley asked and Rachel's expression changed from a pleasant smile into a sad and tired frown.
"Don't remind me," Rachel sighed while slamming her head to the table.
"For some god fucking awful reason Brooke decided to go all PMS on the squad and make us do laps. Just as we all started packing up she nonchalantly mentions that we have practice for 3 hours right after school." Rachel sounded tired just from talking about it.
"3 hours...so I guess I am on my own for a ride home…" Haley pouted.
"Unless you want to be a witness to my torture then yes you will," Rachel mumbled still in her slouching position. She didn't know why Brooke was suddenly being a bitch, well bitchier than usual. She could only chalk it up to the whispers going around school about Haley and Nathan's little encounter at Karen's but that was none of her business. But that was the problem with small town drama; if it's one person's business then it was everyone's prerogative to know about it.
"But that would mean having to see Brooke and Peyton," Rachel finished knowing that Haley wasn't in any state to deal with a Brooke lashing.
"I am not afraid of them. And I just want to be near you…" Haley whispered.
"I like being near you too." Rachel lifted her head with a lazy smile, all the drained energy suddenly coming back to her at Haley's admission.
"If you want me to wait for you, I will..." Haley asked. If she went home alone she was sure that she would just sit around the apartment until she got depressed enough to start drinking or pill popping. And when she was with Rachel, she felt just a little bit stronger and a little bit more like herself. She felt safe with her and she knew that Rachel would take care of her. But she didn't want to be the cause of another fight between Rachel and the squad.
"I know that you're not scared of Brooke or Peyton and I would love to have you watch me but I can see the stress that all the talk is causing you and it's not fair," Rachel protested knowing that it would be best for Haley to get away from this school as soon as possible.
"But..." Haley started to say but Rachel cut her off.
"But nothing," Rachel said sternly. Haley may not know it but she was doing what was best for her. "Go home, get some rest, forget about all the jerks at this school and I'll be home in no time."
"Fine... When did you get so bossy?" Haley stuck her lip out and crossed her arms.
"I've always been bossy, you've just never had the pleasure of experiencing it," Rachel replied with a sexy smirk.
"I see...ok, I'll do what you say." Haley said. It actually felt good to have somebody that cared bossing her around.
"Rachel?"
"Yeah…"
"Remember what we were doing this morning?" Haley whispered.
"How could I forget," Rachel says keeping her smirk plastered on her lips. Haley always looked so cute when she was trying to find her words. She didn't know what Haley was cooking up in that brain of hers but she was definitely looking forward to it.
"I can't stop thinking about it." Haley admitted. She honestly could still feel those lips on hers. That smirk was driving her crazy.
"Neither can I," Rachel says honestly. It was strange but this little arrangement felt more like a relationship than two friends just partaking in some more than friendly benefits, well at least that's how it felt to her.
Haley looked into Rachel's eyes. They may have called this little arrangement friends with benefits but there were times when she could swear that there was something deeper going on. It reminded her of when she and Nathan first got together; there was this feeling that they could be something more. And she wanted to explore that but she didn't want to make things complicated. Rachel had said that she didn't want anything more. Haley sighed and started to accept the way things were.
"I wish we were at home."
"Me too Haley," Rachel said with a raised eyebrow. If someone had told her two weeks ago, when she first met sad and moping Haley, that she would be the one continuously talking about their encounter she would've called them mad. But now, now she was starting to see the real Haley shining through that shell of a Haley that she had fallen into. This Haley was carefree and happy, truly happy. And this was the Haley that was capturing Rachel's heart. The girls sat there for a few seconds longer not wanting to come out of the little bubble that surrounded them. Rachel could feel herself moving closer to Haley. It was like she was on an invisible thread and Haley was moving towards her as well.
"God I want you, Rachel." Haley whispered.
"I never would've pegged you for the nympho type…" Rachel whispered back.
"But if you must know...I can't wait until you get home because I really really want to..." Haley started to say but magically the bell rang and stopped her train of thought.
"Now that is being saved by the bell..." Haley laughed as she hopped up from the table and started getting her things together.
"Until this afternoon then…" Rachel simply laughed as she watched Haley hastily gather her belongings.
"Yes indeed…" Haley smiled at her roommate and headed off to class.
~HS~
Haley walked out of the doors and exhaled deeply. Even though Rachel had boosted her self-esteem to an all-time high, she just kept to herself and tried to avoid most people. At least she had been able to look forward to the time that she and Rachel were going to spend together. She couldn't help but smile as she made her across the quad.
