Thanks for the reviews and I am sorry to those of you that hate it when they fight. But things always get bad before they get better. As for this chapter bear with me, I was trying to balance personalities so please don't hesitate to tell me if I didn't do that well.

Other than that enjoy.

Monday morning had finally come, but it didn't really hold the same meaning as it had just two days ago. Then I had been excited about spending a whole six weeks with Lissa, now I wasn't so sure if I wanted to graduate. Something in me knew that was just my anger talking, that I had every intention of graduating. The only thing that wasn't figured out for me was if I really wanted to be a guardian. I had said that I didn't and that I wasn't going to, but what else was there? I had devoted so much of my teenaged life to protecting Lissa that I honestly didn't know what I was good at.

The doctor had let me go on the condition that I get plenty of rest set up an appointment with the counselor and opt out of the field experience for about two weeks. I hadn't really cared that she had made me opt out, the only thing I had enough energy to do anyway was walk to my room and pass out. Which is exactly what I had done. Sleeping off and on the duration of the day. When I did manage to stay up for more than five minutes it was to take my shower. I stayed there until the water got cold, and returned to my bed not even bother to get dressed or blow dry my hair. From an outsider's point of view I was a wreck. It was a wonder I even had enough tears to cry. Had I been human I would have dehydrated my self the first hour I lay in my bed.

It was about four o'clock in the afternoon when I heard someone knock at my door. I hadn't wanted to move to unlock it so I just laid there listening to the pounding grow louder. Five minutes was all it took for the increasingly loud banging to stop before the person spoke.

"Rose please I need to explain, I didn't say anything the other night because you where already so mad you wouldn't have listened to me anyway." Adrian said on the other side of the door. He was actually the last person I wanted to see. So I ignored his pleas. "Come on, I am not leaving until you open the door." he screamed. "Damn it rose open the fucking door." he said louder. Where were the matrons when you needed them? I thought.

That kept up for a while until it became annoying. I picked up my phone and dialed a number that I had never actually used before today. I zoned out while it rung but was brought to attention by a husky voice.

"Rose?" the voice on the other end asked.

"Christian" I said "can you just make him go away?" I asked, I had never been so weak before but with good reason my self esteem took a major hit and my moping wasn't helping things, I just couldn't do anything else. I was drained both physically and mentally.

"I'll be there in a minute." he said hanging up the phone.

He was true to his word because a minute later I heard Christian's voice booming through the hallway.

"You need to leave, she doesn't want you here" I heard him say.

"And who the hell are you all of a sudden, the only reason that this happened was because you couldn't keep your feelings in check around my girlfriend." he yelled back.

There was no way in hell that I was still his girlfriend.

"What the hell does that mean?" Christian asked.

"I saw you kiss her the other day, I let it slide thinking maybe you where trying to comfort her in a way I couldn't, but then you told everyone that you loved her and lissa got hurt and I got angry. So yes I slept with her but not because my feelings for rose changed."

"What feelings? How can you claim to love her, you slept with her best friend ruining their relationship?"

"Is it their relationship your worried about or the fact that now it will take you longer to get in her pants." Adrian said. I could almost hear the smile in his voice like pissing off a fire user with a temper matching mine was an accomplishment. "Yeah well good luck that prude is a tough nut to crack even when she's wasted." he added the smile still in his voice. But I was sure that smile had immediately been wiped away when I heard Christian's fist connect with Adrian's face. This was definitely one royal that didn't fight with politics. Even that was not enough to get me to open my door. Even though I really wanted to see it.

"If you ever make any type negative comment about her again, you will be begging for me to end your sorry excuse of a life, you got that. Because something you fail to notice, you didn't "get in her pants" either, you where never even close and it may not seem like it now but that will mean something to her once she gets her head on straight."

I didn't hear a response from Adrian. That meant he was either unconscious or walking away. Either one would have been a win for me.

I had just settled back into my bed when my phone started to vibrate. Careful not to drop it I slid it to the edge of the end table and without picking it up I scrolled to the message icon.

I'm sure u don't want 2 tlk right now so txt me whn ur rdy

I wasn't going to answer him but he had just punched a royal moroi in my honor.

Thnx, I owe u, r u ok?

Thatz juss like u. puttin on a brave face 4 me when I should b comforting u.

Well It still had to hurt sum.

What hurt waz how badly she hurt u.

Glad I still have at least one person I can count on.

Always, I 3 u

Will u be mad if I don't respond?

U juss did. *rolls eyes*

Guess I did, night Christian *tries to smile*

Nite oh and don't force it rose, you'll feel better soon.

Promise?

Cross my 3

I knew he was right, although it felt like I would never heal. Like the hole that Dimitri Adrian and lissa ripped in my heart was permanent and to a certain extent it was. We would never be the same. I thought of all the plans we had, we where suppose to be one big happy family. Lissa with Christian and me with Dimitri.

