A/N: Well, I hope you enjoy. It's not that long and for that I apologise it's just that everytime I go to write a chapter I have to get off the computer and I want to upload it because I am so excited to hear what you guys think. I know that I said that I wouldn't beg for reviews but I mean c'mon theres like so many of you that have read my chapters, I would brighten up my day if you told me what I was doing wrong/right. :D I will try to make the chapters longer I promise (: oooer heres an idea. if I can get my reviews to 40 (I know reaching BUT...) I will tell you what Bellas oh-so-important power will be!! Oooerrr (: I also just decided that I will not update until I get to 20 reviews and then after that like 5 for each chapter confusing but come on I really wanna hear what I should do with the story, I am open for ideas! And if any of you have an extremely good idea I will name a character after you! I know I am being mean but hey I am a bitch.

Disclaimer: I still don't own Twilight, I wonder why Stephenie Meyer wont sell it to me.... also I do not own the heartbreaking-perfect-for-New Moon- song "Like Knives" By City and Color (it's so perfect for it )

Chapter 4

Your words are like knives
They peel my skin and pierce my soul...
Your body will burn tonight...
Though your heart may still remain cold

When people used to say you never know what you've lost till it's gone I never thought it was true, just some stupid cliche. I never realised how true that was until I tried to take my own life. Losing Edward and Alice was nothing compared to the pain in my heart when I thought of never looking at the family that actually cared for me. As long as I had them to keep me sane, I would live, for them.

I have been staying with the Cullens' more than I had when Alice and Edward were here, whether that be because they wanted to make sure I wouldnt do anything rash again I dont know but I really dont care. I found that I loved to spend time with them, I always seemed to be much more relaxed here, and I don't think that was because there was an empath in the house.

I walked into the spacious kitchen where I found Esme cooking something that seemed absolutely devine. I smelled in the auroma and moaned in pleasure. "Esme, thanks for making breakfast I really appreciate it." I said while sitting down on the barstool. "It's no trouble Bella dear, hope you enjoy it. I'm making cinammon pancakes for you," Esme said bringing over a plate of food. I gave her a kiss on the check and dug into the food, and not in a binging way.

"Tinkerbell, your finally up," I heard someone yell from the doorway. I groaned. "Emmett, I 've told you not to call me that, at least five times an hour I tell you." I whinged. I felt his arms wrap me in a hug and kiss me on the back of my head. "Sorry, Bells. I won't call you it anymore if thats what you want," Emmett sobbed. I let out a hearty chuckle and threw my head back into his chest and looked into his eyes. "No wonder Rose has a hard time telling you no," his face lit up, "I am still saying no though," I grinned. I ate the rest of my pancakes with Esme and Emmett talking about our plans today.

"They sound great, but I wanted to take a walk first, get some fresh air. I hardly leave the house anymore." I said getting up from the bench to wash my plate. "That's okay isn't it Esme, I can go for a walk soon?" I asked her seeing her worried look. Esme started to speak, "Of course dear, but please just be-" "careful, yes Esme. I will look both ways before crossing the road and wont run with scissors." I joked with her before kissing her cheek before going up the stairs to my newly acquired room.

Esme and I had spent our free time painting room to my tastes. We decided with electic blue frames and yellow walls. I walked over to my wardrobe that was filled with some of my clothes and tried to decide what to wear. I settled on my yellow Mario star shirt over my long sleeved shirt with blue jeans. I put on my black Converses and lightly brushed through my hair.

I opened my door and started to walk faster than normal out of the door, I was happy. Truly happy, this wasnt something that happens that often these days. I was about to turn the corner when I ran into something hard, cold and solid. I fell to the ground and groaned.

"You should probably wear a sign next time, not everyone around here is indescructable," I mumbled. I felt a cold hand lift me up and catch me as I begun to fall again. I leaned into their chest to regain my balance and felt their body shaking with laughter. "Bella darlin' you really are the most accidently prone person I have ever met, in my whole entire existance." Jasper. I leant back and started to walk in the direction I was heading before I left. "You know Jasper, for a vampire you really couldve sensed me there," I retorted. "Sorry, I was too focused on the overwhelming happiness coming from up here I decided to find out who it was," he questioned raising an eyebrow.

