Hey guys. I´m so happy that I managed to get another chapter done before I have to go to university again tomorrow. I hope that I will still be able to update at least once a weak and I promise I will do my best.

Thanks to all the people who reviewed again. Love y´all...

God, this chappy was a huge piece of work again. But I made it in the end and I hope you´ll like it. PUHLEEZE tell me if you do!!!!

And before I forget, no I still don´t own charmed or any of its characters...

So on with the story!

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Giving in

Chris just couldn´t hold it back anymore. All the emotions, the pain, the sorrow, the loneliness, the frustration, hopelessness, the despair...

Everything he didn´t want to feel... Everything he had forced back into a prison of emotionlessness somewhere deep in his heart... Everything he had bottled up over the years starting the day his mother was so brutally ripped out of his life was now fighting its´ way back to the surface.

He just couldn´t contain it anylonger. He didn´t have the power, the strength to lock it away once more.

And now it hit him full force, breaking down all the saefty walls he had struggeled to keep up in the last months. And it ripped him apart from the inside...

It just all got too much. He always had to be strong... Always had to keep it together for what was left of his family... Allways had to keep going, ignoring his own needs to keep them save...

Peace by peace he had sacrificed his own life, his own soul, never resting, never complaining, to protect them, failing miseably as one by one they were all ripped away from him.

First his mother, then Wyatt, his aunts, his grandfather, his cousins, Bianca and now...

Now he was all alone.

He was fighting for something ... never knowing if he would actually succeed. He had to spend his days around his family. They gave him a reason not to give up but also forced him to remember everyday how much loosing them had hurt . And sometimes this made giving up so much more attractive...

All that hit him at once and the burden literally got too heavy so that his legs gave in and he dropped down to his knees. Chris slung his arms around his chest somehow trying to ease the the pain which became so unbearable that it was hard to breathe.

On every normal day breaking down like that would have driven his powers over the edge because they were tied to his emotions and he probably would have caused the whole house to blow up. But there was nothing left.

He bent forward to rest his head on the cold attic floor and gave in to the overwhealming need to let it all out. And so he sat there crouched on the floor and cried and screamed silently...

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Piper jerked up from an uneasy sleep.

Something was wrong. Every cell in her body practically screamed at her that something was utterly wrong.

Even though she couldn´t quite decipher where this feeling came from and what exactly the problem was she knew it had something to do with Chris. Her hand instinctively went to her rounded belly to make sure the baby was ok. It was a little active for this time of the night but she hadn´t slept very well so that probably wasn´t too remarkable. Besides Piper didn´t feel any pain, cramps or anything of that nature so she was pretty sure the baby was ok. But that would mean...

Then her head jerked up, her eyes somehow fixed to the ceiling.

"Chris!" she gasped as the strange feeling suddenly grew more urgent.

Piper quickly got out of the bed and put on her bathrobe on the way to the door. She went out into the corridor and headed to the stairs as she felt somehow drawn to the attic.

When she arrived there she slowly opened the door and looked inside. But she couldn´t quite see anything in the dark room. Suddenly frightened she switched on the light which blinded her for a few seconds. Piper had to put a hand in front of her eyes to shield them but when the pain was gone she removed it.

After blinking a few times she took a look into the room. She gasped and her heart skipped a beat when she saw Chris kneeling on the floor shaking and sobbing helplessly. She could see pure agony on his face and more alarmingly in his eyes.

"Oh my god, Chris!"

She made her way over to him as fast as she could and got down besides him. She started rubbing his back slowly trying to calm him down.

"Hey Chris! What happened? What´s wrong?" But Chris didn´t seem to react.

So Piper tried it again, this time more urgently, " Chris, Come on! What happened? Tell me what´s wrong so I can help you. Are you hurt? Do you need healing?"

She seemed to get through to him when he turned his head a little in her direction and asked her almost whispering, "Mum?"

Pipers heart almost broke at that moment. "Yes baby, it´s me. It´s mommy. I´m here. Everything is going to be ok. But you´ve got to tell me what happened so I can help you. Chris please!"

But instead of answering he changed his position so that he could, now laying on his side, put his head in his mothers lap. He was still hugging his chest and was now in some kind of foetal position as he closed his eyes. Piper had started caressing his hair and face trying to give her son some much needed comfort.

She had never seen him like that. He was always so strong and always thinking he had to protect them. At any cost. Only lately had he been able to show more affection, since he had spoken to his grandfather. But never could she have imagined him in such a state. So completely broken...

Then he spoke, his voice frail, "I vanquished him"

Piper frowned in confusion. " Who did you vanquish, baby?"

"The deamon that killed you..." Another tear rolled down his face.

Piper felt like she´d just been slapped in the face. "Oh my god, Chris! You did what?... Are you ok? Are you hurt? Do you want me to call your father?" Normally Piper avoided calling Leo for help because she didn´t want him to find out about the pregnancy but non of this mattered right now. If Chris was hurt she´d call him instantly. She could deal with the consequences later.

But Chris shook his head. "Can we just stay here a little? Like this? I´m tired mom. Please don´t go away..."

Piper looked down at him worried. Normally she would have gone in mother hen mode and made sure he was really ok. But she couldn´t see any bruises or injuries and he seemed so desperate and emotionally exhausted that she gave in. "Ok sweety. But just a little and then we´ll get you to my bed so you can sleep. We can talk about everything later. You´ve got a lot of explaing to do. Just rest a little now."

In any other case she would have pushed him to talk about it now, but she knew he would´t let himself go like that if they were in any imminent danger. So she allowed him to rest right now trying to give him as much comfort as she could while her mind was spinning around what might have happened to her son.

