Hard Rock Life Chapter 4: Given In, a twilight fanfic

A/N Okay just cause I hadn't said it before SM own all of twilight I just love Edward and the rest,..Uhh yeah I promised Lemons and they will be coming too much BPOV not enough E so here goes this chapter all EPOV enjoy!!

PLAYLIST:

ROCKSTAR- NICKELBACK

ANGEL OF MINE –MONICA

ANYTHING –JAHIEM

IF YOU ONLY KNEW – SHINEDOWN

CAN'T YOU SEE –TOTAL FT. BIGGIE

LADY MARMALADE –CHRISTINA AGUILERA

EPOV

I woke up in the music room and shook my head. Did I play last night? I thought back to last night and a smiled appeared on my lips. She actually smiled at me, and gripped my ass. I wanted to take her into my arms and make love to her all night. Show her how much she was my angel not the other way around. I looked at her guitar next to mines and smiled. They lay peacefully side by side. Jake laying next to them a piece of her guitar string under his paw and a smug little grin on his face. Bella wouldn't like that. I would have to replace that string before she woke up. I yawned and looked at my watch. It was 8 am. That meant Alice was running to the shower. "Fuck!" I yelled running upstairs but she was already laughing in the bathroom. "Maybe tomorrow big bro!" She giggled. "Save me some hot water Alice!" I yelled. I ran my fingers through my hair in frustration. I was debating on letting grow out again then I would have to cut it and let's face it Mohawk or not the females loved my hair. I smirked walking to my room thinking of how many times I got asked if someone could run their hands through my Mohawk.

Before I went in I could swear I heard sniffling. I shook my head and shrugged it off walking into my room. I lay in my bed but the sniffling turned to sobbing. I shot up and ran into Bella's room. She was crying and tossing in her sleep. Violently thrashing tears streaming down her face. Whatever she was dreaming of was getting to her. Without thinking I ran to her as quick as my legs could carry to her bed pulling her up in my arms. She gripped my bare chest her nails digging into my flesh like she needed this. My arms wrapped tightly around her as she silently sobbed before waking up wiping her face. Her chocolate eyes bore into mine and I saw something that wasn't there before. She stroked my cheek gently and a slight smile appeared on her lips.

"I had fun last night." She whispered burying her face in my chest and my heart skipped a beat.

I needed her just as much as she needed me. "I had fun too love." I whispered.

"What was that song you were playing?" She asked. I shook my head.

"I am not sure. It started as Far Away from Nickel back but it progressed to something more. Much more." I said.

"It was a love song right?" She whispered.

"Yes Angel." I nodded running my fingers through her hair. She sighed and whispered

"Why?"

I didn't understand. Why did she mean why? "I see what you're trying to hide. It's a mask to keep people away." I said.

Her head shot up and by the look in her turns cold and she shot up from my lap.

"Oh! You know me so well! Why don't you take you fake ass rocker wanna-be sympathy elsewhere!" She scowled.

The ice princess was back. "Don't you dare Bella!" I all but growled at her.

She whizzed around looking dead into my eyes. "I can't let you in." She whispered dropping head.

"Oh baby I am already in." I said standing up walking over to her.

Her face dropped with this realization and sighed."I don't know how you managed that. I don't let anyone in." She was focusing on the floor.

"And I know why but hun I promise you I won't hurt you." I said, my words dripping with sincerity,.

She shook her head and tears started to fall. "I can't, I'm sorry. Please go." She said still looking down. I nodded walking out the room, I knew she was only protecting herself but my heart still hurt at her words. I walked back to the music room picking up her guitar taking to my room. I looked through my clothes with a frown on my face. I really wanted to show her how much she meant to me. She was my everything at this point and I knew I couldn't turn away from her. I grabbed a pair of jeans getting dressed without a shirt and put my sneakers on. I went downstairs grabbing my wallet and car keys walking to the garage. Her car was sitting along the row of our expensive cars. It was such a beater but she loved it. It was a Mercedes but so old so beat up she probably got for at least 4 thousand. I sighed getting into my silver Volvo driving out of the garage. I flipped through radio stations as I drove but nothing was in my head but that damn melody from last night. There was no denying our chemistry, but she fought it with everything she had. I drove to Seattle to the music store where I purchased my Bass. Peter was just opening up as I stopped out of the car.