I smiled and laughed. "That was me, today is a good day. I can feel it," I said never stopping smiling. My sudden change of mood had confused the hell out of Jasper but he quickly smiled because he must have felt the pure happiness I was sure I was emitting. I wanted to make everybody happy, life is good no matter what happens. You can always realise that there is something worth living for.

I gave Jasper a hug and jogged down the stairs, surprisingly not falling, to the living room. "Bye everyone I'll be back in an hour or so, I won't be long just taking a short walk. Love you all!" I called happily to them all. I walked out the front door after hearing back serveral "I love you's and be safes'." I opened the door to see Carlise pulling in from work after having a night shift. "Hey Carlise!" I said as I walked over to his chair.
I gave him a hug as he stepped out of his car and kissed him on the cheek. "Was work fun?" I asked but he was too clearly stunned to reply so laughed and walked toward the trail near the edge of the forrest. "I am just going for a short walk, I'll be back later Dad!" I called to him knowing he could hear. I laughed and turned around to see Carlise still standing where I left him with his mouth hanging open.

I was so happy I could skip, which I would expect with all the debris around I would most likely trip. I settled for having a bounce in my step.
I was never one for taking walks in the park or anything like that but I just had the most unusual mood today. I walked for around half an hour when I had the most strangest sensation of being followed. I started to get paranoid, I would just turn around and go back on the path. Only problem: the path was blocked by a tree. A very large tree, that wasnt there three seconds ago. A very large tree I hadnt heard fall.

I'd only ever seen a tree break once in my life, and it was possibly one of the most terrifying experiences I have ever had. One I wasnt keen on seeing again. I knew it by then. He was here. I couldnt see where but he was here, and I had walked right into his trap. Edward had finally gotten me where he wanted me.

"I know your here, you may as well come out you coward!" I yelled with much more venom then I actually had. Deep down, I was so scared that I just wanted to crawl on the ground and hide till he left. I felt his prescence behind and spun around to see the same Godlike man I had grown used to. I gasped, he looked exactly like he did when he attacked me. There was just one main difference. He had blood red eyes I had only seen a few times in my life. They were the eyes of a killer, not one of animals one of humans.

I was scarred for my life then, I went to scream but wasnt able to as my air supply was cut off. I found myself flying against the closest tree and heard a sickening crack. I felt like I couldnt move, every part of me ached. I knew I hadnt died, I was in too much pain to be dead. I closed my eyes in pain and took deep breathes which even hurt.

"You couldn't just leave could you?! What is it that attracts you to us? We don't even want you!" I heard Edward scream from above me. I whimpered in response which was met by a hard kick to the ribs and another crack. I couldnt breathe anymore, my breaths going out in harsh gasps. "I didn't even love you! So why did you stay? You were only a problem to us! Do you have that much of a death wish you couldnt just leave! You are such a child, you strap yourself to whatever comes you way! Will you ever grow up? I mean look what your wearing, when will you learn?!" He screamed into my face. I was sobbing so hard now I could feel the blood flowing from my mouth.

Why did death keep hunting me down when I didnt want to die? I was so sure I was about to die when I heard a simple chime of his phone. "Yes dear?" I heard him say calmly to someone I pressumed was Alice. "WHAT DID YOU THINK YOU WERE DOING?! SHE IS GOING TO DIE NOW ARO DOESNT WANT HER IF SHE ISN'T ALIVE! CHANGE HER AND GET BACK HERE, YOU WILL BE IN SO MUCH TROUBLE!" I heard her scream through the phone. Who was Aro?

I heard Edward flip the phone shut and walk over to me again, and lean down to my face again. "Well, I guess your going to get what you always wanted. Your going to be a vampire. All this effort when I couldve just done it when I first met you! I don't see why Alice had me warn Rosalie you were going to kill yourself, we could've just changed you then! Everyone would've assumed you ran away!" He said to me with venom in his voice. "And the best part wouldve been that noone would have missed you, not even your stupid human father. Not that it matters anyway, he's dead. And so are you," he whispered sickly in my ear.

I let out a heartbreaking sob for the loss of my father. He was dead and it was my fault. How could they do this to Charlie? He was innocent. As I was saying my prayers for Renee I felt Edward press his lips to my neck and bite in hungrily giving me an eternal kiss that would last forever, and I didn't even want it.

Love you all! x.