"I was looking for you today." A voice said from behind her.
Haley felt her stomach start flip flopping, and not in the good way, around as she turned to see that it was her best, well former best, friend Lucas Scott.
"W-Why?" She stuttered hating her voice for betraying her.
"I heard about what happened at my mom's." Lucas Scott said. In truth after talking with Nathan earlier he wasn't ready to forgive her but he did want to be sure she was ok.
"And what? You're here to yell at me for trying to stop your brother from making a scene?" Haley snapped not in the mood for anymore of the Scott bullshit, she had had her fair share to last her a lifetime.
"Haley, what else was he supposed to think? You leave without telling anybody and then you come back and everyone is supposed to just forgive you!" Lucas snapped back.
"No, I didn't expect everyone to just forgive me. I expected that my friends would at least give me the time of day to explain," Haley seethed.
"But I guess that's my bad, I mean after all you were listening to Nathan the entire time telling you that I left without a reason. Well guess what? Nathan Scott lied! Oooooohhh big shocker there," she said waving her hands sarcastically.
"Haley, Nathan has nothing to do with this! This is between you and me!" Lucas dropped his book bag on the ground.
"I was your best friend and you didn't even say anything! And now you are running around with some girl who is making Brooke's life a living hell! What the hell is wrong with you?" Lucas didn't want to yell but he had been holding in his feelings for so long that he couldn't hold back anymore.
"You think I don't know that you're my best friend?! You think that I didn't want to tell you? I wanted to tell you so bad that I was finally being given the chance to live my dream but I couldn't, I just couldn't. I was already dealing with Nathan's ultimatum; do you think I wanted to deal with another one?" Haley screamed not caring who could be watching this.
"And as for Rachel, you have absolutely no right to be mad at her. She's only pissing off Brooke because Rachel is the only person in this town that is actually being nice to me! Rachel has done nothing to Brooke expect stand up for me!"
"I have tried to see this from your side Haley. And you know what? You are wrong. You fucked up everything and I really don't see why you even bothered to come back. You only care about yourself." Lucas said wanting to hurt Haley like she did when she left town.
Without thinking or hesitating, Haley slapped Lucas across the face as hard as she could and she didn't caring that her hand was now burning with pain. "How dare you! How dare you say that? You don't know what Nathan put me through. You don't know how hard it was to leave. You don't know what it's like knowing that you will always be second in the eyes of a loved one. And you sure as hell don't know me!"
"Well I am glad I don't." Lucas picked up his bag and glared at Haley. He couldn't believe that she just slapped him like that.
"You are so lucky right now." Lucas said through clenched teeth and turned to walk away.
"And why is that?" Haley yelled not liking what Lucas was insinuating. "Fuck you Lucas Scott! Like father like son!" Haley screamed at his retreating form when he didn't respond.
Lucas stopped and made his way back over to Haley. He stood there silently for a few seconds. He was so angry at that moment and all he wanted to do was to say something to hurt Haley, something that would hurt her badly.
"You know what? Fuck you too. If there is one person in Tree Hill that is acting like Dan Scott it's not me, it's you. You are a selfish bitch who deserves everything that has happened to her. So you stay the fuck away from me, my mom, my friends and the restaurant. Because we don't want you around us any more than we want Dan around."
"You're gonna regret that," Haley whispered suddenly feeling all the wind knocked out of her. She didn't realize how much she was being like Dan, and she couldn't stand the thought that she had turned into him.
"Maybe you weren't listening. I don't care." Lucas turned once again and walked away.
"Why?" Haley could feel her heart pounding against her chest. She could feel it; she could actually feel her world falling to pieces. She let out a shaky breath before heading to her apartment, to her escape, to her booze.
~HS~
"What a fucking day," Rachel groaned as she dragged herself through the apartment door dropping her gym and school bag with a thud. She didn't notice Haley which she found odd, she half expected Haley to jump her after the way she was talking earlier. Shrugging it off she dragged her practically limp body over the counter before plopping herself on a stool and resting her forehead on the cool surface.
"SSSSSSSSH...." A voice said from the couch.
"I am waiting fer Rachel..."
"Haley?" Rachel said in shock. She nearly jumped out of her skin at the sound of Haley's voice.
"Hello Stranger..." Haley's head popped up from behind the arm of the couch and smiled.
"Are you ok over there?" Rachel asked.
"I am fine...I jus' was waitin' fer my really hot roommate and now you're here..." Haley said as she brought the practically empty bottle of Jose up to her lips.