I began to cry again thinking that our happy ending was no where in site. Things would have been so much different had we not been caught. Nothing good has happened since coming back here. I needed to leave, to clear my head and live for me for a while, but since the chances of that happening where slim I would have to find some other way to breath and find myself. I Also knew that it wasn't going to happen with me crying all the time. So I made it up in my mind that One day was all the time I was going to let myself cry over the people that hurt me, I was definitely going to move on. Sure I would still be in pain, but they win if I show it to them. Until Dimitri I was never vulnerable, after him I am a wreck, I hate myself for wearing my heart on my sleeve. But hey you live and learn. Right?

…next day…….

I woke to the sound of my alarm clock beeping in various different pitches. It was one of those fancy ones that Lissa had gotten me as a gag gift for Christmas one year. As I thought about this I laughed and picked the increasingly annoying little clock up and chucked it at the closest wall with all the strength I could muster. After all I was still laying in the bed with the covers over my head. It startled me when I heard pieces bang to the floor. I didn't feel the least bit bad about it though it must have cost a fortune which luckily for her she has. note to self buy a new clock.

My attitude was starting to come back, not exactly to it's fullest but still strong. I had gotten passed my pity partying stage of our break up. Now it was on to the next step. One that I was sure I would enjoy. I let a smile play across my face because today was a day of purging.

Immediately I got up out of my bed, and found some comfortable clothes to put on. While I was getting dressed I thought about where I should start. Adrian was a bit deranged at the moment, Belikov was preoccupied with the strigoi stuff and lissa was probably still wallowing in self pity. good she deserves it. she would also be the hardest to get rid of. I had a lot of things that belonged to her, and the fact that although I am blocking it out now, if I get to close to her I might loose my resolve.

"Adrian it is then." I said gathering the stuffed animals and little nic nacs he had brought me and putting them into a trash bag. boy did he waste his money.

After I had grabbed everything I made sure I had my key before I locked my door and headed to the guest housing. People looked at me like I was crazy as I walked with a huge trash bag full of junk. Once there I began to bang on his door much like he had mine the night before.

"Rose I am so sorry I swear it won't happen again." he said hugging me. I didn't hug back and he was to drunk to tell I hadn't actually forgiven him.

"Uh huh, here is you shit back Adrian" I said handing him the bag.

"I bought all of this stuff for you. Are you breaking up with me?" he asked his words slurring a little. No idiot I'm madly in love with you.

"Is that even a question?" I asked looking at him like the liar he was. Some nerve.

"What happened with lissa was nothing; it was just something I did because she needed it. And besides you and the human flame thrower where kissing."

"We kissed once, and had that been all you did with Lissa I would have just sucked it up and moved on. But seeing as you fucked her, because that's what you did since you say it didn't mean anything. You and I are through." I said throwing the bag at him once more.

He finally took it knowing I wasn't taking no for an answer. "Where are the clothes and the jewelry?" he asked.

"well the clothes I'm keeping because let's face it they where cute and the jewelry, well I think that the jewelers in Missoula would love to have their hands on the necklaces and what they don't want I can pawn." I said in a matter of fact tone.

"You really are a piece of work little dhampir."

"My name is rose. Got it, and yes I am a piece of work, to bad you passed up the best thing that ever happened to you." I said walking out of his room. Yes it was very conceiting but it was the truth, he had even told me that I was the only dhampir that told him no. oh well on to the next one. "This will be a little tougher." I mumbled.

I was nearly sprinting back to my room to gather up every thing that had anything to do with Dimitri. You should burn down the gym.

I gathered all of the things he had gotten like the lip gloss tube, the keychain we picked up in Idaho, the dress that he tore off of me that night, the necklace that started this whole thing, the gloves he had given me during one of our first few practices, the sweat shirt and last but not least, that stupid note, all that was left of his love for me. Some love.

Just like with Adrian I marched to his room which happened to be in the same building just down the hall from where his old room was. I banged on the door until Tasha answered wrapped in a sheet. Priceless. Fucking priceless.

"Rose what are you-" she started.

"I want to speak to Dimitri" I said calmly.

"I don't think that's a good idea, rose you have been through a lot I don't think you should be-"

"Are you going to tell him I'm here or not?" I said cutting her off again. But before she could answer she was joined by a very aggravated looking Dimitri.

"What are you doing here?"

"Giving you your stuff back, if you don't want it I can burn it but I'm not keeping it." I said handing the junk to him making sure the note was on top.

"You kept this?" he asked.

"Yeah stupid I know"

"Rose…you don't have to do this"

"Oh but I do, see it's called purging, you know out with the old in with the new, although I am not sure what's new about me just yet. Guess it will surprise me. Bye belikov, Tasha." I said sizing them up. Good rose now turn and keep walking.

"Get back here." he yelled down the hall.

"Sorry, I don't take orders from you anymore." I said in a cheery voice. "Have a nice day"

Man I was actually starting to have fun with this. Yes I hated fighting with him, but that wasn't a fight that was me pushing him out of my life. This time for good. And had he actually cared he would have tried harder to stop me, I realized then that I was the biggest fool ever.

