Disclaimer: Owned by NBC/Dick Wolf - Mature warning ahead

Stay

Olivia sat on the edge of her bed, her legs spread as her hands clenched and unclenched the muscles of her thighs. Her breathing was only slightly erratic to match the rythmatic pounding of her heart. The room was bathed in moonlight, which washed over the beautiful display of alabaster skin. She sat, drinking in the site of Alexandra Cabot - the woman she had been in love with for years, the woman she had been so sure would never want her in the same way, the woman she had been so sure she had lost. She watched as skillful hands and long slender fingers slowly slid over a lithe toned body, reaching for the hem of the fitted t-shirt that currently adorned the ADA's body.

Olivia's gaze was riveted to the small strip of flesh that was slowly revealed, her eyes traveling upwards with the movement of Alex's hands as more skin was exposed to her view. She heard the gasp that escaped her lips as the fabric was pushed higher to reveal small firm breasts which spoke to the blonde's own arousal. Olivia swallowed hard as she reached out, gripping trim hip as she slowly pulled the taller woman between her legs. She pressed an open mouth to the creamy skin that covered the toned abdomen and nuzzled her lips against the fragrant flesh - enjoying the hitch in the breathing above.

Alex felt her knees tremble as Olivia's warm mouth nuzzled, teased and tasted her skin. She bit back the urge to moan the older woman's name as that same mouth slid lower. She reached out and steadied herself against a firm shoulder as a teasing tongue flicked her navel.

"Liv…"

Olivia drew back and slowly pulled the blonde astride her. She gripped the shirt that had halted above Alex's breasts and looked deeply into the blue eyes that stared back and slowly inched the shirt higher - taking the lifting of thinly muscled arms as silent permission. Her eyes were riveted to the hardened pink peaks that sat eye level and subconsciously licked her lips slowly as her mouth dried with anticipation of performing acts held under the suppression of ten years of one-sided wanting. She forced her head to tip upwards and felt her eyes widen at the soft press and sweet taste of Alex Cabot. She slipped her tongue between parting lips as her hands slid into the back pockets of the blonde's tight jeans, cupping warm firm flesh. She tasted the groan her actions wrought from the beautiful woman and replied with one of her own as she pulled slender hips closer.

Alex flicked and slid her tongue against and around the firm muscle that dueled and teased within her mouth. She could feel the hesitancy and urgency in Olivia and shuddered as the older woman pulled their bodies closer. She pulled back to lose herself in the heated brown eyes that bored into her soul and slowly rolled her hips forward, pressing down on the detective - grinding slow and hard as she made her intentions clear.

Olivia slipped her hands free of the restricting denim and gripped the undulating hips tightly forcing them down hard, holding them still as she slid her lips slowly along the line of the ADA's firm jaw, whispering softly as she made a calculated decent.

"Is this real? "

Long blond hair shifted as the elegant line of a long slender neck curved, allowing the detective more access. Olivia slowly wrapped her tongue around the soft unadorned earlobe and sucked at the flesh slowly, her teeth clamping down lightly to tug and tease- enjoying the low moan that echoed above her before breathing against the damped skin.

"Tell me what you want, what you need - everything I have, all that I am is yours… just tell me what to do."

The tone, the words, the warmth of Olivia's mouth against her skin spoke directly to the throbbing between her thighs that she was trying to ignore. Alex shook her head and groaned softly.

"Just you Liv…"

She slid her hand through silken brown locks and leaned back, arching her back and biting her lip at the feel of warm breath against her hardened nipple. She gasped as she felt the tip of Olivia's tongue dart out to flick against the needy peak.

"Jesus Liv, touch me - taste me… "

She felt her eyes roll back slightly as her wish was granted, her command was obeyed and the submissiveness of a woman renowned for her strength was an erotic enjoyment the blonde had not anticipated. She loved the way her arousal was being fed, loved the soft touches bestowed upon her, the care the brunette was taking to awaken all her senses but the speed of it all was torture. She wanted this to last, wanted it to be memorable but her need was quickly outweighing the rational side of her brain and she fought the urge to strip the rest of their clothing off and take what she knew would be offered.

The scrape of teeth and the hard suction on her flesh wiped her of all thought. She moaned and fisted her hand in the long locks, holding Olivia to her as she pushed her free hand between them and pulled at her zipper. Her hand was caught in a vice grip as a low growl slipped through the needy haze.

