I want I want to beable to put fear in thr eyes of my enimies and my betrayed also my allies I want to be able to walk as a female with great power not the power of peace but the power of rage and energy and controlism the one thing i know that i cannot do in my quest of power is to love cause if i love and fall under rule I dont get power i actually fall into the enimies hands i cant have that to happen will not love in my quest for power cuse love shows weakness it gives people the biggest and mose important part of your body it gives them your human heart it gives them the thing that keeps you at will of staying alive i dont want to ever bow to any earthly man cause the only thing that would make was if i was fragile timid and powerless and needed to be protected and need to be in a such way of a lowly class i dont want riches to be wealthy cause that is not power thats just being greedy and wanted the only thing that money can buy is material things possesions amusement tools for your liveing status Quo .But there is something at a young age that i cannot seem to understand cause its all to blirry and tilted and changing in ways as if every time i build someone starts a new war with me that makes everything that power and i built falls apart and breaks into nothing else thsn mulch and grovel mixed with motions emmbarasments charm the timd love and the untrustful trust.All that fall apartand so when it does i have to leave those parts of me aone to fight the battle and pray that I come back in one piece to yet again rebuild I feel as to end this but there is so much to say and im not going to stop until Im satisfied with what i have to say.But to let you know from all great leaders and ambtiouse peoplr that want and even power hungry people there is something that links the feelling of anger anger just say it anger to want power and have someone defy you and not let you conquer makes anger to want and not have makes anger to have to fight not phisically but virbilly and emotionally and enough to if you think of it it makes you perspire at the thought its everwhelming and joyus in a thought ful and timid minded person but do i have the guts to do what i need to get power to hold it in my own posession these are only thoughts but but they will take place i want to make people wither away to me if i command or hint when im angry and fear my anger if i cross paths i want fear in there eyes when they look at me and to the ones bold enough to stand up to me fall at my feet and utter no words and this is the despiration i have to get power just fills my heart with not joy or happiness or sadness it is juat a feeling that in due time i will be abe to say when i find out but i want power i already know that and i want others to know it too cause i will not be a selfish leader but a kind thoughtful arrogant but still power-hungry leader and love in that will not come intil im satified with my work !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!