Stephanie Meyer is the owner of all things Twilight and it's characters. I just make them more angsty and fluffy.

Chapter Nine

Personal Saviors

Bella POV

As I approached Carlisle's, I slowed down to a jogging pace, lightly stepping up the steps quickly, and making my way through the front door. I didn't want to talk right now, much less bring attention to me while I was so emotionally unstable right now. So I quietly closed the door behind me. I stood there momentarily, resting my head against the front door. Still clutching onto the doorknob, I took in deep, heavy breaths. I was extremely thankful that it was impossible for me to shed tears. Granted I was hurting enough to cry, I was sure that if I could cry, I wouldn't be able to keep quiet right now.

After I had gotten my breathing under control, I finally turned to face the open space of the foyer the lead into the rest of the Cullen household. I still had the aching pain all over me. It wouldn't stop. It was bearable now, but it was now a nagging pain, that stayed seeping through my veins, crushing my bones.

"Bella?"

I was caught off guard, not really paying any attention to the sounds or scents around me. So when Jasper said my name, it surprised me, causing me to jump a little. My head shot up from the floor, gasping as I looked at Jasper standing in front of me. Concern was written all over his face. There was no use in telling him that nothing was wrong, or trying to avoid him by running upstairs or trying to leave. He could feel my pain, and from the look on his face, I sensed he was now in pain being so close to me.

"Bella, what is going on? Your in pain...horrible...pain." It souded like he was asking me if I was really in this bad of pain. It was probably taking him off guard and I was feeling guilty now for making the choice to come here instead. I just didn't know where else to go.

"Jasper, I'm...I'm sorry. You should get away from me. I should go, you don't need to feel this, it's...it's too much." The words flowed apologetically out of my gaping mouth.

As I turned to grasp at the door, trying to make my escape, Jasper immediately grabbed my arm, spinning me around, and into his arms. His embrace was so strong, that I didn't have the strength to care to fight him. After a moment, I attempted to push him away, beating lightly at his chest, trying to make him see that I wanted to be left alone. It was no use though, his arms tightened around me, holding me closer to him. I started to feel the beginnings of a wave of calming sensation. It helped a little. Which was nice. Normally I liked to work through my emotions myself, I was good at it. But not right now. I needed Jasper to help me stop the pain. It was hurting so bad.

"Bella, what happened? Your pain is so much, I'm having trouble calming you down. You've never been like this. I've never felt anyone like this! You have to tell me what is wrong!"

"I...Edward...oh god Jasper! It hurts so bad!" I was sobbing now. I couldn't help it. If I were human, I would have tear pouring down my face and snot coming out of my nose I was sobbing so hard. Jasper tried to pull me towards the stairs, but I wasn't budging. I couldn't move now that I had let the would-be floodgates open up. I slumped down to the floor at his feet, my head falling into my hands. I could hear the panic in Jasper's voice as he called for help.

"Carlisle! Emmett! Esme! Get down here now!" Jasper shouted to whoever could still be in the house.

Emmett was first to arrive from the living room. He's eyes bulged slightly as he saw me on the floor.

"What happened to her?!"

"I don't know. She hasn't been able to tell me yet, and she is in some extremely emotional pain. I've been trying to calm her down, but it's barely affecting her. She won't budge from where she's at. We need to get her out of the way of the door at least. Where's Carlisle?!"

"Esme and him went out to hunt for a couple of hours from what I heard. Here, I'll get her."

I barely paid attention as I felt Emmett's big arms scoop me up and carry me towards the living room. From behind the couch, Emmett laid me down, immediately going back to his questioning of Jasper. I laid there as I halfway listened to the panicky words back and forth at each other. They both knew that they had done nothing wrong, but the worry caused them both to start cussing at each other in frustration.

"What do you mean you can't calm her down!?! Isn't that your fucking 'talent'?!" Emmett asked Jasper, slightly raising his voice as he made quotation marks with his fingers as he said 'talent'.

"Dammit Emmett, I told you I tried! She's in too much pain. I don't understand. What could have happened in ten damn minutes!?" Jasper countered.

I didn't want them getting into an argument over this. I knew my pain was hurting Jasper as well, and Emmett's frustration always caused his temper to flare up. I sat up slowly, scooting myself back, so that I could lean against the arm of the couch. "Stop it."

They both looked at me, Emmett leaning over the couch, and Jasper rushing around the front, to kneel beside me. Both stared at me expectantly, and I knew that I needed to get this out so that maybe Jasper could take the pain away. Maybe if he understood the reasoning, he could know what he could do to help me.

Emmett spoke calmly this time, "Bella, sis, what's wrong? You gotta talk to us."

I took in a deep breath, and closed my eyes. I didn't want to look at either one of them when I told them.