"Edward long time no see!" He said smiling.

I grabbed her guitar and walked inside. "Hey sup Peter?" I said.

"Same old same old. You've come with a challenge I hope." He said.

I shook my head. "Nope just fix the string on this guitar." I said.

His face twisted. "That old thing, come on bro I know you and you like the finer things in life. I just got a shipment of Gibson Flying V's." He said a grin posted on his face.

"Please fix this string. I will look at the guitars when I get back." I said pulling out a stack of cash. I didn't bother counting it. "Do a good job and I may leave you a tip." I said walking out. I got into my car and drove to the car dealership. I needed a Mercedes. 1992 precisely. I walked around for a bit before I spotted it. 1992 classic black Mercedes with a convertible. I smiled and ran my hand across the top. I wondered if she would like this. A greasy salesperson came over with a cheesy grin on his face. I spoke before he could. "I want this one." I said. He nodded and started to tell me about the car but I held my hand up. " Listen I have cash I want this go draw up the papers." I said. I hated salespeople, they only was interested in your money not quality, I pulled out my phone and called Alice. "Hey big bro where are you?' She answered.

" Car dealership in Seattle, how fast can you get here?" I asked.

"Umm I don't know why?" She asked.

"Just get in the car with Emmett and get here please. Soon I have something else I need to do before rehearsal." I said.

"Okay okay twenty minutes tops." She said as she hung up. The salesman came back with the papers and I signed them, getting the keys. I smiled at the car, I could see her long hair blowing in the wind in this car. And I didn't have to worry about her car breaking down on the side of the road. I saw Emmett jeep pulled up and I walked over to them "Hey take my Volvo back to the house I said handing Alice my keys.

"What are you up too you have that look in your eye." Alice I said. I hated that she can read me so easily it was extremely annoying..

"Mind your business." I mumbled.

"Nice car!!." Emmett whistled, "Someone's going to get some pussy for that baby whoo!" He yelled!

I got into the Mercedes and sped off going back to the music store.

"Hey Eddie here's your beater!" He said handing me the guitar. I strummed a couple notes and grinned. "Perfect." My cell rang.

"Edward I can't find Sparky!!!"Bella was freaking out. Even though I knew she was fighting it I knew that I had gotten to her when something went wrong she still ran right to me.

"Hey relax. Jake bit a string off so I took it to get it fixed." I said.

She breathed a sighs of relief. "That damn dog always does that. I think he's a little jealous of Sparky." She said.

"Why would he be?' I asked.

"Well besides you and Sparky he was the only one that made me smile." She said. Wait, did she just say that I made her smile? A big grin spread across my face.

"Well Jake seems to like me." I said.

"I mean..Uh..Dammit. Well yeah you make me happy." She sighed.

"I know I do babe. I'll meet you at rehearsal love.' I said.

"Okay I'll be there. And Edward?' She said.

"Yes baby?" I said.

"Thank you, for everything." I heard the smile on her face and I wanted to hug her but instead I said. "You're welcome." I hung up and took the guitar buying a red Gibson Flying V for Bella, and got into the car driving to the garage for rehearsal.

I pulled up in front of the garage and Bella's moth dropped open. "Nice car!" She said running my hand over the hood. I laughed at her reaction.

"You like it?" I asked.

"Fuck yeah!! It's awesome!!" She said

"It's yours." I smiled standing up in the car dangling the keys.

"No fucking way? Did you really buy me a new car?" She asked.

I nodded "Now come and get these keys!" I said.

