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Chapter Six- Hysteria

"Yeah, it's holding me, morphing me

And forcing me to strive

To be endlessly cold within

And dreaming I'm alive

'Cause I want it now

I want it now

Give me your heart and your soul

I'm not breaking down

I'm breaking out

Last chance to lose control"

-Muse- "Hysteria"

(Bella's POV)

Leah took me to the clearing that night. Edward's eyes bored into mine, causing me to shrink into Leah's side. Apparently Edward hadn't told his family what was going on because they were confused.

"Leah imprinted on Bella." Edward said, his voice sounded hurt and broken.

Alice gasped. "No! But can't a wolf be anything to the imprint? Why can't Leah just be Bella's friend and Bella can still be with you!" She sounded like she was begging and that made me feel bad. I looked up into Leah's eyes, she looked hurt, but she was in wolf form so she couldn't say anything.

Edward shook his head. "Leave it alone, Alice."

Rosalie said, "So why are we here? If Bella's run off to be a lesbian why do we need to fight for her?"

Carlisle said, "Because, Rosalie, this isn't just about Bella. We're protecting Forks and our family. So we will still fight Victoria even if Bella is no longer with Edward." He smiled to me. "I'm happy you found your soul mate, even if it's not my son."

I smiled back at him and looked down. Jasper once again demonstrated the moves to the wolves. Throughout the night, I felt Edward's eyes on me. I ignored him each time and shrank further into Leah's side. I couldn't take his hurtful expression on me. I didn't mean to hurt him and I wanted him to know it.

His eyes were on me again. Against my better judgment, I looked up and met his eyes. They were filled with pain, despair and fury. He looked almost like he blamed me for leaving him. He caught me reading his eyes and they turned accusing. He was glaring at me now. Leah noticed this and growled.

I huffed and stood up. "You know, Edward, you shouldn't blame me for this. It's not my fault, okay. I didn't leave you because I had to, okay. I tried to fight the imprint for as long as I could, but Leah completes me and every time I'm with her I feel things I never felt with you. You've done nothing wrong and neither have I. In fact, this is no one's fault except for the bitch that is fate. So stop glaring at me like I did this on purpose."

He gaped at me. He composed himself and said, "Fine. She's better for you anyway. At least with her you can't get pregnant and produce little mutt babies."

"Edward!" Esme cried. "Stop that right now. I know you're hurt by this, but Bella's right, it isn't her fault and you shouldn't blame her. It's not Leah's fault either so don't blame her. And don't talk about children like that. The wolves will have normal babies and don't call them mutts."

I smiled in thanks at Esme and she smiled back. Edward didn't answer. He just turned and ran away. I couldn't help but feel a little like I was to blame for that.

Carlisle turned back to everybody and said, "I think that's all for tonight." I hopped onto Leah's back and she took me home.

Just inside the tree line, she phased and then climbed in my window in human form with me on her back. She sat me down on my bed and sat down next to me.

"Thanks for telling Edward off for me." She said.

I smiled at her. "He deserved it. You didn't deserve to be talked to like that."

She smiled back. "It was hot seeing you get all huffy like that."

I laughed a quiet laugh. I didn't want to wake Charlie up. My face was red from her comment and I didn't know what to say to her.

She said, "I have to go, but I'll be patrolling right outside if you need me."

I nodded. "Okay." She leaned over and kissed me on my neck. The feelings her warm lips against my skin stirred up in me caused my eyes to close, and my head to fall back a little. When I opened my eyes, Leah was gone. I cleared my throat and tried to ignore the warmth I felt in between my legs. Damn her. I stood up and changed into my pajamas.

Thoughts of Leah's lips filled my head. She had kissed me three times now. Twice on the cheek and once on my neck. Each time she'd pressed her lips to my skin, I felt the warmth in between my legs. I remembered how perfect her naked body was yesterday. Her perfect breasts and long legs. I remembered feeling her arms around me when we were cliff diving.

I could barely remember the fall through the air and breaking the surface of the black water below us, it was all a blur. But Leah's arms locked around me, I could remember that perfectly. The thought of her alone made me wet.

I began to imagine what it would be like to be pressed up against Leah's naked body. Or finally kissing her full on the mouth like I had wanted to so many times. My body was begging for a release.

Without really thinking about it, I slipped my chill hand into my underwear. My fingers started to work my center as I thought more about Leah.

Her perfect breasts.

Her long legs.

Her full kissable lips.

Her flat, toned stomach.

Her vagina, that I'm sure was Bella's Wonderland.

I imagined my cold fingers were Leah's warm fingers inside of me. I imagined her flawless tan face peering up at me from between my legs.

"Leah." I moaned. My fingers worked my center faster and my other hand went up my shirt to my breasts. I was getting close to getting my release. I focused more on Leah, imagining her tongue dipping into me. I bit back another moan. I was so close.....

Suddenly, my door opened. "Eek!" I squeaked as I yanked my hand out of my pants and fixed my shirt.

"Bella?" Charlie asked. "You up?" You've got to be fucking kidding me. If I had a gun right now, I would shoot him.

"Yeah, I'm up." I said. I was glad the light was off so he couldn't see my face that was probably flushed. I could see his silhouette in the doorway nod and then he left and went down the stairs.

I sighed and flopped back on my bed. "Godammit Charlie."