"Not yet baby…"

Alex hated the sound she made at the back of her throat, that whiney mewl that was quickly transformed into a gasp as her body was lifted, their positions changed as she found her back pressed against soft sheets. She raised her arms overhead and gripped the thin sheets as a hot mouth fastened itself to the firm skin of her belly, teeth, tongue and lips trailing a teasing line south as steady hands slowly worked her jeans down inch by inch. She felt the cool air on her heated skin as denim slid past her hips, down her thighs and slowly away from her completely. She started to raise her head to see what would happen next but found her back arching, her head tossing against the tangled cloth as she felt that talented mouth against her core, lips and tongue pushing against the dampened fabric of her lacy panties.

Olivia inhaled deeply as she laved her tongue against the taunt fabric, pushing it between the ADA's folds as her nose butted the engorged bundle of nerves. She felt her lips twitch into a smirk at the loud reaction her movements earned. The night was silent save for the harsh pants and low moans that escaped parted lips and Olivia closed her eyes as she fought to ignore her own needs. Her body ached, pulsated and ached and it was damn hard to ignore - but she would forgo her own pleasure for now, in favor of committing the experience of Alex Cabot nearly naked, wet and wanting atop her bed. And God she was wet. Olivia bent her head and gave the attorney another long hard lick on top of the ruined fabric before moving her lips back up the lines and curves her eyes were enjoying getting to knew so well. She followed the curve of thigh to hip, hip to stomach and moved higher, letting her lips brush and linger over nipple still damp from her earlier exploration. She lifted her head and gazed at the long lean body bathed in moonlight.

"So beautiful… "

Alex lifted her head, forcing her body to relax back against the bed. She saw the love tangled with lust in the deep gaze that stared down at her exposed body. She reached forward and pulled Olivia against her, shifting her knee between the muscled thighs, pressing against her heated center still encased in fabric, still hidden from her view as much of the rest of the detective's body. A fact that needed to be promptly corrected. Alex sat up and pushed the slightly shorter woman away as she resumed their earlier position and perched atop the detective's body. She felt her mouth drop open as her eyes looked down the length of the clothed figure and let them slowly slide back up as her hands fell forward gripping, palming breasts bigger than her own and she moaned as Olivia moaned beneath her touch.

Impatience made her clumsy as she slid her fingers beneath the hem of the detective's white tee and pushed and pulled up till the offending fabric was off and more olive skin was exposed to her hungry gaze. She knocked the teasing hands that had slowly been snaking their way up her torso and laced their fingers together as she leaned down, pressing their naked flesh together. Her eyes drifted shut as the sensation of being breast to breast with the attractive brunette sent chills up her spine. She forced herself to look at the chiseled features that were beginning to show the strain of denial and Alex felt her lips curving into a smirk as she sought to break that iron control. Slowly she shifted, dragging her hardened nipples back and forth against Olivia's as she pressed her open mouth onto the brunettes, sucking at the firm tongue moaning at the lingering taste of herself as she ground down on the shifting hips beneath her. She pulled back as she shifted lower, letting her lips trail after her as she paid Olivia the same attention previous paid on her. The hand that fisted in her hair tugged painfully but she ignored it as she opened her mouth wider, exposing even more pliant sensitive flesh to the heat of her open mouth. Her fingers slipped between the waistband of the boxers Olivia wore, her palm gliding past trimmed curls to waiting wet heat.

Olivia gasped at the confident touch and spread her legs wider encouraging more of the same. Her stomach tightened and fluttered with anticipation and she tensed as two slender fingers slid between her folds and pressed deeper slowly, curling upwards slightly before their motion stalled and Olivia looked up into shifting blue hues and a knowing smirk as Alex Cabot's husky voice washed over her.

"Knowing I make you this wet is such a turn on - this is a first for me so…"

Olivia groaned and rolled her hips, pushing the still fingers deeper, the angle making her gasp before she leaned her head back against the pillow, smiling through the need burning inside her.

"Dammit Alex - just move… don't stop… just keep moving…"

The blonde nodded and slowly slid her fingers back and then pressed them in deep again, her thumb brushing against the detective's clit, eliciting a sharp cry. She watched the emotions on the detective's face, watched the reactions as she tilted her fingers higher, curved them in various angles - she was hooked, she was mesmerized by the show of pleasure that played across beautiful features and she was amazed that she was the cause of it. Watching intently she slowly slid her thigh over Olivia's pressing the muscled flesh against her own center - grinding as she slid her fingers out of the searing heat pausing momentarily before pushing them back in hard. The cry that escaped the brunette's lips coaxed one from her own as she moved faster, her thighs surrounding and gripping Olivia's - her wrist twisting as she loved harder, fucked faster and watched the incredible body beneath her tense as muscles readied a release from the mounting tension.

