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Raw Emotion Revealed

Olivia blinked once, twice - registering the soft firm body that pressed into hers, the smooth warm skin that she held in her hands and the deep blue eyes that stared into hers patiently waiting for her to make the next move. A move she desperately wanted to make, a move that she knew would be whole heartedly reciprocated, a move that would forever change the relationship she had with the incredibly beautiful attorney. Shaking Olivia let her hands drop as she took a step back, trying to put distance between the two of them. It would be so easy to fall into the physical, but she couldn't risk taking that final step if Alex was just going to disappear again.

Alex felt her head turn slightly, confused by the detective's actions. She was quite capable of reading people and she could definitely read the need in the deep brown eyes that stared back at her. Her own body was still throbbing from the heated exchange they had shared earlier and she could only imagine the feelings, the release more of the same would cause. It had been… too long since she had put aside her pursuit of justice and allowed herself to find a release for the emotions she kept hidden from the world. Taking the initiative she stepped forward slipping her fingertips between the waistband of the boxers the detective had put on and warm skin, yanking the detective forward as her other hand tangled in the brunette's hair, cupping the back of her head as she pressed her lips forward.

She held herself away from actual contact. Letting her lips slowly slide back and forth across Olivia's parted pair. They shared several breaths as Alex gently kissed the corner of those full lips and then teased her tongue across the detective's upper lip, capturing the lower in a deliberately slow suction, scraping the sensitive flesh with the edge of her teeth as she pulled away. The groan that escaped the older woman was incentive enough and Alex slid her hand to a bared hip as she pulled the detective even closer, their lips meeting softly in gently exploration, parting in a mutual need to deepen, tongues tangled as they slowly dueled for a dominance neither cared to win.

Olivia knew she should pull away, but the sweetness of Alex's mouth kept her firmly in place. Her tongue stroked the attorney's as she deliberately slipped it in and out of the pliant mouth against her own - imitating an act they both wanted, an act this was slowly leading them to. Olivia had no intention of letting things progress past this point, not until she and Alex talked… but she wasn't enough of a masochist to deny her this simple pleasure. She pulled back slightly, biting the ADA's lower lip, drawing a gasp from the younger woman. She reached her hand up, covering the pale one cupping her head - lacing their fingers together as she pulled their hands down, gently kissing the back of Alex's hand as she pulled out of their kiss. She knew her voice shook but if she was to have any hope at preserving her self dignity she had to stop this while she still had the willpower.

"Tell me about the Congo."

Alex shook her head slightly, trying to clear it of the sensual haze Olivia had placed her in. She blinked and looked at the detective, confused by the abrupt end to their kiss. She licked her lips slowly, fighting the urge to close her eyes in the simple pleasure she derived from tasting Olivia on them. She didn't want to talk about the Congo. She didn't want to talk at all. She thought they had done enough talking over the years but she could see the iron resolve in the detective to put off what promised to be an incredible and beautiful experience in exchange for… small talk.

Alex slowly pulled her hand away, hurt and embarrassed by her passionate display. She refused to play this game. She was done dancing around their attraction. She didn't come here to talk, she came here to see if that kiss atop the SVU precinct, that kiss she had failed to banish from her thoughts, had been a fluke or something more. She hated the tears that stung her eyes, hated that Olivia could make her feel so deeply, hated that Olivia could make her so weak. She turned and quickly strode to the couch, picking up her coat. She made it as far as placing her hand on the doorknob before she felt her body halted by the firm grip on her wrist, followed by Olivia's soft voice.

"Alex wait."

Blue eyes flashing, the formidable ADA turned and yanked her arm free. Her voice harsh and cold even to her own ears.

"Fuck you Olivia. Fuck you. I didn't come back to talk about the damned Congo. I came back to see if what we have always avoided could be real. I came back to see if there was anything behind the kiss that has tormented my every waking moment since I left. I obviously came back for nothing."

Alex turned again and swung the door open. She took a step towards walking out of it and gasped as she felt the air whoosh across the side of her face as the door slammed shut, narrowly missing her. She felt her mouth open in shock and turned to see determined brown eyes glaring at her as Olivia growled dangerously, breathing her words in a low voice.