She shrieked and jumped into the car with me wrapping her arms around my neck hugging me tight and close. I wrapped my arms around her pulling her close running my hand down her back. She sighed in contentment and didn't let me go but instead got close to me until there was no more room between us, her body pressed right against me. My body reacted to her being so close to me and I smiled never wanting to let her go. She pulled back and smiled at me. Her eyes shining through. She licked her lip leaning in closer kissing me deeply. Her soft lips pressed against mines made my cock grow hard against her, I moved my lips with hers the tip of my tongue escaping my mouth sliding across her bottom lip. A soft moan escaped her mouth and I pulled her closer to me holding her tight. Did my ice queen just moan? She was melting right in my arms. Her hands went in my arm and pulled it as her sweet tongue entered my mouth tangling it with mines. I sucked your tongue lightly my hand gripping her ass palming it.

"Whoa! Get a room!" Emmett said I felt her hands drop and I groaned opening my eyes, but she was smiling and blushing the cutest shade of red ever. She kissed me gently leaning up nibbling on my ear lobe before whispering. "I promise to try."

"That's all I ask." I smiled. She blushed again looking down and grabbed the car keys from me. "Thanks you!" She said jumping out the car. "Oh wait! Where's Sparky?" She bounced on her heels. I jumped in the back seat picking up two guitars, one her black and white Sparky that had scratches and was really old, there was the new one. The red shiny flying V that I saw her looking her at in a magazine. Her jaw dropped. "I can't accept another gift from you Edward." She said looking down. "The fuck you can! Look it had a case and everything so Jake can't get to it." Emmett said. She smiled shaking her head. "Oh come B!" Emmett said hugging her side. "Fine fine!" She giggled. "Let me see the damn thing!" She laughed. I placed Sparky in the back of the car handing her the guitar. I was looking at her clothes and frowned as she strummed the strings.

"Damn bro who put the stick back up your ass?' Emmett said.

Bella's head jerked up and she frowned. "What?" She said.

"Get in the car." I said.

"But rehearsal?" She said confused but walking to the car.

I held my hand out for the keys and she sighed giving them to me. Emmett scratched his head.

"Go home Emmett." I said opening the car door for Bella. She got in and I hopped in driving off.

"Are you going to tell me what's wrong?" She frowned

"Are those your only pair of jeans?" I asked.

She shrugged, and I frowned.

"Here's the deal either you go shopping me with me now or you let Alice dress you up when we get home. You two are about the same size." I said an evil smirk slowly appearing on my face, her eyes grew wide at what I was saying. Alice was a girly-girl, she wore hells every single day and all the jeans that she wore were skin tight and skirts were short I think she owned about two pairs of knee length skirts.

"You wouldn't do that to me will you?" She all but whispered to me.

I chuckled as I realized she was terrified. "Like I said I can take you shopping now and you can have whatever YOU like or you can wear whatever's in Alice's closet." I said stopping at a red light taking the time to look at her.

She nodded mumbling, "Fine, but under one condition." She said.

I noticed the light turning green driving off. "What's that?" I said.

"We get you some things too, you have done so much for me I don't feel right taking all this from you." She said.

I nodded. "Fair enough, so to the mall?" I asked.

She shrugged. "Sure." She started to play her guitar, and I nodded my head with her. Then chuckled when I realized what she was playing. I started singing:

I'm through with standing in line
To clubs we'll never get in
It's like the bottom of the ninth
And I'm never gonna win
This life hasn't turned out
Quite the way I want it to be

(Tell me what you want)

I want a brand new house
On an episode of Cribs
And a bathroom I can play baseball in
And a king size tub big enough
For ten plus me

She giggled and started to sing along:

(So what you need?)

I'll need a credit card that's got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it
Gonna join the mile high club
At thirty-seven thousand feet

(Been there, done that)

I want a new tour bus full of old guitars
My own star on Hollywood Boulevard
Somewhere between Cher and
James Dean is fine for me

(So how you gonna do it?)