I sat up and went to take a shower. I don't know how much more sexual frustration I can take. I didn't know if I could go downstairs and face Charlie without choking him for interrupting me.

When I was dressed, I went downstairs. Apparently, Charlie valued his life and left me. I wonder if he could sense I wanted to kill him when he opened my door.

I ate breakfast and tried to decide what I would do that day. I didn't really have much planned. Thankfully, I didn't have to decide because Leah walked in my back door just then.

"Sup Bells? Have any nice dreams?" She teased.

I looked at her blankly, but when I noticed her smug smile I gasped. She'd heard me moan her name. I quickly looked down and shook my head. "Actually I didn't sleep when I came home."

She sat down next to me. "So you were awake then?"

I nodded. Even without looking at her I could see the grin on her face. I blurted out, "I want to tell Charlie we're together."

Leah paused. "Are we together?"

I looked at her. "You said if Edward wasn't in the way we would be together."

She nodded, "I know, I'm just making sure you want to get with me so soon after breaking up with him."

I laughed. "After yesterday and last night, I couldn't care less about Edward."

She smiled at this. "Okay, we'll tell Charlie when he gets home tonight, then."

We spent the day waiting on Charlie and watching movies. She liked horror movies, which scared me and made me hide behind her. She helped me cook dinner that night. Charlie came in while we were still cooking.

"Leah? You're over here a lot lately. I figured Bella would be with Edward today." He said sitting down at the table.

I shook my head. "Nope, Edward's busy." I said.

Leah smiled. When the food was done, we sat down to eat. Charlie surprised me again by talking to Leah. I was so used to him reading the paper at dinner. I guess he really liked Leah.

"Thanks girls, that was great." Charlie said as he stood up. He burped and left the room. Leah and I washed dishes and cleaned the kitchen.

When we were done, I turned to Leah, "Ready?" I asked.

"Are you?" She countered.

I nodded and we went into the living room and sat down. Charlie smiled as we sat down, but didn't say anything. We watched the game with him for a while. During halftime, Charlie asked, "So Bella, why wasn't Edward with you today? He's usually stuck to your hip. Yesterday you went to La Push and today you're with Leah all day. What's he think about that?"

I was about to make Charlie the happiest man in the world. "I broke up with Edward."

He dropped his beer. "You did? When?"

I shrugged. "Yesterday, but I've wanted to break up with him for a while."

"Oh." Charlie said. "Why do you say that?"

Charlie didn't usually push a topic, so he must be really curious right now. So I told him, "I'm in love with someone else."

"Jake?" He asked sounding hopeful.

I shook my head and looked into his eyes. "Leah." I said calmly.

Charlie's eyes bugged out of his head. He looked at Leah, then back at me and back to Leah. Then he laughed.

Leah and I looked at each other, but Charlie just kept laughing.

"Dad? What's so funny?" I asked.

He finally stopped laughing and said, "That's great, Bella."

I looked at him wearily, afraid he might not believe me. "What?" I asked dumbly.

He looked at me and repeated, "That's great." All traces of laughter were gone now. "Leah's a good girl and can't get you pregnant." He said without thinking. He scrambled to correct himself, "I mean, she'll take care of you."

Leah and I laughed. Charlie glared. I finally caught my breath and said, "Dad, Leah and I are going upstairs."

He said, "Okay." It was quiet and then, "Hey, wait a minute! No funny business up there, I don't care if she is a girl, no sex in my house!"

My face was bright red when we reached my room. Leah laughed at my blush. I sat down on my bed, "Oh my god. Well, that went better than I thought it would." I said.

"Yeah." Leah agreed sitting next to me. "Now there's nothing holding us back. As soon as we're done fighting the newborns, nothing will be in our way. We'll have a whole summer together before you go to college."

"College?" I asked.

"You're not going?" She asked.

I shrugged. "Well, I got accepted to Dartmouth, University of Washington, and the University of Puget Sound."

She smiled, "So go to college, Bella."

"What about you?" I asked.

Her smile turned sad. "I'll wait for you. Trust me, I don't want you to go so far away, but I also don't want to hold you back. I don't want you to stay here just because I want you to stay with me. You won't be that far away, I can visit you."

I nodded. "UW it is then." She smiled at me.

"Great. You need to get to bed. I'll be busy with the pack all day tomorrow, but I'll come get you tomorrow night to take you to the clearing. Be sure to ask Charlie if you can stay the night with me. I'll see you tomorrow." She said. She kissed my cheek and left. I heard her say goodbye to Charlie and the front door shut behind her.

A few minutes later, I heard Charlie's footsteps coming up the stairs. Oh boy, I thought. Here we go.

He walked in my room. "Bella? Can I talk to you?" I nodded. "Good, how serious are you and Leah?"

"Pretty serious." I said with confidence. He nodded.

"I want you to go to college in the fall. I don't want you to throw your life away for her."

I laughed. "Dad, she wants me to go to college too and I've already decided on UW. I'll be in Seattle and she'll be here." He nodded.

"Okay, night Bells." And he was gone. For the second time that day, I flopped back on my bed. I went to sleep in my clothes and dreamed about Leah once again.

A/N: SO SORRY this took so long. I had it done a few days ago, but I wasn't happy with it. So I re-wrote it, and re-wrote it again and I'm still not one-hundred percent happy with it, but there it is. Thanks for all the reviews, alerts and favorites. I LOVE YOU, ALL of you! ~LCM