Disclaimer: Yeah, still not writing another one. Check the earlier chapters.

A/N: Well Brad writes a half a page and Schu feels the need to make up for him. Hope you all enjoy the next chapter.






Chapter 5: You wish that was the end…

You aren't going to write back Braddy? Does that give me full right to spill everything here and not have to worry about having it torn apart? Or have you already decided not to read everything because of how I started this? I guess here goes nothing either way…

First off the only part of you I know is the part you let me know. I only know the Brad that you allow out when we are together, which on that point is very seldom. I will always watch your back, and I am happy to know that at least you are a little at ease when you are around me. To be totally honest that surprises me, I thought you were probably even more on your guard when I am around. Maybe I should end my wishing there and just live with the knowledge that I can at least help you relax from time to time.

Now speaking of wishing, my dear Bradley, you tell me to go ahead and wish for what I want, yet you turn around and tell me not to hope for it. Don't even deny it; you may not have said it in those exact words but that is pretty much what you told me. Is that truly how you feel? That this wish won't come true? If so then maybe I should just move on with my life, I would rather not be stuck in one moment in time. I've been in that position before and I would rather not return to it. Even at that very thought I have to laugh, considering you were the one who pulled me out of that. You were the one who did save me from being stuck in a moment. It's almost ironic how it has happened again, but this time I'm stuck on you. I will give my life to save yours, and you can't change that. I wouldn't want you to ask that of me either. If you did, wouldn't that defeat the purpose of being loyal to you? I don't think I would follow someone who was asking me to die for them.

Well I'm happy to say that one statement out of everything you wrote at least made me smile. I believe you said "you would become a friend" right? I'm glad to know I hold a special place in your heart. Maybe even that paragraph is keeping me from saying some of the things I want to. Things that I know I couldn't ever say to you because they aren't true, and never will be true. I guess those past two sentences were kind of worthless when you don't know what I was thinking. Let's just end this part with; I'm happy you said what you did.

As for being powerful or not, I don't know and truly I don't care. I know my shielding is practically worthless and you are the only one helping me with that. In fact most of the time you are the only one holding me together, and the only person I can lean on. I am pretty confident in saying; no matter what you ever do to me I won't leave your side. I don't think there is a single thing that would have the power to drive me away from you. Ok I lied, there might be one thing. If anyone ever threatened you because of me, I would leave to keep you safe. Well, at least try to keep you safe. I guess I wouldn't know if that would truly help or not, but I would try anything to make sure nothing happened to you. That is one thing no one will ever be able to change about me, and that is why I want to make sure you are safe.

As far as my sanity goes, I plan on keeping that for as long as possible. Well at least keeping what I have left of it that is. I can't say whether I am sane or not, but I guess you are right that there are those out there worse off than me. I believe once again I owe that to you. I probably wouldn't still have what sanity I do if it wasn't for you. I have also come to believe that as long as you are near me, I will be able to hold on to that sanity. I also believe that sanity is one thing I will need to be useful to you, and I know that being useful is one of the key requirements for staying near you. So in turn my sanity is very important to me. I guess you can mark two things on my list of keeps: my sanity and my personality.

I don't take everything for granted, but I will admit I seem to. I know you are the only one that puts everything into keeping this team together, and keeping us on top. I know you are the one who makes sure everything is going according to plan, and that there is nothing in the way to mess it up. I do realize all this, contrary to popular belief. I just don't understand how someone can stay up that long. I was always so sure that eight hours of sleep was necessary for a body to function properly. Well I guess having said that, most of my beliefs have been proven wrong so I shouldn't be surprised that another one was. Though I do know you are special and I believe that no one could do everything you do.

I promise to go get coffee; in fact I'm about done with this so I will run to the market as soon as I end this and go get it. I don't want to deal with you without your coffee and for that matter I wouldn't be the happiest person without my caffeine either. So let's just say for the sake of the household, I will go out and get more coffee.

Well at least you think my 'confessions' are interesting. Now if I can just determine whether you believe them or not. Well look at that, I have a new goal in life, determine if Braddy believes me or not.

On that note, I think I will leave this here. It isn't that late and I am thinking that the bars will still have some cheap drinks left. I promise to come home sober; I just need alcohol in me. Did I just call this place home? Wow, maybe I feel more content around you than I even knew. I've never called somewhere home.

Well like I said cheap liquor and then back. If I do come home drunk… I have no idea, but I promise I won't. I have no reason to piss you off anymore than I already have, dear leader. Also I will bring the coffee home before I go out. Just in case you want coffee when you get back and I am not here. This would also mean that the coffee isn't here yet either and I happen to know that equation happens to equal an angry Brad. So coffee will be here when you are reading this letter.

I guess since you aren't writing back to this though it really doesn't matter does it? I don't have to worry about pissing you off to much, but I would rather avoid the situation anyways. Hope work went well and I hope you have a good night's sleep, Brad. I probably won't see you till the morning.






A/N: Well another chapter down. What do you think? Do you think Brad will write back? I guess we will all find out!