The whole world was new to me yet so familiar.
I recognized faces, but they didn't recognize me.
I found my mind flooded with memories.
I had to make sense of them, some were my own that I had forgotten; and some belonging to someone else... (the man from my dreams who was me yet not me)
Worst of all there was no alchemy!
I thought I had alot of problems to deal with, but I soon found someone who had it worse...
Ed, my poor brother.
I woke up one morning to the sound of hacking coughs.
It was Ed, my big brother. He seemed to have gotten a cold, & a pretty bad one at that.
He told me he was okay. (he'd had colds before & was sure he would be fine)
but I wasn't so sure...
I had hoped he would get better soon, but the coughing only got worse.
'till one day I found him on the floor hacking up blood. (like our old teacher Izumi-sensei often did)
From common-sense, (& past experiences with teacher) I knew this wasn't a good sign.
I took Ed to a doctor & found out he had gotton tuberculosis while living with Heidrick.
Memories of fevered nights & coughing flooded back to me.
It was me (or rather the other me) I had given him this disease.
Although I wasn't him anymore I couldn't help, but feel guilty for him being sick.
It was then I decided that I have to take care of him.
I cared him when he was sick in bed; putting a damp cloth on his forehead, & bringing him medicine & what food he would eat.
"why do you risk your health... to take care of me when I'm sick in bed with this nasty cough?" he asked.
"Because you gave an arm & a leg & even sacrifed yourself me" I replied. "it's the least I could do in equivelent exchange" I added.
Ed seemed amused by that, & that made me happy.
When he asked if I was worried I'd get sick, I told him about the dreams I had.
'If I could handle it in my my dreams I could handle it again"
"After all, what's brother for?" I thought.
Now I just hope... that he gets well & that if he doesn't... I get sick.
So if he goes then this time I'll go with him.
Elric brothers together forever!