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Paige woke up and didn´t really know why. She was anxious about something, but what? She hadn´t slept very well anyway so she decided to trust her instincts which had only rarely failed her so far and have a look around the house.

Paige left her room and made her way down the corridor. When she came past Wyatts room she opened the door to have a quick look inside just to be on the safe side. Paige knew that Piper had the babyphone in her bedroom and that her sister probably would have called her if something was wrong, but you never know. That feling had to come from somewhere...

She was a little surprised when she switched on the light and was met with two baby blue and very awake eyes because Wyatt was sitting upright in his bed reaching up to her with his arms. So she picked him up and rested him on her left hip.

"Hey what´s up little man? Can´t sleep either? Seems to be a common desease these days..."

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Piper and Chris had been up in the attic fo a while now. He had calmed down in his mothers arms resting his head on her lap and seemed to be asleep.

After a few more minutes Piper decided it would be time to wake him up now and get him into a decent bed where he could sleep properly. So she slightly rubbed his back.

"Chris? Come on baby. Wake up, it´s time to go to my bedroom now."

But he didn´t react.

"Chris! I know you are tired but I also know you are cold, because you are shivering and my bed will be so much more comfortable to sleep in... You don´t need to worry. I´m not going to leave you. I´ll stay with you all night sleeping right by your side."

When he still didn´t react she got worried. She took a closer look at him and got scared when she registered that his breathing was a lot more shallow than it should have been. She started shaking him.

"Chris! Chris come on. It´s time to wake up now... Oh god Chris! ...Chris!!!"

She started panicking now. She got her legs out from underneeth him and gently put his head on the floor. Then she moved around to his side and slowly rolled him onto his back. Piper leaned over her son, resting her body on her right hand and caressed Chris face with the left, calling his name again.

But there was still no reaction. Suddenly she found it hard to breathe, fear cursing through her entire body. Piper started gently slapping Chris´ face to get him to wake up.

This finally seemed to have an effect on him because he abruptly opened his eyes and looked around the room unfocused. Piper grabed his hand and held it close to her heart.

"Chris? Oh thank god, you´re awake...Chris please tell me what is wrong! Are you in pain? Does it hurt somewhere?"

But again he didn´t answer her question. He just looked at her his his eyes finally finding hers and whispered, "Mum, I love you... Please take care... of Wyatt ...for me..."

His breathing had grown more laboured while he tried to speak, and then suddenly...

...it stopped. His whole body went limp and his head fell to the side releasing one last tear from his eyes.

At first Piper couldn´t understand what had just happened. But when she finally registered that her son had died she started crying, "Chris! No, that´s not possible. It is not possible. You can´t be... LEO!!!! LEO!!!!"

Piper started hitting Chris chest with her fists to wake him up, but when nothing happened she collapsed on his upper body sobbing. What Piper couldn´t see was that Chris´ t-shirt had rode up a few centimetres now revealing a little bit of his stomach. She also couldn´t see the dark bruises that were all over it.

With the last bit of power she got up again and screamed, "LEO!!!!!!!!!"

Suddenly Phoebe sat up in her bed, panting and sweating as if she just would have run a marathon.

She instantly knew that what she had just seen wasn´t just a bad dream. It was a premonition and she felt that she didn´t have much time before it would become reality. She jumped out of bed and started running in her pyjamas out of the room in the direction of the attic...

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Paige just wanted to leave Wyatts bedroom when she heard Phoebe scream "LEO!!!!", and saw her running past the room. "Phoebe what..." But she didn´t have time to finish that question as her sister was already running up the stairs.

Paige knew that something horrible must have happened so she figured leaving Wyatt alone now wouldn´t be the best decision. She picked the toddler up again and followed her sister.

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Piper and Chris had been up in the attic fo a while now. He had calmed down in his mothers arms resting his head on her lap and seemed to be asleep.

After a few more minutes Piper decided it would be time to wake him up now and get him into a decent bed where he could sleep properly. So she slightly rubbed his back.

She just wanted to speak to him when suddenly Phoebe came running into the room and kneeled down next to Chris. She put her arms around his shoulders and carefully rolled him onto his back. Then she turned to the ceiling and screamed again "LEO!!!... LEO!!!... For heavens sake get down here right now!!!!!"

Phoebe turned back to Chris and tried to wake him up by touching his pale face and calling his name repeatedly. "Chris?... Chris! Can you hear me?...Chris!!"

But Chris didn´t move and Phoebe knew that he was already unconscious. Piper was confused and alarmed by her sisters actions at the same time. She wanted to ask her what was wrong with her son when Phoebe bent down to Chris waist and pulled his t-shirt up.

The moment Piper saw all the dark bruises spread across Chris´ stomach and chest she knew that he was in serious danger. That his life was in danger. Phoebe and Piper looked at each other for a second, panic showing in both their eyes before theiy both started desperately calling for Leo again.

Paige chose that exact moment to enter the attic. When she saw Chris on the floor and her sisters by his side screaming and shouting for Leo to come she knew that Chris must be seriously injured. Then she saw his stomach and chest and instinctivly pulled Wyatt closer and held his head by her shoulder so that he wouldn´t have to see the scene laid out in front of them.

She started panicking like her sisters and joined them in their attempt to get Leo down to earth to help Chris.

They were all crying by now.

"LEO!!!!!!!!!!"

I´m so mean, I know. But the more you review the more encouraged and inspired I will be to update...muahahahahahahaha...