I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name
'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair

Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels
Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes
Sign a couple autographs
So I can eat my meals for free
(I'll have the quesadilla on the house)
I'm gonna dress my ass
With the latest fashion
Get a front door key to the Playboy mansion
Gonna date a centerfold that loves to
Blow my money for me
(So how you gonna do it?)
I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name

'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair

Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

I pulled up in front of the mall and pulled and played along still singing along:

And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary and today's who's who
They'll get you anything with that evil smile
Everybody's got a drug dealer on speed dial, well

Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

I'm gonna sing those songs
That offend the censors
Gonna pop my pills from a pez dispenser

I'll get washed-up singers writing all my songs
lip sync 'em every night so I don't get 'em wrong

Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary and today's who's who
They'll get you anything with that evil smile
Everybody's got a drug dealer on speed dial

Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

The song came to an end and we got a standing ovation. Her face turned red and I gasped. We were unaware that we had audience, and they loved us. Bella gripped my hand in the car. "Thank you." I said. "More! Another!" Someone said. Bella dropped her head shaking her head. Her face was now beet red. I was a little confused but shook my head. "Sorry we have something to do. I said. Bella pulled her iPod and turned on "Lady Marmalade" By Christina Aguilera She slinked down in her chair waiting until the crowed disappeared to start singing loudly. I realized it was one of her quirks. When she was uncomfortable, she sang or played the guitar. She closed her eyes and bellowed, she even sang the Lil' Kim part perfectly. That girl had some lungs on her, I was in shock of this tiny little girl bellowing out Christina's part to a tee even better than her I may add. She took her headphones once the song was over and sighed. "Much better. Let's go." She smiled at me.

"Hold up, what was that about?" I said following her out the car.

"When I feel a panic attack coming on I need to sing." She blushed, walking into the mall.

"Panic attacks? When was your last one?" I asked.

"When my mom kicked me out, that's when I realized that if I sing it stops it cold because I get to blow. All my raw emotions come out." She said

"But why were you going to have one a couple minutes ago?" I asked.

She shrugged. "I wasn't expecting all those people." She took a deep breath.

I chuckled a little at her.

"What?" She stopped cold in her tracks and crossed her arms.

"Your voice is awesome, and you have raw talent when it comes to that guitar. I can tell you play by ear but you still rock out. I have no doubt that you're going to be a rock star but you get..Not nervous but panicky, and I don't understand why." I said.

She thought for a second. "If I know I am going to perform I am okay but that completely took me off guard." She said grabbing my hand.

I nodded lacing our fingers. "I understand love but they loved you."

She shook her head getting on her tip toes kissing my cheek. "They loved us."

I smiled and she leaned into my side and I realized her smile was growing every second we spent together. I loved that she wanted to spend time with me.

"So where to first?" I asked.

"Umm that looks like a good store." She pointed. I smile and led her into the store.

Her face lit up. "Oh my,…I am in heaven!" She grinned up at me. I waved my hand out in front of me, I was reminded of that scene from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory where they enter that room where everything was edible. "Have at it baby." I said. "Eeep!" She said running off. I walked to the chairs by the dressing room waiting for her to come and try on some clothes. The melody in my head grew a little more in depth, as I thought about that heated kiss we shared. My eyes closed my hand strumming the imaginary bass in my hand. "I felt a soft pair of lips on my own and smiled opening my eyes just as she danced into the dressing room. Damn this girl, she was going to be the death of me and I welcomed it.

She opened up so for me but she really didn't know much about me. I wondered if she was going to ask or if I would have to just come out and tell her. My life was no picnic just like hers I had my share of shitty parents up and downs and redemption. But I would have nothing without Carlisle. If he hadn't adopted me I don't where I would be, if I wouldn't even still be playing the bass. I was getting emotional just thinking about him. This was going to be hard.

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