Okay, the boys are out of the way, and I still didn't have the nerve to face lissa so I just wandered around campus for a while. Stopping every now and then to stare at the groups clustered by the benches or huddle up walking towards the libraries. I wondered if they had been betrayed by a friend or a boyfriend. The answer was probably yes. It was then that I thought about mia. It had been a while since se had crossed my mind, but I had thought about the way she acted towards us. I had gotten my feelings hurt protecting lissa. She had hated her for what her brother did. And she hated me because I was friends with Lissa; the Spokane incident changed our relationship much like it had changed my relationship with Christian. Eddie was better off. I thought then immediately scolded myself for doing so. Being in love is one of the best feelings in the world, finding someone who loves you back is the most painful part. He had found his someone but she had been taken from him. Much like Dimitri from me.

Moroi classes had begun to let out and there where more people exiting buildings and lingering in the quad. I felt a cold breeze and I came to my resolve. I didn't have to face Lissa I could get rid of her another way. I slowly walked back to my room and began to gather everything that had been given to me by her or meant something to us both. It took about 7 huge trash bags and 3 trips to get it all to the middle of the quad.

During my last trip I decided to call Christian.

"Yeah?" was how he answered.

"Grab everything that lissa ever gave you and meet me in the quad sparky." I said,

"What are you-" he asked but I hung up on him before he could finish.

About ten minutes later he was in the quad with two regular trash bags of things she had given him.

"What are we doing." he asked after he finished gaping at my seven huge bags and a pile of wood.

"Having a bon fire" I said. "And purging, you don't have to if you don't want to but I am definitely getting rid of the reminders of that disaster we called a friendship." I said.

"And who is providing the fire?" he asked throwing his bags into the pile.

"Thought you'd never ask." I said.

"I didn't." he smiled at me.

"To bad" I said returning his smile. Suddenly every single bag went up in flames.

Part of me really hurt to let all of this go just like that, but I didn't want to forgive her and if by some chance I did then I didn't want to have these reminders here to sway my decision. Her feeling coursing through me would be hard enough to work around.

The fire had only been lit for a few minutes when someone brought out their stereo. It had actually turned into a bon fire. Much to my amusement Christian and I where dancing too. It seemed like hours before the guardians approached the fire.

"You would think with as huge as this thing is they would have noticed it sooner." I said swaying to the music.

"What is going on here?" Guardian petrov yelled. Putting an instant damper on the 'party' the music stopped and the kids began to scramble.

"Well we were having a bon fire" I said smiling up at her. My attention was torn away by the rack of guardians that where running up behind her. "Wow you guys are slow, had it actually been a threat we would have been dead already" I said.

"What is the meaning of this?" My mother's voice called. Wow she had stuck around, I bet it wasn't for me though. "Rose?" she said as she got closer. "Are you out of your mind?"

"Yes I really think that I am" I answered honestly. Who knew that the crazy people had so much fun?

"You could have endangered this moroi" Stan yelled getting in my face.

"Oh please, who do you think started the fire?" I laughed. Christian had joined the laughter as well.

"Just because you are dealing with something most teenagers have to deal with doesn't mean you have the right to do what ever the hell you please." Tasha yelled at Christian. Ah so she is finally making her presence known?

"Relax guys, I was just burning some trash, you know things that are extremely out dated." everyone looked at me with anger coursing through their eyes. "Fine if you don't want to join the party…then I guess we can put it out. Go ahead sparky" I said

I watched as he reigned in the fire until there where nothing but burnt bits in front of us. It was then that I noticed the sky was getting lighter. We had actually kept it going for a few hours. Where had the time gone?

"You two will go straight to your rooms, you will not stop and talk and tomorrow you will both be doing community service, cleaning up every bit of smut that is on this ground do you understand?" Alberta all but yelled at us.

"Yes ma'am" Christian said.

"Rose?" she asked.

"What it isn't like I have a choice now is it?" I said. Rolling my eyes.

She scowled. And I smiled. "I don't know what has gotten into you but you are acting as immaturely as a 15 year old."

"That sounds about right, fifteen when the dragomires died, when I suddenly became the only person to look after lissa when I took the blame for everything she did. Yep fifteen sounds about right." I said as I sniffed my hair. "Now if you'll excuse me I smell like a roasted marshmallow." I added before I walked away.

After I got out of the shower I stood in the mirror staring at myself for what seemed like hours. There was something off. I wasn't sure if it was everything that had happened or if I had always been that way but I suddenly didn't like what I saw staring back at me. Immediately I grabbed my cell phone and called my most frequent contact.

"Thank you for calling the fire user hot line how may I help you?" Christian answered.

"Very funny, look do you think you could get you hands on a bottle of peroxide?"

"Uh, I think they have some in the clinic why?"

"Oh you'll see, bring it with you tomorrow."

"Will do" was all he said.

"Thanks"

"Your welcome.

Goodness he had changed a lot, I never thought I would see the day where Christian did anything I wanted him to without question. Although I never thought I would see the day where he would admit that he like me but stranger things are known to happen.

Thanks for reading please review and tell me what you think; this was actually really hard for me to write only because how do you follow up the last chapter with out loosing the tone? Anyway if it is to bad then I will gladly replace the chapter later. Thanks