Title:Razor Candies
Rating:M
Author:Freeing Alys
Summary:It's funny how much a person can change in two years. Liley. Rated for self-hatred, self-mutliation, eating disorders, and lots of other stuff I may not be sure of.
Disclaimer:I DO NOT own Hannah Montana or anything/one affliated with it. That all belongs to Disney.
Author's Note: Thank you for the reviews!

7. Fixed

On Tuesday I walk into Mrs. Avery's office instead of going to second period. I don't think I could wait another second to talk to her. "Miley…are you okay?" She asks as soon as I sit in front of her.

I shrug my shoulders and set my backpack on the floor next to me. "I really don't know." I say unsure of how to express my feelings. I felt sick waking up in the morning and my first thought was that I wanted to talk to Mrs. Avery.

"What do you want to talk about?" Mrs Avery asks, situating herself in her chair. I glance at her and notice how young she really is, I hadn't noticed it the day before. She only looks like she's thirty, and she has long blonde hair and chestnut eyes. She looks so happy and normal, completely unlike me.

"My dad." I say simply remembering the night before.

"What about him?" Mrs. Avery asks me and I stare at the ground before glancing back up at her.

"I want to tell him. About it." I tell her and she smiles at me and nods her head.

"That is great Miley! That takes a lot of guts to do." Mrs. Avery jots down some notes and tehn glances back up at me. "What do you want me to help with?"

I feel tears spring to my eyes as I picture myself telling Dad and what he'll say and do. It'll hurt him more then anything in the world. "Just…how to say it." I say and Mrs. Avery nods her head knowingly.

"That's completely understandable Miley…" She says and then she plunges into topic starters and ways that I can tell him and what I can do.

When she is done telling me everything, she hands me a card with her name and number on it and we agree that I'll tell him that night. I smile at her, grateful for her help and walk towards the door. The one and only thing that could make me feel even better would to have Lily be right there when I tell him.

HMHMHMHMHMHM

"Miley!" I shut my locket and then glance over my side and see Lily running at me, her long blonde hair wiping out behind her.

"Hey, Lily." I greet her and then smile. It feels good to see her, she is just the person I needed to be around. "I have to ask you something." I say as we make our way out of the school building in into the direction of my house.

"Yeah, sure." She says and I nod my head.

"Okay." I close my eyes, and take a breath. "I want to tell my dad…about it, and I need your help." I say and Lily nods her head, sadness rushing into her eyes.

"Sure, of course." We are alone on the street, so she takes my hand and squeezes it tightly. "I'm here." She mumbles and I smile at her, Lily has to be the best thing to ever happen to me.

"Thank you so much." I say and then we make our way towards my house, slowly but quickly all at the same time.

We reach my large house and we stare at it, I'm too scared to move and I don't know what to do. "Just remember what Mrs. Avery said." Lily reminds me. I glance at Lily and nod. During the walk home I had filled her in on the conversation that me and Mrs. Avery had, just so that Lily would know what was going to happen.

"I'm scared." Unwillingly tears rush to my eyes and Lily nods her head.

"Of course, he'll love you." She reminds me and I nod my ehad.

"Let's go." I let go of Lily's hand and make my way towards the front door, my heart beating heavily against my chest.

"You're going to do great." Lily whispers in my ear as we reach the living room in my house.

Dad is sitting on the couch, the daily newspaper in his hands. "Dad." I clear my throat and as Dad turns towards us and smiles I feel faint.

"Mile! Lily, how are you girls?" He asks and I glance over at Lily who smiles at me.

"Dad, I have to talk to you." I say and I step closer to him, hating that I have to tell him. But I know that I have to.

"What is it Bud?" He asks and I sit down next to him, pulling my long sleeved shirt over my thumbs.

I glance at Lily and then at Dad and I try not to cry as I try to form the words. "I know you've been worried…" I start unsure of how I should phrase what I am going to say. Tears springs to my eyes as I think about it, trying to place it somewhere.

"What?" He asks and he takes my hand and I realize then that he does love me. No matter what.

"I…hurt…my….self." I say the words coming out slow and long. I glance at Dad and he is looking at me with sad eyes and I start to cry. "I'm sorry Daddy." I say and he quickly hugs me.

"Mile, it's okay." I think back to Mrs. Avery and I realize that she right and I feel happy that she told me how to tell him.

"I've being seeing someone at school, she is helping me." I saw and Dad lets me out of the hug and nods, tears forming in his own years.

"Okay Bud. You need anything?" Dad asks me and I shake my head.

"Just you." I say and he nods his head.

"I'm here. And so is Lily?" Dad glances at Lily who nods her head, tears in her own eyes. "Good. You girls go upstairs." He says quickly and I know that he needs time alone.

I nod at Dad, leap off the couch and start for the stairs, feeling Lily following me.

HMHMHMHMHM

"You did it." Me and Lily are sprawled out on my bed, and I'm still shaking form the conversation with Dad.

"I know." I say and I glance at Lily who is staring at me with her eyebrows furrowed. "What?" I ask and she shrugs her shoulders.

"I was just wondering if that was your only time." She says nodding at my wrist.

I glance down at my wrist and realize that it is exposed again. I quickly cover it and shake my head. "No." I mumble and Lily sits up in my bed.

"Where?" She mumbles and I shrug, the conversation not being the one I want to have.

"No…" I say and I stand off my bed and walk to the corner of my room, trying to feel safe somewhere.

Lily walks over to me and touches my wrist lightly. "I just want to know why my perfect Miley would do that." She says and I shrug my shoulders, unable to answer the question.

"It just happened." I say and Lily nods her head.

"I understand." She says and then walks back over to my bed and sits down.

My heart swells as I realize that Lily has always been there for me and she has always backed me up, there isn't anything more I could ever ask for. In that moment I realized that I love Lily and I wanted her to know everything. "I love you." I whisper and Lily glances up at me, her eyes wide.

"Huh?" She says meekly and I laugh and then walk over to her.

"I love you." I kiss her as I sit next to her and I taste her lips, loving the salty taste.

"Me to." She mumbles as I pull away for air.

I smile at her, kiss her again and slid my tongue into her mouth. She groans and touches my stomach with her fingers. I fall down onto my bed with my eyes squeezed shut and Lily runs her fingers under my shirt, along my bare stomach. Her fingers come along the cut and she opens her eyes and she peers down at it. "God, Miley." She mumbles and I feel like crying, but I don't.

"I know." I say and Lily touches it lightly with her index finger.

"I wish I could take that pain away from you." She says and I nod my head, I wish that to.

"It's going to be okay." I promise Lily and then I kiss her again, harder this time, as to get the message across. I'm getting fixed, a little bit each day.