The Love of Ember'
This chapter is told from the mind of Ember. Please review if possible.
Why am I here? What have I done to deserve this? One rash act in haste, and my life becomes worthless. Now I'm trapped within these walls. To emerge when it has been deemed that I have learned my lesson. Yet if not for my minor transgressions have I been forgiven, why should this, somewhat extreme case, be different?
If I had been in control of my emotions this wouldn't have happened. Was I cursed so all whom I pursued would either reject me or cheat on me? Love, it eternally eludes me, yet it's all I care for. What is love anyway? Affection? Kindness? Devotion? A combination of all these things? Is it more than this world can show? Does anyone know what real love is like? Is it because the world is devoid of love that I'm here? That must be it, my actions are justified, it's the hateful judgments of others that make them seem wrong. If I am seeking real love, how can I be wrong?
What did I do wrong that day....
I was awake early, excited at having made it a week with the new dragon I hoped would be my mate for life. I had already mated with lots of other males, I mean if that's what they wanted it's what they got as long as I could keep them in the relationship. What was his name again? It's been only a week but minutes feel like hours in this dark, metal hole. It's not important anyway. We had mated the night before, and afterward he has said he would stay with me forever. If I hadn't heard that a hundred times before I might have believed him.
I went to his house on the western side of Warfang, I hadn't seen it before but he was right in saying it was huge. It was three stories high, and wider than the entrances of the temple. I figured since he told me to come by whenever that I could just go in. I slowly pushed open the door and went in, closing it behind me. I heard a sound from up the stairs, at first it was a creaking and thumping. Then, as I made my way up the stairs it became a low pitched moan, intermittently interrupted by a higher pitched squeal. I knew exactly what it was. Once again I had been deserted by a male. One who I had spent too much time and energy on to let go without a fight.
I burst into the room where the sound came from. What I saw dashed the minimal hope I had left. Not only was he cheating on me, but there were three of them in there with him! I screamed at him, demanding to know if I wasn't enough for him. One of the members of his harem looked at me and said they had been here much longer than I had.
After that, adrenaline took over. I whipped her across the maw with the end of my tail and left. If I had left it at that I wouldn't be here. I'd be getting cheated or rejected by another male. I destroyed it. Everything I could see was on fire or smashed to pieces. So instead of being out there, I'm in here. Finding myself and the reasons for my suffering. Whether I get out of this place doesn't matter. I would only be rejected by all but those who know not of me. Maybe once I find what love is I can escape. From the prison of my mind, and their judgments.