Another Christian POV. hope you enjoy.

We had been told to wait outside as they rushed her into the room and closed the door behind them. I sat down on the couch looking as if I would pass out myself but I pushed it aside and focused on the door. Willing them to come out and say she was okay, or even to hear her throw something across the room. Anything would be fine.

When I had allowed myself to look at my surroundings I noticed everyone looking as if they where about to bite each other's heads off. This was going to be a fight, I knew it from the moment that Adrian had spoken. So sitting quietly I waited for the outburst that I knew was coming.

"What do you mean she thinks about guardian belikov all the time?" lissa said through a strained whisper, wanting to get loud but knew she needed to stay as quiet as possible.

"I mean exactly what I said, she and belikov had a thing going before he up and left for…" he paused and glanced at me and then Dimitri. "For princess Ozera."

"You have no idea what your talking about if she was in love with him she would have told Me." lissa said in denial. "We are best friends."

"Oh? Then tell me, since coming back to the academy has she ever been with anyone besides belikov? And how else would you explain the fact that he was the only one that could calm her down?" Adrian said. "They where together, Lissa your best friend isn't as close to you as you think."

"it wasn't like that with rose and I she did what she was told because she had to, and as for our relationship I wouldn't say there was much of one, I had feelings for her, true, but we knew nothing would happen for us." dimitri chimed in.

I stayed silent waiting for them to notice that I had known too, but they where so caught up in their own ego trip that it wasn't really even about rose, it was just another chance for Adrian to fight with dimitri.

"Well try telling her that, she won't move on because of you, do you know I want to be with her but she doesn't trust Me." he snapped growing louder.

"Did you ever think that your reputation has something to do with the reason rose won't be open with you? Or maybe because she is afraid that you will sleep with her and ditch her." Dimitri said matching Adrian's tone.

"So what if I want to sleep with her who doesn't? I know you did. And she would have let you."

Rose was lying in a hospital bed suffocating and they where arguing about sleeping with her. As flattered as I am sure rose would have been it pissed me off.

"Hey" I snapped. "You claim to love her so much and yet you left her"

"It was-"

"Yeah I get the whole for her career thing and I know that she told you to go but still to show up and act like nothing ever happened is more than a little fucked up." I said. I saw Adrian smirk.

"And you act as if she is the center of your world but let's face it, she's just a trophy to you, you prance her around in all the fancy things your family's money can buy her. No she doesn't love you, and you know that, so you buy her things, she can't be bought Adrian." I shouted my voice getting louder than everyone's.

"You have a lot of nerve, you knew the whole time how she felt and what was happening to her and didn't tell us" Adrian said.

"She told me not to, it wasn't my business"

"This isn't your business now." Adrian yelled.

"Rose is my business, you arrogant assholes think that you can take anything you want from her and expect her to heal because she is a dhampir, and young, both of you are wrong. I know what it's like to loose family and to want to cling on to the first good thing that comes your way only to have it snatched from you. That is exactly what you are doing to Rose and I won't just sit back and let you destroy her."

Everyone was silent for a minute. I could feel all the eyes that where on me, I knew that I had screwed up. I had just at the very least publicly professed my allegiance if not love for rose. What is this girl doing to me?

"Christian?" Lissa's soft voice wrapped around me. I had forgotten that she was there. Rose would kill me if she found out. It's funny that even while facing a very bad breakup your mind is on rose I thought.

"Lissa…" was all I could get out as I turned to face her. There where tears welling up in her eyes, I had just shattered her world much like Dimitri did to Rose. There she is again.

"Why?" she asked. "Why didn't you tell me? She is my best friend Christian! How can you let yourself fall for my best friend?"

"I didn't realize it until recently Lissa I swear" I said walking towards her. She backed away from me like I had the plaque.

"Does she share your feelings?" she asked. That was actually a very good question, outside of that kiss she had never let anything slip. And the kiss was only because we where caught in the moment. Had I really just thrown my future with lissa away for someone who actually might not like me?

"Not that I know of." I finally said.

"So you just decide to tell the world you're in love with rose and don't even know if she loves you back?" she asked.

"Look, I probably would have tried to pretend other wise but it isn't fair to you." I said.

"So you're dumping me?"

"I don't want to, but how else are we going to get past this I mean, I love you, I guess I just love Rose more" I said.

"Not an easy decision is it?" I heard Dimitri chime in.

"Well I'm not going to hurt one with the other." I said. Hoping I could bring myself to believe this.

"That will get old real fast" Dimitri said.

"I love you lissa please understand that."

"What ever, rose is in that room right now hurt so we will figure it out later." lissa said sitting in a chair. That was never good.

But all things considered she took it well, I knew we had more to talk about once rose got better. And as much as it hurt me to hurt lissa, I felt better admitting my feelings publicly. I care for her, but how do you balance that with just being friends?

wow mean are being jerks at least he is the nicest jerk of all. lol hope you enjoyed r/r please