Olivia panted as she lifted an arm behind her head, gripping the headboard, using the stationary sturdy frame to push herself down as Alex pressed up. Their combined movements made the strokes smoother, faster and she almost came when she felt the blonde's hot mouth cover one of the aching points on her chest. The pressure from the applied suction made her clit throb in response, the erratic bumps from the attorney's hand were proving inadequate to send her over the edge. She moaned loudly and begged - begged for the first time in her adult life and for the first time words escaped her, her intellect obliterated by raw need. She panted the only words she could force her lips to form.

"Please… fuck… Alex…"

Alex shuddered as she slid lower, urged forward by the need in the breathless words that came from the women she loved, urged away from her own sough pleasure to fulfill another's. Roughly she slid her hand beneath the bent leg - her fingers digging into the firm muscles beneath the brunette, jerking the detective forward against her waiting mouth and groaned as she tasted Olivia for the first time. Tongue replaced fingers momentarily as Alex sought to further her own experience. She tightened the slick muscle and stabbed into pliant flesh, slipped between folds and curved upwards dragging the tip of her tongue against spongy walls. The grunts and gasps that continued to escape the normally stoic detective told Alex she was doing something right and drove her onwards. She kept Olivia open with one hand, her other slid higher to pinch, pull and tease the sensitive nerves stationed slightly above.

Olivia rolled her eyes back, closing them tightly as she focused her senses on the warm motion inside her and the hard teasing touches that held her on the break of orgasm. She moaned the attorney's name, her breathing ragged as her hips jerked erratically. She cursed as she felt tongue and fingers shift away and felt her back snap upwards as warmth surrounded her clit, and a talented tongue flicked her throbbing flesh as long fingers penetrated her body once more. She had never screamed anyone's name before, and it never occurred to her not to scream Alex's - she couldn't of stopped it if she had tried.

Alex gasped as her name echoed in the silence tinged with breathless pants and long low moans and felt the flesh between her lips throb as wetness gushed around her fingers, pooling in her palm and spilling across the sheets beneath them. She slowly continued the motion of her fingers as she watched the gorgeous brunette ride out her orgasm. Alex was almost certain she had fallen in love with the amazing woman all over again and smiled as she was yanked up the muscular body their mouths meeting in a slow, tender expression of feeling. Her smile widened as soft words were whispered against her lips when the detective pulled away.

"Your turn counselor."

She felt her body rolled over and gasped as her panties were ripped from her body. She gasped Olivia's name and bit her lip as the brunette responded simply by spreading her thighs, hooking one over her shoulder as she settled between the long limbs and dedicated her attention and focus to returning the selfless expression the blonde had given her.

Alex felt her body fall back on the sheets and shivered as the cool air settled on the thin sheen of sweat that covered her naked skin. She reached for the brunette below and groaned laughingly as the stubborn detective evaded her grasp to give her body another teasing lick. She sighed contently as strong arms surrounded her and relaxed in the embrace. They lay there, bodies intertwined as the air cooled their heated flesh. Alex felt the soft kiss against her temple as Olivia whispered four words that Alex knew she had waited forever to hear and would never tire of.

"I love you Alexandra."

She turned slightly and smiled as she returned the sentiment.

"I love you Olivia."

She caught the sadness in the brunettes eyes and turned to fully face her. She touched her cheek softly.

"What is it?"

Olivia wanted to shrug off the cloud that had fallen over her elation. She wanted to hide behind her walls and tell the blonde it was nothing, but she fought the urge and met the piercing blue gaze head on.

"When are you going back?"

Alex squinted slightly, her mind still foggy from the activities moments earlier.

"Back where?"

Olivia pulled away slightly and turned away.

"Back to the Congo."

Alex bit her lip and paused before answering. She leaned up on her elbow and gently cupped the brunette's face, turning her so she could speak directly to the brown eyes that she would always find haunting. She whispered softly as she placed a gently kiss on full lips.

"Come back with me Olivia."

She watched as the detective clenched her teeth causing her prominent jaw to jut stubbornly. She knew her request would rile the checked anger and aggression from earlier - but God help her she wasn't ready to leave this behind and she was equally loathe to give up on the under represented people in that part of the world. There, she could see the difference she made, there she could feel as if she was doing something and not just spinning the wheels of justice in the civilized setting of the legal system. She could see the older woman struggling to resurrect the walls she had so recently brought down.

