A/N: sorry for taking forever to update but Im seriously lacking motivation. I am pleased for those few people who reviewed but I am feeling that this story is not really being read and I kinda felt that there was no point in continuing for a while. I've decided that I will finish it, even if it is for those couple people who review. I never realised how much a review could mean to an author, they really light up your day and make you want to update faster :D hint hint ;)

I hope you enjoy I wanted to quickly getting this out so here you go.

Dangit, still dont own Twilight. I could be rich as broo.

Chapter 5

I could follow you to the beginning
And just relive the start
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
To all of our favorite parts

All I wanted was you

They say that there is nothing more painful than dying. They are wrong.

Laying here on the cold, damp ground chilled me to the bone. I could feel every bit of me aching, every broken bone every bruise. But the more prominent pain was the one pumping through my veins poisoning my system with the vile taste on him. I had finally gotten what I wanted but it was something I didn't need. I wasn't even completely sure whether I wanted to be a vampire anymore, I mean sure my family was all immortals. The only thing that kept me mortal bound was Charlie, and now that I would spend my entire exsistance mourning over his death did I want to be a vampire?

A sudden shot of ice cold fire shot through my chest and I whined in pain. I was completely unaware that Edward was still there pacing until he kicked a rock shattering it to pieces near my head.

"God, can you stop whining! Is that all you do? I just want you to hurry up and change so I can get fucking out of here and back to Italy and Alice,"
he muttered apparently to himself. I cringed internally at the thought of him and Alice together but something deep down told me I should suck it up and just hope the pain goes away.

My whole body began to tremble at the sudden increase of temperature of the burning. From what I had heard from the others was that they were basically unconscious the whole time, and that's all I wanted. I didn't want to hear Edward mutter about how much he was missing Alice or how he wanted me to die already.

I lay there my body bent at an unnatural angle, but I could no longer feel the pain of my broken body and only the creeping, tingling burn of the traitors venom. I bit down on my lip and crushed my eyes together tighter as I felt another sudden rush of death crawl over my body. I felt the pain in my body ease as slipped in and out of consciousness.

It then occurred to me how long I was laying here, surely the Cullens would realise when I hadn't returned after half an hour. Or maybe they just figured I had gone to visit Angela or something. I had the feeling I had been here for at least a few hours because I could hear crickets so it had to at least be 6 at night which worried me more than it should.

I was overthrown by the fire and passed out for a few more hours. I woke up keeping my eyes shut not even sure I could open them if I tried, when I heard Edward cuss to himself, great I wondered to myself. What was his problem now? I could feel a small heat on my skin which made me assume that it was morning. I felt myself panic and my heart increase when I thought that the Cullens' hadn't came to look for me yet. I wanted to cry but I couldn't find the energy to do so.

A little part died inside of me with the knowledge that no one was coming for me, not even the Cullens. Had it really come down to this? Me dying all alone in the forest from the guy I once loved? I wanted to scream so hard that I broke my vocal chords, but I couldn't see that happening anytime soon.

I could feel the burning sensation turn to that one of a cooling breeze across all the surfaces of my body, I could sense every part of me changing into something that I was not completely ready for. Something I thought so long ago I was willingly to give everything I had up for. I was so ready to live forever without considering the consequences, I mean I was a teenager. I wanted to spend the rest of my existance with a guy I barely really knew at all.

I could feel every inch of my bones hardening and lengthening, and god was it disorienting. I didn't think I could handle it anymore when I heard a demonic growl from behind me. I figured it was Edward until I felt myself being scooped up into familiar arms that no longer felt as cold as they should be. I wanted to intake a breath but I no longer felt the urge to, all meaning to breathe had disappeared with the cooling of my body and I barely noticed.

"Put her down!" I heard Edward hiss from somewhere far away from me concluding that it indeed was not him that was holding me in a death grip.

I felt the arms constricting my limp body tighten around me as they spoke. "She's no longer yours Edward, you left her remember?!" I heard the harsh peal of bells reply that could only belong to Rosalie. I was so glad that she had finally came to take me from the monster but my happiness was short lived as I felt a boulder collide with Rosalie sending us both soaring to the ground.