"I just wanted to go for a walk. That's all I wanted to do. I wanted to clear my head. I knew something was wrong. I freaking knew it! I could feel it, I could feel it deep down, something wasn't right. And then Jasper told me that Edward probably was off alone somewhere thinking. We thought maybe he was going through some things..."

I could see the confusion in Emmett's face. He hadn't known what I was talking about then. That was just between me and Jasper. And Jasper, my confidante, just held his hand up towards Emmett, shaking his head. Letting him know not to ask. Thank you Jasper.

I paused again for a moment before I continued. "I started running when I caught onto Edward's scent. So I followed it and it was leading me to the meadow. But when I got there...", I started breathing rougher again. Jasper grabbed my hand and Emmett's hand held onto my shoulder.

I exhaled hard, "But when I got there, he wasn't...alone." I turned towards Emmett now, sobbing again. Jasper shouldn't feel this. This wasn't his hurt. "Oh god, Emmett! Edward was there with Tanya! He was there, fucking her! He was on top of her and enjoing every second of it! OUR MEADOW!" I was screaming at this point. "And the first thing he does when he realizes I'm there is fucking growl at me. Like Tanya was his and I was some stupid fucking stranger! Me! I can't believe he did this. Why would he do this?"

I could feel Jasper's squeeze on my hand tighten. I glanced at Jasper's pain stricken face. I was hurting him. "Oh Jasper, I'm sorry! Please go. It's okay."

Along with the pain inflicted on me, I was now angry. Jasper didn't do anything to deserve this! And at this moment, I wished Edward had Jasper's gift. So he could be in pain instead of him. This wasn't fair for Jasper.

"She's right Jasper. Go, I got it for now." Emmett reassured him.

Jasper looked at me pained, yet making sure I was okay with this. I nodded, it was okay for him to go. "I'm still here Bella, just try to calm down, and I'll be back." Jasper squeezed my hand again before getting up and rushing up the stairs. Both me and Emmett stayed quiet for a long time. He didn't know what to say, I didn't know what I wanted him to say. There really wasn't anything that could be said.

"Bella, I'm sorry." Emmett quietly said. This startled me. I looked up at him, somewhat shocked. He had absolutely nothing to be sorry for!

"Don't Emmett. You have no reason to say sorry. I don't even think I could here an 'I'm sorry' from Edward right now. I don't know what to do Emmett. What do I do?"

"I can't tell you that. I can tell you that both me and Jasper are here for you." He had now come around to sit down on the couch, pulling me into him to comfort me. "I knew that fucker was acting weird."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, it's just, when we were hunting yesterday, he seemed like he had a lot on his mind. And he was acting really weird once his phone went off."

"Yeah, that's what Jasper said. Why her? I mean, I can understand how he would want her more than me, she's beautiful-"

Emmett quickly interceded, "She's butt-fucking ugly Bella! Yeah sure, she's got pretty hair. Big fucking whoop. But she's a manipulative bitch, beat with an ugly stick on the inside. I don't understand why Edward would even entertain the thought of being with that bitch."

I could feel the angry rumble of a growl starting in his chest. Emmett was actually angry about this. And for some reason, this made me feel better. I felt better that I had people understanding me. On my side. Call it childish and selfish, but it made me feel better. And I needed to feel better.

"Fucking moron! What the hell is wrong with him!?"

"Its okay Emmett. I'm feeling better. I'm calmer now. I just don't want to see him for a while."

"To hell it's okay! You're one of the best things to happen to this family, and he's just going to throw it all away of some stupid shit like Tanya!?"

I sighed. Maybe Emmett wasn't the right person to be envolved in this. His short temper wasn't a surprise to anyone, and it was definitely rearing it's ugly head now. I could hear Jasper's footsteps as he crept slowly downstairs. He was obviously testing the aura in the air, seeing if it was emotionally safe for him to be in the same room with me now. I heard him sigh with relief, fulling descending the stairs now, coming back to the couch. A wave of calming emotions seeped through me, calming me even more. It was now just a dull pain that I felt.

"I'm glad your feeling better Bella." Jasper said as he came around the couch, sitting on the coffee table.

"I wouldn't exactly say I'm feeling better Jasper." I snapped.

"You know what I meant. It's just that pain so overwhelming to me, I could only imagine what it was doing to you."

Jasper and Emmett's heads both snapped up, and towards the front door. Emmett's lips pulled apart, hissing as he bared his teeth. I heard the front door open quickly, slamming shut as Edward entered the house.

"Bella! Bella, we need to talk!" Edward sounded out of breath, but I didn't care.

Jasper quietly mumbled into my ear. "Do you want to talk to him?"

"No."

Emmett must have heard the question, because once he heard me say no, he was up and in front of Edward so quickly, I didn't have time to stop him.

AN: Even though they are his brothers, it always seemed to me that Jasper and Emmitt are just EXTREMELY close and protective of Bella. So I had to write it that way. Because I like it! Read and Reply!!!!