"Don't walk away Alex. Don't walk away from me again."

She turned, sneering derisively.

"Or what detective? What could you possibly do to hurt me anymore than you already have?"

Olivia narrowed her eyes in confusion at the attorney's words.

"Hurt you? How have I hurt you Alex? I am the one who is constantly being left behind. I am the one who is made to feel as though they matter only to be cut out of any and every decision you make. I've had enemies that have treated me better than you Cabot!"

Alex took two steps forward, and taking advantage of her slightly taller frame, looked slightly down at the detective, their faces inches apart. She glared, anger made her reckless and lust made her move. She planted her hands against firm shoulders and pushed - hard. She barely moved the brunette and so she pushed again - harder this time as she spat out her words.

"Just get away from me Olivia. I've been nothing more than a good friend to you and yeah, maybe I don't let you in on every little thing that is going on in my life but you know what sweetheart - neither do you. You want me to give and give and give while you give nothing in return."

She pushed the detective again.

"You think I don't know you've kept secrets from me Olivia. You have shared nothing with me. I found out about your mother from Cragen. I heard about your run in with the FBI and about your brother from Munch. I found out you helped delivery Elliot's son from Elliot and I found out about Sealview from Melinda!"

She shoved the older woman as hard as she could as her voice rose.

"You've shared nothing with me Olivia Benson - why would I share with you!"

Olivia let herself be pushed, let herself be manhandled - she was frozen by the sight of the tears that streamed down the beautiful ADA's face. She had never seen Alex cry - she had come close when they had said good-bye the first time she had been whisked away into Witness Protection but never anything like this. Slender shoulders shook as pale skin flushed pink and Olivia could not pull her eyes away from the naked agony on the face of the woman she loved.

The last push took all her strength and Alex found herself collapsing against the detective, sobbing into Olivia's shoulder as strong arms wrapped around her waist, holding her as a gentle voice whispered words of comfort and regret.

"You are right - absolutely right. I have shared nothing with you. I'm sorry… please don't cry… don't cry because of my stupid mistake."

Alex lifted her head, her heart pounding in her chest as Olivia reached her hand up and wiped away a stray tear as their eyes locked in a heated look.

She would never be sure who made the first move but Alex felt the moan escape her throat as her lips were assaulted by a warm generous mouth. She drank in the feeling of Olivia's mouth on hers and closed her lips around the detective's tongue as it passed between her lips. She opened her eyes to watch as Olivia's widened at the applied suction.

Another firm suck by the sexy blonde almost sent Olivia to her knees. She pulled back gasping, panting before her lips were pulled back for another taste, another tease. Firm high breasts pressed against her own as Olivia slid her hands down, cupping the firm denim covered ass as she lifted the beautiful on to the back of the couch. Her hands kneaded the warm muscles as she pressed herself between a pair of long shapely legs that had been a source of arousal from the first day she had met the attorney. She moaned loudly as those legs wrapped around her waist and forced her lips past Alex's down her firm jaw, lower down her neck to suck at the pulse point at the base of her throat. She scraped her teeth back up the sensitive flesh, feeling the woman against her shake as she cried out.

Alex had never felt need like this. She had never burned for a lover's touch before, never felt as though a single touch between her legs might be enough to send her over the edge. Her center throbbed, pounded with her increased heartbeat, and ached for attention. Her nipples were so hard they hurt and she wrapped her arms around the brunettes neck, arching up as she pulled the detective down.

Olivia nuzzled the valley between the ADA's breasts as she scooted the blonde forward and pressed her knee against the blonde's heated core. She could feel the heat through the denim, through Alex's and her own. The presence of which, caused her to clench her thighs together as her body screamed for more.

"God Liv more."

Alex begged, she had never begged and part of her pride rebelled but she was so desperate and they were so out of control. She groaned at the mix of pleasure and pain that came from Olivia's mouth as it wrapped its way around one of her jutting nipples that had tented the cotton material of the blonde's shirt. Her back arched and Alex reached back for support. She grasped nothing but air and opened her eyes in surprise as she slid over the back of the couch, dragging Olivia with her as they fell into an ungraceful pile of tangled limbs.