I thought I had heard nothing louder than that in my llife, I was wrong. I heard a monstrous roar power through the trees and a smashing sound of metal on metal. "Leave them alone you traitor, you have no right to try to steal Bella from us," I heard Emmett boom nearby. I was washed over my overwhelming love when I heard three more hisses come from a different direction, Carlise, Esme and Jasper undoubtedly.

"You dont even want her, you are just looking after her because you feel pity. But truth is, shes got so much more in store than being part of a family," Edward spat at the family. I heard him walk towards Rose and I hiding behind a tree. Rose was slightly shaken but otherwise was well aware of the danger. I heard the sound of Edward chuckle darkly and loudly yell to Emmett, "don't try and attack me brother," he sneered, "I'll always be one step ahead of you he said while presumably tapping his temple.

I felt the ground shudder and light on my skin as the tree sheltering Rose and I were hiding behind ripped unwillingly from the ground. "You'll never get her back," Rosalie protested. My body trembled as I fell hardly to the ground and Rose was sent flying south. Cold arms picked me up and I was thrown over someones' shoulder roughly. The wind around me sprayed out in all directions as I ascended forward over Edwards shoulder. He landed gracefully on a branch at least four stories above where I was only a second ago. I felt his body quaver with a heartless chuckle as he lept into the ground again but his leap was cut short by the sudden collision no vampire could intentionally make.

My limbs flailed as I fell to the ground where I crumpled once more under my broken limbs. There was no pain, my body already void of all things human. I heard the sound of someone trying to forcefully mold metal at the same time I felt a different set of cool arms pick up my body. "Bella, it's going to be okay Edward has left but your already too far along in the change to do anything. I know you can hear me, it's only Jasper darlin'" he spoke with a southern accent.

I felt much better as the wind whipped around my lifeless hair, slipping into unconsciousness I heard the sound of more feet running to catch up with a dying heartbeat.

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"Should we get her some blood or something? You know to ease the burning," I heard the sweet voice of my mother ask worryingly. I listened carefully with acute hearing heard the sound of three pairs of feet pacing, one pair of hands shredding a napkin, the slow drip of an IV and the sound of a game controller furiously smashing away in a distant room.

I could open my eyes if I dared, but I was unsure of what I would see.

"I dont think so, we should let her come to her own conclusion. From what I've seen over the years, newborns do not like to be forced upon." I heard the quick assessment of a southern-like Army officer. "I guess so, you have the most experience," I heard Esme sigh. Most experience?
What did that mean? I'd have to ask later when I got the chance. "I just want this to be as easy on her as possible, she hasn't had an easy few months," Esme said with a tone of longing.

I smelt the air and was welcomed by a fresh bouquet of an arrangement of smells. Closely the smell of lavender and orange coming from a very feminine skin - Esme. A little further away the smell of shortbread and pine rushed into my nose, distinctly Carlise. Apricots and roses - Rosalie.
The most delicious gathering of lemon grass, peppermint and aloe vera kept often rushing past my nose causing venom to pool up in my mouth.
I could even smell the distant scent of granny apples and passionfruit, clearly that would be Emmett. I wondered what I smelt like, knowing my luck something foul like tuna and brine.

I was finishing the change soon but I didn't want to open my eyes, but I was afraid of what I saw. Would my eyes be the blinding red of those of James'? Yes, they would be. Would I no longer look like me? Would they still want me even if I was a crazed newborn? I hoped so.

"Don't be afraid darlin' were all here to help you," I felt Jasper drawl into my ear. When I was human I never realised that Jasper had a Southern accent, actually to be honest. I knew nothing about him, for my "protection" I wasn't allowed near him. What a lie. I was suddenly feeling very calm and keen to open my eyes. Least thats one good thing about Jaspers' ability. I wonder if I would get an ability.

I decided it was time. I needed to open my eyes and face the future. There was no point in hiding, I couldn't put it off any longer. I needed to move on with my life. I needed to show no fear in this new immortal life. I was no longer going to be the weak little Bella that everyone needed to protect, I would hold my own.

I tensed my body preparing for the flight or fight scenario and opened my eyes to my new life.

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