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Chapter Five- I Won't Tell You

"How can I tell you, you're falling apart

Open your eyes if you wanna survive

I want to tell you our love is a lie

But I won't tell you, I won't tell you

How did I get so deep into this now

I can't admit that I know what I know

And I want to tell you your love is a lie

I won't tell you, I won't tell you

It's hard to hear through the static again

It's never clear until the rush of pain

I'll never tell you I'm living a lie

In this confusion I feel alive"

-Lacuna Coil- "I Won't Tell You"

(Bella's POV)

How was I going to do this? Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck! This is going to end so badly. Oh goodness. I looked up at Edward, who was staring at me. I shook my head, "Later."

He eyed me wearily, but nodded. We went back into the living room for the rest of the party. God I am such a chicken shit. That was my chance to tell Edward everything and I blew it. I should probably talk to Leah first and tell her I want to be with her before I go springing anything on Edward.

I wasn't quite ready to go jump into Leah's bed and be her girlfriend, but I at least wanted the chance to date her without feeling guilty about Edward. At the end of the night, Edward took me home. We stayed up talking in my room until it was time to go to the clearing.

The night in the clearing passed pretty slowly. I watched Jasper and Emmett demonstrate how to kill a newborn, then Alice stepped in for Emmett, then Edward stepped in for Alice. Jasper pretty much dominated the fights each time. I had so much respect for him after this.

I'm pretty sure I fell asleep in the clearing, because I woke up in my bed, alone. Not even Edward's cold body was near. I went downstairs to hear Charlie talking to someone in the kitchen. I walked in to see Leah sitting at the table laughing with Charlie.

"Morning Bells. Leah came by to see if you wanted to hang out today." Charlie said.

I smiled and looked at Leah. "Just let me get dressed and we can go."

She nodded and her and Charlie returned to their previous conversation. Good, at least he liked Leah. I dressed quickly in a pair of jeans and a t-shirt then ran back down the stairs. Leah followed me out to her car. We both called out a 'goodbye' to Charlie as he got into his cruiser. He was on his way to work and wouldn't be home until late.

"So what are we doing today?" I asked as Leah started down the road toward La Push.

She smiled, causing my heart to leap into my throat. "We're going to the beach." Was all she said. That could mean any number of things, oh dear.

It was easy to forget about everything when I was with Leah. We actually got along so well; I wondered why she hated me so much before. Then I remembered it was because of Edward.

Oh, Edward. How was I going to break the news to him that I wanted Leah now? After all we had been through? I mentally sighed.

I noticed when we crossed the invisible treaty line that Leah slowed down a bit and relaxed considerably. She reached out and took my hand. I smiled at her sweet gesture.

Without thinking, or giving myself anytime to think about what I was about to say, I blurted, "I want to be with you, Leah."

She actually stomped on the brakes, causing me to fly forward, but Leah caught me. "What?" She asked.

I looked down at my hands. "I mean, I'm not really ready to jump into bed with you, but I'm ready to break up with Edward and maybe go on a date with you." I whispered the last part, but she still heard me.

She was speechless at first, but then finally answered, "I'm glad you feel that way."

I looked over into her eyes; they were shining with relieved tears of joy. We stared into each other's eyes until a horn honked behind us. Leah coughed and wiped her eyes. She started to drive toward the beach again. Neither of us spoke for the rest of the drive, but I did catch Leah smiling more than once.

When we arrived, Leah reached into the backseat and handed me a bathing suit. I looked at her, my face displaying my confusion. She pointed toward the water. "We're going cliff diving." She said. She grabbed her own bathing suit and motioned for me to follow.

She led me into the woods. "You can change here." Noticing the look on my face she said, "I change here all the time. No one's around so they won't see."

To prove her point, she lifted her shirt above her head. This was beautiful to me for two reasons. Her confidence in her appearance that she could just pull her shirt off was almost more attractive to me than her actual appearance.

Her body was perfect. Every inch of her tanned skin was flawless. My eyes travelled from her toned, but subtle abs up her long torso to her perfectly round, full breasts. My eyes lingered there until she slipped off her shorts. Again, I started from the bottom and worked my way up.

Even her feet were cute! Her legs were long, toned and a perfect shade of brown. I caught myself staring at her, ahem, lower parts. I glanced up to her eyes quickly to find her smirking. "Like what you see?" She asked.

I gulped loudly, unable to answer. She slipped into her bikini, which covered a small amount of her body and showed off just enough for me to be flustered. I turned away from her so she couldn't see how red my face was or the desire in my eyes. I wanted her and I wanted her bad.

I slipped out of my clothes and into my bikini as fast as I could. Sure Leah had the confidence to give me a full view, but I couldn't bring myself to do that just yet. When I turned around, her eyes were burning with desire as she stared at me.

"Ready?" She asked and motioned toward the water. I followed her out to the water, thoroughly enjoying the view. The view of Leah, that is. Since I was behind her, I got a nice view of her wonderfully shaped ass. It was as toned as the rest of her. Leah could become a model; she most certainly had the looks for it.

I heard a snicker from a little ways a way from me. I looked up, finding Jake, Quil and Paul holding in their laughter. Leah was also staring at me with an amused look. "What?" I asked.

Quil smiled. "Oh nothing, you know. Just wondering when you're going to stop staring at Leah's ass so we can go jump off these cliffs."

I blushed a deeper red than I ever had before. Leah smacked Quil on the chest, sending him flying to the ground and landing on his butt. "Leave her alone, Quil." She growled, then turned back to smile at me.

