AN: It has been a while since my last update and I am so glad that I have as many followers as I do being that this was the first time I have put my work on display. I have to be honest though…during my break I can assure you that my grammar hasn't gotten better. I try but I am so swamped with this promotion and all, that I am doing this strictly for therapeutic reasons. (In addition to reviews. Lol) SO…
On with the disclaimers: The Vampire Academy Saga is a copyrighted publication. All rights are reserved by Richelle Mead.
And now without further ado…CHAPTER 27!
I lay on my couch completely still trying to think of a way to get us into that courtroom. Something in my twisted little mind had already known a way but the stubborn part of me wouldn't even consider it. So far, I had three almost good ideas. None were perfect because they all had flaws.
Idea number one, sneak on the plane. That had actually been Christian's idea but hey he wasn't nearly as sneaky as I was so I knew he didn't think about how two moroi and a dhampir were going to sneak passed a heavily guarded plain and stay unnoticed until we got to the royal court. Not to mention that I am cluster phobic not that anyone besides lissa would know that and I planned to keep it that way.
Then there's the whole reverse psychology crap that my counselor pulls on me all the time. I could make it seem like being at the royal court was the best thing for us, being so heavily protected by the guards and all but the major flaw in that is that they might decide to only take the moroi, which would leave me out completely and would scare the shit out of lissa. Just the thought of victor scares her but her being in the same room with him…so not the best idea.
Last but obviously not least would be just to ask Alberta. That is risky in and of itself because it could get Dimitri in trouble. I know that he and I aren't exactly the best of friends anymore but I do know that it would be low of me to do that to him. Then again, they come first. I could use that as a logical excuse but I guess I'm not as heartless as everyone seems to think I am. Although I won't completely rule this one out just yet.
I refuse to fully contemplate the next idiotic idea that is suffocating my thoughts because I had put him behind me and this clearly won't help matters. What can I say it's a pride thing. I smiled to myself as I turned to face Christian sleeping on the opposite side of the room.
It had been a while and we…well I was still uncomfortable sleeping with him, by choice. There have been times when I would fall asleep with him after watching a movie. I know he plans it though. Setting everything up so I would fall asleep in his arms it's cute but at times unwarranted because another thing he will never know is that I look forward to those 'movie nights' I don't feel so bad about sleeping-actually sleeping- with him. He and I are both trying to do the responsible thing and wait out our relationship before we complicate it with sex. I knew it was the right thing to do but the poor rabbit was so use to getting some every other morning that it's sort of sad watching him go through withdrawal something I tease him about all the time in the most loving ways of course.
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"So what are your plans for today seeing as it's your day off and everything?" Christian asked wrapping his arms around my waist.
"Uh I'm still trying to find a way to get us to that trial without that asshole's help," I said closing Christian's boxer drawer. I had found myself a little more comfortable in boxers rather than women underwear when I wore sweat pants. That and the fact that he said I make it them look good sort of boosted my ego a bit. "So I am going to the gym to think, can I use your Ipod?"
He slowly unwrapped his arms and stood erect looking down at me. "so you ask to use my ipod but don't ask to put my underwear on your ass typical rose." had I not known him I would have thought he was playing but something about the way he stood made the joke sound more like an accusation.
"What's wrong Chris?"
"Rose it's your day off I.e. you don't need to worry about your 'duty' or responsibility as a guardian."
"And this makes you mad why?"
"Because…you are so caught up in doing what's right by everyone else that you don't even take time for yourself when it's given, and as much as you don't want me to say it you act like your mother."
"so your getting mad because I choose to 'work' during my free time," I asked ignoring the comparison of my mother and I , "I am not that stupid, I know something else is bothering you"
"That doesn't matter right now."
"It matters to me"
"Fine but don't get mad at me when I say it"
"You just pushed the one button that is known switch my gears from bitch to mega bitch and I didn't bite your head off now spill."
We stood in silence for what seemed like and hour before he spoke rushing his sentence out so fast I barely recognized it.
"Iwanttohavesex"
"I'm sorry?"
"I want to have sex," he whispered.
"Oh come on Christian, are you seriously starting that again, look I'm not ready yet you promised that you'd wait"
"You said you wouldn't bite my head off"
"I said that I hadn't yet, and besides that was before you told me you wanted to have sex."
"Come on rose, we have been together for a while why not?"
"Oh my goodness, are you really pushing this, you are worse than Adrian at least he knew when no meant no" I snapped.
"yeah and then he screwed Lissa," he said, I could see him wishing he could retract those last few words but it was to late, he had said them and before I could actually register the apology that laced his lips my fist collided with his face sending him falling to the floor. "I'm sorry rose," he said getting back to his feet and wiping the blood from his lip.
"You're an asshole; I thought you knew enough about me by now to know that I don't want to just sleep around, that I wanted to actually feel something for whoever I chose to loose it to." I said planting uncertainty in his head. "I thought you knew how important it is for me to stay away from the blood whore stereotypes that follow me around I mean being with you is enough to get rumors started, and you want to push me back into that again? Just when I was surfacing from the last ones?"
"I didn't mean to say it Rose I was mad, look I know how you feel about having sex, but the reality of it is that I want it, I never said I was going to force you or anything I just told you what was wrong with me," he said sitting on the couch. "I meant it when I said I would wait. However, I never promised you that I would stop wanting it. That's impossible, hell you want it, and don't say you don't because you do you just keep yourself so busy that you don't remember to think about it until it's time to go to sleep"
I stood stunned to silence trying to figure out how this entire thing turned back on me. "I…"
"exactly, so if you want to punch me in the mouth to ignore the truth then punch away but the fact still remains that you want to have sex just like 95 percent of the kids in the damn place want to have sex." he said rising from the couch and pushing past me to the bathroom.
"I'll uh…see you later," I yelled as I grabbed his ipod and walked to the door.
"Uh huh, see you later" I heard him yell back unenthusiastically.
How had I managed to get so much thrown at me I hadn't actually wanted to punch Christian but the thought of him cheating on me was enough to make me mad but using it against me fueled the fire in addition to trying to avoid asking Adrian for help. This was too much to deal with all at once and I knew I needed to practice now more than ever. Otherwise, I might have to take Christian up on his offer to be my not so human punching bag.
Okay so what did you think? I know it's a bit much for right now but trust me it's going somewhere. I thought this was the best way to start back up again, her thoughts of Christian contradicting his actions was done on purpose. Let it be known that women don't know what men are thinking and rose is no exception. (unless your writing a story from a mans point of view…then your always right. Lol) but I digress…seeing as I am just about finished with this story I started working on my original, which is going to be posted on in about two months. Just a forewarning though that one will be rated 'M' for many reasons and it is also femslash. As are many of my originals. I hope you enjoyed.