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Summary: Jeff Hardy has got a lot more then wrestling on his mind lately, and it all centers around a certain WWE Diva. Will he admit his true feelings in time or will he lose his chance forever.

Distribution: The places that have the rights to this fiction as of its inception are The WWE Fan Fiction Library Open/Selected Archives, Fan Fiction Dot Net, and my own personal site.

I have to do it. There is not other way around this no matter what might happen to me after its all said and done. I can't take another night of dreaming about her, imagining what she feels like underneath my body, how her skin would feel all over if i kissed her.

He had been going over the same speech all night. He had agreed to follow along with Matt and Michelle on their quasi like date for coffee and the only thing he could think of was what the easiest escape route could be.

He wasn't a judgmental person by nature, in fact he was the one out of the two brothers that always got the whole picture of someone before commenting on what he thought about them. But with the way she was all over his brother right now, and aiming her eyes on him from across the table as she did it, he was just making himself ill.

Between thoughts of Ashley, wondering if she would show up here anytime soon, and then figuring out just what Michelle's game plan was, he was just stretched to the limit. It had been a hard night as well with the match they had been in and he just wanted to go home and rest his weary head and forget about it all.

But that wasn't going to happen, and from the looks of it, Michelle would be coming home with them. Matt seemed to like the attention he thought she was giving him, and since Ashley there really had been no one else in his brothers life. Matt needed to get laid he was sure, but he just didn't want to sit here and be a party to it.

He had to do it tonight though. He needed to talk to his brother, get the real feel on what he would do if Jeff was interested in going after his old girlfriend. He knew what Shane had said a few weeks ago was most likely true but he needed to know for himself. If Matt was still in love with her like Jeff thought he was, then he would back off and not make a move. But if there was even a sliver of hope, he knew it had to take it now. Otherwise his concentration would be forever gone and his WWE career would suffer with it.

"Isn't your brother like so funny Jeff? I can't believe I never noticed it before." Michelle said, causing Jeff to roll his eyes. Man he needed a distraction and he needed it quick, this was slowly killing him. Could she be any more obvious?

The moment he had been praying for happened though and he found himself giving a big sigh of relief. Ashley had walked in then, surrounded by Kelly Kelly from ECW and Ariel, another one of the ex WWE employees. It looked like business for the Hardy's was about to pick up in a major way.

"Ashley, wipe the smile off your face. You're calling attention to yourself." Kelly said to her friend as she watched her, her line of vision stuck on the younger Hardy brother. Her eyes not even blinking. The smile on her face was a dead giveaway though. Kelly knew instantly without much help that Ashley had a thing for Jeff and if she didn't wipe the grin off her face soon, so would everyone else. She wasn't exactly being discreet.

"Sorry." Ashley murmured quietly so that none of the other people at the table could hear her. She knew that she must look like a giddy teenager, goo and gahing over Jeff Hardy's every word but she found that she couldn't help it. Everything he was saying was right up her alley and he was actually interesting to listen too.

It also helps that he has a southern drawl.

There was that as well. She knew that was one of the reasons she was acting like such a girl. Not that she acted any different away from him, as she was known for being goofy and silly most of the time anyway but this was different somehow. She actually had a crush on the guy across from her and wanted to keep him talking as long as she could.

She heard her name again then and thinking that it was just Kelly wanting to bother her again, distracting her from Jeff's conversation, she tried to ignore it. It was only when her name was said again that she realized it hadn't been her friend speaking and it had been Jeff.

"What was that? Sorry I spaced out."

"I asked if we could talk for a second, you know, alone?"

Ashley felt like her legs were going to turn into a puddle of water at the way he said her name and asked rather shyly if he could talk to her alone. It was weird having these feelings after such a long time. It was like she had forgot what it felt like to really crush on someone, to really focus on something other then what she did for her work, for her life. She found that she liked it though.

"Sure, wanna go outside?"

Jeff nodded and excused himself from the table, following at a close distance behind the Diva with the rainbow hair. If there was ever a woman that matched him in terms of music and style it was this woman. Ashley seemed to have her own flair for the dramatic and doing things for shock value, much like him and he had to secretly admit, it was a turn on. Another reason for the watching he had been doing.

They reached the outside area of the diner and he turned to face her. He had rehearsed in his mind what he was going to say but right now it all seemed wrong and he wondered if he should just forget it.

"So what did you want to talk to me about?" Ashley asked, her eyes questioning him, looking him over for signs that this was something that might end rather badly. She didn't need anymore dramatics after the week she had been having.

He found that as she asked him what he wanted to talk to her about that the whole speech he had planned out in head seemed to just fly out. He couldn't remember now just what he wanted to say and how he was planning on saying it. So he did the only thing in that moment that he could do, that hell, he wanted to do.

He pulled her to him roughly and he crashed his lips down upon hers, not wanting to let her catch her bearings and push him away from her. He wanted to know if what he felt that night in the ring was real and as he kissed her now, and she responded, he knew that it had been.

He was definitely in lust with Ashley Massaro.

As they continued to kiss, the one recurring thought that ran through Jeff's mind, the one thought he couldn't shake kept pounding at him until he couldn't take it anymore and he ended the kiss.

I am a dead man.