She walked over and took my hand, lacing our fingers together. I would have never made it up the cliff by myself, but with Leah next to me, I made it pretty easily.

When we got to the top, I froze. I had jumped off the cliff before, but I wasn't thinking clearly at all that day and I almost drowned.

Leah slid her arms around my waist. Her hot breath hit my ear as she whispered, "What's wrong?" I couldn't answer with her so close to me. She smiled into my hair, "Are you scared?" I could only nod.

I'm sure she thought it was out of fear of jumping off the cliff, but really it was her being so close to me. Touching me so gently, yet firmly. Her scent was a woodsy scent similar to Jake's, but hers had a feminine edge to it. I leaned back a little into her embrace and inhaled deeply. Vanilla. She smelled like vanilla. It was wonderful, like heaven in my nose.

Leah smirked again when she realized that I was smelling her. "Are you ready to jump?" She asked. "I'll jump with you."

I nodded. The next thing I knew, we were falling toward the black water. Leah's warm grip around my stomach let me know that I was safe in her arms. I wasn't scared, despite my scream of bloody murder. I couldn't be scared with Leah right there to save me.

We broke the surface of the water together. Almost as soon as I went under, Leah pulled me right back up. I inhaled deeply, breathing in the salty air that hung over the water. I realized then that I had my arms around Leah's shoulders, holding on to her for dear life.

She swam us back to shore. I saw the guys were on the shore watching us intently. "That was hot!" Paul blurted.

Leah threw a rock at him, which he neatly caught. Sometimes it sucked being the only human around.

Leah took my hand again and led me away from the guys. She took us back over to our clothes. We changed and then she led me through the trees until we reached a place that was secluded from everyone else. It was a part of the beach, but was surrounded by trees. I didn't think anyone came here often.

Leah sat down on a rock. Acting either on instinct to get warm or to be close to her, I didn't know, but I jumped up on the rock and settled myself between her legs. She automatically wrapped her arms around me. This silent moment with her meant more to me than anything I had with Edward.

After awhile, Leah broke the silence. "So when are you going to talk to Edward? I don't want to push you into talking to him before you're ready but you know we're training with the Cullen's again tonight and I don't know if I'll be able to control my thoughts as I have been in the past. Especially after the day we had together today." She chuckled a little.

I was glad Edward wasn't able to read my mind. If he were, he would have broken up with me long ago for all the thoughts I had about Leah.

I shrugged against her, "I don't know. I want to do it as soon as possible. I'm kinda dying to do out with you." I admitted.

She laughed. "Me too."

I sat up, "I should probably get going. Charlie will be waiting on me." I slid down off the rock.

Leah followed me back to her car. "Maybe you can spend the night with me? That way you won't have to sneak out of the house." She asked hopefully.

"What about Edward? He's supposed to take me to the clearing." I said.

She grimaced at Edward's name. I hated that I was doing this to her. We arrived at my house a little while later.

"Do you want to come in?" I asked, unbuckling my seat belt.

She shook her head. "Edward's waiting for you."

"Damn. There goes our slumber party plans." I mumbled. She laughed as I shut the door behind me and went into the house.

Edward met me at the door. "We need to talk Bella."

I gulped. "What about?"

He scoffed. "How about why you're suddenly best friends with Leah and you're distant with me? Why you're spending all of your time in La Push lately? Why has your future been so fuzzy lately and sometimes Alice can't see you at all? Or how about why you smell overwhelmingly like Leah right now?"

I sat down in the chair that Charlie normally sat in. I took a deep breath. "You're not going to like this." I whispered.

"What is it, my Bella?" He asked, taking my hand gently.

I gently took my hand back and said, "I'm not your Bella anymore."

If it was possible, I could swear his face became paler. "What do you mean?" He asked in a deadly voice.

I looked down. "That night I went to the bonfire with Jake was the first time I'd seen Leah since she became a werewolf."

"And?" He prompted.

I whispered the damning words, "She imprinted on me."

Edward leapt away from me. Suddenly he was on the other side of the room. His eyes were black and he was glaring at me. "She imprinted on you?"

I nodded. "I'm sorry, Edward, there's nothing I can do about it. She's my soul mate, my other half, I belong with her not you."

He stared at me, then without a word he left me sitting in Charlie's chair. I started to cry. Couldn't he have at least said something so I didn't feel like a complete bitch?

I went out my back door and stood on the porch. There was always a wolf patrolling at least one hundred yards away from my house. If I yelled loud enough, they would hear me.

I took a deep breath and screamed as loud as I could, "LEAH!" I sat down on the top step. I only waited no more than two minutes before Leah emerged from the trees and sprinted toward me.

She didn't speak, just sat down next to me and put her arms around me. I leaned into her embrace and cried.

"I did it. I told Edward." I said after a while.

Leah tensed. "What did he say?"

"Nothing. He just left." I said, pulling back to wipe my face.

Leah hung her arm over my shoulders. "I'm sorry he did that. He'll come around eventually."

We stared into each other's eyes for a long moment. Then, yet again without thinking, I leaned forward just an inch. Leah took this as an invitation and leaned forward. I closed my eyes and waited to feel her lips on mine, instead, she pressed her lips to my cheek.

She whispered, "Now is not the time for our first kiss."

I smiled. "Thank you." I wasn't sure why I said it, but Leah seemed to understand.

A/N: I don't know about you, but that was hot. I love Leah and Bella together. Next up: more Leah and Bella. Thanks for all the reviews. They are LOVE!