A/N: I forgot to mention this before but this is my first fanfic and I worked really hard on it and I could really used the feedback.
Olivia sat at her regular seat in the bar. She couldn't figure out how he could love someone else. She wondered if she should tell him how she felt but decided against it.
It might scare him away and I might lose him as a friend if I tell him. she thought. But I really want to tell him. I can't hide it that much longer. I love him too much to do that but if he really is happy with this girl that he has then I'll try to be happy for him.
She got off of her stool and left a $20 on the counter for the beers she had. She slowly walked to Elliot's house remembering all the times she had been there. At the same time, she tried to remember a time when she dreaded going to Elliot's house but she couldn't think of any times. Before she realized it, she was standing outside his house staring at the door.
I can always turn back and just tell him something came up. She thought. No I have to know who this person is. I have to see if she's better than me.
She walked up to the door and pushed the button for his apartment. His voice came soft but strong at the same time and Olivia wondered how he did it.
"It's me." she said, so quietly she was amazed when he rang her in. Normally she would take the stairs and walk all the way up to his apartment but decided that her legs probably wouldn't carry her that far tonight and pushed the button for the elevator. As she waited in the elevator, she imagined what the woman might look like.
She's probably blonde and in her early 30s. she thought angrily.Imagining some woman who's laugh was fake as well as other body parts
Before she knew it she was standing outside his door. She knocked softly, praying that he wouldn't hear it. But he did. Elliot opened the door in a matter of seconds. He ushered her inside and took her coat off without saying a word. As she looked around she noticed that there were candles around and dinner set on the table for two.
Oh I see how it is, he told me to come over here so he can rub it in my face. she thought. How dare he? I can't believe he would ever do something like that to me
"If you were expecting company why did you tell me to come?" Olivia said trying not to sound angry.
"Well if I didn't tell you to come then I wouldn't be expecting company now would I ?" he replied with a sly smile.
"I don't understand." said Olivia trying to figure it out.
"Liv, you're my company. You're the woman that I was saving that for." he said taking her hands in his. He was amazed by how soft they were even though she worked so much.
Olivia stood there looking at their entangled hands and then back up in his face. She saw something in his eyes that he had thought she had seen before for a moment at a time. "But you said that you loved that person."
"You're right. I did and I do. I love you Liv and when I heard how hurt and angry you sounded when you thought I was involved with someone else it killed me inside." he said cupping her face with his hands. "The last thing I want in this world is to hurt you"
"But ... but ..." Olivia tried to talk but couldn't find any words to describe what she was feeling. Instead she put her hand on the back of his head and guided it down so that their mouths could meet.
The kiss was amazing for both of them. They were both secretly waiting 8 years to do that and all the pent up sexual tension and passion was released into a single kiss. The kiss soon escalated as their hands explored the new territories. They slowly began to migrate into the bedroom and Olivia felt his erection being pushed into her thigh. She began to unbutton his shirt and he slid her pants off.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" he asked her as soon as they were both undressed. He knew better than to take advantage of Olivia Benson especially when she had been drinking.
"Yes, I do and I love you too El" she said looking deep into his eyes before kissing him yet again.
Without anymore hesitation he slid into her as she arched her back. Olivia Benson was actually making love with Elliot Stabler.
When it was all over they lied there wrapped in each other's arms. Olivia was the first one to fall asleep. Elliot however stayed awake trying to comprehend the fact that he had just made love to Olivia Benson.
I wonder if she meant it when she told me that she loved me he thought. I know that I meant it. I've loved her ever since I met her. I never did because of Kathy. I would never cheat on anyone but whenever I was with Kathy it felt like I was cheating on Olivia. But now I have her and I'm never going to let her go. He tightened his grip on her waist and fell asleep with his head buried in her hair, enjoying the smell.
The next morning, Olivia woke up and was slightly frightened when she found herself being protectively held by Elliot. Soon enough all the memories of the night before came back to her.
I wonder if he meant it when he told me that he loved me. She thought watching him sleep. I know I meant it. No matter how many drinks I had I know I meant everything I said to him last night. I can't believe Kathy could leave someone like Elliot. Now that I have him I'm never letting him go.