Well, this is the 4th chapter of 'Awake'. Hope you enjoy it! R&R!
Ronnie POV
Chapter 4: Forever And For Always?
Lies. They're funny little things. Sometimes they get you out of trouble but other times, well, unfortunately they can draw you closer and closer into trouble. Big trouble, in fact. The thing is, when you lie you convince yourself it's a white lie. That's when you know you're a liar. You know from the simple fact that there is NO such thing as a white lie. A lie is a lie and eventually, the truth WILL unravel. You would think by my age I would have learnt that lesson by now...
"Mum, you're amazing!" I heard Danielle say from beneath her chuckles. I laughed, part of my laugh horribly fake from the retching guilt in the pit of my stomach. Although witnessing her forever gleaming smile, the white of her teeth shining brighter than the sun, I couldn't help but regret everything. Everything I had just told her, the lies.
That's the thing you must understand. I didn't intend to lie to her this way. I didn't intend to lie to her at all. I didn't intend to complicate things any further. None of this, absolutely none of this, was intended.
It was the most selfish thing to do. The most indescribably ridiculous thing to do. But I did it. I told her everything,every lie I could conduct. I took the truth and made it the opposite...lies. Everything that had happened; the car crash, the fact that I never believed that she was my daughter and my terrible, terrible parenting...I lied about the whole thing. I made it seem like we had been a perfect family the whole time. I told her I was the perfect mother....and that she had been the perfect daughter.
"We used to go to the park, Danielle, back when you were just a tiny little child", I had gone into detail, painting a picture so clear, so crystal clear, that it was somehow brilliantly believable. I created a past, the past which would have been ideal for myself.
"You used to sit on the swings and I would rock you back and forth", I had sighed, tears welling up in my eyes at the thought of Danielle's childhood which never was, "Your little giggle...it filled my heart with joy and happiness."
"Tell me more", she had egged me on, noticing my pause.
"You used to be such a daredevil. You would climb up onto the bars of the swings and dangle from them upside down...I would panic, thinking you were in trouble", I put my hand on the side of her head and let the tears pour from my eyes, "I would never have let anything happen to you, Danielle. That car crash, sweetie, it almost killed me seeing you like that. I thought you were gone for good!" I wept into my hands, the tears becoming comforting rather than terrifying. Danielle wrapped her arms around me, creating a shield. A shield of protection, a shield of comfort, the type of shield that would forever shelter our mother/daughter relationship. I knew from then that our bond would forever be secured.
Since that moment, we never spoke. We kept in each others grasp, our arms wrapped comfortingly around each other. And that then brought us to this moment, the moment where Danielle uttered the words that made me feel like I could fight through the lies I was making.
"Mum, you're amazing!" she had said. I drew back my grasp and watched her face. I studied it. Through all my years of torture and suffering, I had developed the ability to judge people, to know when they're lying or not. In this case, I was one hundred percent sure Danielle was serious. She was telling the truth...unlike me.
I was about to reply to her when, all of a sudden, the nurse walked in.
"Miss Mitchell, can I see you for a moment?" she flashed her annoyingly cheery smile at me and with that, I was drawn to say yes.
"Of course", I said mockingly in my cheeriest and poshest voice.
The nurse, however, ignored my inappropriate comment and lead me into the corner of the room.
"Miss Mitchell", she whispered, "we've just discovered...."
I waited for it, predicting my world was about to crumble. You see, it always did. One way or another, news for never a good sign.
"Yes...?" I nudged her on, pressing the truth out of her.
"Well...the amnesia, it's only temporary!"
A smile formed on her face,however, a frown formed on mine. If it was only temporary my lies were about to me uncovered. I glanced at Danielle. The lies...they would tear us apart.
Enjoy it? It has took me FOREVER to update so I apologize. The next update will be Thursday as tomorrow is my birthday(I'll be 14!) so I can't update then! Please Review me though as I need to know if you guys are still enjoying my writing! Thanks for reading!
Georgina =)