Stunned Olivia found herself atop her beautiful former ADA their faces both mirroring the absurdity of what had just transpired. She felt her lips twitch and spread into a wide grin, her lips parting as she began to voice her amusement. Her laughter was quickly joined by the attorney beneath her and both shook and struggled to breath beyond the humor. Olivia slid her body away and stood offering her hand down to the younger woman as she smiled brightly.

Alex grinned back up at the detective, her earlier anger forgotten as she slid her hand into a firm grasp - surprised with the ease in which Olivia pulled her from the floor. She tucked the hair behind her ear, flushing with embarrassment as the wantonness of their behavior. She looked down at the damp spot over one of her breasts and both hers and Olivia's tousled hair. She chanced a look found the detective's eyes on her.

"I guess age doesn't transcend awkwardness huh?"

Olivia started at the husky alto, shivering at the way Alex's tone spoke to the different parts of her heated body. She shook her head and grinned.

"No, I don't suppose it does. I have heard of falling head over heels for someone but I think we just took that phrase in its most literal sense."

Alex nodded and looked to the ceiling, expelling her breath slowly before loosing herself in the warm eyes that stared back at her. She looked down at their still clasped hands and smiled.

"Is that your way of telling me you are in love with me detective?"

Olivia shook her head slowly as she pulled the blonde towards her, stifling a groan at the perfect way they seemed to fit together. She pulled their joined hands around her back and cupped the ADA's cheek as she leaned forward, pausing as Alex's lips trembled against her own. Whispering softly before molding their lips together, Olivia made the hardest decision she had ever had to make - she who had always solicited confession from others gave her own freely.

"No counselor this is my way of telling you that I am and will never love anyone but."

She closed her eyes and sealed her declaration against the soft lips of the woman she had always dreamed of. She dared not deepen and she dared not pull away - unfortunately the decision was not hers alone to make.

Alex smiled as Olivia kissed her but pulled back for what she hoped was the last time to look into bottomless brown orbs that swam with all the emotions she had always sensed lurking in the brunette. She saw no regret, no hesitation and no walls and she saw, really saw, Olivia for the first time. Alex slowly slipped her hand away from the detectives and slid it beneath the hem of the fitted cotton shirt. She gripped the material and slowly began to inch it up over the toned abdomen. She caught Olivia's gaze as it dropped to see what she was doing and met the questioning look with a slow smile as Olivia huskily asked what she was doing.

"I have always believed actions speak louder than words detective… this is my way of showing you.

Olivia laughed and let the attorney pull her shirt up over her head.

"You always have to one up me don't you?"

Alex pressed a single finger to the detective's lips as she let her eyes drink in heavy breasts, dark peaked nipples and smooth toned skin that felt as silky as it looked. Her voice was rough and husky, even to her own ears.

"No more talking Olivia we have put this off long enough and if you don't shut up I'm going to have to please diminished capacity."

Olivia parted her lips teasingly and took the tip of the slender white finger against them into her mouth, slowly sliding her lips down the digit, sucking slowly as she drug her teeth along the skin as she moved her mouth away, enjoying the way ice shifted to cobalt in the never ending swirl of tone and hue that made up the blonde's captivating eyes. She smirked.

"Funny, you don't seem to be suffering from any mental defects…"

She gasped as her body was wrapped in an embrace that was much more aggressive and stronger than she would have imagined the ADA was capable of. She gasped as hot breath washed over her skin, the growled response to her teasing making her knees weak as she stared into a predatory gaze.

"Try ten years of pent up sexual frustration smart ass."

A/N - When I wrote the first chapter I should have written them all - because the story I had mapped out in my mind has been obliterated by the insanity of real life. I have written this a dozen times and keep coming back to tweak it since part of me wants to keep it vaguely sexual and the other part is tempted to verbosely take it to a place that if every produced would have to debut on a completely different kind of network. This was left as a cliffhanger because it can go either way - but I am leaning towards a different network. I apologize for the long delay, the shortness of this chapter and for those of you who have reviewed - I will reply to you shortly. I appreciate the commentary, encouragement and knowledge that so many take the time to read. Thanks again.