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If things were different.

CHAPTER 5; After

Saying goodbye to Alice was hard. Even though we only had to wait a couple of weeks until all of them would be coming for the weekend and then we'd have the whole summer. But it's too long. One weekend and Alice missed them. How am I ment to survive if Alice could hardly cut it for one weekend? ONE WEEKEND!?

Before she went she asked me to tell Renée about me planning on spending an extended vacation in Forks. All I could do is give her a helpless look, which she returned. Why does this all have to be so difficult? I thought... Because your Bella Swan, a voice in my head replied, smugly. I burst out crying in "Bella's room". Renée must have heard a sob, because moments later I felt the foot of the bed sink. I looked up at her with tearful eyes.

"Bella, what's the matter? You've been so happy this past week."

"Mom-" I didn't call her Renée to her face "-I-I... I want to go live in F-Forks," I sobbed.

"What was that hunny? I can't hear you if you talk into the duvet."

I lifted my head and turned it towards my window, not meeting her expectant eyes. "I want to live in Forks," I said solidly, even though I didn't feel it.

"I know."

"No mom, you don't know. You wanted to move away. You wanted to create a new life. Your the one who chose to rip our family apart."

"Bella, I-"

"Mom, I wanted to finish growing up in Forks. My home is in Forks. Forks is where I want to be. My heart is back in Forks. Not here. Not in Phoenix"

I felt evil for hurting Renée like this. She's still my mom, even if I didn't like her too much at the moment. I heard the duvet crinkle. I looked towards her. She was wiping a tear from her eye. Oh God, what have I done.

"Mom... I'm-"

"Bella. I'm sorry you feel like this. You should have told me sooner. I shouldn't have made you come with me. I...I can't do this right now," she said coldly. She stood up and stalked out of the room. I'd hurt her. I'd hurt my own mother. How could I be so heartless?

"Why am I such a bitch," I scorned myself. "Such a heartless bitch?"

I sat up and crossed my legs. Silent tears trailed down my cheeks and into my open mouth. I tasted my salty tears, tasting the pain that I inflicted on both me and my mother. I let myself flop back into my pillows. I was exhausted.

***

Whether it was all the swimming, because I just needed to let it all out, or for no reason, I slept for 16 straight hours. I woke up at four twenty-seven on Monday morning. Even that was early for me. Considering I get up early to go swimming in the mornings. I decide I'd waste time by logging on. Not that anyone else would be online. Just because it was all I could think of doing, as I was not in the mood for swimming this early. I signed myself in and opened an internet window, putting the messenger in the background. Moments later Rosalie's laptop made a 'plink' sound. Thinking I had pressed a wrong button I lifted my hands from the keyboard, only to hear another 'plink'. So I hadn't pressed the wrong button. My eyes were blurred, so I squinted at the screen. In the taskbar one of the tabs was flashing orange at me. Who's sending me messages at this time in the morning?

Alice: OMG you guys, Bella's online. Someone invite her!!

Rosalie: 1 step ahead of you babe.

Jasper: Hey Bells

Emmett: BELLA, your a gay. Why are you up so early?

Bella: Hiya guys. Emmett... you are too o_O

Edward: Bella :)

Alice: Emmett, you are gay. And she's up so early because we're amazing and she wanted to talk to us.

Rosalie: Alice! D:

Emmett: Am not.

Edward: LOL Alice

Bella: You guys are amazing and everything, but I just woke up. Why are you people online?

Jasper: Why have you just woken up? We're online because we don't have school today.

Alice: Bella, you silly girl :P

Emmett: For the record, I'm not gay, ask Rosalie ;)

Edward: Ew, Em. Just ew.

Rosalie: I'm gonna go you guys. I need to go do some work.

Bella: Bye Rose. Love you X

Alice: Bye, see you later.

Rosalie: Love you too Bells. BYEE xoxo

Emmett: I'm going too. Bye.

Edward: Bye

Rosalie has signed out.

Bella: Bye Emmett

Alice: In a while... crocodile.

Jasper: Bye. Alice, you did not just say that.

Edward: Jasper that contradicts the facts, n00b

Emmett has signed out.

Bella: SO how is everything with you guys.... this morning?

Alice: LOL n00b. That's funny but Edward shut up, you can hardly talk you nerd

Jasper: Whatever Edward. Things here in Forks are all good this morning.

Edward: Alice, you shut up. Right now. How's stuff in Arizona?

Bella: Things are bad.

Alice: Why?

Bella: I'm a bitch.

Edward: Since when?

Bella: Since I was a bitch to Renée.

Jasper: Oh, yeah, me, dad and Rosalie heard about that.

Alice: Heard about what?

Bella: I told Renée.

Edward: Told Renée what?

Alice: Oh. So it didn't go too well

Bella: Don't want to talk about it. And will someone please tell me why Edward is a nerd?

Jasper: Now that is a long story.

Edward: Don't you dare, Alice.

Alice: I didn't do anything!

Bella: :/

Jasper: G2G. Bye.

Alice: BYEEE love you XxXxXxXx

Edward: Bye

Bella: Bye... .

Jasper has signed out.

Alice: What's with the annoyed faces?

Bella: -

Edward: And she replies with an annoyed face! Great answer(!)

Alice: Ah.

Bella: o grrr

Edward: "Ah" what...?

Alice: Bella's feeling left out of our little group.

Bella: *claps hands*

Edward: Why? Wth?

Alice: Just tell her Edward. She'll find out sooner or later.

Edward: Not if I can help it.

Bella: :(

Alice: I'm tired. And I have a shopping trip in the morning.... Going to sleep. Bye Love you Bellaa XxXxXxXx

Bella: Bye. Love you too X

Alice has signed out.

Edward: Fuuuun.

Bella: I wish. I'm gone (and not coming back online) unless you tell me what this 'secret' is.

Edward: Nice try.

Bella: Fine. I'm gone. Bye.

And I signed out, not waiting for a reply. Buzzzzz.

"Oh crap! Where did I put my phone?" I groaned, jumping off the bed.

Buzzzzz.

A/N If you don't review about what you think etc, I won't bother writing anymore, as it seems like no-one's enjoying my story... which I hope you are...

& Any ideas for what the guys can do during the weekend in Pheonix & the summer in Forks? - put at the bottom of your review :)

Lucy x