Warning things get a little heavy in this chapter. Which is all in christian's Pov. Sorry it took so long to update and thanks to the people that reviewed. This is not as long as the first version of this chapter but it will be the last christian Pov for a while. Enjoy.

I led her up to my room quietly trying to find the nerve to tell her that dying her hair was the last thing on my mind. I really didn't want to push her into anything but I couldn't help it. We both needed it more than anyone else. We both wanted it. I looked back at her and smiled at her in an almost awed expression.

"What?" she asked as we stopped in front of my door.

"Nothing you're just quiet." I lied. Had she known that I was fighting myself from undressing her with my eyes she probably would have punched me and ran away.

"Well you're not really chatty either" she said as her smile got bigger.

I didn't respond as I pushed my door open and ushered her through it. She hadn't seen my room before but it was your typical Goth scene as I'm sure she would have called it.

"Wow" she said smiling at a picture hanging in the middle of the biggest wall.

"Those are my parents" I said a tiny spark of sadness washed over me. I didn't remember much about them anymore but despite people saying I was too little, I remember every detail about the attack.

"Wow, wait did you paint this?" she asked as I saw her examine my initials mixed in with my mother's eyes. You wouldn't have noticed it if you weren't looking for it. Lissa had been in here and looked at that picture a lot but never knew that I had been the one that did it. She never even asked. Rose on the other hand spotted it instantly. She took my silence as a yes and spoke again. "You are so full of talent Ozera, and no one knows it."

"You know it" I said without thinking. I was now transfixed by the painting as well.

"Yes well I expect 10 percent of everything you make since I discovered you" she joked.

"Rose, I rarely paint anymore it was just that the actual photo got burned in the fight the night they came for me." I said.

"So…you did this from memory?" she asked.

"Yeah, it's kind of hard to forget your parents even though I was little." I said sitting on my bed.

"Your mother was beautiful, and your father looked strong." she said sitting beside me.

"Thank you, and he was strong, funny thing is both he and mom where air users, I inherited the fire from Aunt Tasha" I said and immediately saw her grimace at the sound of my aunts name. "You really don't like her do you?"

She didn't answer instead she unexpectedly pulled me closer to her and looked me in my eyes. We where quiet for a while just staring at each other. When she had broken the silence it was so reassure me.

"It doesn't matter whether I like her or not, I'm happy right now and I have you to thank for that, you didn't have to do anything you have already done for Me." she said. Her breathe warm on my lips. I wanted to close the distance but I let her lead. "Why do you love me Christian?" she asked.

It took me a while to catch my breath before I could answer. When I did my voice betrayed me by being extremely low and husky. "I am in love with you because we are the same, both of us have needs. We hated each other at first because of lissa and go figure she would be the one to bring us together. I want you to be happy and if at all possible I want you to be happy with me. I want to be the one you argue with, the one you dream about, and I want my name to be the name you scream when you're at the height of ecstasy." I could hear her breathe getting heavier. I loved having this affect on her but she had the same affect on me and I was beyond denying it.

"Only you could have broken my resolve to never fall in love again." she said with a smile. It made my heart jump to know that she loved me too although she hadn't made the attempt to say those three little words.

I couldn't help it anymore I let my lips rest on hers waiting for approval. I wasn't waiting long when her lips pressed themselves closer to mine. He hands where on the back of my neck pulling me closer to her. I was so caught up in her that I wasn't aware that I had pulled her on my lap. She didn't protest as my hands started to roam her body tracing her waist and the outline of her bra. I almost went completely wild when she moaned into my mouth, "Christian, I want this" she said letting me roll us over so that I was now on top.

"Are you sure?" I asked, I didn't want her to regret it in the morning and I certainly didn't want her to hate me for not stopping to ask her.

She simply nodded in answer and I began to remove the only things keeping our bodies apart. I kissed every piece of exposed skin working my way to her thighs. I kissed each one before I took the hem of her underwear and gently slid them down inhaling the smell of her arousal.

I had her completely naked on my bed and she was beautiful. I took a moment to admire her standing up to remove my clothes. She started to writhe and moan loudly trying and failing to pull me back to her. I fought to repress a chuckle.

"Come back" she finally said. It had been a while since we had spoken and the sound of her angelic voice startled me from my admiration of her body.

"Tell me." I said kissing her body again carefully trying to savor each and every flavor it had to offer. I would come back to her lips after every kiss and eagerly decide what I would taste next avoiding her most sensitive areas I wanted to save them for last.