"No, no baby don't do that… don't hide from me, don't…"

Olivia closed her eyes to the pleading husky voice the shook her to the core of her being. She wanted nothing more than to listen to that voice, she wanted to follow that voice she wanted to spend the rest of her life waking up to that voice but the price was too high. She heard the break in her own voice as she turned away from the blond.

"I can't just leave Alex… I have a life here, a good life. I have friends, a career that I have put my heart and soul into… I have a pension that I walk away with in five more years… "

She stopped as a firm finger was placed over her lips and turned to look as the woman she loved whispered gently.

"In short you have everything you need Liv… everything but me."

Alex watched as the detective nodded before confirming her statement.

"Yes… I have everything I have ever needed or wanted… everything but you."

Alex cupped the back of the older woman's head and pulled her mouth close as she whispered - seduction bleeding through the soft huskiness of her voice.

"It is enough Liv?"

Olivia refused to give in and gave the ADA a pointed look.

"Is the Congo enough for you Alex?"

The blonde shook her head at the stubbornness they both shared. Once again their work was coming between them… had it really ever not come between them - she couldn't recall a time, a moment when they had not turned away from unspoken emotion to face the horrors of a job they seemed to be uniquely good at.

"I can't go back to SVU Liv."

Olivia shook her head.

"And I can't leave it Alex… not yet."

She felt betrayed by her own lust, betrayed by the beautiful act they had given into, betrayed by the woman she loved, betrayed by the circumstances that continually seemed stacked against them. She knew if she walked out that door - Olivia might always love her, but she would never give her another chance. She thought of all the lonely nights spent in jungle heat, all the lonely nights spend in a cold city that never slept… all the lonely nights she had filled with images and fantasies of the woman she now held in her arms and she knew that she would regret it the rest of her life. Taking a deep breath she took a chance.

"What if I stay… "

Olivia blinked back her confusion and stared at the lawyer.

"What?"

Alex repeated her earlier statement.

"Would it be enough if I stayed?"

Olivia refused to hope, refused to allow herself to think that the beautiful woman in her arms might actually be contemplating giving up her commitments elsewhere, she refused to believe that she was enough for Alexandra Cabot. She looked away, afraid to let the blonde read what was in her eyes.

"It would be enough for me Alex, but not for you and I wont be cause behind your sacrifice. I can see that you love the work you are doing. I can see the way your eyes light up when you mention it… I saw it on the courthouse steps and I refused to stop you then."

Alex listened and internally shook her head at the stubbornness in this women - she was willing to give all of herself to others and yet take nothing in return. She was correct in her assessment - Alex did love her work, she did love seeing the good her actions did but she loved Olivia more. She rested her head on the pillow, her eyes taking in the way the strands of blond mixed among strands of brown. She reached over and slid her fingers gently through the brunettes, tightening her grip as she raised their joined hands up, planting a soft kiss on olive skin. She looked into Olivia's eyes and whispered softly.

"You are worth giving all that up and more. I've been a fool for so long - I've put every barrier I could think of between us and let you do the same. You told me it would never be casual for you - well it isn't casual for me. Besides…"

Alex let her lips part in a teasing grin as she pressed her lips to the back of Olivia's hand again.

"Do you really think that after a night like tonight I could even think of leaving?"

Olivia stared skeptical to the end, but her heart was bursting with the desire that perhaps the blonde wasn't making things up, bursting with the knowledge that Alex felt she was worth the sacrifice. She slowly shook her head, feeling the corners of her lips being tugged by the smile she so desperately wanted to deny.

Alex caught the twitching lips and felt her own curve into a knowing smirk. She leaned up over the detective, content for the time being to let Olivia have her stubborn moment. Gently she pressed her lips to the shapely mouth beneath her, parting hers and Olivia's lips with her tongue - loving the way the brunette took control. Desire re-awakened along with a renewed sense of peace settled in the blonde and as she pulled away, she smiled.

"But I won't say no if you want to convince me further detective."

Olivia flashed the beautiful ADA her infamous lop-sided grin as she pulled her down for another searing kiss.

"Stick around counselor, I am just getting warmed up."

Alex moaned softly as wandering hands trailed down her body and returned the lop-sided grin she loved to see.

"Well that's the plan now isn't it."

She laughed as the detective pulled her under the covers and proceeded to show her all the reasons why she should stay, both knowing that Alex had already found reason enough when Olivia said "I love you."

A/N - Thank you for all the comments and reviews. I hope this last chapter was enjoyed - (its been awhile since I've written anything overtly graphic) I can't say this would be anything they would EVER show on TV but if they would just bring Cabot back I would be happy… till then…