A/n I just want to say thanks to Disney101, vampirelover13, DarkDefender89 and gaby47, for your lovely reviews. This chapter isn't the best, I've been really ill today. So here it is, enjoy.
Chapter 3
"What?" I whispered. I must have hallucinated. "What did you just say?" I tried to keep my face as emotionless as possible, but I was failing miserably.
"The Cullen's. There coming back. I really wish that I didn't have to tell you, I would prefer that you had nothing to do with them, but, well, they are going back to school…."
"Are you joking?" I interrupted, this had to be a joke, some sick joke.
"No Bells, I'm not. Please be careful, I don't want to see you hurt…"
I ran upstairs, slamming the door behind me . I was speechless. They cant come back, they cant. I don't want to see them again. I don't want to see HIM again.
I started gasping in lungful of air. I was getting used to not having them around. I needed to calm down, I thought I was going to have a panic attack. There was only one thing I could do. I ran into the bathroom, pulled up my sleeve and made two more deep cuts on my arm. Now I felt better
But what if they knew? What if Alice had a vision of what I just did? I looked over to my window, it was open from where I threw out my Ipod. I slammed it shut and locked it. Now I was just being paranoid.
My head was spinning, how long had they been back? He's going to be at school tomorrow. I cant go. Maybe I should just skip, its not like I do the work any way.
I decided to just get into bed, my arms hurt and I was getting a headache from worrying. I climbed under the quilt and closed my eyes. I would have listened to my Ipod for a bit but…..
I couldn't help but wonder why they hadn't tried to contact me yet, I mean, I thought he would have at least tried to sneak into my window or something by now….. Not that I wanted him to or anything. Eventually I fell into a nightmare filled sleep.
I woke up to the sound of my own screaming. I had another nightmare. It was of him leaving me again, telling me he didn't love me. Then it changed, we were both back at school, like before he left. But he found out what I do to myself, and he left me again.
I wiped the tears away from my face, and looked to my window. A part of me hoped to see him sitting there watching me, with that smile I love so much plastered on his face.
It was 5:00, still early, but I got up anyway, if I went back to sleep id just have another nightmare. That was something I couldn't handle again. I groaned, thinking about the day head. They probably wont be back. They said I would never see them again.
I got up slowly and went to take a shower, the boiling hot water stung against my cuts, but it felt good. An hour later I was washed, dressed and had 3 new scars o my arm. I knew it was a stupid thin to do, they would be able to smell the blood, but I wasn't completely convinced that they would be there.. Besides I had cleaned them and soaked them with alcohol.
When I got downstairs, Charlie wasn't there, he must have already left for work. I stood in the kitchen for a while, contemplating whether I should have breakfast or not. It was probably noticeable by now that I hadn't been eating much , you could visibly see my ribs, but I just wasn't hungry.
15 minutes later I was parked outside forks high. There wasn't many people around, it was early. At least they weren't here. I assumed that if they were coming back, they would have there old timetable back. This meant a lot of their lessons were with me. Biology was second today, so that gave me all of first lesson to worry. I knew that today I couldn't cut, not while I was here, it was too risky. So I put an elastic band round my wrist and made my way to home room.
Luckily, my teacher was there and he let me in to sit down " Oh Bella, your biology teacher informed me that you did not attend that detention yesterday." Crap "So you will be doing it with me after school." Oh yeah, I forgot about that.
"Sure" I replied, for some reason he smiled at me and went back to preparing a lesson. Creep.
I started snapping the rubber band against my wrist, only stopping when the bell went and people started coming in.
"Oh my god, did you here, the Cullen's are back!" This caused the whole class to start talking about them.
"SHIT" I accidentally said out loud, getting a few stares from the people next to me. I snapped the rubber band against my already bruised wrist.
20 minutes later I was sitting in maths. Luckily I didn't share this lesson with any of them. So I sat there and doodled in my book again. A really creepy thought came into my head. What if he was watching me?. He can read minds, he could be looking at me right now. I stopped snapping the rubber band, id apparently been doing it without knowing. I carried on drawing in my book, making it look as though I was working
Time seemed to slow down, it felt like torture. I was dreading biology, but I just wanted to get it over with. Te bell went and I hid my wrist under the table, snapping the rubber band. I couldn't help myself.
I took my time walking to biology, it wasn't exactly going to be a walk in the park. I walked through the door, sighing in relief as I noticed he wasn't there.
A cold hand touched my shoulder, I spun my head round, coming face to face with…….Edward
"Hello Bella"
A/n Please review. And this is a horrible thing to say, but Charlie will be gone in the next chapterL. Hope you liked this chapter, I love evil cliffies.