"What" she barely whispered pushing my hand in between her legs. I wasn't giving in easily though I needed to hear her tell me she loved me before I claimed her.

"Tell me how you feel rose; I won't go any further until you tell me our feelings are the same." I said taking a little pleasure out of the fact that she was purring and whining. The sound made me gasp but I held my ground.

"I love you" she wined. Grinding her hungry body into the hand that was hovering over her eager center. "Please?" she whined again.

"Louder Rose" I said kissing her neck as rubbed my hand on her gently, barely touching her.

"You're…teasing…."

"I want to hear it Rose" I said again applying more pressure to her. She arched her back in pleasure so I stopped. I needed to hear it.

"I…love you Christian Ozera, please stop torturing Me." she said.

I complied gladly slipping myself between her legs. Kissing and sucking on her neck along the way. I had gotten the condom on as was about to enter her when she froze, both realization and horror mirrored in her eyes. It felt like a punch in the stomach when she pushed me off of her.

"No no no no….." she said repeating herself for about a minute while putting her clothes back on.

"What did I do Rose?" I asked but all she could do was look at me and I swear she was about to start crying. "Rose what's wrong, I am sorry if I pushed things to far."

"I'm not ready" was all she said. Not ready? Had she not done this before?

"Rose are you a.… have you…" was all I managed before she answered the question that I couldn't form.

"I haven't don't this before, I am sorry I thought I was ready. I have to go" she said tear leaking out of her eyes now.

I had pulled my boxers back on and made it to the door before she had and grabbed her into a hug.

"Rose that's nothing to be worried about, I didn't know I would have stopped earlier. I swear I didn't mean to scare you."

"You didn't I just, I love you but I'm not ready." she said sobbing into my chest.

"It's okay, don't cry." I said hugging her tight and kissing her forehead.

"You're mad aren't you?" She said wiping tears away and staring into my face.

"Leave it to you to be worried about me when you're the one who needs reassurance." I said smiling back at her. She didn't answer apparently waiting for me to answer her question. "I am, a little but not for the reason you think"

"What do you mean?" she said letting me go.

"I am mad at myself for automatically thinking you where…um…experienced. I heard so much about you and I didn't want to believe it but I guess I did, and when you where with ivashkov, I don't know I am really sorry." I said.

"It's okay, I really shouldn't have led you on like that though" she said.

"Nothing a very cold shower can't fix." I joked.

We both stood silent for a while. I stared at her as she stared over towards the bed looking at the rumpled covers. I knew the look in her eyes was telling me "another time". But the unshed tears that still lingered where proof that she blamed her self for letting things get this far.

"Well I guess my hair is staying brown?" she asked changing the subject. I watched as she played with a strand of gorgeous brown hair. At that moment I wanted nothing more than to replace her hands with mine.

"I like you better as a brunette, but that's just my opinion I can still help you if you want." I said with a wry smile.

"No I like my hair the way it is I just thought maybe it would be fun to change it that's all."

"Hmm so this was just a trick to get in my room?" I asked smiling again.

"Yeah, that was my plan all along Christian aren't I just the biggest tease?" she said returning the smile. I noticed as her eyes on me as she answered. "and unless you are expecting to walk around like that all night I think you better go take a shower…or something" she said winking at me as she grabbed my ipod off my desk and began to scroll through the music.

"You won't be gone when I come out will you?" I asked.

"Not unless you want me to be. But it is past curfew so I guess I'm crashing" she said taking an ear bud out.

I closed the bathroom door and smiled from ear to ear. She wasn't running from me, she told me she loved me, and we managed to get closer without going all the way. A true sign of self control on both our parts if I say so myself. I couldn't help but think that rain was going to fall on this parade of ours pretty soon. That made me grimace, she had been through enough already I just wanted her to be happy. So immediately pushed the thought of rain clouds from my head and stepped into my shower letting the cold water run all over me as I closed my eyes and replayed the night with a different ending.

Originally this was going to be a lemon, but I wasn't really feeling it yet. Those take courage to right with out turning them into your own personal fantasies. Lol. But now that we know where they stand I think it's time to see what becomes of what's left of Lissa and Rose's relationship. Oh and I am sorry about that extremely depressing chapter before this one. But one has to wonder why she turned to cutting. Thanks for reading please review.