Chapter Seven: Remember when we were such fools and so convinced and just too cool.~Who Knew by P!nk
It had begun at age 13 for Meredith, age 20 for Joe, and age 14 for Nick. All three siblings, trapped by their emotional problems. It was simple for Meredith at first, why she began. She hated the mean girls at her middle school.
13 was a time in her life where she was soft spoken and shy. All she had were Christian values, good grades, family and a well tuned guitar. No one cared for her in school and her only friends were her family members.
One afternoon after a brutal cheerleading haze, Meredith snapped. She dug the razor in too deep shaving her legs and found she loved the feeling. It was the only scar on her leg and one of the more painful ones to look at.
After that event, anytime she was bullied or picked on she would slice another wound into her arm. And slowly, that's how she built up her confidence. It was around this same time she and her brother explored their feelings for each other. Yes, she'd been incestuous. It was the reason she and her brothers had been given purity rings. To try and re cleanse herself and Joe.
Nick was still innocent, he didn't know the true reason why they had purity rings. Kevin did. He had caught Meredith cutting herself violently after a particularly emotional day of seeing Joe making out with another girl. Every night since Kevin did his routine.
He hadn't meant to start cutting at first either. It was a hard day of work, fighting with producers and his levels weren't good. He hadn't meant to trip on the gravel drive way that night. Maybe if he hadn't he wouldn't have even started. But with all of his conflicting emotions, he figured that he liked the pain in his skinned and bleeding knee.
When he did it on purpose the first time, he was just testing it out. Seeing if physical pain would make emotional subside. And he had been right.
He hated wearing long sleeves in the L.A temperatures and so he would cut his hips. Swim trunks and boxers would cover his pain and no one learned about his secret until the bathroom incident.
Joe had merely started trying to show Nick what he was doing wasn't good. Instead he'd found intense pleasure, like what he experienced with his sister or the time he had just tried pot once, to fit in with his friends. But the endorphins in Joe's brain made him not care. He liked what happened, just like Meredith and Nick.
Kevin was the only one not playing the fool. Sure, he wasn't telling an adult which was stupid. But he wasn't mutilating himself the way his brothers and sister were. He offered an ear whenever Meredith wanted to share feelings. And he would do the same for Nick and Joe if he knew about their self-injury problem too.
Author Note: Just a little history on them. A filler I guess. I don't like this chap much.