Rachel let out an exasperated sigh, why couldn't she be sober? Just for one fucking night!
"I love this stuff do you got anymore...this one is like…empty or something…" Haley tossed the bottle on the floor and watched it roll across the carpet.
"No," Rachel sighed. "I don't have anymore." Lie, but maybe she's too drunk to remember the second bottle.
"Damn..." Haley mumbled as she sat up from the couch. She looked at Rachel and saw the expression on her face.
"Are you mad at me? You look like you are kinda mad at me…" Haley asked. Man did her head feel heavy.
"Yea...kinda," Rachel sighed once again. She thought that since they made their arrangement that Haley wouldn't feel the need to get wasted all the time, once again you couldn't be any more wrong.
"Why? Cause I drank the Jose without you?" Haley asked.
"No because you had to drink the Jose in the first place," Rachel said hating that her voice rose involuntarily but this was getting aggravating. And she felt like she needed to say something that would knock some sense into Haley.
"But I needed it...just like I need you right now..." Haley said hoping that Rachel would move on. She didn't want a lecture; she wanted to escape from the pain that evolved from her talk with Lucas earlier.
"I know we said friends with benefits but this isn't you, this isn't the "friend" that I struck the deal with...this isn't you," Rachel whispered the last part.
"Look...I have been laughed at and picked on and told I am not the same person by every single person I know." Haley said through clenched teeth. She was so frustrated that she could barely get her words out without shaking.
"My best friends look at me like I am some kind of monster every single day and now you are doing it too. I am sitting here saying I want you and you wanna start with me..." Haley pulled her shirt over her head and pulled her jeans off. She was standing there in just her bra and panties and to her surprise she didn't feel nervous or afraid to let the redhead see her like this.
"I am tired of talking about what is wrong with me and why did I do this or that. I just want to feel something! I just want you to make this feeling going away!"
"You know that you'll stop feeling numb when you quit that," she said pointing to the empty Jose bottle; at this point it was her brains last effort to try and stop the inevitable from happening. Rachel let out a heavy sigh. She knew that this was wrong; she knew that they shouldn't do this with Haley being in this state but she couldn't stop her eyes from traveling all over Haley's gorgeous body.
"I don't want to be numb. I just want you..."Haley reached behind her back and unhooked her bra. She let it slide down her arms slowly revealing her breasts to her roommate. Please let this work.
"Gorgeous," Rachel breathed as she watched the thin material fall from Haley's shoulders. Any thought of halting their actions, her aching muscles, Haley's intoxication were thrown out the window. She swiftly closed the distance between them so she was within inches of Haley's petite frame.
"Touch me..." Haley gasped as she watched Rachel come closer to her. Her heart was racing and she was suddenly very aware of everything that was going on. Instead of going straight for Haley's breasts Rachel let her fingers dance over the soft skin of her abdomen absolutely thriving from the shiver she let out.
"Please...don't make me wait..." Haley gasped. She could feel the goose bumps rising on her exposed skin. It was like Rachel could read her mind, her sober one, knowing exactly where and how she liked to be touched. As skill that had taken Nathan months to learn. He was so damn hesitant about pressuring her that he didn't even bother using his hands while they kissed. And she loved that someone knew her body in that way without having to spell it out.
"Patience," Rachel whispered against Haley's ear, if Haley wanted to feel then damn it she was going to feel a hell of a lot. She slowly let her fingers travel up the slight contours that Haley's abdomen formed stopping right before she came to her breast. Rachel slowly planted soft kisses along the column of Haley's neck loving the soft gusts of breath coming from her lips.
Haley leaned her head back and let out a groan from feeling those lips on her neck. Her hands started playing in those gorgeous red locks. She wanted Rachel's mouth on her breasts so badly that she could feel herself moving the taller girl's head towards them. Rachel just smirked against Haley's skin as she felt her head being forced towards Haley's breasts. She couldn't complain, they were absolutely perfect and she couldn't wait to taste them. She didn't take the initiative to move her head she simply let Haley's hands guide her as she left butterfly kisses along the path her head was taking. She could feel the plumpness of Haley's breast as she drew closer and closer and for the love of hell they had to be the most perfect things that her mouth had ever had the pleasure of being on.
She took Haley's nipple into her mouth, swirling her tongue all over it, loving the moans and whimpers falling from Haley's lips. She's never gonna need that booze again. With that determination Rachel set on course to make Haley feel everything that she could ever wish for.